The world's most important first love

Cheng Jinzhi squatted at the base of the wall, biting his nails for a long time, but did not wait for Rong Si's reply.Could it be that Rong Si didn't see it?Or see the default?That's too heartless, why don't you have to reply to her?After typing these words, Cheng Jinzhi's eyes became sour.After watching it twice, my eyes became more sour.Cheng Jinzhi was about to cry.It seemed that she had been abandoned by Rong Si, obviously she and Rong Si proposed to break up.But Rong Si did what she did yesterday, didn't she just want to break up with her?She never told herself to be calm.To be calm is not to think that she is annoying, or that she is noisy.I expected to break up thousands of times, but I still typed three words spinelessly in the message box. "are u there?"

Cheng Jinzhi didn't send it out, but when he saw the words in the message box, he had another moment of impulse.Why is there no recall function for text messages?She regrets it.Everything she said was false.It's all angry words.Cheng Jinzhi deleted these three words, and typed the other three words spinelessly. "Made a mistake."

Cheng Jinzhi felt that he could say "not himself".

Rong Si still didn't reply to her message.

"Cheng, are you uncomfortable?" Seeing Cheng Jinzhi squatting against the wall, Olivia also squatted down with Cheng Jinzhi.

Cheng Jinzhi shook his head, being greeted by others, Cheng Jinzhi's heart began to ache.She must hold back and not cry in the background.There are many people here.

"Are you chatting with Rong Si?" Olivia asked cautiously.

"She ignored me." After a while, Cheng Jinzhi spoke.

Olivia carefully hugged Cheng Jinzhi, and she raised her hand to gently stroke Cheng Jinzhi's long hair. "She is too much, how can she be willing to ignore you."

"She said it before, and I still talked about breaking up. She is angry with me." Cheng Jinzhi rubbed his eyes. "No, I'm going to go back and have a look. In case she doesn't see the text message, I can delete what I just sent."

"Yes, it's going to be deleted. Just do it." Cheng Jinzhi said.

"Jinzhi." Olivia hugged Cheng Jinzhi's head. "But if she sees it."

Hearing the word "break up", Olivia's ears were sharp.She had dreamed before that Cheng Jinzhi and Rong Si broke up and woke up with a smile.Cheng Jinzhi also asked her what kind of dream she had.Olivia felt a little guilty.

"She saw... is she going to break up with me?"

"What did she say yesterday?"

"She said to calm down."

"Maybe it's not a breakup, she just wants to calm down." Seeing Cheng Jinzhi so sad, Olivia couldn't bear it.While I couldn't bear it, I thought of the Hua case.Hua An caressed her cheek. "You can't catch up with Cheng Jinzhi like this."

"Then should I listen to her?" Cheng Jinzhi said: "But how can I calm down, I like her so much, I can't calm down."

Olivia didn't speak, she hugged Cheng Jinzhi tightly.

"Forget it, post it all. Let fate."

Just after he finished resigning himself to fate, within an hour, Cheng Jinzhi called Rong Si.After connecting, Cheng Jinzhi didn't know what to say, and Rong Si didn't say anything either.The two listened to each other's even breathing.

"Have you had dinner yet?" After 2 minutes of connecting, it was still Rong Si who spoke.

"I ate, what about you?"

"Yeah." Rong Si didn't eat.Not only this meal, but the last meal, and the last meal, she didn't eat.Rong Si knew that she couldn't do this, and wanted to eat something, but received a text message from Cheng Jinzhi.She was so angry that she couldn't eat any more. "Are you going to practice tonight?"

Hearing Rong Si's question about her daily life, Cheng Jinzhi felt that she was comforted. "Hmm. Can I call you after the training is over?"

"Jinzhi." Rong Si paused for a while before calling out Cheng Jinzhi's name. "When I said calm down, I didn't mean calm down for a day."

"Then I'll call you tomorrow."

Rong Si didn't speak.

"Can't you do it tomorrow?" Cheng Jinzhi's heart tightened again, holding the phone with both hands.

Cheng Jinzhi's voice was pleading, but Rong Si still didn't speak. "Rong Si, do you want to break up with me?"

"I don't want to break up with you. I just think about it, and when I think about it, I'll come to you."

"It's not fair." Cheng Jinzhi never thought that the quarrel with Rong Si would turn out like this.If she knew, she wouldn't have quarreled with Rong Si.

Cheng Jinzhi lowered his eyelids. "I have so many bad things. When you calm down, you will find out."

You will not want me.

"When will you come back? I'll pick you up then." Rong Si said.

"Yeah. We're done at the end of the month."

"Ok."

A cold war with Cheng Jinzhi is self-torture.Rong Si propped her forehead, and looked at Cheng Jinzhi on the phone screen.Sometimes, I really don't know what to do with this person.Although she kept telling herself that to make Cheng Jinzhi aware of her behavior, Cheng Jinzhi should not be so big.But is there any way, this person's unscrupulous words, this person's personality, all belong to this person.Isn't it this man's unreserved love that she loves?Rong Si realized that there was really nothing she could do, she could only pretend not to see, or make some side-talking remarks.Is this the way to live the rest of your life?

