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The lower the gaze, the darker Yu Fang's face became.

My heart was suddenly grabbed by something, and at the same time, a thorn was pricking my brain, and cold sweat kept flowing from my back.

On the computer screen, it clearly listed how bad He Xi's mental state was. Depression also caused anorexia.

In the video, He Xi is in the psychotherapy room.

He was wearing a black long-sleeved shirt, lying on a long white relaxing chair, as if lying in a white crystal coffin, the dazzling black was like a shroud, and his face was lifeless.

His face was gray and gloomy, and his bones were broken, just like the bloody dusk that poured down the sky before the hopeless darkness of night, the dusk was heavy, and the wood was dead.

How dare Yu Fang believe that this is He Xi. He is always a man with crooked eyebrows and a smile on the corner of his mouth. He is bright and warm, and floats people's hearts. The dew on the green leaves is so beautiful.

How could it be like this now, lying in the huge and empty psychological room, the shocking pale white walls around him pressed down from the surroundings to cover his body, and the heavy pressure was like a mountain on his chest, making him unable to breathe Furious, he lay there in despair, his eyes closed and sweat profusely like a drowning man, he kept shouting and shouting.

"Yu Fang, Yu Fang knows, Yu Fang knows."

Tears flowed down his red, swollen and tightly closed eyes, crying like a child who couldn't find his mother. The suppressed crying and desperate sobs made his whole body tremble and shrink into a ball, but he woke up deep in the quagmire of a nightmare not come.

Yu Fang stretched out his hand to wake him up, and told him, I won't blame you, you didn't cheat, my indifference to you was not because of cheating, I don't know, I really don't know, don't be so frightened, but his What his fingertips touched was not He Xi's tense and curled body, but the cold computer screen. He could only look at He Xi from a distance like a frightened bird, frightened and frightened, with a look of fear on his face.

He was scared, he was too scared.

There are a lot of video materials, and the time span is nearly a year. From after the accident to after the breakup, Yu Fang opened each video with trembling hands, watching He Xi's condition getting worse and worse. In the past few months, he has been shouting, calling Yu Fang knows, call him cheating, call Yu Fang really don't want him anymore, call him want to go back to find him, call him afraid of being rejected, call him over and over again, how desperate he is, how wronged he is, how much he looks forward to , just how thoroughly he sank in the sea of ​​bitterness.

In the later video, He Xi hardly spoke. He lay there quietly, letting the psychiatrist talk and hypnotize him. He was so bad that he couldn't hear anything. His pale face was really lifeless like a dead face. , the eyes are hollow and have no focus, and the walking dead are like undead with empty skeletons.

Looking at this scene, Yu Fang's heart seemed to be pierced by a bullet in an instant, blood and flesh splattered, the invisible pain was like dense ants gnawing on his whole body, drinking his blood, the dull pain was like a giant picking up a He raised the hammer high, and then smashed it heavily on his heart without hesitation, shattering it into pieces.

Across the screen, across an insurmountable time, and across a far-reaching distance that cannot be crossed, he sat on the ground and bowed his head powerlessly, scratching his hair in pain and helplessness, the pain was too heavy, like a big stone stuck in his throat, choking and choking No sound, he couldn't even cry.

Yu Fang remembered the day they met again, when He Xi saw him, he smiled at him easily, as if he was just a passerby he knew, pretending to be so relaxed and indifferent.He is really good at hiding himself too much, he is always smiling, but he does not let people know whether there are tears under each of his smiles, and he never mentions what he has suffered, and the sunshine appears in front of him , let him think that all these years, he is smiling, even if he left.

Yu Fang's resentment, blame, and pain in those years were torn and wiped away by He Xi's closed eyes and skinny face.

Looking at the paused video, Yu Fang's eyes were dry, and his depressed heart made him breathless. He couldn't watch it anymore. He slowly turned his eyes away and turned off the computer. When he got up and left, he told Yan Zhiheng not to check the phone again. up.

In the house, He Xi sat alone on the carpet beside the bed in the bedroom, looking out of the balcony.

After Yu Fang came back, what did he want to say to him? Qi Ming’s words made him angry, and Yu Fang’s concealment made him sad. He could fiddle with any wounds like a doll on a booth for Yu Fang to watch, but he still couldn’t be right. He opens up.

