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In the monitoring room, the bodyguard on duty sat in front of the monitor.His companion went to the bathroom, and he looked up at Deng Luoyi's unchanging sleeping position in the surveillance video. The night was too long, so he yawned and used his mobile phone to scroll through social software boredly.

Luo Xuan curled up his body, frowned tightly, his breath tightened and then loosened, like a string that was tensed and constantly pulled.He was dreaming again, and the memory woke up from the dream.

"Roy, I'll take you back." Jiang Mingyun reached out and took the car keys from the entrance.He stood in front of the door, looked at Luo Xuan, and waited for him to come over.

Luo Xuan didn't want to leave.

He folded his hands behind his back and shook his head with a downcast face.

Jiang Mingyun flipped the key with his fingers, and put it back on the locker after a while, "I'll call and ask Eve to pick you up?"

"Don't..." He panicked, the sound gradually weakened and buried in the sand.

Jiang Mingyun didn't speak for a while, then suddenly walked towards him, the sound of footsteps approaching, a pair of black leather toes appeared in his narrow field of vision.

"What’s wrong with you?"

His voice was so close that Luo Xuan's ears felt hot.

"I...I won't go back..." The words were vague and inaudible.

"I need a reason."

Luo Xuan bit his lip, he was afraid that saying this reason would cause him to send him back to Deng Luoyi, "I...not..."

"Not what?" Jiang Mingyun asked.

"Deng Luoyi."

Jiang Mingyun pieced together his broken sentences and asked in a questioning tone, "Aren't you Deng Luoyi?"

Luo Xuan nodded cautiously, his fingers were clasped behind his back, and his fingertips pinched anxiety and timidity.

There was a long silence, Jiang Mingyun obviously didn't believe his words, Luo Xuan could feel his heavy breathing, his cautious and suspicious eyes on him.Being exposed to such gazes, Luo Xuan lowered his head lower and lower. If there was a hole in the floor, he would crawl into it without hesitation.

"Don't send me back...please..."

Luo Xuan bent his back and curled up even more. This is the posture of a baby sleeping in the mother's womb, returning to the beginning of life, seeking that false sense of security from the same posture.

The dream collapsed into pieces, and he was trapped in an unreal, seemingly endless dream, unable to breathe, he was about to be strangled to death.

Why did Jiang Mingyun refuse to take him away?

Abandoned, betrayed, exploited, deceived - favoritism!He saw Jiang Mingyun kissing Deng Luoyi.

He held Jiang Mingyun's hand, snowflakes fell from the sky, and the vast snow fog drowned people in the blink of an eye, and he couldn't see clearly the people who were close at hand.

"Take me away, okay? Mingyun, take me away. If...you don't take me away...maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, you will receive my obituary...I won't lie to you."

"Lo, you are too extreme."

The temperature in his hands disappeared, and he didn't grab anything.He ran after him, although he was not far ahead, but he couldn't catch up.He was about to cry, and suddenly bumped into Jiang Mingyun's arms. Jiang Mingyun raised his arms and hugged him tightly, as if he wanted to stuff him into his body, and he could never be separated.

Embrace is warm.

"Give him back to me." Jiang Mingyun said.

He could understand the meaning of Jiang Mingyun's words, so he became sad.

Luo Xuan realized that he was sobbing, and the rapid inhalation and exhalation caused his whole body to tremble regularly, tears flowed down his cheeks into his mouth, salty like blood.In the darkness, he struggled to open his eyes. He hadn't completely freed himself from the despair of the dream. The pain in his heart was real, as if a hand was grabbing the blood vessel connected to the heart and pulling it out. He could accurately locate the pain in the heart. top.

Almost everyone prefers Deng Luoyi, father, mother, Deng Luoyi's friends.Luo Xuan has no friends.

Deng Luoyi is the sun, but he cannot be a star. He is not a distant luminous star, but a solid satellite with bumps on the surface, reflecting the faint sunlight around the earth.

He actually didn't blame Jiang Mingyun, Deng Luoyi was much better than him, he knew it.

Luo Xuan recalled the scene in the dream, repeatedly recalling it until he was exhausted.He wants to engrave it in his mind so as not to forget it again.He did not know where he had heard such a statement: Dreams are the reappearance of memories, and the reason for the difference between the two is because individuals have processed memories.

He couldn't tell whether what happened in the dream really happened in the past. Electrotherapy did damage his memory. During the time in the mental hospital, he couldn't even remember who Jiang Mingyun was. By the window, overlooking the garden for a long time without knowing what I was looking at.

Then one day, he woke up from the bed in the villa, recalling the fragmented past, and reinjecting life into this body.

He finally knew what he was looking at.

He was looking at Jiang Mingyun.

In the early stage of admission, Jiang Mingyun would appear every day, standing alone in the garden of the mental hospital, not moving around, and standing in a fixed position.The time of his appearance is uncertain, sometimes in the early morning, sometimes in the evening, and it may also appear at noon when the sun is fierce.Luo Xuan was trapped in the ward and couldn't move. Except for the time wasted by basic physiological needs such as sleeping and eating, he was lying on the windowpane waiting for him all the time.

It was about the time when he was receiving electrotherapy, and Jiang Mingyun couldn't come.But even if Jiang Mingyun no longer appeared, even if he had completely forgotten about Jiang Mingyun, his subconscious mind was still driving him to look out the window.

He is waiting for him.

The more memories of the past are recovered, the more painful it is for Luo Xuan.He is a subsidiary of Deng Luoyi, a product of mental illness, he should not have existed.Jiang Mingyun took care of him as if he was a sick Deng Luoyi, hugging him was Deng Luoyi's body.Luo Xuan didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit that Deng Luoyi's words were correct—Jiang Mingyun definitely wanted him to disappear.