On Cheng Jinzhi's day off, Rong Si went to pick her up.To be more precise, he went with the Cheng family's parents.When Cheng Jinzhi came out, he even hugged Olivia.The behavior of the two was very intimate. It was obvious that Rong Si and Cheng Jinzhi had an awkward quarrel, which only enhanced the "friendship" between Cheng Jinzhi and Olivia.Olivia was a little outgoing, and soon chatted with Cheng's parents.Rong Si looked away, but silently put Cheng Jinzhi's luggage into the trunk.Cheng Jinzhi was a little nervous. Rong Si didn't come over these days, so he had a few video calls with her.When she came out, Olivia hugged her as if to cheer her up.

"Didn't you take a break?"

"It's okay." Rong Si took the water bottle from Cheng Jinzhi. "Get in the car."

"Oh." Cheng Jinzhi agreed, but stayed where he was.She lowered her head and kicked the ground.

"It's cold outside."

"Are you sleeping with me today?"

"I promised my mother that I will go back today."

"Then I'll go back with you."

"Don't make trouble." Rong Si said, "You stay at home and accompany your uncle and aunt."

Cheng Jinzhi still kept his head down, so Rong Si had no choice but to step forward and flip Cheng Jinzhi's earmuffs.As soon as he stepped forward, he was hugged by Cheng Jinzhi. "Si'er, am I not looking good today? I got up early in the morning and put on makeup."

"nice."

"You didn't look at me."

"Look." Rong Si saw it in the car.

At this time, Cheng's father came over.He coughed lightly. "What are you two doing? It's still on the street. Your mother is still behind."

"Got it." Cheng Jinzhi took Rong Si's hand and got into the car. "Dad, help me pack my luggage. Rong Si and I got into the car first."

Cheng Jinzhi was also rarely honest, got into the car and just nestled in Rong Si's arms. "This way it won't be cold."

"En." Rong Si stroked Cheng Jinzhi's long hair.

The next day, Cheng Jinzhi came to Rong's house.It was still Rong Si who opened the door. "How did you come?"

"I'm not for you." Cheng Jinzhi's face twisted, and he turned to Rong's mother's side. "It's my aunt who misses me. I'll come and see my aunt."

"Hey." Rong's mother smiled and patted the back of Cheng Jinzhi's hand. "Rong Si, go and see what else is in the refrigerator. Do you want to go out and buy some?"

When going to bed at night, Cheng Jinzhi sneaked into Rong Si's bed.At first Cheng Jinzhi didn't think anything, she just wanted to sleep with Rong Si.When he was next to Rong Si and smelled the familiar smell from Rong Si, Cheng Jinzhi felt a little... Cheng Jinzhi took Rong Si's hand off.How long Rong Si hadn't seen her was how long they hadn't done it.

Rong Si had expected that Cheng Jinzhi would come up, and when Cheng Jinzhi slipped into Rong Si's arms, Rong Si was also pretending to be asleep.Rong Si opened her eyes only when Cheng Jinzhi brought her hand down.Her hand touched it slightly, as if it was already a little wet.When Rong Si took out his hand, Cheng Jinzhi whimpered and rubbed the back of Rong Si's hand.

Wet faster and faster.

"Don't move."

Cheng Jinzhi pursed his lips, and had no choice but to bury himself in Rong Si's arms again.Only a pair of wet eyes were exposed.

Rong Si was going to sleep, but was woken up by Cheng Jinzhi's "slight" movement.Cheng Jinzhi didn't sleep, still looking at her with his eyes open.Even without turning on the light, Rong Si still felt that Cheng Jinzhi's cheeks were flushed.

"It hurts..." Cheng Jinzhi gasped twice.

Cheng Jinzhi masturbated in her arms and hurt himself.Rong Si let out a breath before stretching Cheng Jinzhi's underwear.It was originally to help Cheng Jinzhi solve her physical needs, but later Cheng Jinzhi grabbed the collar of her back and moaned softly in her arms, which made her also emotional.

"More?" It had been a long time, but Cheng Jinzhi was still rubbing her hand.

"Doesn't it hurt?" Rong Si rubbed Cheng Jinzhi's teary eyes, Cheng Jinzhi used to want to cry.

"You come in. Come in and sleep again."

After Rong Si put her fingers in, she didn't move any more.Cheng Jinzhi panted twice and adjusted his posture before finally burying himself in Rong Si's arms. "Don't leave me."

Let your fingers become a part of my body.

"Rong Si, what's wrong with your hands? Keep them in your pockets."

"It's okay." Of course Rong Si didn't want her mother to see her pale fingers.

"Is Jinzhi alright? I saw that she was a little swaying when she walked today."

Can you walk without floating?Woke up this morning screaming in pain. "Rong Si, your fingers hurt me so much."

He also muttered when he got out of bed. "What a bad novel, it hurts like hell."

Probably saw something messy again.After her mother went out, Rong Si took out her right hand. Her right hand was a little sore.Yesterday, when he wanted to leave, Cheng Jinzhi made a fuss.It hurts again in the morning.She looked a little better yesterday, and she looks like this again today.Temperament can not be changed at all.

"Si'er."

"Got home?"

It took a while before Cheng Jinzhi replied. "I went to the bathroom just now and found that it was still a little everted...not closed."

"Did you apply the medicine?"

"Painted."

"Ah."

"Si'er, I want to ask you."

Rong Si thought Cheng Jinzhi would ask them about the Cold War.

"If I let go, will you still love me?"

"..."

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