He was disappointed, extremely disappointed, it was not unreasonable for him to break up with Yu Fang.

When Yu Fang opened the door and came in, He Xi looked outside with such a dazed look, and his mind flashed He Xi's withered face lying on the white bench with his eyes closed, and he felt great grief.

Hearing the movement, He Xi froze for a moment, then slowly turned to look at him: "I'm back."

He Xi's lips turned white, and the corners of his smiling mouth curled up, but the tiredness that could not be concealed became more and more intense in his eyes, why did he not realize the pain in his eyes until now.

He Xi asked: "Is the company okay? Everything has been dealt with."

Yu Fang looked at him, his eyes were fiery and deep, two extreme emotions mixed in his eyes, incompatible.

It was rare for He Xi to see him so tired and defeated, so he asked anxiously, "What happened?"

Yu Fang looked directly at him, and approached him step by step, his voice was calm but trembling that could not be hidden: "He Xi, my indifference is because I am incompetent."

If it weren't for what happened today, Yu Fang would never want to mention how incompetent he was back then.

"You..." He Xi stared at him dumbfounded.

"Yu Xiangping, remember?" Yu Fang walked up to him and sat down on the carpet, facing him, with his knees on his knees.

"Ah!" He Xi was surprised when he didn't hear Yu Fang mention this name for a long time.

Yu Xiangping, how could he not remember, a name he respects, he is Yu Fang's father, and also the former president of Tianyu, he is a man who is resolute and uncompromising, and he will not allow others to disobey him.

Because of Yu Fang when he was in college, he met that person a few times. At that time, He Xi always felt that he had abducted the other party's son, so ashamed and afraid that he didn't dare to lift his head.

"What's wrong with him?" He Xi touched his pale face, wondering what harm he would bring to Yu Fang.

"He Xi." Yu Fang called him in a deep voice, his voice was rough and low, not like Yu Fang's voice.

"What's wrong with you..." He Xi slid his thumb down his face, feeling sorry for him.

"He Xi, I'm sorry."

"It's about Qi Ming?" He Xi didn't expect him to be hurt so much, so he quickly said, "It's okay, I just got angry when he said it, it's nothing..."

He Xi was hurriedly explaining, but Yu Fang interrupted him when he couldn't speak clearly.

He Xi suddenly froze, waving his explaining hand froze there, his pupils constricted and his eyes widened, and the words he said were drifting: "You, what did you say?"

He Xi didn't even know if he heard what Yu Fang said clearly.

Yu Fang looked back at him, and said clearly: "He Xi, I was in prison the day your accident happened."

I am struggling in prison, I don't know you are struggling outside.

On the same day, we suffered the heaviest blow.

That day, it happened that Yu Xiangping gave him a blow. Either he broke up and returned to take charge of Tianyu, or he became a criminal lawyer and went to jail. He was just a small intern in a law firm. Yu Xiangping wanted to teach his son a lesson for this kind of thing. , it is too easy.

Although he and He Xi have been rooted in Lin City for six years, how can their status compare to Yu Xiangping.

Before that, he had clearly told Yu Xiangping that he would never turn back no matter what, so Yu Xiangping happily decided to let him stay in prison for a few days, and stabbed him in the back by random people to charge him with a crime. He lived in prison for seventeen or eight days, with a small punishment, saying that he was experiencing life in advance, to see if he could bear the consequences of disobeying him.

Yu Xiangping's goal has been achieved, he is afraid, he can bear Yu Xiangping's lesson, because he is still useful to him, but He Xi is impossible, especially He Xi is still in the entertainment circle, if he fights with Yu Xiangping, he will beat He Xi He was stripped naked and thrown into the crocodile pond, leaving no bones left.

Therefore, he later frequently told He Xi that he was on a business trip, that he was indifferent and alienated from him, and even considered temporarily pretending to break up. He, at least stay away from him, so as not to be implicated by Wuwang.

The word of breaking up has never been willing to say it. The day before He Xi's birthday, Yu Xiangping finally warned him that if he still does not compromise, he will live in prison for ten years. The crimes and wasted ten years are basically abolished.

And he has no choice, he can't live up to He Xi, so he can only choose prison, Yu Xiangping doesn't know, with He Xi around, he will never be considered abolished.

