Dare to Believe the Country and Live Up to Your Honor Ⅲ

"Zhan Pei, go and get me a cup of hot water, I feel a little cold." Sitting at the stone table in the yard, Gongsun Mingyue was wearing a cotton coat and looking at the shining stars in the sky, feeling that life is wonderful, but she was about to out of sight.

When Zhan Pei walked into the house, he realized that the water in the kettle was already cold, so he held the kettle and said, "Brother Gongsun, I'm going to boil the water now, just wait a while."

Gongsun Mingyue showed a knowing smile. He didn't intend to send Zhan Pei away, but he felt that it was time to make it clear to Pang Ce, because he felt that he was getting weaker and weaker, and he was afraid that if he didn't say anything, he would lose his chance.

Pang Ce was staying in the study at this time. He knew in his heart that it was almost impossible to find a way to save Gongsun Mingyue from books, but he still sat stubbornly for several days. He didn't dare to see him, he was afraid of seeing him. Until he died in front of himself, he had already experienced it once, and he didn't want to suffer a second time.

Gongsun Mingyue was supported by Suzaku into the study room. Originally, he didn't want to disturb anyone, but when he almost fell down on the way, it was Suzaku who helped him in time, and it was Suzaku who told him that Pang Ce was in the study room.

"General." Seeing Pang Ce flipping through the books on the desk, Suzaku softly called out.

Pang Ce raised his haggard face. He hadn't slept for several days. There were many small stubbles growing under his chin, and there were obvious red bloodshot eyes. When he saw Gongsun Mingyue being helped into the room , hastily ran down from the desk, and embraced him from Suzaku's hand into her arms.

Seeing this scene, Suzaku quietly turned and walked out of the room, and closed the door carefully.

Gongsun Mingyue let him carry her to the collapse, and sat down slowly.It's just that the doubts in his heart still made him unable to help asking: "Why didn't you come to see me?"

After a long silence, Ponce looked up at him and said with a wry smile, "I'm afraid."

Although there was only one word, it already made Gongsun Mingyue's eyes turn red. He knew what he was afraid of. Death might be a relief to him, but what about him?He dare not imagine.

"What are you afraid of, afraid that I will eat you?" Gongsun Mingyue forced a smile and said slyly.

"It would be great if it could eat me." Ponze turned around and poured him a cup of hot tea, and the white mist made him feel warm.

Gongsun Mingyue took the hot tea and held it in the palm of her hand, suddenly felt a heat flow gradually spread from her hand to her whole body, and finally reached her already cold heart.

"I'm reluctant to eat you." Gongsun Mingyue said casually.

"Then you are willing to leave me alone in this world?" Pang Ce sat beside him, with complex and difficult to understand emotions in his eyes.

Gongsun Mingyue took a sip and felt a rush of heat slowly flowing down his throat to the corners of his body. He continued to hold the cup in his hand, looked up at Pon Ce and said, "You won't be alone, you will always There is someone who can accompany you through life."

"If the one who holds the hand of the world is not the destined person, then why bother to miss this world?" Pang Ce stretched out his hands, cupped his pale cheeks carefully, and said with a choked voice, "If it wasn't for you, then why would I bother to exist?" Obsessed?"

Gongsun Mingyue gave a wry smile, turned her face to one side, and escaped from his warm and wet palm. Although it was so warm and infatuated, she couldn't be greedy anymore, otherwise leaving soon would only increase troubles in vain.

"Even if there are thousands of feelings, they will eventually fall apart," Gongsun Mingyue said softly, "Since love gathers, it will naturally disperse. You and I are mortals in the end, we can't ask for it, and we can't complain."

"Why can others do it, but we can't? Is it because I haven't paid enough, or is this what you hoped for?" Pang Ce stood up, he was not reconciled, why is everything so clear that the moon is shining brightly? Do you want to bury your hope under layers of loess?

Gongsun Mingyue covered her mouth and coughed softly. Pang Ce immediately patted him on the back, hoping that he would feel better, but his tone revealed extreme displeasure: "I heard you didn't take any medicine at all?"

"Since the ending is already doomed, why bother with those scumbags? I just want to die slowly with a calmness all over my body, not full of the smell of medicine and being disgusted by Yama of the Underworld." Gongsun Mingyue said while coughing.

Pon Ce knew that there was no point in talking, so he just sat there sullenly and stopped talking.

"There is one last thing I want to ask you." Gongsun Mingyue said softly after her cough improved a bit.

"You don't need to say anything, I will never go back on what I promised you." Ponce knew what he wanted to say, and since he had already promised, he would naturally not mention it again, and he only blamed himself for dying. And so many troubles.

Gongsun Mingyue breathed a sigh of relief, his heart finally settled down, and he walked with peace of mind.

But when Ponce saw his appearance, the anger in his heart suddenly burst up, and he said unhappily: "Why do you always worry about this, worry about that, why don't you worry about yourself, don't worry about it?" I?"

"Even if Zhao Zhen wanted to die, he didn't die so easily. The last time Ziwei star was so dim, he could come back to life. You still have to worry about him? But you, your star will always be dim, and now It’s even better, it’s almost gone, are you happy? Is this what you want?” Ponce’s tone became sharper and angrier.

