revolving light

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Gu Nan opened his eyes, and what he saw was a blindingly bright white, and the oxygen mask was covered with a layer of white mist by the water vapor he breathed out.Gu Nan can't remember how many times he was dragged back from life and death by the doctor.The long-term chemotherapy made him physically and mentally exhausted. His body was already emaciated and eroded by cancer cells.

Gu Nan raised his left hand with great effort, the sun seemed to be able to pass through his fingers and see through the light. After staying in the hospital for a long time, he seemed to have been assimilated into a pale color, dead silent and lifeless.

Gu Nan especially wanted to say to the doctor who treated him, "Let me die, don't save me again." However, every time he thought of this, a gentle smiling face of a person would appear in his mind. Gu Nan was already unwilling to say anything.

After waking up for a while, his head began to feel dizzy again. Gu Nan couldn't withstand the effect of the medicine, so he slowly closed his eyes.

The sun's rays hit his body warmly, and the tingling sensation in his knees was accurately transmitted to his brain through the pain-sensing nerves. Gu Nan raised his head abruptly, squinting his eyes under the glare of the sun. He looked around and saw the familiar scenery Make his pupils constrict, this is his university campus, why is he here?

"Student, classmate?" His slender fingers waved in front of Gu Nan's eyes, his voice was still a little confused. Gu Nan was startled by the familiar voice, and turned his head to look at the boy standing beside him. The familiar eyebrows and eyes in memory, and the gentle smile on the lips, "Are you okay?"

"Cheng Xuan..." Gu Nan murmured unconsciously, his eyes were slightly red, he never expected to see Cheng Xuan again after so many years.

Cheng Xuan was a little surprised, "You know me?" The hair of the young man in front of him was a bit messy, his face was a little pale from being overly frightened, his eyes were red, like a bunny, Cheng Xuan's voice couldn't help but soften a bit, " I'll take you to the school doctor's office first to have your knee treated, it's not okay to ooze blood all the time, if you don't know it, you'll think I've bullied you." Cheng Xuan's voice was a little smiling and comforting, as if he intended to let He relaxed from his frightened mood.

Gu Nan looked at Cheng Xuan greedily. He has known him for so many years, but he has never looked at this boy carefully. Cheng Xuan's appearance is undoubtedly outstanding, and he can become the focus of everyone no matter where he goes. Gentle as a spring breeze, he is the male god in many people's hearts, and he was also the one who was on the cusp of Gu Nan's heart back then.If this is a dream, Gu Nan thinks, it is really a beautiful dream.

Cheng Xuan saw the young man staring at him blankly, his eyes were bright, and he didn't speak. Although he was looking at him, his thoughts drifted to nowhere. His eyes moved to the young man's knees. There was also a slight oozing of blood.Just when I was about to say something, I heard a voice from the side, "President?"

A tall boy walked over with a basketball in his arms, "What's wrong?"

Gu Nan was startled by the voice, his gaze focused, and it happened to meet Cheng Xuan's warm eyes.Cheng Xuan exchanged glances with him, then looked behind him, and said softly: "A kid is injured, I'll take him to the school infirmary, someone is riding a motorcycle on campus, it's very dangerous, I almost hit him just now, please go Check the surveillance. Thank you for your hard work."

The boy nodded, frowned and said, "There are people coming and going on this campus, and they are actually riding a motorcycle inside. Don't worry, the president. I'll check the surveillance, and I will definitely find that person!"

Gu Nan lowered his eyes, and a blush slowly crept up on his face. The title "little friend" made his heart beat a little faster for no reason.The wound on his knee throbbed with pain, Gu Nan was a little confused about the current situation, if it was a dream, it would be too real.It was only after Cheng Xuan sent him to the school infirmary that the two had no interaction.There were no other people who came to ask questions, and there was no "children" as Cheng Xuan said.

It was at this place that he met Cheng Xuan.At that time, someone rode a motorcycle into the campus, and the speed was very fast. He was walking on the road. If Cheng Xuan hadn't pulled him quickly, the consequences would have been disastrous.Then, he raised his head, and the moment he saw Cheng Xuan's face clearly, his heart beat unbalanced, and a heart remained on Cheng Xuan ever since.

He was born shy, even if he liked it, he didn't dare to approach him, he always felt that time was still too long, he could take his time, get to know Cheng Xuan slowly, get acquainted with Cheng Xuan slowly, and chase him slowly.However, as luck would have it, before he had time to say that he loved him, he was tortured by illness and bent down.

Thinking of this, Gu Nan smiled wryly, laughing at the arrangement of fate, and at himself, too arrogant.Cool fingers touched his wrist, Gu Nan saw Cheng Xuan blinking at him, and said: "Although I don't know why you have been in a daze, I think you must be frightened. I will take you to the school infirmary to treat the wound. We can walk slowly, don't worry, we won't hurt you again." Gu Nan was taken aback, Cheng Xuan's voice was smiling, as gentle as a spring breeze in March.

