Love Diary of a Spiritual Boy

Sunny September 8

I still can't figure out this mess of thoughts.

Yingying asked me what I think about homosexuality. I think she has become more and more strange recently. She either asked me Jiang Tong or asked me about homosexuality. Moreover, Jiang Tong and homosexuality are not compatible. She always confuses the two. He didn't even think about what others would think of Jiang Tong when he talked about it.

Homosexuality has always been a blind spot in my knowledge, and since I was a child, I have never seen homosexuality in real life, at most I have only seen it on the Internet or in movies. I really don't know what to say.

But most people will not accept it. After all, this is a very small group. Even if the tolerance of the public is getting higher and higher, there will be no fewer people holding traditional ideas.

I think I'm also a very worldly average person.

Jiang Tong seems to have encountered something recently, not only drooping his face every day, but also swearing at me from time to time. Yingying is in the same camp as her, and together with him, he is angry with me.But judging from what happened a few days ago, he should also attach great importance to me-the chocolate I gave him was eaten up by Zhao Hengyi and the others, and Jiang Tong was so angry that he directly sent out on his face. If you persuade him to lose it, it will be gone, and I will just buy it for you.

Zhao Hengyi later told me that if I hadn’t been there that day, he might have been beaten to disfigurement by Jiang Tong; I smiled expressionlessly and told him to avoid messing with Jiang Tong, as he is not as kind as he appears on the surface.

Oh, by the way, there is also Yu Cunyi, despite her gentle and delicate appearance, she is actually a lunatic in her heart. She told me some homosexual stories every now and then, and I thought she was beating me too often.

I myself was very depressed, I thought that Xie Jing Xing was a straight man and anyone with eyes could tell, how could I become a homosexual when I was so good-looking?

Ying Ying said Xie Jing Xing, do you know what the five words "homophobia means deep cabinet" mean?I said I don't know, and she went on to say, do you like Jiang Tong?I said I like it.Yingying wiped her face, and scolded me heartbroken. The liking you mentioned is not the same type as the liking that likes Yingying, right?

I said no, there is still a little difference.Most of my liking for Yingying stems from her long-term company, she is indispensable; while my liking for Jiang Tong stems from his interesting soul, as for whether it can be missing, my current relationship with Jiang Tong has not gone deep enough I can talk about this level, and I have never owned it, so there is no need to talk about what I have lost.

As time passed, Yu Cunyi seemed to be getting more and more dissatisfied with me. I thought it was because the time to go abroad was getting closer and she became more and more anxious.But until one night she called and asked me to meet at the park, and when I arrived I found her waiting for me with a bag of beer.

"It's not wine, it's a drink." This was the first sentence she said to me after we met.

I opened a can and took a sip, and found that it was indeed a drink; there were many people in the park, and there were many old ladies dancing in the square not far away, Yu Cunyi squeezed the can in his hand, and looked at me: "Xie Jingxing, I finally know That's why you dumped me back then."

Back then we broke up peacefully, the two sides reached an agreement, and the reason given was that the worst street was inappropriate, but I always knew that she had resentment in her heart, although I didn't understand what she was complaining about.

She said straight to the point: "Xie Jing Xing, how long have you known Jiang Tong?"

I suspect that she is possessed by Yingying, otherwise why would she always talk about Jiang Tong like her: "I met him when the semester started."

"You treat him so well when you first met?"

"Do I have it?"

"Take him to dinner, help him out, buy him gifts, and play games with him." She raised her head, her eyes were dark, "Do you want me to give you another example?"

"I've done what you said to you, and I've done it to Yingying." I still didn't understand what she was trying to explain, "So?"

"Do you know Jiang Tong likes you?"

"know."

"Then do you like him?"

"like."

"Haha! Don't be so quick, you probably haven't understood what I mean by liking."

I was a little impatient: "I really don't understand, can you make it clearer?"

"You still have the face to be impatient with me?!" She stood up abruptly, her tone like a firecracker, "Xie Jing Xing, do you know what your behavior is now? To be serious, you are cheating on marriage!! You are Why didn’t you tell me about homosexuality?! It’s been on my mind for so long! You’re very proud, aren’t you?!”

Where there are women, there are rivers and lakes, and women are duplicity creatures, but unfortunately, I only understood the last few sentences before realizing that her dislike was also a lie to me.

"Speak up, don't be so angry." I opened a bottle of drink for her, "Who told you I'm gay? I'm homophobic, okay?"

Yu Cunyi stuffed the crushed soda can into my hand with his backhand: "Don't be disgusting! You say that you are afraid that you are more disgusting than admitting that you are gay! No wonder Pan Yingying talks about being the same wife every day! I thought she was What a trick! I didn’t expect her to be the same wife!”

"I did not lie to you."

"Jiang Tong dares to admit that he likes you, don't you dare? Who just said that he likes Jiang Tong confidently? You have already made straight girls look down on you, and you want homosexuals to look down on you too?"

After she finished speaking, she turned around and left without giving me a chance to explain. After she left, she would yell at me from a distance that we are breaking up now!The old ladies had already danced from one song to another, and I sat on the bench and drank the bag of drinks alone, finally stopping my restless heartbeat.

Then I went to ask Jiang Tong. During the next spring outing organized by the school, the fiery red bonfire illuminated Jiang Tong's tender and white face, and I could easily formulate his answer.

"All those who want to get close to you without any reason have unreasonable thoughts about you."

"Including you?"

"Of course."

After tasting the feeling of being broken in love, I now have a new feeling - that kind of anxiety along with these heartfelt words, I am a little out of breath.

"Stupid—bad—this—called—heart—moved——"

The little guy in my head told me so.