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—What am I to you?

——Senior sister Chuning, how could you forget me so easily?

——Not reconciled at all, not reconciled.

bother.

Liu Xu threw away the bowls and chopsticks, and Zhou Yue's words kept lingering in her mind, which made her restless, unable to eat or sleep.

She reached for the mobile phone that was placed aside and held it tightly in the palm of her hand. She stroked the glass screen with her fingers, moved her fingers away, and pressed out a layer of fingerprints full of water vapor.The screen reflected her face with pursed lips, her pupils vibrated back and forth, full of hesitation.

In the end, she still couldn't make up her mind, she threw away her phone, turned around and went back to her room to get her clothes and take a shower.The sound of water in the bathroom was rattling, and the water sprayed out of the dense water column was like a spider weaving a web, locking her firmly, unable to move.

She stopped the water, and could vaguely hear the cell phone vibrating back and forth in the house, with such an urgent desire—an auditory hallucination?Liu Xu comforted herself in this way, walked out of the bathroom with a towel on, picked up the phone, and the auditory hallucination became a reality, which really made people too flustered.

32 missed calls, one text message, all from the same person.

Ann.

I've never been so distraught, or even hopeless. The 32 unanswered phone calls seemed to be sentenced to death by her, and she fell into the bottomless abyss from then on, without light for many years.

I don't know where it hurts, or it hurts everywhere.Joy and sorrow also hurt, she is a heart-stirring rose, she wants to stretch out her hand to care for it, but unexpectedly gets her finger pricked by a hidden wood thorn.

You know it's a kind of torture, why are you so obsessed with it?Li Niande asked me.

Of course, 14 years is nothing to ghosts who live forever.But if that is the process of falling in love with someone, it is a lifetime.

I shook my head with a pale face, blaming her in my heart for meddling in because of her ignorance, and I just begged her to leave quickly.

Is the mirror of life and death still needed?Li Niande reached out and hooked the red rope around my neck.

I still had some strength to brush her hand away, and sneered: I exchanged things with you with a life-and-death lottery, how can there be any reason to return them?

You are in a cocoon.Li Niande withdrew his hand and looked at me with a pitiful and regretful expression, as if he was watching a bird flying towards the fire, without any personal feelings.

Don't worry about it.I turned cold.

oh.Li Niande responded nonchalantly, and said, "Someone is here, so I'll go first, Lord Yincha, please take care, I hope to see you intact next time."

I stretched out my fingers tremblingly, trying to dial her phone number, but my fingers did not listen to the instructions of my brain, and kept trembling, the light of the screen gradually dimmed, and the beads of sweat from my palms seemed to be covered with sticky and slippery ointment.

The cell phone, which was clearly held tightly, slipped out of his hand with a snap and fell to the ground. The crisp sound broke the tight string in his mind.

Broken--so crisply.

Xiao Huan quickly adapted to the sudden lighting in the room, and heard a faint movement, thinking it was an auditory hallucination. When she walked into the back room, she saw An An who was curled up on the sofa, and grabbed her.

"An'an?"

Xiao Huan felt like he was approaching a huge ice bank. Every inch he got closer, an inch of ice pick was nailed into the sole of his foot, and the wound was so painful that he lost consciousness.

"Why are you back?" I raised my pale face and looked at her.

"Your hands and feet are so cold, what happened?" Xiao Huan stretched out his hand to touch it, the palm of his hand seemed to be placed on a fiery red iron plate, and the air blew out.

"I'll go to the hospital with you."

"No need." I broke free from her hand, why did I go to the hospital, and no one cared about me—"I'll just take a rest."

"How can it be done!" Xiao Huan was in a hurry, ignoring my refusal, she stretched out her hand across my waist, her whole body was frozen stiff, and her teeth were chattering.

"I said no!"

As soon as I pushed her away, Xiao Huan fell down on the sofa, as if he had escaped from the freezer, and regained consciousness.I don't know whether it was the unexpected push away or the slightly angry and resentful tone that made him feel extremely embarrassed. At this moment, Xiao Huan felt that he was always far away from her, and he never knew half of her.

I was expressionless: "Bring me a quilt and a stove."

Xiao Huan hesitated for a moment, then got up quickly, wrapped two quilts around my body, and turned on the heater to the maximum.She looked up, and there was a layer of clammy mist covering An An's body, lingering endlessly in front of her eyes.

"An'an—"

"Go and turn off the light for me."

The whole room was plunged into darkness, Xiao Huan was groping forward in the darkness, and accidentally stepped on something, illuminating her pupils.The screen of the mobile phone was regarded as a field of calls that no one answered, and the contact person was Zhang Chuning.

"Is it because of her?"

Automatically shielding myself from outside sounds, I huddled under the quilt and endured the unbearable wrath of the sky, cutting off my flesh and blood inch by inch.

I bit my finger, and begged her to stop, she suddenly called my name, like a spring dream I had by accident that year, she danced with me in her charming dream—it looked like honey, but in reality, who knew that she always Just followed for so many years.

