[Comprehensive] Living in a daze every day

The woman opened her eyes, and the blue eyes were slightly dimmed due to the light and shadow. She smiled and stood up: "Thank you, Miss Yu Zi." Then, she turned and left.

Ikuko Ichihara looked at the bottle that was still on the table, but there was nothing in it, and couldn't help sighing: "Sure enough, in this world, there is no chance, only necessity."

Riko left the Dimensional Witch's shop, but she didn't know where she should go. Going home, um, thinking of the current state of the house, Riko didn't want to go back very much. She regretted it a little. Why didn't she directly send those Everyone beat up?Isn't she a little too easy to talk after losing her memory?And cowardly.

But if she doesn't go home, where can she go?Hanging out in the streets?Yokohama is not a safe place, even if her supernatural ability can guarantee that others will not take the initiative to attack her, but she can't take it if something happens, okay?

No, Riko's expression went blank for a moment, in fact, she still had other ways, but she refused to use it.However, does it still make sense to do this kind of thing now?She had already broken her own decision due to physical reasons, and she was still afraid of death after all.

Now that this is already the case, is it necessary to continue to persist?I have already broken that kind of thing with my own hands, and it would be ridiculous to insist on sticking my neck.

Riko thought of herself when she lost her memory, and after two seconds, she silently raised her hand to cover her eyes. She just wanted to say that she was so unbearable to look at when she lost her memory. What is going on? What is it? Son?Was she like this before?She just lost her memory, didn't she drop her wits?It's too scary to think about it this way!Ah, no, she was brought up to complain desperately.

If you want Riko who regained her memory to evaluate her when she lost her memory, she would be like a mentally retarded person, and if you want Riko who lost her memory to evaluate her before she lost her memory, then she would be a naughty troublemaker.You said, they are all the same person, why should they hurt each other?

That's a really good question.

It's not a good idea to just stand on the street in a daze, so Lizi finally chose to walk slowly in the direction of home, even if she didn't want to go back, even if there was no home at all, and she didn't have a home at all. Sweet, that is the only place she can go back after all.

Riko's behavior is incomprehensible to most people, even she herself who has lost her memory can't understand, but in fact, for her, everything she does is very simple, she just wants to find a home , I want to have a place where I can go back, I want to have a place where I can feel at ease, where I can cry wantonly and expose my weakness wantonly.

She didn't want too much, just that.

Therefore, all her actions start from this point.

Others think it's weird, that's of course, because Riko is very special, her way of thinking is different from most people, her thoughts change very quickly, and she often makes diametrically opposite decisions, for example, if you look at her Let yourself lose your memory for a while and then restore your memory.

But it all boils down to that purpose.

Although because of the transaction, Riko forgot what the part of the memory she wanted to erase was, but she knew very well what her purpose was for doing so.

Although memory can be exchanged for what she wants because it may bring danger to the world, but Riko's own purpose is not to save such a tall, true, good and beautiful thing in the world, but for her own benefit. She really wants to eliminate Yes, it's the other memories of the past ten years, whether they are painful or beautiful, Riko doesn't want to keep them, she wants to give herself a chance to start over.

This is Riko's real purpose, to exchange those memories and strange ingredients that must be eliminated in exchange for her own health. Riko doesn't know the specific method, but it's good to achieve the goal.And at the same time erase all the memories of ten years, leaving only the necessary preparations, so that she can start again.

Starting over, Lizi felt that she might be able to obtain happiness.

The pursuit of happiness is an instinct of human beings. It seems that people are born to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages. Of course, Riko is no exception. She longs for happiness and always wants to get it, but it seems that there are various reasons , at least she feels that she is not happy, and of course, it is even more impossible to count it as happiness.

Riko didn't have much thought about happiness at first, because she grew up in the laboratory and rarely had contact with the outside world, and the few contacts were all under the supervision of the experimenter.All she knows is that happiness is a hard thing to get.

Later, because Liudaomu destroyed the laboratory, Riko also left with him, and slowly began to contact the outside world. At the beginning, many jokes were made because of lack of common sense, so Liudaomu and his party had to destroy the mafia family. It's time to throw Riko into the study, let her read a book, and add some common sense.

The feeling of reading makes Riko feel very novel. She reads as many books as possible. Her learning ability is very strong, coupled with the ability to pretend since childhood, it will soon make people feel that there is not much difference from ordinary people.