"Pang Ce." Gongsun Mingyue looked at him with deep regret and said, "I don't want you to..."

"Do you think you can act as if nothing happened if you don't worry?" Ponce felt that his emotions were too intense. He calmed down, continued to sit beside him, held his left hand and said, "Meeting each other is like The world is so far away, and the longing seems so far away." He put his left hand close to his chest, and a crystal teardrop dripped from the corner of Gongsun Mingyue's eyes, and fell on his lake-green gown, slowly dizzying a beautiful water stain .

Pang Ce gently embraced him into his arms, patted his arm lightly with his right hand, and said lightly, "No matter what your ending is, mine will be the same. If you are lonely on the road to Huangquan, then hold the flower Bianhua is waiting for me at the same place, so that it can also protect you across the Naihe Bridge and drink Mengpo soup together, remember not to drink too much, because you will forget me."

Gongsun Mingyue just quietly listened to the heartbeat in his chest, and felt a relaxation he had never had before. He closed his eyes gently, hoping that this feeling would never disappear.

Do you think I'm really that rebellious and want to be emperor?

Why are you so obsessed with my ending without asking me why?

I used to take care of you so carefully, I was afraid that a slight movement would make you see the flaws, but you still remembered all the past after all.

If I had to make another choice, then I would still do that, take over the world and continue your life.

But it's too late to say anything now.

……

Gongsun Mingyue's body was getting colder and colder. Pang Ce knew what had happened, but he didn't dare to move. He held him tightly until dawn. He didn't shed tears or heartache. Maybe for him, leaving like this That's the best ending.

Zhan Pei came to the study with Gongsun Mingyue's sandalwood box, and saw Pang Ce still hugging him tightly and sitting on the edge, he called carefully: "General Pang, Big Brother Gongsun wants me to deliver this box to you this morning." for you."

Pang Ce turned his head slightly, saw the box in Zhan Pei's hand, smiled lightly, and gently laid the person in his arms on the bed, trying to make him lie as comfortable as possible, although the person had no feeling.

When Zhan Pei saw Gongsun Mingyue, he couldn't help but burst into tears. He hurried forward, grabbed Gongsun Mingyue's cold hands tightly, and said hoarsely, "Brother Gongsun."

Pang Ce took the sandalwood box and walked slowly towards the desk. After sitting down, he dared not open it for fear.

After a long time, when everyone was heartbroken for Gongsun Mingyue's departure, Pon Ce gently opened the box. There were many paintings in the box and a letter he had never seen before. After hesitating for a moment , and finally opened the envelope carefully, until this moment he could no longer hide his emotions, he let the heartbroken tears sway wantonly while reading the letter.

Ponzer:

From the hundred-foot ice spring, I jumped, and my heart and eyes agreed with each other ever since.In the secret room in the cold court, we gently hold each other, and it is day and night.Drinking together under the moon, the money is affectionate, and I will miss it in the future.Beyond the border, the world is so close, we know that lovesickness is deep in our bones.

Thoughts, deep into the bones and blood, is already a panacea that cannot be cured.Thinking, entering the heart, fearing that the love will be difficult to overcome.

I never thought that one day I would be hurt by love.I never expected that they would follow each other like a shadow.Maybe you will know deeply after you have been in love, and you will know how shallow you are after you have loved. If you return to the bottom of the valley, you will jump down lightly and take my heart?If you never knew each other, would you still travel thousands of miles to warm my affection?

Reunion is resentment, love is debt, whether it is resentment or debt, since you know the reason, why bother to entangle for a long time.Can't advance, can't retreat, knowing that there is no hope for a long time, but can only forget each other with tears.

Dependent origin and extinction are nothing more than flowers in the mirror of the moon in the water. They separate and reunite, and in the end they cannot escape the worldly feelings.Although there are thousands of wishes and ten thousand perseverance, they will end up in the heaven and the earth, where humans and ghosts have different paths.For example, a hundred years later, the years are peaceful, and I just want a cup of fragrant tea and a wisp of green smoke to comfort the weak ghosts under the underworld.

Looking forward to the next life, hold your son's hand and grow old with you.

Take care of yourself!

Gongsun Mingyue.

He has never personally admitted his love for him. It turned out that he was not ruthless, but that he already knew the ending, but he didn't know it. He already knew the result, but he still couldn't help feeling for him.

He knows that he has a lot of considerations, etiquette, human words, morality... But he knows that for his considerations, he can abandon everything, only asking him to respond to himself.He didn't want much, he just wanted to go in and out together, to be with each other, but now all his dreams were shattered, he regretted that he didn't keep him by his side arbitrarily, and imprisoned him deeply in his heart , so that he can't break free and can't escape.

Pang Ce looked at the letter in his hand, and burst into tears. Only at this moment did he truly feel his heart, the love for himself, the pain of forbearance. He pressed the letter tightly to his chest, and looked at it. Looking at his face that was gradually losing its vitality, the pain in his heart gushed out like a knife, eroding every inch of his skin and flesh, and piercing deeply into the bone marrow.

Since then, there has been no great general Pang Ce in the world, only the dead bones in the tomb whose soul has been taken away.