look at the dawn

Song Wang took Jiang Jili back to his residence. The house was not very big but it was well-equipped. After Song Wang brought him back, he ran into the kitchen to pour water. Jiang Jili didn't care and wandered around by himself. .Song Wang has a slight obsession with cleanliness, and Jiang Jili knew about it when he was in high school, so he was not surprised to see a house that was tidied up.

Jiang Jili turned around and was attracted by a wall of photos in the living room. There are not many photos, but there are more than [-] photos, which are hung in a certain order. They are basically landscape photos, only a few Song Wang's personal photos or group photos with others.

"This is a photo I took when I was studying in Denmark. I like to run around when my studies are not tight." Song Wang came over at some point and explained while standing behind Jiang Jili.

Jiang Jili turned around, took the water he handed over, continued to turn around and looked at the photos on the wall, pointed to one of them and asked, "Is this your friend?"

He pointed to a tall, handsome Asian man.

"No, it's just a backpacker from Lu Yu. He forced me to take this photo." Song Wang mentioned that this person was in a better mood, and there was a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Of course Jiang Jili saw it too, and his mood immediately became bad, but he couldn't show his displeasure now, so he could only pretend not to care and said, "If you don't have anything to do, you just take people to take pictures, and you can't be a serious person at first sight."

Although Jiang Jili didn't say it clearly, Song Wang could still hear what he meant: "He is a Chinese. That time he traveled westward with gay people around the world. I went to Amsterdam that day and saw him in a church. Seeing that the two of them were having a wedding, I joined in the fun for a while, and then they knew that I was also Chinese, so they dragged me to chat for a long time, and each dragged me to take a photo before leaving," he said, pointing to the side Another person on that photo, "This is his lover."

Although Song Wang resolved the misunderstanding, Jiang Jili's mood was not much better, and the atmosphere was even more embarrassing than before.He also felt it, and didn't continue talking afterwards, and quickly changed the subject: "Sit down first."

Jiang Jili nodded, strode to the living room and sat down on the sofa.Song Wang also came over, but instead of sitting with him, he sat on the single sofa on the other side.

Jiang Jili lowered his head and remained silent. Song Wang didn't speak when he saw this. After a while, Jiang Jili slowly said, "Song Song."

Song Wang's heart skipped a beat. Since they broke up, no one called him that. His family called him Xiaowang, and his friends called him by name and surname. Only he could call himself Song Song. At that time, Jiang Ji Li said: "I'm your boyfriend, how can I be called the same as others." In order to show his specialness, Jiang Ji Li originally wanted to ask him to look at him, but he beat him up for calling him like a dog. After a pause, I had to change it to Song Song. This time Song Wang didn't object, so Jiang Jili kept calling for three years until they broke up after graduating from the college entrance examination...

Jiang Jili didn't wait for his response and continued: "We agreed before the college entrance examination that we would fill in the application form and volunteer for the same university. It would be best if we could go to the north and stay away from home. You learn design and I learn law.

You know, I was really happy during that time, I thought about what it would be like when we went to college every day, I thought we would go to the library together, go to the cafeteria together, we would do everything together, I I have already decided that we will rent a house off-campus in our sophomore year so that we can spend more time together. I even thought about how our home will be decorated.

You like green so I think the walls should be painted pale green and the curtains in our bedroom grass green.You like to sit on the ground and read a book, so you must lay a thick plush carpet, and then you lie on the ground and read a book, and I will watch you next to you.You also like small animals. We can also buy a puppy or a kitten. The law major has a lot of homework. When I go to class, you will not be too lonely with him.

There are many more, but before I can think of them all, you tell me that you want to break up with me.Do you know that the day before I was chatting with you on the phone and fantasizing about a better life in the future, but the next day I received a text message saying that I wanted to break up. I thought you might be joking with me, so I called you , but you turned off the phone, I called you hundreds of times, no matter when I called, the only response to me was always a cold female voice saying that the number you dialed was turned off, and when I called again later, she said that the number you dialed was an empty number .I went to your house to look for you, but there was no one in your house, you seemed to have evaporated, if it wasn't for your mobile phone and you still had your photos, I would suspect that the three years I was with you were just a dream of mine. "

The tone of Jiang Jili's words was calm, but Song Wang felt palpitations. Until now, this is a pain he can't forget. No one can understand how much he loved Jiang Jili back then, except himself.

Jiang Jili continued: "In those few days, I searched for you like crazy in every corner of the city. I searched for you for half a month, but I couldn't find anything. Later, my parents wanted to send me abroad to study medicine. I thought maybe I could Change the mood and agree.

After I came to the United States, I studied and worked desperately, and I didn’t let myself be free, and I wouldn’t think of you if I didn’t have time.I thought I would never see you again in my life until I saw you again in the hospital the other day, do you know what I was thinking then?When I saw you, I was pleasantly surprised. I really wanted to rush up and hold you in my arms. "Jiang Jili stopped here to take a sip of water, and then looked up at Song Wang, "Song Song, even if you don't feel anything about me now, and you don't miss everything we did before, I won't blame you. But I want to know what I did wrong, you broke up with me without giving me a reason, please tell me the reason for breaking up. "

Song Wang tried his best not to let himself cry. He also wanted to know the reason for the breakup, and why the only result for the two of them was to forget each other.

