Takei Ayanokoji's Tool Man Guide

After getting some money in the account I used to escape, I stayed in a hotel not far from Fangtong.If I were number one, I'd be watching near Accelerator.In terms of universal values, this is actually a kind of "following", but according to my thoughts at that time, this is "observation" and "imitation".

Because I want to know the usual behaviors and preferences of friends, if there are common topics, according to the similarity principle of making friends - "people will always be friends with people with similar personalities", the process of making friends will be smoother.When I made friends with Akutagawa Ryunosuke at that time, I also imitated him in various ways, but I never talked to him about Osamu Dazai.

One is because I don't like it very much.

The second is because it will be endless.

When I observed Fang Accelerator from a high place, I found that he had been lying at home for most of the day.Thinking about me and number one wasting six hours on him makes me feel like I've done something stupid.However, when he was going out, I saw a teenager in a black T-shirt and a baseball cap running out the door.

In fact, every time I see a replicant, I have a special feeling—that is a feeling that I am split into pieces, and I have the feeling of walking outside with independent consciousness.I know that there are many twins, they are very well coordinated, because they know each other, many of them can develop a very stable family relationship.But the situation is different between me and the replicant.

They are exactly the same as me, not only in appearance, but also in behavior.Sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I even think about what would happen if the person in the mirror suddenly made different actions. This is why I have always disliked looking in the mirror.

Because they have been brainwashed to copy people, it is common sense to think that it is normal for someone to look exactly like themselves.But I didn't grow up in that environment. In 1970, Yoshiro Mori, a Japanese expert in robotics, invented the term "Uncanny Valley" because "people feel fear and discomfort when they see robots that are too similar to humans."

I think, I also have this mentality.

Furthermore, I still remember that in order to destroy the human cloning experiment, I set irreversible genetic defects in their genes, and they themselves would not live long.Granted, I'm half the one who created them, and replicants have a special fledgling thing about me, but I'm also the one who kills them.

i used to do

A nightmare, dreaming that when I was a child to avoid the puppy sent to me by the laboratory, I suffocated it with a pillow when it was finally sent to the test bench by myself.Slowly, I saw that I was smothered to death, my hands were tense, but my nerves were trembling uncontrollably, my whole body was trembling, but at the same time I felt that someone was strangling my neck, about to take my last breath away .

I don't even have the ability or the will to resist.

I instinctively feel that I don't like replicants, even if they are a little different, I will feel a little bit at ease.When I was 15 years old as an undercover agent in Hong Kong, I received red earrings from Osamu Dazai.At that time, I felt that I was starting to be different from a replicant.This is what differentiates me from them.That's why I lost one earring after Osamu Dazai died in the fire, and I never thought about taking the other earring off.

In fact, according to this, I am essentially an immature person.

With this in mind, I went to "No. [-]".

"Excuse me, can I say a few words to you?"

When the dark golden pupil of the brown-haired boy in a black T-shirt looked at me intently, the light in his eyes flickered, and he said——

"Seeing you have a good life, I also feel very good. I suddenly remembered that Tagore wrote this-"My heart is a bird in the wilderness, and I found its sky in your eyes."I know exactly what that feels like. "

The corners of his mouth curved slightly as if he had gotten the answer he wanted.

This is a very strange feeling, a feeling of "he and I have been waiting for this moment for a long time", like the feeling of brain wave resonance.In my mind, I have gone through countless times when I get along with replicants—from changing identities on the experimental bench to investigating various facts as "No. [-]", trying to find out why "No. [-]" would choose Such an ending, until I traveled through time and space to come to him for that blank memory.

Standing here, I don't need to say anything, I know what he will say.And when I stood in front of him, he didn't need to ask anything, he knew why I was standing here.

But at this moment, I feel like someone is whispering such words in my ears.

"At the end of the day, I stand before you.

You will see my scars and know that I have been hurt and I have been healed. "

"Coincidentally, I also think of Tagore."

I hear me say that.

The author has something to say: "At the end of the long day, I stand in front of you.

???? You will see my scars and know that I have been hurt and I have been healed. "—— Tagore.

Because I think it will disrupt the rhythm, it is divided into two parts, and there will be another update at night, which is not counted as an additional update.

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