Luo Xuan understood this fact, but he was mad with jealousy.He got up and leaned against the bed, clapped his hands twice, the light was on, he opened the drawer of the bedside table, and took out a ring box from it.

The bodyguard in the monitoring room noticed that he was awake, put down his phone, and paid attention to his behavior.

Luo Xuan put the ring on himself, and looked at it from side to side. After a long time, he slowly took off the ring, facing the light, and suddenly saw the two letters engraved on the inner circle of the ring, M and R, Myron and Roy .His eyes were still red from crying, and he threw the ring out angrily and aggrieved. Just after throwing it away, the sound of metal falling to the ground made him regret it. He looks for it together.

In the morning, Eve arrived at the villa on time, and as soon as he saw her, he couldn't wait to say that he was going to move.

"I want to be closer to him." Luo Xuan was like a child who doesn't get candy.He has endured to the limit, pessimistic mood will crush him.

Eve disagreed: "He must be able to guess that you are not Mr. Deng."

Luo Xuan hired Eve, Deng Luoyi's former life assistant, in order to make himself more like Deng Luoyi.He wants to become what Jiang Mingyun likes.

"I'll take it step by step." Luo Xuan wiped away the emotion in his eyes, adjusted his posture, raised his chin slightly like Deng Luoyi, and began to drink coffee calmly.

The coffee is bitter and tasteless, it would be better if milk and sugar can be added.

He bought Jiang Mingyun's neighbor's house at a high price and asked the original owner to move out as soon as possible. Luo Xuan sat in the new house and drank coffee the next day.

Jiang Mingyun must have noticed him.

On the first day he moved into his new house, he saw Jiang Mingyun in sportswear running across the street through the window, and passed by again more than half an hour later.Jiang Mingyun has the habit of running in the morning. When he and Jiang Mingyun first got together, Jiang Mingyun went outdoors for a morning run. He clung to him and wanted to run with him, but he was too tired after running a few meters, which seriously slowed down Jiang Mingyun's progress. Speed, and Jiang Mingyun can run ten kilometers in the morning.After that, he never went out for morning jogs with Jiang Mingyun again, one time was enough for him.

On the second day after moving into the new house, I didn't see Jiang Mingyun running in the morning, and on the third day after moving into the new house, I didn't see Jiang Mingyun running in the morning either.

Jiang Mingyun was avoiding him.

"Your move to his next door was too abrupt, not like what Mr. Deng did. He is probably suspecting that you are Luo Xuan now."

Luo Xuan poured the medicine in the bottle on the table, and twisted the medicine back into the bottle one by one.The psychiatrist regularly prescribed medicine for him, but he didn't take any of it, so he didn't want Deng Luoyi to come back.

The leap from the third floor caused Deng Luoyi to fall into a state of autism. After electrotherapy, Deng Luoyi appeared for a while, but perhaps he couldn't bear the days of being locked up in the mental hospital, and Luo Xuan regained his body.

"If I don't look for him, he will gradually doubt himself and feel that he is being sentimental." Luo Xuan rested his chin wearily, "I won't look for him."

Another three months later, at the end of autumn, the experimental building invested by Anri for a famous university was put into use.The principal personally accompanied the CEO of Anli to visit the laboratory building, and Luo Xuan made a request to visit the campus by the way.

The principal introduced the school's history and celebrities while walking. They walked around for a long time. Luo Xuan walked towards the Institute of Information Technology intentionally or unintentionally.

Luo Xuan had been looking forward to today's arrival a few months ago, but in the end he didn't get anything.He was lying on the table in the study, depressed, and didn't eat dinner.

"Why won't he let me in?!" He repeated this sentence countless times.

Eve thought for a while and said, "Maybe the principal doesn't have an access card, life is always full of surprises."

"Accident." Luo Xuan straightened his body, his eyes instantly focused, and he thought of a good idea.

Once people's expectations fail, they especially want to realize this expectation through other means.Today, Luo Xuan had to see Jiang Mingyun.

Before it was dark, Luo Xuan came to the courtyard wearing a baseball glove. The ball in his hand had the autograph of a baseball star of the twentieth century.

"When I was playing baseball, the ball fell over the low wall and fell into the next yard. This ball happened to be unique. I went to find the ball. Isn't that weird? Is that something my brother would do?" he asked Eve.

"No surprise, but he usually orders other people to pick up the ball."

Luo Xuan intended to get close to Jiang Mingyun, "I don't pick up the ball, I supervise others to pick it up, it's okay."

The view from the second floor of Jiang Mingyun's house included the yard next door. He was afraid that Jiang Mingyun would witness what happened, so the play had to be complete. He couldn't just throw the ball into Jiang Mingyun's yard.

He Sheng held a baseball bat in his hand, tensed his arm muscles, and took a stance.

"You hit the ball in the next yard, please."

The other party nodded seriously.

With one foot as a pivot, Luo Xuan lifted his knees, twisted his waist, and threw the ball with the help of his turning.The ball collided with the baseball bat, flew in the opposite direction, and crossed the courtyard wall. With a loud crash, the glass next door shattered.

Life is full of surprises.

A group of people look at me, I look at me, Luo Xuan said in a low voice, "Well done."

There is no need to pick up the ball, he has a legitimate reason to invite Jiang Mingyun to dinner.

The author says:

I don’t understand the comment feedback, so I’ll use “Luo Xuan” and “Deng Luoyi” to refer to the two personalities.