raise ghosts

An Yu broke free from Xia Feng's shackles coldly, "Xia Feng, don't forget that you are also an executioner, and you also deceived Bai Mo, right? Why should I trust you?"

Seeing An Yue go further and further, Xia Feng roared angrily and caught up with An Yue's footsteps.

"You self-deceiving lunatic!" Xia Feng kept cursing angrily along the way, but An Yue seemed to be deaf and turned a deaf ear.

He returned to the temple on his own, but met the abbot's astonished eyes.

"Benefactor An, why are you back? Where's Benefactor Bai?" The abbot looked behind An Yue, but only saw a strange man.

"Who is this……"

"Xia Feng."

"Benefactor Xia, have you seen Benefactor Bai?"

"Bai Mo?" Seeing that the abbot had been looking at An Yu, Xia Feng understood instantly, "Ask me? You should ask this cold-blooded and heartless man!"

An Yue ignored the conversation between the two, went straight to the Buddhist hall and knelt down, clasping his hands together.

"Dear Buddha, did you hear my prayer?" An Yue recited the scriptures in his heart over and over again, and this time a miracle happened.

"Are you calling me?" An Yu raised his head and saw the god he had seen when he was a child.

"Buddha, why did you show up now?"

"You're blaming me..." The Buddha made a serious face. This time, he didn't show An Yue a smile.

"Don't dare." An Yu hurriedly lowered his head.

"An Yue, do you know what mistake you made?"

"what……"

"An Yue, is becoming a Buddha really so important to you, so important that it doesn't matter if you give up everything for it?"

"Buddha, what are you talking about?" An Yue suddenly raised his head, but only saw the angry Buddha.

"An Yue, how can you look like you are sincerely paying respects to the Buddha now? What does longevity mean to you? Do you have the kindness in your heart to save all sentient beings?"

"Buddha, I haven't. I've never forgotten what you taught me. I've been trying to be a good person..." An Yu panicked and defended.

"An Yue, although the saying goes that you can only gain if you give up, but do you really understand what is giving up? Have you really thought about what a Buddha's heart is? Have you really understood what counts as merit?"

"I really thought for a moment that you made the right choice, but tell me, did you lose the benefactor Bai?"

"Buddha..." An Yue panicked, "I didn't, Bai Mo...this is his own choice, how could it be all my fault."

"Really... Then why do everyone think it's your fault, and you also think it's all groundless?"

An Yu was confused.

"An Yu, think about it carefully. Is it really worth doing so much? Have you ever regretted it? Have you ever had a moment of sincerity? Go back."

Kicked out of the Buddhist hall by the Buddha, An Yue staggered forward and tripped over the steps several times. He didn't understand what he did wrong.

Regret?

Have you ever regretted it?

Why does everyone ask himself if he has any regrets? What is there for him to regret!Just because he killed Bai Mo, but Bai Mo clearly said that he did it voluntarily!

Why, why are you being so nice to me!Why, why did you do that for me!

"Baimo, it doesn't matter even if you die! Why on earth are you treating me so wholeheartedly!"

"Do you want to know the reason?" Xia Fengchao Anyu approached step by step, "Don't you understand? Didn't you hear what the Buddha said just now? How dare you say you didn't make a mistake!"

"What's wrong with me! How could I be wrong!"

"Okay, then please take a look at what you have done!" This time, Xia Feng couldn't help but grab An Yu's arm, because An Yu's hand was bruised and veined because of too much force, but An Yu closed his teeth tightly. , Such a rude behavior actually made him feel a bit sickly relieved and satisfied.

He thought of what Bai Mo said to him last night, how did he hold on to the pain of tearing his skin at that time, and talked with him with a smile?

Baimo... Baimo... What on earth have you done to make the whole world praise you so much?

If you're really that good, then how come I can't see it?

"An Yue, I like you."

In the fierce cold wind, Xia Feng dragged An Yu to the side of the lotus pond.

Xia Feng exerted some strength, and An Yu was caught off guard and fell to the ground.

"What are you doing?" An Yue glared angrily.

Xia Feng ignored An Yu, and squatted down by the pond to search for something.An Yu watched Xia Feng rummaging through the reeds in disbelief as if he was looking at a lunatic, but he didn't care that his face and clothes were stained with mud.

Finally, he pulled out a crumpled piece of paper from it.

"Show me! You should still remember your handwriting!" An Yu picked up the paper from his body inexplicably, looked at a few lines carefully and then froze, stroking the paper in front of him in disbelief.

