raise ghosts

Life does not meet, moving like participating in business.

An Yu felt irritated for no reason, and after dismissing Taoist Fuyun, he went home.

Although he hasn't been home for a long time because of filming and some unknown reasons, there is only a thin layer of dust in the house, which started to accumulate after Baimo left.

When An Yue is not at home, Bai Mo is responsible for cleaning the house, and he can always clean the house spotlessly.

An Yu opened the refrigerator, and the refrigerator was full of quick-frozen food. Even if he treated Bai Mo like this, and ignored Bai Mo like this, was he still planning for himself?

Somewhat disappointed, An Yue took out a can of beer from the refrigerator, sat on the dusty sofa and drank it without wiping it.

Gradually his eyes became blurred, he reached out his hand to touch them, and gulped down beer.When the beer entered the throat, it was cold for a while, and then there was a burning sensation in the lower abdomen.It was like the feeling that Baimo brought him. He didn't know how to cherish Baimo when he was there, but after he left, he felt that the room was full of him.

It seems that at some point he got used to eating the breakfast he carefully prepared for himself every morning, and getting used to living in a clean and tidy room without cleaning it every day.

Even now that An Yu was standing in front of the full-length mirror, no one would raise his head high and straighten his tie for himself.

damn it!Why no matter whether I close my eyes or open them, what I think of is that guy!

An Yu pinched the beer can tightly angrily, until the bottle deformed, and he threw it on the ground as if venting his anger.

An Yu's hands were pierced through his hair, and his breathing was short of breath.

What's wrong with me, when will I be emotionally irritable because of this kind of thing.

But just living here for a few days, how can I make myself so emotionally out of control.

An Yu casually pulled out a tie and put it on, picked up the key and left the house.

In the end, he chose to ask his agent JOJO to take him to the hospital, because his current state is very wrong and he feels unable to drive.

"Brother An, are you okay? You look very uncomfortable, are you okay?" Through the mirror, JOJO carefully looked at An Yu's expression in the mirror.

An Yu's face was pale, his lips were bloodless, and his eyes were covered with thick dark circles. He looked extremely decadent, not like an idol artist at all.

"Is it too much work pressure recently? Otherwise, I will ask the director for a leave."

"No need." Although he really doesn't want to see Xia Feng for the time being, An Yu has always been very responsible for his work. Even if he doesn't want to see Xia Feng again, no matter how bad his mental state is, he doesn't want to delay his work.

"Brother An, it's okay. I received a call from the director just now, saying that Xia Feng asked him for another long vacation to take care of someone. So the director said that the shooting was postponed and you can rest."

"Xia Feng asked for leave again?" An Yu frowned, feeling uneasy for no reason.

"Did he say who he was taking care of?"

"That's not true, but the relationship between Brother An and Brother Xia has always been very good. If Brother An wants to know the reason, you can call Brother Xia."

"No, no need." An Yu closed his eyes, "I'll sleep for a while, call me when I arrive."

An Yue didn't want to sleep, but he didn't want JOJO to see that something was wrong with him. JOJO is his confidant, and he will not tell the reason why he came to see a psychiatrist this time. Maybe he already has an answer in his heart, but he doesn't want to say it.

He An Yue wasn't so wasteful that he wanted an outsider to make a decision for him, he just wanted to get a more definite answer.So that I can give up completely.

The car quickly drove to the gate of the hospital.

"Brother An, do you want me to accompany you in?"

Avoiding JoJo's support, An Yu got out of the car by himself, "No need, I'll call you when I get out."

"Well, Ange, I'll go around here first, and I'll pick you up later."

"Well, let's go."

An Yu took out a pair of sunglasses from his pocket and put them on before entering the hospital.Doctors are people in the industry, and they will not casually reveal the artist's privacy.

An Yu walked into the ward and saw the doctor who was reading a book.The psychiatrist looked very young, wearing a pair of rimmed glasses, looking serious and refined.

"Please sit down." An Yu sat down obediently.

"Mr. An, what kind of questions do you want to consult?" The psychiatrist put down the book he was reading and spread out his notebook.

"Actually, I know this question well, but I just want to get a more definite answer." An Yu cut to the chase.

The psychiatrist nodded, indicating that he understood, "Then what exactly is the problem?"

"I...I seem to like a man." After speaking, An Yu looked up at the man, intending to punch him fiercely if he dared to laugh at him, but the psychiatrist just nodded when he heard the words , and wrote something in the notebook.

"Aren't you... not surprised?" Now An Yue was full of doubts.

"It's no surprise. Homosexuality is very common now, and I am one myself." The doctor replied calmly.

"What? You like men too?" An Yu first looked at the doctor in surprise, then stood up in fear and took a few steps back.

Doctor Calm pushed down his glasses, crossed his hands on the table, "Mr. An, I think you have misunderstood, I don't have any thoughts about you, and you are not my type. Also, I have a partner Please don't get me wrong."

