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For Ji Yanwen, getting to know Lu Qingxiu was not accidental, but premeditated.

The first time he met Lu Qingxiu was at the airport in Austria.

At that time, Lu Qingxiu was wearing a light white shirt, which was so clean and tidy. He smiled warmly and beautifully in the sun, and his three-dimensional face, which was as sharp as a knife, was softened by the warm sunshine. It was so simple. The picture made Ji Yanwen feel a little warmth on his cheeks.

He couldn't control his feet, followed Lu Qingxiu secretly, and walked out of the airport pretending to be natural. During this period, he vaguely heard Lu Qingxiu talking about a concert to the people next to him. He guessed that they were probably going to Jin .color.big.hall.

She tried her best to create a chance encounter, and then tried her best to get Lu Qingxiu's phone number.

Everything went smoothly.

If it was in the past, Ji Yanwen would not have believed that such absurd things as love at first sight would happen to him, and he never thought that he could have a heart-wrenching feeling for a man.

It was love at first sight, love at second sight, and at the third sight, I wanted to be with him forever.

So, that night, when Lu Qingxiu took the initiative to kiss her, he instantly destroyed what little reason he had left.

After that, it was out of control.

Lu Qingxiu laughed at how he had saved so much, he usually wouldn't...

Ji Yanwen blushed, and said in a low voice, "Yes, I think of you every time..."

Lu Qingxiu yelled at him, and said with disgust, "Birds, beasts, the ones with clothes."

Ji Yanwen embraced him, slammed his chin into the socket of his shoulder, and said, "I'm worse than a beast, and only to you."

Lu Qingxiu pursed his lips, held back a smile and leaned over and said, "That will let me see and see."

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Lu Qingxiu finally concluded with a hoarse voice, what you said is true, if you are a beast, I feel that you have insulted those cute little animals in nature.

Ji Yanwenquan thought he was praising himself, and got up with a smile from ear to ear to make him breakfast.

Although he has done everything he should and shouldn't do, Ji Yanwen has never heard Lu Qingxiu say that he loves him, and he has never said the word "like".

When Lu Qingxiu was in a good mood, he would wrap his arms around his neck and call him Yanyan, and when he was in a bad mood, he would call him by his full name with a cold face.

After a year of confusion and confusion, after returning to China, when he and Lu Qingxiu were recorded in the star fortune at the same time, Ji Yanwen suddenly became uneasy.

Lu Qingxiu is younger than him, and his external conditions are so good, there must be many people who will take the initiative to send him to eat.

If he didn't tie him up himself, someone else would tie him up for him.

This is the last thing Ji Yanwen wants to see.

So, he bought a pair of rings, found a day with clear clouds and clear wind, high sky and clear air, and proposed to Lu Qingxiu.

To his surprise, Lu Qingxiu agreed without thinking.

It's ridiculous for two men to be together. He originally thought that Lu Qingxiu didn't want to have a legal relationship with him, and also thought that Lu Qingxiu's being with him was just for pleasure.

Both of them seemed to be afraid that the other would regret it, so they quickly registered and bought a second-hand house of less than [-] square meters with a loan. After a simple decoration, they lived in it.

When did it start to change?

Ji Yanwen thought, probably because he and Lu Qingxiu spend less and less time together.

Lu Qingxiu often has various dinners, with the director, with the producer, and with the fellow freshmen.

After training, in order to save money, Ji Yanwen went to the vegetable market to buy a bagful of vegetables and cooked them himself.

But he often sat at the dining table by himself, and Lu Qingxiu didn't come back when the food was cold.

Ji Yanwen was afraid of exposing his relationship with Lu Qingxiu, so he didn't dare to speak too clearly when he called Lu Qingxiu.

Until, that day...

Ji Yanwen received a text message from an unknown number, asking him to go to room xx in xx hotel. Before he went, his eyelids were twitching, and he felt uneasy, unable to tell what it was like. As expected, when he pushed open the concealed door At that time, it was Lu Qingxiu who looked like that.

Heartache, pain, restlessness, hatred, anger--many complex emotions rushed to him like a tide, and Ji Yanwen couldn't taste anything for a while.

In the end, as a man, it was anger that overcame all reason.

In the final analysis, it can be said that he loves Lu Qingxiu very much, but he doesn't know how to love.

He didn't know what the consequences would be if he wantonly hurt the one he loved.

All he knew was that he was in great pain, and if he couldn't find an outlet to vent, he would die, and he would really die on Lu Qingxiu.

Since then, he has lived a chaotic life.

He hoped that after Lu Qingxiu saw it, he would be furious with him, and even beat him up. It would be better if he was beaten and sent to the hospital. Perhaps only in this way, Ji Yanwen could be sure that Lu Qingxiu loved him.

But neither.

Every time, Lu Qingxiu just glanced at him lightly, turned around without saying a word, entered another bedroom, and slammed the door.

Ji Yanwen's heart was about to be pierced looking at the closed door, and every time this happened, he would deliberately make those people shout louder.

Tell Lu Qingxiu to listen.

On the day when Lu Qingxiu left, he lay on Lu Qingxiu's sleeping side in a nervous state, hugging his pillow and crying like a child whose lollipop dropped to the ground.

While crying, he called Lu Qingxiu's name, but the only answer to him was the whistling cold wind coming in through the crack of the window.

Later, he became popular in the entertainment industry. When he attended a charity party, in the bathroom cubicle, he heard the director chatting and laughing with others about Lu Qingxiu. Ji Yanwen immediately stood up. Listen carefully, and just listen to what the director said --- Lu Qingxiu, who just won the Newcomer Award this year, Mr. Sun, you don't know, he was really... tsk tsk tsk... a big man, something as big as a fingertip He can make him unconscious, but in the end, it's not up to us...

Ji Yanwen couldn't listen anymore, rushed out with red eyes regardless, pinned the director to the ground and beat him up.

From then on, no matter how much Ji Yanwen wanted to be popular, he couldn't become popular anymore. The fact that he hit the director soon spread to everyone in the circle.

Ji Yanwen didn't care if he could become popular or not.

He just wanted to do one thing, to make Lu Qingxiu forgive him.

But even if we meet each other sometimes in a film crew, Lu Qingxiu always treats him with an indifferent look. He can't say a word to that star-studded actor, let alone ask for his forgiveness.

It wasn't until the day Xiuzhen took the makeup photo that he realized that Lu Qingxiu had a new goal long ago --- Su Mingzhe, who looked more sunny and handsome than him.

Lu Qingxiu will take the initiative to chat with Su Mingzhe, smile gently at Su Mingzhe, and will considerately buy food for Su Mingzhe...

Everything was once exclusive to him.

But now, Lu Qingxiu easily gave it to others.

From that moment on, Ji Yanwen began to try to give up, put aside all delusions that should no longer exist, and silently and alone bless Lu Qingxiu.

He told himself that he deserved it and should have endured it.

Later, on the plane, his old illness relapsed, and Lu Qingxiu's anxious look made him suddenly not want to let go.

There is no way, deep down in my heart I still long to have him, and I still can't convince myself to let go.

After waiting for so many years, I finally waited for a sentence --- if you live, I will forgive you.

Stay alive - what a simple premise.

Let me ask, what reason does he have for not going on.

The author has something to say:

Cough cough, I'm not ready yet.

I want you to hug and hold high