wandering canoe

4.

The following days seemed to be no different from the previous ones.

When meeting Liben, Liben still nodded to him politely, with a calm face, indifferent and elegant.

And Izumi is still so shiny - if that guy Matsumoto is not there.

But Watanabe seems to feel that he has become a little nervous, he will unconsciously search for the traces of Liben, and quietly go to places where Liben often goes like a perverted stalker.

"This is wrong." Watanabe hid in the corner of the library, looked at the man who was flipping through the materials, and said to himself in a panic: "I shouldn't stay here!"

As if he had woken up, he stumbled out of the library.

***

"Izumi, I like you very much. If I can have sex with someone as handsome as Izumi, I will definitely be able to keep the original mood!" Watanabe rushed into Terashima's house, facing Terashima who was eating Japanese sweets pleaded.

He was kneeling upright, with his hands folded on his thighs, and his head hanging down, begging so humblely.

"Jing, what's wrong with you." Terashima was a little frightened, but quickly calmed down, and rubbed Watabe's hair with some depression: "Why did you suddenly make such a request?"

"Please promise me." Watanabe said loudly, his voice trembling slightly.

"That's not the problem..." Terashima scratched the hair at the back of his head with some trouble, put down his chopsticks, reached out and took a snack and handed it to Watanabe.

"Let's eat this dim sum. It's matcha-flavored. Japanese-style dim sum is indeed the most delicious matcha." Terashima said, "After eating, let's talk about it."

Watanabe blankly picked up the piece of dim sum and put it into his mouth, chewing it mechanically. The dim sum was delicious, it must have been brought to Terashima by that fellow Matsumoto from the dim sum workshop he opened at home.

"Jing, what kind of mood do you have for me?" Terashima watched Watabe swallow the last bite of snacks, and raised his hand to pour a cup of tea for Watabe.

The scent of tea floated in the room along with the white hot air.

"I...I like Izumi very much." Watanabe held the teacup in both hands, a little nervous: "This feeling...I don't know how many years it has been...I...I have had this kind of love for Izumi since I was a child... Feeling……"

Looking at the inexplicably pitiful man in front of him, Terashima shook his head helplessly.

"I've known Jing for so many years, in fact, Jing doesn't like me as much as you said."

Watanabe raised his head abruptly, looking at Terashima in disbelief.

"I..." He put the teacup on the table a little excitedly, the water in the cup overflowed and burned his hands red, but he didn't care, he just felt great for being denied what he had always insisted on Angry and flustered.

"Although Jing has always hated Senior Matsumoto's closeness to me, he has never done anything bad to Senior Matsumoto."

"Jing will not curse girls who like me, but he will curse girls who like Xun."

After Terashima finished speaking, he suddenly got close to Watabe, reached out and lifted Watabe's chin, and kissed Watabe's lips.

Terashima's chestnut hair, deep eyes, high nose bridge, pink lips - even the charming breath is close at hand...

Watanabe stared wide-eyed at the approaching distance, and suddenly turned his head away, missing Terashima's kiss.

The corners of Terashima's mouth turned up slightly, looking at Watanabe who was breathing heavily and seemed to be suppressing his uncomfortable emotions, he said softly, "Look, you can't even accept my kiss."

***

It sucks.

Watanabe panted quickly, and the complex emotions in his chest were constantly surging, as if they were about to rush out.

He turned his head abruptly, stretched out his hand to hug Terashima's head, made up his mind, and kissed those pink lips——

"no……"

At the last second, when Watanabe was about to kiss that lip, he staggered his head again.

"Hey... Jing, actually, you were with Xun when you were in middle school, right?" Terashima smiled and rubbed that sluggish head.

"Do you know, you were sick once, and the name you called during the illness was not my name." Terashima said, "It's Xun's name."

Tears dripped from Watanabe's eyes.

He clenched his teeth tightly, trying to restrain his urge to cry.

"Actually, you like to smoke."

When Watanabe heard this as a conclusion, he suddenly felt that he was the stupidest fool in the world.

"I... what I like is... Xun..." Repeating Terashima's words like this, I feel that every word has a fragrant taste, spit out from the tip of the tongue, and the sweet and sour feeling spreads to the heart.

5.

If you deny the belief you have always insisted on, everything you do after that will be meaningless.

Watanabe is in this chaotic situation right now.

In Watanabe's 20 years of life, Rika has always appeared as a "fascinating", "bad personality" and "smart mind".

Quan, on the other hand, is just a simple label, with simple words such as "the person I like" and "the person who matches me".

Suddenly, when I found someone I really liked, it was the time when I was stupid and cut off the meager contact with him.

From the very beginning, I was wrong.

When I first saw Limoto who transferred from another school in kindergarten, I should have known that I liked Limoto and not Izumi... Otherwise, how could I have obediently slept in Limoto's bed when I was in junior high...

"I'm an idiot..." Watanabe sobbed while holding his head.

"I'm the biggest, biggest idiot in the world..."

Terashima breathed a sigh of relief, and stretched out his hand to rub Watanabe's hair: "If you know your true feelings, work hard for it."

Quan didn't know the stupid things he did before coming here.

