Lady's Love Letter GL

I have never been to a brothel. Although I have heard people talk about it intentionally or unconsciously, most of them talk about the people inside rather than the brothel itself.I am also a woman, if Bai Xuanwei is excluded, I have no interest in women.

In my imagination, a brothel should first be a building, at least two or three floors or higher. The main hall may be dizzyingly gorgeous, covered with red floor stalls, hung with red curtains, and lit with red lanterns. Women dressed in tulle in various colors hold the railings and look at the guests who are fascinated by them below.

This imagination continued until I stepped into the opposite building.

The Duoyue Building is not even a building.

It is more like a garden in the south, under the cover of flowers, plants, mountains and rocks, you can faintly see patchwork courtyards.A girl in plain clothes led me to shuttle among them. Sometimes I felt that the mountains and rivers were exhausted, and sometimes I felt that the willows were dark and the flowers were bright. Following a shallow westward flow, I came to the courtyard of the girl who had only heard of her name.

Standing in front of the door, I was full of emotions for a while.

Chang'an City is almost obsessed with a symmetrical beauty, so if there is an east market, there must be a west market.There are 110 squares, big and small, very square and regular.From royal palaces, official residences, down to market shops, and common people's residences, all are not immune to the influence of this paranoia, and all of them are blending into this paranoia.If I were a man, dealing with the officialdom every day and stealing my leisure, I would also think of this place, this gentle and unorthodox hometown.

Slowly opening the door, a young woman sat quietly by the desk, as if she had been waiting for a long time.

She has a plain melon-seeded face, with curved eyebrows, a little cinnabar in the middle, a pair of almond eyes looking forward to expressive eyes, a fine nose and a straight cherry lip, and the curvature of her chin is particularly charming.

This man is so pretty.

This person is really like me.

She also looked at me, an eye contact, and we understood each other, neither she was like me nor I was like her.My heart suddenly felt like a wound was opened by some kind of blunt instrument, very slowly and cruelly.

"Miss Jing, please come this way." She spoke Wu dialect, soft and waxy, which perfectly matched her petite and graceful figure.After I sat down, she showed a timid face, and explained, "I'm from Suzhou, so I can't speak Mandarin, so I laughed at you."

She stopped talking, poured tea for me, and waited quietly for me to speak.

Obviously I came to find her, but at this moment I don't know what to say.

"At first, our mother in charge met her when she went to Xianyi to worship God. The mother in charge has always been difficult to get along with, and I don't know what she did to please her mother, so she brought her back." She said. Aware of my embarrassment, she didn't point it out, and just continued to talk, "She is here, and most of the time she is here to make calculations for the sisters. Her divination is very accurate, and her words are also pleasing. Sometimes I think I think this kind of liking is mostly due to her compassionate heart. I don’t know if you also feel this way.”

She paused, looked at my expression, "She often comes here, not only facing Yuelou, but also familiar with me alone. For a while, she came less often, and she told me that there was someone who didn't like her coming. I don't know Why, there were more and more of them after that, and she was still talking and laughing like before, but I felt that she was in a bad mood every time. Many people who seem to be calm on the surface often have the most serious worries. "

"Did she tell you what happened before she went to Yangzhou?" I investigated all the experiences Bai Xuanwei told me that night, and she didn't lie to me, but before that, I couldn't find anything It was as if there was an extra person in the world out of thin air.

"What she hasn't told you, naturally she won't tell me. She has a hurdle in her heart, and she can't get through it by herself. Miss Jing, she treats you differently from others. Maybe you can help her. "

I couldn't help laughing, I was not upset but I should help her first.

"I have a few thoughts, which may not be right. Since you are here, I would like to share them with you."

"But it doesn't matter."

"I think that in any relationship, no one is perfect, but we can set a level for people's inadequacies. Being unfeeling is the biggest shame. Others such as selfishness, jealousy, and greed are comparable to it. Is that true? Isn't the harm done by an inconsiderate lover for years without self-knowledge or apology? There are only flaws in the world that you can accept and you can't accept, and there is no It’s a defect that insists on distinguishing high and low. To care about this kind of high and low, the resentment in my heart is hard to calm down, and if I don’t give in, how can I get along with each other? It’s easier for people to become better when they tolerate each other than to find fault with each other.” She spoke very slowly, still in that soft and waxy tone, but with a convincing firmness. No wonder women are said to be made of water, which is probably the so-called softness to strength.

"There is another idea that is fallacious." She covered her mouth and chuckled, "Don't you think that the dedication of popular people is more valuable than that of unpopular people?"

I took a sip of tea and smiled, "It's as if good-looking people are more forgiving when they make mistakes. Your thoughts are very interesting, and it's also very interesting to talk to you."

I looked at the calligraphy and painting behind her, and wrote a letter - when you go to Gusu, everyone sleeps on the river.The Forbidden City has little free space, many water lanes and small bridges, and it is signed by Jing Qingning.

"Miss Pingting, we will meet later."

With a puzzled look on her face, she brushed towards me.

Saying goodbye to Pingting, I shunned the bearers and walked all the way from the Yueyue Building to the West Market.

Bai Xuanwei stood in the sunset, holding five or six bunches of candied haws, and was distributing them to the children surrounding her one by one.No wonder, she asked me how many taels of silver a few days ago.She handed the last bunch of candied haws in her hand to a chubby little man, and patted his forehead again. When she raised her head again, she found me, and she waved to me with joy.

This scene is so familiar, I seem to have returned to Jinyang, the morning market where I first met her.

She walked up to me with the little fat man, and she said, "Let's go home."

As he spoke, he squatted down, picked up the little fat man on his back, and took my hand naturally.

So, why have this fat man at a time like this?

"He hurt his hand while playing around today, and asked me to carry him back." Bai Xuanwei explained.

"Hey." The little fat man grinned at me.

And why on earth did you hurt your hand and ask for someone's back?

I glanced at him coldly, "Come down, go back by yourself."

The little fat man seemed to be frightened by me, he immediately grabbed Bai Xuanwei, Bai Xuanwei said a few words of comfort, and put him down.I glanced at him again, and he ran away in a flash.

"Why are you scaring children?"

"You squat down, I want you to carry me on your back."

Bai Xuanwei looked at me with a funny face, squatted down obediently, and walked towards my house with my back like this.

I pressed against her ear, rubbing back and forth, "What do you like about me? You don't have to tell me now, I want you to think about it, and then tell me after you think about it, if I am not satisfied with what you said, I will punish you."

"Well, I see."

"Xiaobai, you always don't listen to me, I will punish you well."

What you said makes sense behind the back of the little concubine I'm looking for, I can accept you, and I can only accept you in my life.I also have all kinds of bad things, but I can't swallow this breath.You cut a knife out of my heart, and one day, I will pay you back.

From then on, we licked each other's blood and stayed together for the rest of our lives.

The author has something to say:

some immature opinions

Speaking of which, Bai Jing's source of inspiration for this pair of CPs is Shang Forgiveness x Uehara Dengli in "The Perfect Divorce".