Sniper is a little milk dog

Jingmuyu's ear pinna slowly started to burn again.No matter how many times he has experienced it, he still feels embarrassed when faced with Chu Ci's sincere and frank expression of love.He lowered his head, buried half of his face in the quilt, only showing two black eyes, blinking, staring at Chu Ci.

Chu Ci said: "Why are you looking at me like this? Shouldn't you give me a little response, brother?"

Jing Muyu didn't know how to respond.There were only two dry sentences in his mind, "I like you too" and "I love you too", these two sentences were not only nothing new, but he himself was too embarrassed to say them.In the end, he decided to avoid this topic, and said very ostrich: "Come here, it's cold."

Chu Ci laughed at him: "It's already October, of course it will be cold." He made a gesture and turned to get out of bed: "Shall I turn on the air conditioner?"

Jing Muyu hurriedly grabbed the corner of his clothes, frowning: "Don't open it, it's hot."

"It's so hard to serve," Chu Ci crawled back under the blanket and hugged him, pinching the tip of his nose: "I really don't know who is the kid?"

"The hot air from the air conditioner is uncomfortable and dry. I don't like it," Jing Muyu explained to him seriously, and then he tilted his cheek against the boy's shoulder and rubbed it contentedly: "That's fine." Then he Suddenly a question came to mind: "It's October, it's so cold, why do you wear short sleeves?"

What he was talking about was that during the game in the afternoon, Chu Ci went up in short-sleeved clothes without a team uniform jacket.Jing Muyu frowned, looked at Chu Ci with a bit of condemnation, and tried to show the majesty of an elder.How could Chu Ci be afraid of him, he squeezed into his arms and responded casually: "The young man is full of anger, what's the matter, brother, do you want to help me put out the fire?"

"..." Jing Muyu was silent for a while, then said, "Shut up."

"Do you want to know—"

"Do not want to."

Chuci has successfully embedded himself in Jingmuyu's arms.The young man was close to him in a warm mass, his expression could not be seen clearly in the darkness, only a slightly smiling voice could be heard: "Brother——" As he said that, the temperature on his lips came close to his ears, sending out The tip pricked the skin behind the ear of Jingmu elm itchy.

"Do you know," he said affectionately close to Jing Muyu's ear, "All I save in my League of Legends are your videos. When everyone else is on pornhub, I'm on League of Legends." The boy licked the tip of his teeth , unable to restrain himself, he turned to bite the skin on the side of Jingmuyu's neck, and heard Jingmuyu's indistinct gasp.

Jing Muyu was already sleepy.He played five high-intensity games, and was called out for dinner at night. His eyelids fell when he was next to the pillow, and he was so sleepy that his voice was a vague murmur: "Don't make trouble, we have to catch a plane tomorrow."

"Brother is always so cunning," Chu Ci bit the soft flesh of his neck, gritted his teeth, and complained angrily, "Try tricks to avoid me, knowing that I'm soft on you."

Jing Muyu was very innocent, closed his eyes and said, "I didn't."

"Brother, why are you so dumb? I'm really curious, why you weren't cheated by others in the 20 years before you met me." Chu Ci squeezed his face: "Stay dumb and kind, if you want If you hadn't met such a kind person like me, you were born to be bullied."

"I didn't." Jing Muyu was already unconscious, and closed his eyes to refute him: "Only you say that, others are afraid of me."

Chu Ci was angry and funny: "What's so scary about wood." He poked Jing Muyu's face: "Jing Muyu. Dumb and stupid."

"You are." Jing Muyu retorted childishly and vaguely, and then hid his head under Chu Ci's arm: "Stop talking, I'm going to sleep."

He domineeringly prevented Chu Ci from speaking, but after the air was quiet for 5 minutes, he found that his originally hazy consciousness gradually regained consciousness, and he couldn't fall asleep.

After brewing with his eyes closed for a while, he became more and more sober, almost sober that he could jump up and play another BO5.Jing Muyu had no choice but to get out from under Chu Ci's arm and announced, "I can't sleep anymore."

Chu Ci was about to fall asleep, but he woke him up again.He looked into his boyfriend's dark and innocent eyes, without any temper, and said helplessly, "That's good, I can't sleep now, we pack a bag, and go to sleep on the plane tomorrow."

Jing Muyu shook his head vigorously, the ends of his hair brushed against the pillowcase, and he whispered, "I don't want to go back to China."

He was very anxious and unconsciously put his index finger in his mouth and bit his nails.He looked down, stared at Chu Ci's collar, and repeated: "I don't want to go back."

In fact, he regretted it when he said it.Irresponsible transfer of his own pressure to an underage teenager, and when the teenager himself is also burdened with the same pressure, he feels that he is acting selfishly.So after blurting out "I don't want to go back", he didn't want to continue, and he was so full of words that he couldn't speak.

He knew that Chu Ci was looking at him.If the boy's gaze had any substance, Jing Muyu lowered his head, and felt ashamed to be stared at by him, and slowly shrank under the quilt.The tip of his nose was almost submerged in the quilt when he heard Chu Ci's voice: "Come here a little bit so I can hug you."

The young man spoke calmly, calmly and calmly.The tips of Jing Muyu's ears turned red, and he felt a strong shame in his heart. He needs to be comforted by a minor when he is so old and has such a poor ability to bear it. But on the other hand, he really can't resist this way of comforting.

While spurning himself in his heart, he rolled into Chu Ci's arms, buried him like an ostrich, and said sullenly, "I beat him so badly, I don't want to go back."