Watanabe thought so pitifully, and reached out to grab the mobile phone, only to find that even if he got through to Liben, he couldn't tell Liben how he felt like a deranged person.

"Have a good sleep." Terashima said, "Then talk to Xun."

"Although Xun has always been a cold person, he seems to have great patience with Jing."

When Watanabe heard this sentence, it was like a dying person seeing a ray of hope. He raised his head and stared at Terashima: "Is that so...Xun, do you have great patience with me..."

"Yeah." Terashima smiled and said, "I think...it's like this."

"Um……"

***

For Limoto, the most important thing in the world is research and reading.

As for the entanglement of love and love, as far as he is concerned, it is just a dispensable adjustment in life.

Watanabe has excellent physical condition, he is easy to bully when he is silly, and he looks cute when he cries.

But so what?

The world has never been impossible without someone.

Although it's a pity that I can't have sex with Watanabe, Liben has never been a person who is willing to force others.

Controlling one's own desires is a great science, if one can't even control the desires of one's lower body, one will definitely go crazy, Liben thought so.

***

Another seminar came as scheduled. Limoto left school and went for a whole month. Watanabe, during this long month, felt as if his heart was rolling in boiling oil, and he could not be at peace every moment.

When seeing Liben's figure reappeared on the campus, Watanabe felt that the sky cleared up in an instant.

"Xun!" Watanabe shouted loudly.

Rika turned her head when she heard the sound, looked at Watanabe with a calm expression, and nodded slightly at him: "Long time no see, you've been fine recently."

Just like greeting others - polite and calm.

"Xun...I...I have something I want to tell you." Watanabe finished the sentence in a tangled state, and then looked at Liben expectantly.

Li Ben pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and said with a smile, "Would you like a drink? I haven't had a drink in a month, and I miss Mrs. Ueno's dim sum very much!"

"It's all... all good..." Watanabe looked at Limoto as if he hadn't been affected by the previous incident at all, and felt a little lucky and a little depressed.

6.

The izakaya of Mrs. Ueno's house is not big, but the interior decoration is exquisite and warm.

Rika ordered fried wings and small shrimps, grilled pork chops and beer, and said to Watanabe with a smile: "Mrs.

next time.

Watanabe looked at Rika who looked like a normal person, and suddenly felt a little timid, and suddenly dared not reveal what was in his heart.

"Xun..." Watanabe called softly.

"What's wrong?" Li Ben tapped the table lightly with his knuckles, and a slight sound echoed in the small room.

"I... I... I think... I will only be with you in the future..."

"Ding~~~~~~~" Liben's cell phone rang suddenly, interrupting Watanabe's confession that he had finally plucked up the courage to say.

"Sorry." Rika Watanabe smiled and answered the phone.

The person on the phone seemed to be very familiar with Liben, and after only a few back and forth, Liben smiled and asked him to come to Mrs. Ueno's izakaya.

Not long after, a man in a suit walked into the room.

Wearing elegant gold-rimmed glasses and combing his hair back, he looks capable and neat, but——

There is a very familiar feeling.

"Yasu Kitamura, our elementary school classmate, remember?" Li Ben introduced with a smile.

"Beimura?" Watanabe stared wide-eyed, looking at the man full of elite temperament in front of him, feeling a little dazed - "Is it that Beicun who we regard as a beautiful girl?"

Li Ben smiled slightly and nodded casually.

The face of Beicun's elite was cracked, and he patted Li Ben unhappily: "Don't laugh."

"Have you... been in touch all this time?"

"Ah, I changed schools when I was in middle school. Before I left, I went to this guy's house to ask for his contact information." Kitamura propped up the tatami with both hands, and leaned his body against Narumoto, looking very relaxed.

Kitamura's little finger scratched Limoto's palm slightly—Watanabe saw it so clearly, his heart tightened suddenly, and his fingers were tightly clasped in the palm of his hand.

What is their relationship...

Watanabe felt that his mind was a little unclear, he stood up abruptly and said, "Sorry, I'll go and make it easier."

Then he walked out of the room, only a flashlight was shining in the corridor, Watanabe saw the boy who worked in the izakaya was unscrewing the light bulb, he closed the door, and stood quietly in the dark corridor.

He heard Kitamura's voice——

"I miss you so much, Xun."

"Aren't they all married?" Li Ben's voice was calm, even a little indifferent

"Even if we are married, can't we be together...and...I heard Mrs. Limoto said that she wanted you to be with Ms. Sato...so I married her on purpose..."

"We've never been together." Liben said, "Miss Dianzi is a very gentle woman, I hope you can treat her well."

"You know I've always only liked you..." Beicun's voice was full of pleading.

"I'm not the reason for you to marry Miss Dianzi." Li Ben laughed lightly: "Luqing Co., Ltd., you should have been promoted not long ago."

"I……"

"That's enough, don't make me hate you more." Li Ben's voice suddenly became cold: "We have already said that we will get together and leave."

Kitamura's voice fell silent, and the sound of beer being opened came from the door.

Standing outside the door, Watanabe suddenly had never realized so clearly what kind of person Kaoru Rikamoto was——

He is indifferent, he never procrastinates, and his ability to control himself is beyond the imagination of ordinary people...

Will this kind of Xun give me a chance...