"Oh." An Yu sat back in his seat in a daze, feeling like a mentally retarded person.

An Yu hesitated for a long time, and finally asked this question, "Then... can a man really like a man? Isn't this strange and abnormal?"

"Mr. An, let's not say whether you really like men as you said, I can tell you that our psychology students do not discriminate against any homosexuals. Homosexuality is not what you think. Some people are born with Homosexual, but some people are not, he just happens to like someone of the same sex. Judging by Mr. An's appearance, he should belong to the latter category."

"Oh." An Yu breathed a sigh of relief, "Then is this normal?"

"Naturally. It's just that the person Mr. An likes happens to be of the same sex. If Mr. An still has doubts about this, I can ask a few questions to help you confirm your thoughts."

"First of all, does Mr. An dislike staying with your significant other?"

An Yue was a little embarrassed, "He...he is not my other half."

"Then what do you call him?"

"His name is Baimo."

Doctor calmly nodded, "Okay, then call him Mr. Bai. May I ask Mr. An, how do you feel getting along with Mr. Bai? Disgusted or relaxed?"

An Yue thought for a while and said, "It's good to be with him, it should be relaxing. I hated him very much at first, thinking that he always likes to cry, even after scolding him, he is annoying and clingy. But later, after getting along with him for a period of time, I felt that he was very obedient and obedient. He would take everything I said seriously and be stupid. Even if he scolded him, he would not take revenge, yell at me, or get angry with me. Later I actually Some are reluctant to scold him, just like raising a small animal."

"Okay, then, does Mr. An still have thoughts and sexual/impulsive feelings towards girls?"

An Yu was stunned.He tried hard to think of a few hot female stars who are very popular in the entertainment industry, and found that after thinking of a few famous big-breasted female stars, he still felt a little short of breath.But when I fantasized about being up and down with them, I felt sick, so I thought for a while and replied, "There will be a reaction, but there is no sex/impulse."

The calm doctor nodded, "So, what kind of person does Mr. An think he is? Is his temper mild or irritable? Is he the type to get along with?"

The calm doctor's eyes were calm, and An Yu felt that he was stripped clean in front of the doctor and allowed to be scrutinized by him. There was nowhere to hide lies here.So I had no choice but to give up on myself and said, "I have never had friends, and no one is willing to approach me, so I think I must have a bad temper. I am not the type to get along with. Sometimes I am very machismo, and I am very naive and unreasonable. , and especially narcissistic."

"What about Mr. Bai, does Mr. Bai know that you are such a person?"

"Well, he knows."

"Mr. An, in fact, you already have an idea in your heart, don't you? First of all, you don't reject getting along with Mr. Bai. From your description, I can see that you care about Mr. Bai. And secondly, you still have feelings for women. The reaction is not that you can’t have sex with women, but you can’t accept being with women. Of course, this may be caused by many reasons, but in fact, you no longer reject sex with men in your heart. The last point, Ann Mr. Bai also said that you are a grumpy person and have no friends, but even if you have such a character defect, Mr. Bai still does not dislike you. Even after he has discovered your shortcomings, he is still willing to be by your side. So, Mr. An, I don't know if you really like Mr. Bai, but at least I can know that you don't hate him, on the contrary, you have a crush on him. "

After hearing what the doctor said, An Yu fell silent.

"Mr. An, it's actually very simple to know if you really like Mr. Bai. If you have no sexual/impulse towards women, but you have sex with Mr. Bai, then it's very obvious. But at this stage, if you have sex with Mr. Bai If you care too much and don't want Mr. Bai to get too close to others, you can see the clue."

Does he care too much about foam?seems like it.If not, how could he be so sad when the white foam disappeared.

Don't you want Baimo to get close to people?The answer is yes.If it weren't for this, I wouldn't hate Xia Feng so much.

So that's really the case, An Yu laughed at himself, but what's the use of knowing this now.Bai Mo is dead and will never come back.

"Mr. An? Are you okay?"

"Doctor, let me ask you, do you get along well with your significant other?"

Although Dr. Tan Ding didn't know why, he still replied, "My husband and I get along very well, thank you Mr. An for your concern."

"I wish you happiness." An Yue left the hospital after leaving these words.

He didn't ask JOJO to pick him up. In fact, his heart was very chaotic, even more chaotic than before.

Now he gave up, yes, he admitted that he fell in love with Bai Mo, but so what?People are dead, everything is too late.

Even if Bai Mo didn't die, he wouldn't believe in himself anymore, right?Thinking of my bad attitude towards Bai Mo before, I feel disgusted, let alone Bai Mo?You must have been heartbroken by your own attitude, right?

No, he is a ghost, how could he have a heart?

An Yu was thinking wildly on the road.

On the other side, Xia Feng kept trying to make Bai Mo happy.

The author has something to say:

An Yu is enlightened, and the next thing is for the three of them to meet.Three people play a game.