eyes outside the box

Duan Jiuze firmly grasped Yang Bowen's hand pointing to his heart, and narrowed his eyes dangerously: "Who are you?"

Yang Bowen was silent and did not answer.

In winter, the air in the early morning seemed to have a coolness along with the atmosphere of the two of them, until Yang Bowen said again: "Ze Ze."

The moment he heard this name, Duan Jiuze admitted that he could hardly continue thinking.Because this name is too old, it is already the name of the previous world, but I heard it suddenly at this moment.

"Ding ding dong—"

The sudden ringtone of the mobile phone interrupted the weird conversation between the two.

The caller ID was Lin Chuan, Duan Jiuze's colleague and friend in this world.

"Xiao Jiu, did you make an appointment with Wen Qian or something? Why did someone come to you so early in the morning?"

Duan Jiuze looked at Yang Bowen who was sitting opposite, and replied calmly: "No."

"No, the person couldn't find you, so what happened to me? She said she was looking for you, but she didn't see her calling you, eh? Did you block the person or something? ?”

"No."

"Then what should Wenqian do with me? I..."

"I have something to do, hang up first."

Duan Jiuze hung up the phone, but instead of continuing to ask Yang Bowen, he lowered his eyes slightly, thinking about something alone.

Just now, Lin Chuan's phone call reminded Duan Jiuze, and reminded him of a fact that he has always ignored: Lin Chuan and the others exist in almost every world, every one of them.

This is a very important fact, but in the previous world, Duan Jiuze, who had been looking for clues, never cared about it.From the moment he guessed that he could be reborn continuously, Duan Jiuze took it for granted from his own point of view, thinking that the person who has been reborn continuously is himself, so he has the memory of every world as a matter of course.

But what if the person who is reborn in every world is not himself?

Duan Jiuze was shocked by his own idea, but it was a fact that might exist.

If it wasn't Duan Jiuze's rebirth, then it might be Yang Bowen's rebirth, or Lin Chuan, or Wen Qian, or someone else.But in such a situation, what role does Duan Jiuze, who is constantly living with the memory of each world, play in these worlds?

An NPC with memories?A side character who helps the main character keep being reborn in some way?Or is it an important clue to find the real clue as Duan Jiuze treats Yang Bowen?

Duan Jiuze ran away in a panic. On this winter morning, he didn't even have time to put on his coat, so he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, walked to the bathroom, turned on the tap, and poured cold water on his face continuously, trying to Use such a clumsy method to calm yourself down.

Because what Duan Jiuze thought just now has gone beyond his own setting, or in other words, beyond Duan Jiuze's imagination and cognition all along.

Duan Jiuze has been living seriously, analyzing everything rationally, and actively pursuing the truth, in order to find the truth and figure out the reason why he keeps living.But what is real?Duan Jiuze could no longer tell.

Supporting the washing table with both arms, despite the cold water rushing down, Duan Jiuze raised his head and looked at himself in the mirror. These eyebrows, these eyes, this nose, these lips, which one is unreal?

"Zeze."

At some point, Yang Bowen stood at the door of the bathroom. He was still so calm, and he called Duan Jiuze's nickname in a certain world in such a peaceful voice.

Duan Jiuze closed his eyes, his lips trembled, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say a word.

"Zeze."

"Don't call me."

Duan Jiuze said something in a low voice, opened his eyes suddenly, looked at Yang Bowen's figure reflected in the mirror, and said coldly, "Take your ID card and go to the airport."

Passing past Yang Bowen in the cold, Duan Jiuze went into the bedroom, prepared to change clothes, and went to the airport as originally planned.

Duan Jiuze thought that he might be thinking too much.But it doesn't matter, isn't there a method that can be close to reality?I haven't taken Yang Bowen to the airport yet, and I haven't confirmed this last possibility that is close to reality, so how can I give up?

So what if Yang Bowen or even Lin Chuan are the protagonists?So what if the so-called protagonist remembers all the worlds?Doesn't anyone want to leave this world of constant repetition?Does no one want to find the truth?Since they have the same purpose, no matter who this repeated world was born for, it has nothing to do with Duan Jiuze. He just needs to follow his original steps to find out the truth.

The confusion and slight fragility in his eyes seemed to fade away gradually. With firm eyes, Duan Jiuze walked out of the bedroom, took a set of clothes for Yang Bowen, and then went to the porch to change his shoes.

