[Comprehensive] Living in a daze every day

"So, does this have something to do with my dime?" Riko couldn't help sighing while drinking tea, "Isn't Dazai always a person who doesn't do his job properly every day, leaves work to his partner, commits suicide every day to find trouble, and flirts with young ladies? Responsible person? What does this have to do with me?"

Nakajima Atsushi and Kunikida who were watching: I can't say any rebuttal words at all.

"Is it related?" While eating snacks, he was talking to Riko in a disorderly manner, looking like a child, "If you reach out to others casually, you must take responsibility Just do it."

That's why she couldn't fall in love with this guy in front of her no matter what, he was not only too smart, but also quite self-willed because of his lack of sophistication!I know many things in my heart, but I can't say them out!

"I don't think there is a problem with me." Lizi is a very self-centered person, really, she just wants to find someone to take care of her future life, so don't just take care of other people's lives, "Besides, after all, If you want to blame it, blame yourself for not holding it hard."

Riko felt that she was obsessed with ghosts, and she was about to board a plane to go abroad, and Gao Ren was free and easy, but was shaken by a phone call from Osamu Dazai, and ended up staying.

So why?Obviously that guy has such a bad personality, and he hasn't given her an explanation for the sudden disappearance at the beginning, so why is she shaken?

Riko, who is not in a good mood, chooses to go out to relax.

In fact, if we really want to talk about the reason why she was shaken for a moment, there is no doubt that she felt the strength of Osamu Dazai's grip at that moment.

Riko and Osamu Dazai have somewhat similar personalities, so they are not compatible in certain aspects.Osamu Dazai is indeed asking for help, but he is still a coward in essence. Although he is acting like a baby to you, he always holds the mentality of "it's okay to refuse me", even if he hands him his hand, he doesn't take the initiative to grab him If you don't, he won't grab you back.

But maybe, as long as you take the initiative, you will be caught tightly and unable to escape.

As for Riko, she is more proactive than Osamu Dazai. She always tries her best to pursue what she is looking for, and gets it if she likes it. Because Osamu Dazai is too smart, she can always see an unsatisfactory ending. So different from being confused about being alive, Riko doesn't care whether this moment of happiness is fake or real, she enjoys the moment of joy like taking drugs.

However, she has no sense of security, panic, and fear. She doesn't care that happiness is fake, but she never believes that happiness is real, so she always waits where she is, and when the anesthesia of happiness passes, she will Run away, and look for the next one.

She will take the initiative to reach out her hand every time, but the same as Osamu Dazai, she will not take the initiative to hold anyone's hand, because of the distrust in her heart, if you don't give her what she wants first, there is no way to expect her to come back. What did she get there.

From this perspective, two people who don't take the initiative to grab each other are simply plugs and sockets with mismatched models. Even if they are attracted to each other, there is no way to really get along well.

Well, there is no way!Riko saw Osamu Dazai from a long distance away, and it was hard to say whether she was walking along the river simply because of the beautiful scenery, or because she was looking for Osamu Dazai who might have committed suicide by jumping into the river again.But no matter what it is, it doesn't include Dazai Osamu who is hitting on the young lady.

I'm afraid she really lost her mind that day.Riko pressed her temple with some headaches. At that moment, she thought that Osamu Dazai was finally going to hold her hand.

Osamu Dazai is different to Riko, he is different from anyone else, he is absolutely true, even if he is deceiving, he is also true, and he is such a person, after getting close to him, it is difficult to abandon him .

Riko didn't dare to get too close, she was afraid that she would not be able to get out if she got too close, so she was always careful, perhaps, it was because she had never really been close to Osamu Dazai, so the other party couldn't really hold her hand .

But recently she accidentally took an extra step inside, and she realized it, but she couldn't get out so quickly.

She should be blamed for this problem in the parallel world. Riko frowned unhappily, turned and walked in the direction she came from. Osamu Dazai of that world, Osamu Dazai who became the leader, was like a broken machine. However, it still refuses to stop the operation, squeezes the only energy it has, and works hard, for an unknown goal.

There is no way not to worry, there is no way to turn a blind eye, even though Riko is already very careful, she has glimpsed the tip of the iceberg after all, he seems to be trying to protect something, something that he has never got, but he is gambling with all his strength. life.

It's too pitiful.This is Lizi's only feeling. Obviously he has gained nothing, and obviously no one will know what kind of effort he has put in. Is there any point in doing this?

If you want to give him something, at least don't fall into the void alone like this, or reach out and pull him back.

Well, but it doesn't matter, Riko knows very well that the feeling is only strong and choking at the beginning, and after a long time, it will fade away, just like drinking, how intoxicating it is at the beginning, and how empty it is after waking up.

Oh, no, strictly speaking, she drinks only one glass, except for the time when Osamu Dazai disappeared suddenly, I don’t know why

Suddenly became very drinkable, and complained a lot with Mr. Nakaya.

Irritable, very irritable, no, no, she is in a normal mood and there is no problem at all.

Being stubborn, Riko found a dessert shop as usual, and prepared to eat sweets to relieve her mood.

result……

"Ah, what a coincidence, Riko." Osamu Dazai quite naturally pulled out the chair and sat down opposite her, with a bright to false smile on his face.