That day he had a video chat with Jiang Jili as usual, talking about his future life in college, the more he talked, the more excited he became, until the two hung up the phone, Song Wang still hadn't calmed down his excitement, but at this moment his parents He broke in suddenly, snatched his mobile phone without saying a word, and cursed at him.He didn't know what was going on at all until he heard his parents scold him for liking boys, disgusting words, etc. He didn't know that they knew about himself and Jiang Jili.

However, he is also a newborn calf and is not afraid of tigers. He knows it when he thinks about it, and he just came out of the closet. He confessed that he only likes boys and only Jiang Jili. No matter how much they beat and scold, they can't change this fact.

As soon as these words were said, it was obvious that Song Wang's parents were intellectuals, and they couldn't do such things as beating their children. They just locked Song Wang in their room, confiscated his mobile phone, and cut off the family's communication network. The Internet prevented him from contacting Jiang Jili.

Song Wang hadn’t figured out how to escape from home, but the next day he was taken to his grandparents’ house in the north by his parents. His parents asked for a month’s leave and took turns guarding him at home. Later, thinking about it, it’s not the way to do this all the time. So I made my own claim and threw him abroad. At that time, Song Wang’s aunt was sent by the company to work in Denmark for three years, and she sent him to Denmark because she wanted a relative to take care of her.

After leaving the control of his parents, Song Wang contacted Jiang Jili immediately, but at that time Jiang Jili had changed his mobile phone number, and all other contact methods were invalidated, Song Wang could no longer contact him.

Maybe the two of them were really destined to each other, Song Wang smiled wryly and deleted the mobile phone number that had been engraved in his address book.

Like Jiang Jili, he also thought that they would never meet again, but God made a joke and let them meet again. Now, the man sat next to him and asked him the reason for breaking up, what should he do? Say, what can he say.

Said that I didn't want to break up at the beginning, and the text message was not sent by myself, but by my parents?What's the use of explaining, it can't change anything, so Song Wang chose to remain silent.

Jiang Jili also expected that he would not say anything, but he was still disappointed after seeing his reaction.

"It's getting late, I'm leaving first." Jiang Jili stood up.

Song Wang settled his thoughts, stood up and sent him to the door, his throat was choked up and he couldn't speak.

Jiang Jili stood behind the door, ready to open the door, but when he put his hand on the handle, he stopped again. After hesitating for a while, he put down his hand, turned around suddenly, and pulled Song Wang over to lean against the wall. Before he had time to react, Jiang Jili's kiss came down like a storm.

Jiang Jili's kiss was fierce and eager, Song Wang felt his lips hurt from being bitten, and couldn't help opening his mouth to breathe out the pain, but Jiang Jili drove straight into his mouth, Licking at every corner of his mouth for a while, finally hooked his tongue and entangled wantonly.It had been a long time since he had experienced such an intense kiss, and Song Wang quickly softened his body. In order not to let himself slip, he could only wrap his arms around his waist.Feeling his response, Jiang Jili slowed down and became gentle.Song Wang knew it shouldn't be like this, but he couldn't resist at all, so he could only close his eyes and feel the nostalgic kiss.

After a long time, Jiang Jili finally let go of him. Song Wang leaned against the wall and gasped for breath. Jiang Jili pressed against his forehead, looked into his eyes and said, "Whether it was now or in the future, I love you, and I will only love you." I love you alone." After speaking, she placed a kiss on his forehead.

The tone of the speech was too gentle and serious, Song Wang's heart was pounding, and he didn't dare to look at him at all.

Fortunately, Jiang Jili left after saying this. Song Wang looked at the closed door again, his heart was suddenly empty, he squatted on the ground and leaned against the wall in a daze for a while, and then touched the kissed mouth again. Some red and swollen lips, although I don't want to admit it, but I am really happy in my heart.

He still loves Jiang Jili, even more than before. In the past few years, he has been thinking about him and missing him all the time.Seeing Jiang Jili's countless actions that obviously wanted to get back together, he really almost impulsively decided to agree to him without considering the consequences.But when he thought of his parents, he hesitated. He was no longer a child. Back then, he was young and frivolous and had no scruples. He could swear that he wanted to be with him, even if everyone objected.But now he can't do it, he can't just think for himself, he still has his parents and a family behind him, he can't be selfish.

The two homosexuals I met in Denmark at the beginning actually resolutely left the family after their parents objected and traveled around the world. When they got married in the Danish church, apart from the two of them and their godfather, only Song Wang was watching their wedding. up.

Song Wang also asked them if they left their hometowns and could not return home, even if their love was not blessed by others, did they not regret it?The two people clasped their fingers and looked at each other and smiled: "If you don't have one, you won't regret it, only if it's worth it, having him is home."

To be honest, Song Wang admired the two of them very much, even envied them for their freedom and chic, which Song Wang would never be able to do.

Song Wang is a typical Cancer, sensitive, sensual, and family-friendly.If he really abandoned his family just to be with Jiang Jili, he might live in self-blame for the rest of his life.

So even if he really loves Jiang Jili very much, he can only bear it and not show it. As for what will happen in the future, he can only take one step at a time.