I really want to die

Mu Zhen still didn't know who the young man was, but he just watched him wandering alone in the world, always going to some dangerous places, and getting scars all over his body.

As if for an unattainable goal, he not only put himself in danger from time to time, but also endured a long period of loneliness, and even lost the ability to speak because he was always alone.He has been fighting, and he no longer knows how to communicate with people. Even if he encounters a talking creature, he will not approach it, let alone open his mouth.

Only when he returned to that place, standing in the world full of dancing lights, would he tell the strange things he had seen like whispers between lovers.And he was telling, without knowing whether there was an audience, the things he had seen in decades of travel, without sleep, and it took a few days and nights to finish, and then there was a long silence.

He didn't know anyone was listening.

Mu Zhen stood opposite the young man, looking at him and listening to him, but he couldn't do anything to comfort him—because the young man couldn't see or hear him.Sometimes Mu Zhen feels that the person the young man is talking about is actually himself.But he can only listen, and he can't do anything except listen.

Why insist on it like this?Why can't you just stop and take a break now and then?

Mu Zhen's hand was placed on the side of the young man's face, as if caressing his face, that face with a slight smile is so beautiful, especially the smile at the corner of the mouth, so beautiful, so beautiful, so heartbreaking.

——Clearly smiling, yet looking so sad.

"Fool, what a fool you are."

Mu Zhen smiled and said something softly like a sigh.

He couldn't see that although there was a smile on his face, that smile was as sad as the young man in front of him.

When Mu Zhen woke up, the scene in the dream was very clear, he could even describe that person's face.It's just that the sad feeling in my chest can't go away.

These days, it seems that I am experiencing another life in a dream—no, to be precise, I am watching another person's life.

Flying around and watching the lights are short-lived.

Mu Zhen couldn't see the whole experience of that person, but could feel all his sorrow and mourning.After waking up, he was full of sadness, but he seldom shed tears—he had experienced a lot, and he seemed to be able to restrain himself more.

And Su Chen followed Mu Zhen, watching him remember more every day, and also watching him, becoming more silent every day.

If you remember all the costs, not happiness and satisfaction, but full of pain, is it worth it?

Mu Zhen held the urn, and carefully wiped it bit by bit. His gaze was so serious, and his wiping movements were so cautious, as if what he was holding was not a box, but someone's delicate and fragile face.

"Master, Miss Wanqing is here." The butler stood at the door, bent over, and said in a low voice.His back is already bent, but recently, it seems to be even more bent.

As if Mu Zhen didn't hear it, he was completely immersed in his own world, with only the box full of ashes in his eyes.

The housekeeper waited quietly for a while, seeing that Mu Zhen was silent, he slightly raised his eyes and looked into the room, with a deep sigh in his heart.

Not long after the butler left, there was noise from downstairs, as if someone was yelling.

"Mu Zhen, you can't do this to me! I've been waiting for you for seven years, seven years! Can't it compare to a pile of dead bones now?"

"Mu Zhen, come out to me! Tell me clearly. Do you think that I, Du Wanqing, is someone who comes and goes when called? What do you think of me?! Ah, what do you think of me?! I am now Everyone's joke! They said that no one wanted the Du family's daughter, she was a woman that people would rather hold a pile of ashes than want!"

"You made me a laughing stock, Mu Zhen...you, how could you treat me like this..."

The shouting finally turned into crying, and the crying was still noisy.

"It's too noisy." Mu Zhen's faint voice suddenly sounded in the room. When he spoke, he didn't raise his head, and the movement of his hands didn't stop, "It's so noisy."

The butler, who was standing at the door again at some point, slightly lowered his head when he heard the words, turned around slowly, and left in silence.

Not long after, the noise downstairs disappeared, and it returned to tranquility.

The butler stood in front of the photos hanging on the wall of the living room. He stared at the photos on the wall, without saying a word for a long time, motionless, as if he had become a statue.

"Okay, now it's quiet." Mu Zhen arranged the urn, stroked it gently, with a slight smile on his face.

Su Chen stood in front of him, his eyes were full of sadness, he shook his head, tears fell down drop by drop.

"Mu Zhen, don't do this, I'm already dead, already dead."

So what if you remember everything?He is dead, at least in this life, he has become a ghost, and it is impossible to meet Mu Zhen.

If he can go through this world and reincarnate again, and this person still follows, then there is a possibility for them to be together.However, his memory after reincarnation is still there, and whether Mu Zhen, who left this world, can remember everything as he does now is unknown.

"Chenchen, don't cry, it's my fault, I didn't find you earlier, and I forgot you." Mu Zhen smiled, tracing the lines on the box bit by bit with his fingers, as if he was touching someone's face , Wiping the tears off his face for him, "Don't be angry, I'll go find you when I remember everything, okay?"