Riko will believe that he is probably out of his mind: "You still have one minute to tell me the truth, or I will put cake on your face."

"It's too much, Riko." The expression on Osamu Dazai's face was blank for a moment, and then he returned to a smiling expression, "It's just a coincidence that I saw it."

"Oh." It can be said that there is nothing wrong with this explanation, but Riko feels that her mood is even worse. However, if she is not satisfied with this explanation, what explanation does she want?

Riko fell silent, but Dazai Osamu did not, he was still talking, it was all trivial things, but it fit Dazai Osamu's style.

Then he finally calmed down, his amber eyes looked at Riko who had been staring at him intently for some time, and his expression cooled down: "So, is there anything Riko wants to ask me?"

Riko pursed her lips, and turned her head away to look out of the window in displeasure: "I think you know everything."

"Don't Riko know the answer?" Osamu Dazai shrugged, "But even so, do you still care?"

It's not so much that I care, it's better to say that I mind.Riko rested her chin on one hand, and made a mess of the cake with a fork in the other: "Actually, it doesn't matter." She said a little bit bravely, "Anyway, it's just my wishful thinking."

Wanting to get an explanation is not because Riko doesn't know the situation, she is obsessed with it, she just cares about Dazai Osamu's attitude, because she cares about the other party, so she wants to get the same degree of care, isn't it natural?

The moment this thought flashed across her mind, Riko was stunned, she bit down too hard, nothing happened to the fork, but her teeth hurt from the shock.

Is that what she had in mind?Riko, who is extremely sensitive to other people's emotions, is surprisingly insensitive to her own emotions.

Perhaps, this feeling came early, she began to care more and more about Dazai Osamu, because she cared, she paid attention, and because she paid attention, she began to understand, but in the end she is still a coward, even if she finds out, what can she do?She was still scared, after all, it was Osamu Dazai, she had already stumbled on him once.

"Huh? Riko thinks so?" Osamu Dazai looked at Riko's expression. She looked like she was about to cry, but she didn't realize it at all. Reaching out to support Riko's face, she lifted it up slightly, allowing her to focus on herself, "Because I care a little bit, what Riko thinks of me, I didn't mean to tease you."

Not slightly, but very much.

The bad things Osamu Dazai did back then, ahem, were really rubbish.In terms of the reason, he didn't have to defect at such an embarrassing time, he was just scared.

Riko undoubtedly likes him, the feeling of being liked is not only not bad, it is even good, so good that it may become addictive, otherwise Osamu Dazai would not be able to help but come to him when they meet again.

But at that time, he, who had just lost his friend, saw the worst ending at the same glance. He didn't know whether to say it was a coincidence or not, but it happened to be the most likely ending.

Osamu Dazai knew exactly what Riko was looking for in him, and never felt that she could really find it.

However, when faced with that gentle love, Osamu Dazai flinched, there were too many, too much was presented in front of him, just like, even if the cotton candy is light and soft, it suddenly fills the whole space It can also be unbearable.

So he ran away.

When they met again, they couldn't help but get closer.

"Well," he held Lizi's hand with his other hand, brought it to him, and lightly kissed her on the second knuckle of her index finger, "For the reason, it's because I'm afraid, I'm afraid so I ran away."

Riko turned her face in astonishment, met Dazai Osamu's shining eyes, and was at a loss for a moment. She never thought that Dazai Osamu would answer, let alone the meaning behind the answer: "This reason is too much. That's too bad." Wouldn't that make it seem like being in love with her is a terrible thing?

But having said that, Riko still felt a little better: "Forget it, I was a coward at first." She held Dazai Osamu's hand instead, "So, are you still afraid now?"

"Impossible. But give it a try, it's not bad." Osamu Dazai looked at Riko and smiled, which was obviously much weaker than usual, but it was also more real, "Anyway, after Riko chooses to come back, she will There is no chance of escape."

"What's the matter with this bad sense of being deceived?" Riko sighed, is this a bad taste?It's such a time, can't you just make her happy for a while?But forget it.

Riko slowly increased the strength in her hand, and clenched Osamu Dazai's hand: "Let's just trust you once, and if something like that happened before, just wait for me to blow your head off."

"Hey, it's scary." Osamu Dazai widened his eyes exaggeratedly, "It seems that I have to be obedient."

"Hmph." Lizi couldn't help laughing, and quickly forced the corners of her mouth to flatten, "Don't try to escape, the previous things have been explained clearly, and today's things don't even think about getting away with it!"

"Huh?" The expression on Osamu Dazai's face suddenly froze.

It doesn't matter who shakes the other's hand first, the result is always the same.

The author has something to say:

Dazai Zhi is really a god.It was written and almost written as a missed BE for me. I should be glad that I still remember this as HE?It’s impossible to sprinkle sugar, so I can only write NE that doesn’t count as HE, right?It is the completion of the text.

In other words, as long as it is Dazai, I can think of countless BEs but I just can’t think of HE. I really admire the super sweet wife who can write for Dazai.

Otherwise, just skip the part of determining the relationship and write about daily life, which may be a little sweeter.

This is today’s job. It’s said that JJ made me feel bad. I locked chapter 14 when it came up. I almost vomited blood when I repaired it. I’ll let it go if I write a kiss. It will also be locked. I’ll write a Perfume also needs to be locked, is it poisonous?