"This is my Kongming Lantern..."

"Fuck, what's yours, I gave it to Baimo!"

"No, didn't the Kongming Lantern float away, how could it fall here?"

"Your Kongming Lantern didn't float away, it was Baimo. Baimo wanted to know what kind of wish you made, and he also knew that the gods would not favor you, so he secretly asked others for help to knock down the Kongming Lantern." It's him, he wants to fulfill your wish. I hope you are safe and happy, this is his last wish in life. From the beginning to the end, his wish is only you, not himself! What a fool..."

"How is it possible..." An Yu anxiously turned the Kongming Lantern to the opposite side. Although the handwriting had been blurred by the water, he could barely see the white foam. His wish was to be happy.

How come, that guy likes himself so much, shouldn't he write some nasty words about being with him forever and ever on the Kongming Lantern?why not?

It turns out that selfish people only have themselves from beginning to end.Don't understand, maybe he still doesn't understand what love is.

"Xia Feng, why didn't he say he wants to be with me?"

Seeing An Yue's decadent and embarrassed appearance, Xia Feng rarely hit him, "How do you deserve to understand love? Bai Mo didn't get your forgiveness until he died. How can you understand... Feelings are the most beautiful thing in this world , how could someone like you have it?"

Xia Feng left cursing, and An Yu sat by the pond for a whole night.

At dawn the next day, he took the Kongming lantern and went to find the abbot.

The abbot didn't have a good face when he saw him, and his face turned slightly better when his eyes fell on his hands.

"What are you doing back here? You also know that you are no longer qualified to meet the Buddha, right?"

"Let me ask you, what do you mean by the so-called purity of the six roots in your Buddhism? I can give up everything, why did the Buddha say that I don't understand?"

"I really don't understand..."

The abbot looked at An Yue, "It's called letting go, but you know that the premise of letting go is possession. Only when you no longer have obsession with what you once owned, and let go of it, is it called letting go. Benefactor An, you have never had it, so how can you let it go?" Maybe let it go?"

"Own...have what?"

"Benefactor Bai has waited for you for so many years, but in the end it only ended up like this. Donor An, have you ever regretted it? Has anyone ever told you why it is difficult to practice because when you have something, How can it be easy to let go? There are always concerns in people's hearts, relatives, friends, and wives, but you are a benefactor, have you ever thought about what you care about in your heart?"

"Maybe when you really figure out what you want most, you won't have the idea of ​​becoming a Buddha."

"Baimo, why on earth have you been following behind me?"

"what?"

"Don't tell me? If you don't tell me, don't follow me in the future."

"I said, I said, can I follow you as long as I say it?"

"Ah."

"That's good." Bai Mo breathed a sigh of relief, and looked at An Yu with a smile, "Because I like An Yu."

I like An Yue.

"Baimo, will you stay by my side forever? No matter what I have done to you, no matter what kind of person I am, no matter whether I have done something wrong, will you not blame me?"

"Yes." Bai Mo looked into An Yue's eyes, earnestly and piously, "No matter what An Yue did to me, no matter whether An Yue was sincere to me or not, I only know that An Yue saved me. He took me in. All I know is that the one I love most in my heart is An Yue."

"I will stay by An Yu's side for the rest of my life, until An Yu drives me away."

But even if An Yue drives me away, I won't leave, because An Yue needs me, and I will stay by An Yue's side for the rest of my life.

"An Yu, let me see you for the last time, okay?" Bai Mo looked at An Yu contentedly, and then pushed him from behind, "Hurry up, they will catch up soon, I've already run away Don't move, you can definitely run away!"

"What about you?" An Yu turned around.

"I never thought of being alive. If it weren't for you, I would have died as early as that year."

"I just said, why do you insist on following me so strangely? It's really a disaster."

"Yeah, it's all my fault." Bai Mo coughed, "Let's go tomorrow, don't come back, find a place to live well. Come back when the weather is calm, I know you will soon ascend, become The Buddha Empress must be very happy every day. You will be the best Buddha in the world."

Bastard, why is his figure flashing in my mind.

"An Yu..."

"An Yu..."

My heart was beating fast, since when did I see him everywhere in my life?

Even though he was only a half-grown boy, he was able to push himself away when his life was at stake.Why... Where did you get the courage to do this?

I obviously don't treat you well at all, I keep scolding you fiercely, and even use you as a pawn, you know that right, but why, why did I still make such a choice?

What is on your mind.fool!What a fool!

"There must be a way, there must be a way!"

I don't know when, tears are already streaming down my face.

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