Xiao Huan lifted the quilt, ignoring the unusually cold temperature, she asked me: "Could it be that I made a joke with you that night, and she just ignored you?"

"Angry and jealous?" Xiao Huan shook me: "Go and explain to her clearly, I have nothing to do with you, right?"

Stop it - I knelt down and cried and begged for mercy, but she wouldn't let me go.

"No need." I pushed her hand away, and staggered back to the room, with water marks on the soles of my feet: "I know her very well, I'm not such a jealous person."

Xiao Huan was speechless, and followed quickly. She was blocked from the door for the first time.There is nothing to be sorry for - she never thought of intervening in the affairs between the two of them, she just cared about An An's happiness, and never thought that things would change like this.

If it is really because of your own existence that the fate of two people is staggered, it is the best choice to leave.Maybe that person was right, the concern he brought to An An has always been to disturb.

She needs herself occasionally, and it's not a trick of being indifferent, maybe she doesn't want to embarrass herself.This kind of need lacks the reason for her absolute existence. Thinking about it carefully, it is too sad.

I may have to live up to someone's entrustment before death.Xiao Huan thought.

Liu Xu stuffed herself under the quilt, and her originally not sober mind became even more confused. She touched a book casually, glanced at it, and then slowly came to her senses. lost on her.

Flipping through two pages casually, I accidentally remembered her temperature and softness that day, that kind of heartbeat and tenderness, which made her heart skip a beat.

I used to make assumptions, and some things need to be experienced by two people to be complete, but now I have done it for real, and the details have been magnified to frustration by a magnifying glass.

Just as she was about to answer her missed call, the phone rang suddenly. Liu Xu took it over and saw that it was Chu Hua.

"Sister, I'm Chu Hua."

"Well, is something wrong?"

Liu Xu still remembered the face of the loyal dog Chu Hua, smiled and shouted cheers to herself, the rebirth was just like yesterday, without panic or fear, but after meeting her again, she became less and less like herself.

Weaknesses and armor... something like that.

"Clean up your lounge today and sort out a bunch of old things." Chu Hua over there scratched his head: "I wanted to send it over, but I couldn't remember my sister's address, so I had to call and ask about these things. , do you want more?"

Not hers, but Zhang Chuning's.Liu Xu thought for a while: "Take it here."

"Is now okay?"

Liu Xu responded lightly, and Chu Hua's speed was still as fast as ever, but after a while, he rang the doorbell.

Zhang Chuning's old things were packed in cardboard boxes. Chu Hua put the things on the ground, looked up at Liu Xu, and the words in his eyes condensed into one sentence: "Sister, are you okay?"

Liuxu squatted down and opened the box. It was clean, tidy and spotless--the owner often flipped through and wiped it, and took great care of it.She paused her hand and replied without raising her head: "It's okay."

Chu Hua told her to be more courageous and unrestrained than before, and she didn't know whether it was joy or sorrow.In the past, sister Chu Ning was like a seedling in a greenhouse, which needed careful care from people, but now, she grew into a plant covered in thorns, which was used to defend herself from the enemy.

"Sister, I haven't turned over the things inside." Chu Hua rubbed his hands, feeling a little uneasy: "No one has turned over either."

Liu Xu casually asked, "Really?"

Chu Hua nodded heavily: "Sister Chu Ning, you used to hate others looking through things in your lounge, so no one has the guts to do so."

"Not to mention this box."

"What about this box?"

"Sister Chu Ning, you forgot that senior Xiao Zhen was kicked out of your anger because of tampering with your things... Sister Qu Yi came to be your executive manager..." At the end, he asked cautiously: "No ?"

"Yeah." Liu Xu stood up, "It's getting late, if there's nothing else, you can go."

Chu Hua took two steps, and weakly called "Sister", Liu Xu looked up and saw him smiling brightly, and couldn't help but move in his heart: "Do it well."

"Yeah." Chu Hua scratched his head embarrassingly: "Sister, you have to work hard."

In a trance, Liu Xu thought she had seen Yi Cheng, and wondered what happened to him—that immortal soul wandering in the world, perhaps, he knew everything, maybe...

Probably women know women best. Although the things in the box are not expensive, Liu Xu can see the hidden behind the abandonment at a glance - there is a story about the love between two girls.

Cheap street stalls—pearl earrings, rings, bracelets… names carved on wood, framed in a gaudy heart shape; handwriting on post-it notes, dated in handwriting, stopped six years ago; and… photo albums .

Liu Xu flipped through one by one, it was obviously someone else's past, she didn't have any emotion, but she burst into tears.

Zhang Chuning, is it you—are you missing me?

There are negatives to testify about the past, Zhou Yue did not lie, everything that happened between her and Zhang Chuning is true.

What exactly happened that made you, who loves Zhou Yue so deeply, choose to forget everything, and even change your preferences and habits, just to protect Zhou Yue.

Liu Xu put away the boxes with a calm face, and piled the boxes into the warehouse, letting the dust accumulate.The story of Zhou Yue and Zhang Chuning will be sealed forever, and it couldn't be better.

But why, would you be so sad?