"Although...although it is true that there is a problem within the team members, but...some things, I can obviously handle it better. The front is fine...this time I went abroad and played so badly. The audience, they must have I was looking forward to it, but the result was so bad. I was in better shape only in the last hand, and I didn’t have to wash it at other times. My mentality was too bad. The third motorcycle blindly pierced Longji Mountain with no vision and killed you too Oh, I was too anxious. At that time... I was really too anxious... I didn't shoot well at the first shot, and I was actually very panicked... The gun couldn't be suppressed as I went back, let the person go, and my mind was in a mess blank……"

It was okay before the game was over, and he could comfort himself that he still had hope; but it was over, and in the dead of night, he couldn't stop thinking about his stupid operations, and the more he thought about it, the more he blamed himself.

Of course he knew what he was going to face when he returned to the Congress this time.There were no flowers and applause. For a long time, there were only endless ridicule and insults. Words such as "Contest Soft-legged Shrimp", "Civil War Illusory God", and "Background Board" flashed through his mind. He had actually heard these words many years ago, but it seemed that he would hear them again soon.

At least until the next game, this kind of speech will always exist.Although someone who is strong enough will only be paid attention to when someone blows someone up, but not everyone can bear the gap between being blown up and being hacked-the audience can praise the player to the altar, and they can still be merciless. Step on it.When losing, breathing is all wrong.

"..." Jing Muyu closed his eyes.He knows that he can only wait for the next opportunity to clear his shame, and if he still plays badly next time, he can only continue to be a role that can be ridiculed: "I know I have a mentality problem, I shouldn't think so ’” he said in infinite frustration, “but I can’t help it. No matter how many times it’s passed, I can’t help it, I always pay attention to what they will say about me. Before, I would think, just one more time, just one more time I'm sure I can prove myself again. The result is just to make more stupid mistakes again and again. Many years ago, I had a flat A that flashed and hid joy in my dreams. Now, I'm really afraid that I will return to it in the future. Like before, when I close my eyes again and again, I see a bad picture in front of my eyes, really, it's hard."

"You said I love to escape," Jing Muyu murmured, he reached out his hand in the dark, and put his trembling fingertips on Chu Ci's palm, as if he was holding the light, but also fell into a boundless hell: "Forgive me , if you knew exactly how I felt before, you would understand me. You would."

He knew he was committing a crime now, that he was forcing his emotions onto another person to make himself feel better.This was of course very selfish, he knew that Chu Ci's current mental condition might not be much better than him, but he couldn't help but reach out to Chu Ci for help.Jing Muyu thought about the past, the current mess, the RTP captain's cheerful smile, and the young man's angry face during the intermission.Tears soon filled his eyes, he blamed himself and felt guilty towards the boy, but he had no choice but to say, "I'm sorry."

He heard Chu Ci sigh, the young man hugged him, and asked leisurely: "What are you sorry for?" Then he replied: "There is nothing to be sorry about."

"Don't tolerate me like this, I'm really useless."

"Oh, actually, I know what you're thinking." Chu Ci pulled his hands out of his palms, held his face in both hands, and raised them up to face him squarely: "You think you didn't play well in some places, something went wrong, Sorry for me? It's irresponsible to hand over the bad emotions to me afterwards?"

Jing Muyu was speechless, buried his face in his palm, and nodded.

"If it's someone else, if it's not me...you..."

"If it were someone else, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here now typing on the keyboard and pinching the mouse, I wouldn't play sks and 98k, I wouldn't be called CC016, I would go to school, take exams, and live a normal life. I wouldn't have such a big Are you satisfied?" Chu Ci suddenly became angry, and the anger blocked his heart.He turned over and bullied Jing Muyu, restrained Jing Muyu's wrist and pushed it to the top of his head, leaned down to face his face expressionlessly, and looked at him: "Jing Muyu!"

He hardly ever called Jing Muyu by first and last name, this was the first time.

Jing Muyu shrinks back, not daring to face him.

"Do I have to rape you now so that you know how much I love you and what your position in my heart is?" He pinched the statue on Jing Muyu's wrist Pea-like, protruding bones, slowly, and gnashing teeth: "In the middle of the night, I think you are looking for/fuck, looking for/doing it."

All his gentleness is gone, pressed on Jing Muyu, only the aggression and intent left wide open, the cheek is very close to Jingmuyu, Jingmuyu can clearly see the cold smile on the corner of his mouth Meaning, the eyes are so cold: "Would you like it?"

Jing Muyu also knew that he had said something wrong, and shook his head in panic.After a stalemate for a while, he said uncomfortably, "Let me go."

After a long time, Chu Ci let out a long sigh and let go of him.Tonight he sighed probably as much as a year, Chuci turned over, lay on his back next to Jingmuyu, and said a little tiredly: "Don't say sorry, we are a team, if you make a mistake, you have to apologize like this, If you want me to change teammates, then I should kowtow to you when I make mistakes? Don’t think that I don’t know where I made mistakes. I know very well, and I can count them out for you now. Don’t look for I took the blame on myself, and it was all wrong."

Jing Muyu hugged the corner of the quilt, curled up, and didn't speak.Chu Ci slowly came over, got into Jing Muyu's quilt, poked his head out and kissed his forehead.Pious, calm, as if the violence just now was just an illusion.

He held Jingmu Yu's hand.

"Don't flinch, don't run away, stand up and walk down."

"If you can do it, so can I."

The cold wind rolled over outside the window, shaking the window frame for a while.

winter is here.