Su Chen, who was crying silently, suddenly opened his eyes wide, and forgot to shed tears.He fixedly looked at the smiling face of the person in front of him, so gentle and affectionate, with deep love in his eyes, and spoke in a very casual tone, as if he was just casually mentioning a trivial matter.

It's really not a big deal to find someone, but the problem is, he's already dead, so what does it mean to look for him to commit suicide?

If it was Su Chen who committed suicide by himself, he would wake up repeatedly in the same world; if it was Mu Zhen, what would happen if this person died unnaturally?

Su Chen suddenly thought that since they met, he has been the protagonist in every life. This person seems to exist only attached to him, and his life trajectory overlaps after the encounter—or in other words, he has become a planet orbiting a star.

Now that he is gone, at least for people in this world, he is a dead person, so maybe Mu Zhen should have his own life.Or maybe, like some planets, after losing the gravity of their stars, they become orphans wandering in the extremely cold and completely dark world among the stars.

What made Su Chen even more sad was that he looked at Mu Zhen like this, although he was worried, he was powerless.

Mu Zhen was having a meeting at the company when suddenly the secretary came into the meeting room with a phone—it was the butler calling from the villa.

"What's the matter?" Mu Zhen just said, when his voice was heard on the other end of the phone, he didn't say a word of nonsense, and reported a message to Mu Zhen.

"Master, Master, the ashes of Master Su Chen are gone."

Mu Zhen suddenly stood up, his complexion as dark as water, and everyone in the conference room suddenly felt the temperature around them drop, and all of them felt chills and pimples on their skin.

Mu Zhen hurried back to the villa immediately, the housekeeper was full of guilt, and said it himself without waiting for him to ask.

"It's Miss Wanqing. She just came here in the morning. Later, I found the door of the young master's room was open. I walked in and saw that the urn was gone."

Mu Zhen glanced at the butler gloomily, as if evaluating the authenticity of his words.Seeing that he was suspected by Mu Zhen, the butler had no intention of defending himself. He had lied to the young master, and the young master should not believe him.

When Mu Zhen sent everyone to search for Du Wanqing's whereabouts, his cell phone rang, and the caller ID showed that it was Du Wanqing.

"Mu Zhen, if you want to get your things back, come to Binhai Avenue, you are alone, I will wait for you there."

After reporting an address, Du Wanqing hung up the phone.

Without a moment's hesitation, Mu Zhen turned around, walked out of the gate, and got into the car.

"You can't go alone like this. It's too dangerous. Who knows what Du Wanqing wants to do." Su Chen followed Mu Zhen and said worriedly.

He didn't expect that Du Wanqing would steal his ashes. If he wanted to take revenge on Mu Zhen, he could just destroy it, and Mu Zhen would definitely be in pain.But since he stole it, why did he have to make an appointment alone?Do you want to use this as a threat to make Mu Zhen repent?

Thinking of the time when Mo Shang hijacked him and threatened Mu Zhen in that life, Su Chen was very worried.

Mu Zhen closed the car door, was about to start the car, paused, turned his head and told the address to the butler who had just chased him, and asked the bodyguards to follow him, then stepped on the accelerator, and the car drove away quickly.

When Mu Zhen saw Du Wanqing, she was the only one around, leaning against the railing, with the boundless blue sea behind her.The sun shines on the sea, like countless pieces of silver, shining brightly.

The sea breeze blows gently, and there is no one around, it looks quiet and peaceful.

Mu Zhen's eyes fell on the urn on the railing. The box was not stable on the railing, so Du Wanqing supported it with one hand.Her posture is careless, and the box looks like it will fall into the sea at any moment.

"You came here just for a handful of ashes?" Du Wanqing looked at Mu Zhen who was smiling, but looked more like crying.As she spoke, she shook her head with tears streaming down her face, "I really don't want to believe that in your eyes, I'm no better than a dead person, a—— a person who has been burned to ashes."

"Give it back to me." Mu Zhen's expression was very calm, and he didn't have any other emotions except his cold breath.And the way he looked at Du Wanqing was no different from looking at the railing behind her.

Du Wanqing stared into Mu Zhen's eyes, the sadness in his eyes became more and more intense, but the expression on his face became more and more indifferent.Finally, she restrained all her expressions, stared into Mu Zhen's eyes, and said word by word:

"You would rather have a dead man than me, so why not just go with him?"

Accompanied by the voice falling, there was a "plop" sound.

The water splashes, the box, falls into the sea.

Mu Zhen didn't even think about it, his figure flashed, and there was a louder "plop" sound, splashing even higher waves.The sea water splashed Du Wanqing's hair and clothes, but she didn't seem to care at all.

After a burst of noise, there was no movement on the sea, and everything returned to the way it was before.

Du Wanqing took out her mobile phone, dialed a number, and said in a dull voice:

"You guessed it. I'm working with you."