On He Xi's birthday, he had originally prepared two good news and one extremely bad news to tell him, and he had already thought about what expression he would put on, and he said in a nonchalant tone with a faint smile: "He Xi, Your man will probably be in prison for ten years, so take your time and wait for me to come out."

However, before Surprise could figure out how to say it, He Xi gave him a bolt from the blue.

He will leave resolutely. One is that he can't believe it. When he was most vulnerable behind his back, He Xi would slap him hard. The most important reason is that he really realized his weakness and his powerlessness. He Xi couldn't even protect him. Before he was strong, he and He Xi couldn't be together at all. Everything now is nothing but flowers in the mist, and Yu Xiangping's random gesture can ruin everything.

On the day of He Xi's birthday, he pulled his luggage and played the scene of returning from a business trip. He just came out of a dirty old hotel, and he tried his best to hide his down and out, thinking that he would tell him on He Xi's birthday, Your man is going to jail tomorrow.

No matter how he thinks, he feels that the way home is both close and far away, and he wants to get closer but is afraid.

He still clearly remembered that when he opened the door of the house, a light just turned on. In the huge room, under the dim light, He Xi was lying curled up on the sofa by himself, reeking of alcohol, emaciated and pathetic.

The moment he saw it clearly, he took a deep breath, and the endless cold air poured into his lungs, which was so painful that he was dying. At that moment, he felt what despair was.

He looked at He Xi's thinness and loneliness, and he could no longer be selfish and say, wait for me for ten years.

"He Xi, I can only leave resolutely. I am afraid that I will ask you to explain it later, and then forgive your difficulties without hesitation. I know you so well, and you are so timid. How dare you violate my bottom line at will, but I No, because I suddenly understood that I couldn't let you wait for me alone for ten years, I couldn't bear it, and felt distressed."

He strode out with his luggage and closed the door to block his sight. The next second, he sat down slowly against the door until the next morning, when he left with air-conditioning and rekindled determination.

He Xi didn't know when she started crying, but now she hugged his neck, crying out of breath.

"For, for..." He Xi choked so hard that he couldn't speak, why did this happen, why did this happen, why did they torture them so much, he really didn't know, when he was wronged and resentful, Yu Fangzheng Suffering from prison, what was Yu Fang's mood at that time.

In an instant, he understood Qi Ming's accusation and Yu Fang's resentment, and he stretched out his hand to punch himself.

Yu Fang held his hand and said seriously: "He Xi, this matter has nothing to do with you. If you blame yourself, then I really regret telling you this." He never wanted to tell He Xi, the big The reason is that he will definitely blame himself, feel guilty, and hate himself.

"How could it have nothing to do with me!" He Xi's eyes were red angrily, "You are already in jail, why didn't you tell me, I was, I was only thinking about blaming you, and you didn't find out that such a big thing happened."

He Xi really hated himself, instead of caring about Yu Fang, he kept accusing him of being indifferent.

Yu Fang hugged him tightly, patted him on the back and said, "Okay, it's over, it's over. None of us is wrong about this, so don't mention it again."

"I can't make it through!" He Xi stood up angrily with tears in his eyes: "Why does Yu Xiangping put you in jail? I want to settle the score with him!" How dare he, how dare he bully his man like this, even if He Xi met Yu Xiangping before, Only the daughter-in-law's fear was left, and now she was full of anger, wishing she could turn into a sharp blade and cut him down.

Yu Fang smiled: "You, you are really confused. Everyone else is dead, so it's possible that you still have to dig graves."

"Ah... oh oh." He Xi was in a daze, and was dragged to sit down by Yu Fang.Yes, he was so angry that he forgot, that person died of illness three years ago.

"Did he force you to go back then because..." After all, it was his father, He Xi didn't ask.

Yu Fang nodded, "Yes." It is true that his life is not long, thinking that he still has a son who can help his company.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He Xi could only turn to holding Yu Fang's face, kissing him repeatedly, apologizing over and over again, tears were on Yu Fang's face.

"Really so guilty?" Yu Fang asked patiently while wiping his face with a tissue.

"what?"

The sudden truth broke He Xi's heart into scum, and he still asked him like this.

"Then marry me." Yu Fang held his face and said seriously, "You can comfort me only by marrying me."