Yang Bowen didn't say anything else, but quietly changed his clothes and shoes according to Duan Jiuze's wish, took his ID card, and prepared to go to the airport with Duan Jiuze.

On the way to the airport, neither of them spoke.

Yang Bowen let Duan Jiuze dominate, buying tickets, going through the security check, and boarding the plane.Except when Duan Jiuze chose the destination, Yang Bowen cast an extra glance, and the rest of the time, he basically let Duan Jiuze pull him without squinting.

And Duan Jiuze kept holding Yang Bowen's hand vigorously, because he didn't know which step he took would cause white mist and Yang Bowen's figure would disappear.So he has to firmly grasp Yang Bowen's hand, hold it firmly, and walk towards the real clue.

For the holding hands between two men, occasionally someone will cast a curious look, but because of the two people holding hands, the atmosphere is too strange - one of them seems to be serious to die, and the other seems to be calm and has nothing to miss - —So after taking a look at it, I withdrew my gaze.

Until the two sat in their seats, until the plane took off, until the plane landed, and finally walked out of the airport, nothing changed.

Passengers around passed by the two of them, occasionally laughing, laughing and cursing, as if they were really ruthlessly mocking Duan Jiuze's ignorant and naive insistence.

——Is it okay to take Yang Bowen on the plane together?

Duan Jiuze looked at the blue sky and closed his eyes little by little.

——Or, because I am not the most important person, it is not my turn to find the truth?

Duan Jiuze held Yang Bowen's hand tightly since the Shenzhen airport, and then let it go a little bit.It seemed to be an overwrought, belated reaction.

Standing at the exit of the station where people come and go, Duan Jiuze felt a huge sense of powerlessness for the first time.

Looking at the sky above his head, Duan Jiuze could no longer feel the real existence.Even Duan Jiuze didn't know if he really existed.

"Zeze."

Behind him, Yang Bowen still calmly called Duan Jiuze's nickname in a certain world, but this was the first time he took the initiative to shake hands.

"Zeze, I'm still here."

"..."

Duan Jiuze's line of sight gradually moved from the clouds floating in the sky to the front of his head, and with a blank expression, he withdrew his hand from Yang Bowen's.

Duan Jiuze stepped forward to leave the airport, but Yang Bowen shook hands behind him again.

Duan Jiuze tried to withdraw his hand, but the opponent's strength seemed to be stronger than ever, so strong that Duan Jiuze couldn't get rid of it.

Duan Jiuze simply took back the steps he was going to take, and stood there, letting Yang Bowen hold his hand, and said expressionlessly: "I thought I could find the truth and understand the truth."

Yang Bowen looked at him, seeming to hesitate to speak, but Duan Jiuze didn't care.

At the exit of this noisy airport, the people coming and going are all so serious.

They walk seriously, drag their luggage seriously, talk to people seriously, and play with their mobile phones seriously... They look serious, as if they are extremely real, as if they are such real human beings, and they are living in such a real way.

Duan Jiuze looked at the passers-by, and Yang Bowen looked at Duan Jiuze who couldn't take his eyes off him.There seemed to be too much to say between the two, but only silence accompanied them.

Human life is precious because there is only one life that cannot be copied; it is interesting because life is full of infinite possibilities and challenges;

But Duan Jiuze seems to have no choice but to live passively and repeatedly.

For Duan Jiuze, such a life has no meaning at all.Because he doesn't even know whether the world he lives in is real, or even whether his life is real, and he can't love life like an ordinary person at all.

Duan Jiuze wants to find the truth of all this, even if the end of the truth is a long, illusory dream, he can accept it.But Duan Jiuze has lived in several worlds, and up to now, he can't even determine a useful clue, let alone find the truth.

Yang Bowen wanted to say that if Duan Jiuze didn't live his life so seriously, then he could be very real.But he couldn't say it after all.

He knew Duan Jiuze too well, better than Duan Jiuze thought.So he couldn't say that, so he could only remain silent.

No!Yang Bowen suddenly thought, there is one more sentence!

There is one more thing to say!

There is one more thing that must be said!

Because of the height difference, Yang Bowen stood on tiptoe, trying to make his line of sight face Duan Jiuze, trying to make himself a clear outline in Duan Jiuze's eyes.

He says--

"Only love and death can change everything."