It was from this time that Riko began to have a strong interest in happiness, and she also came up with her own definition, that is, to be loved.

Those who are loved may not necessarily be happy, but those who are not loved must be unhappy. Riko firmly believes that, so she longs to be loved.

She has been working very hard, but maybe the method is wrong, she has not been able to really get what she wants.However, Liudaomu and Osamu Dazai gave her a big blow, and Lizi gave up this idea for a long time, all she wanted was the days of "I have wine today, I am drunk today", even if it is only in the supernatural power. She is also willing to enjoy the false love under the manipulation, but at the same time, in order to prevent herself from being trapped in this false happiness, and in the end she will be hurt too much again, Riko will always break up quickly.This is why she began to fall in love frequently and broke up frequently.

She had basically given up at that time, and she didn't plan to make any more efforts, so she just planned to let it go.

However, what Lizi didn't expect was that she met Usher again.

But Usheri didn't see her, only Riko saw Usheri unilaterally, but Riko was sure that the other party was killed by her own hands.

This made her unable to stay alert. Lizi followed Usher to the laboratory secretly. At that time, her body had begun to decline, and she needed the help of illusion to maintain normal body functions. Under the dual effects of supernatural powers and illusions, Riko successfully entered the laboratory to find out the truth and find the information she wanted. The whole process was quite smooth, much smoother than the infiltration after she lost her memory.

However, at that time, Riko was greatly impacted by the truth, so she just left quickly, and took away the materials related to the book, and did not choose to destroy the laboratory directly, otherwise, she would not meet again after losing her memory. laboratory.

After learning the truth, Riko is not very interested in the magical book. After all, she is dying, and no amount of desire or ambition is as important as her own life.As a result, Riko began to look for various ways to heal her body.

And the person who really promoted the subsequent development was actually Antikale.

Riko just mentioned her recent affairs when meeting with the other party in the dream, and also mentioned the [book] incident by the way. Anticarai lives in a high-risk magic world, and she sees a lot of strange magic items. He said casually: "If it's something of that level, it's a big deal. It's obviously something like the cornerstone of the world." By the way, he also made a lot of guesses.

I don't know if it's because Antikale's magic literacy is very high, or her brain is too big. In short, during the chat between the two, Antikale said it as if it was a joke, but she guessed it perfectly. Hit the truth.

Then, holding a powerful bargaining chip in her hand and having a need for herself, Riko was drawn by this fate and came to the shop of the Dimensional Witch.

When the Dimensional Witch suggested that amnesiac might be troublesome, and would even affect her other memories to a certain extent, Riko was suddenly moved, and she wanted to try again.

If under such circumstances, she lost all her memories and started again, Riko felt that the result might be different, so she chose to let the Dimensional Witch take away all her memories in exchange for a chance to start again.

Riko knows that this should be her last chance, because she can't think of any other way, her character is here, if it is still the same ending again, then maybe there will be no other chance Alright.

However, she still thought too simply.

Riko touched her pocket, and it was empty, which reminded her that in order to leave a good habit for herself after amnesia, she threw away all her cigarettes. She didn't have much cigarette addiction, it was just a mood When it's not good, I will smoke one or two.

She really felt very depressed. She originally thought that there should be no possibility of recovering her memory. After all, the person who took away her memory was a person of the level of Dimensional Witch. At the same time, some memories were destroyed. Under normal circumstances, it is It's impossible to recover, but after losing her memory, she went to find her herself and wanted her memory back.

Although I feel that this kind of operation is a bit frustrating, Riko is not incomprehensible. After all, these guys are too difficult to deal with. One is more difficult to deal with. Even if she has recovered all her memories, she doesn't want to meet them. Not to mention her who has lost her memory and is not good at calculations. It is natural that she might not be able to figure it out. In contrast, if she does not recover her memory but is deceived by these people and has nothing left, Riko thinks that recovering her memory is nothing. .

The author has something to say:

Riko: I thought I had arranged everything, but I didn't expect it!

Riko before amnesia was really a scum, she was black mud in essence but still kept her love brain, miserable.

The MVP of the audience is the Anticarai next door, who spoke nonsense and accurately guessed the truth

Although it is said that there is going to be slaughtered, it is estimated that there is still a long time before the online slaughter