Gu Nan let Cheng Xuan support him to walk forward, pinched his thigh with his other hand, and gasped with a "hiss", was it a dream?Could it be that he was reborn?

Cheng Xuan slowed down and took care of his injury. Although Gu Nan was immersed in his own thoughts, he also noticed Cheng Xuan's movements. His heart felt warm, but he was also sore. If he really went back a few years ago, then he absolutely must not pass Cheng Xuan this time.

The fists beside him were clenched unconsciously, Cheng Xuan was unaware of the turmoil in his heart, in order to divert his attention, he turned his head and talked to him, "What's your name?"

The boy's eyes were shining, like a piece of clear crystal, and his voice was earnest, he said: "Senior Cheng Xuan, my name is Gu Nan. I am a sophomore this year."

Cheng Xuan smiled: "Gu Nan, it's a nice name. You seem to know me?"

Bubbles were popping up in Gu Nan's heart, and every bubble was expressing the joy of talking to the male god. Gu Nan forced himself to calm down and said, "Senior Cheng Xuan is the president of the student council. Although he doesn't come out often, the school There are photos of seniors on the forum."

The gate of the school doctor's office is not far away, Cheng Xuan helped Gu Nan walk over slowly, "So that's how it is."

Because Cheng Xuan rescued him in time, Gu Nan was only scratched a little by the speeding locomotive. After the school doctor disinfected him with iodophor, he sprinkled some Yunnan Baiyao and wrapped it up with gauze. They walked out of the school doctor's room side by side.

Gu Nan held the mobile phone he took out of his pocket, his knuckles were a little white, his brows were slightly wrinkled, as if hesitating, his eyes secretly looked at Cheng Xuan's side face, his face was red, as if he had made up his mind With the same determination, he reached out and gently grabbed the corner of Cheng Xuan's clothes.

Cheng Xuan stopped and looked at him with some doubts, "Gu Nan? What's wrong?"

Gu Nan bit his lower lip, "Senior...you...I..." The red on his face was almost dripping blood, Gu Nan felt a little annoyed, although he thought he couldn't fault Cheng Xuan, but he was very thin-skinned, a little It's hard to say, but if it wasn't for this, he wouldn't have fled in despair when he came out of the school infirmary. Even Cheng Xuan's name was asked by a friend.

Cheng Xuan was extremely patient, standing beside him without urging him, just quietly waiting for him to deal with his emotions.Looking at Gu Nan with a pair of eyes, the gentleness and tolerance inside gradually calmed Gu Nan's heart.The heat on his face dropped, Gu Nan raised his head and looked at Cheng Xuan, with determination and seriousness in his eyes, he said, "Senior, can you give me your contact information?"

Cheng Xuan was a little confused for a while, and the other party struggled for a long time, just to ask for a contact information for himself?But facing the serious look of the young man, it seemed that he was doing something very important.

Seeing Cheng Xuan stunned for a moment, Gu Nan's heart tightened slightly, but he was stubborn, and asked seriously: "Senior, is it okay?"

Cheng Xuan came back to his senses, only to realize that he was distracted, smiled apologetically, and said, "Of course."

A big smile broke out on Gu Nan's face, with joy overflowing on the surface, he reached out and tapped the phone a few times, then handed the phone to Cheng Xuan, almost watching Cheng Xuan input his account number into the search box , send a verification message, then Cheng Xuan takes out his mobile phone and clicks Pass.Cheng Xuan returned Gu Nan's phone to him, then shook his phone again, "Okay."

Gu Nan's eyes sparkled, and he said with a smile, "Thank you, senior! When I'm well, invite senior to eat!"

Cheng Xuan laughed, the boy's happiness was undisguised, his hair was hanging docilely by his ears, it looked soft, he stretched out his hand to rub his hair, and even brought his own mood brightened. "Let's go, I'll take you back to the dormitory first."

When Gu Nan was lying on the bed in the dormitory, he still couldn't believe it. Such a close contact with Cheng Xuan was something he had thought about tens of thousands of times in his dreams but dared not take action.Now, he added Cheng Xuan's WeChat, and Cheng Xuan rubbed his hair, Gu Nan couldn't help but put his hands on his hair, it seemed that the touch of Cheng Xuan's hand was still clearly on it.Gu Nan squinted his eyes and smiled, two small dimples appeared on his cheeks, so cute.

Gu Nan took out his mobile phone, Cheng Xuan's profile picture and name are very simple, the profile picture is a white background, a black line in the middle, there is a ℃ at the bottom right of the line, the name is a simple Cheng.Gu Nan curled his fingers and clicked into Cheng Xuan's circle of friends, his heart was beating fast, as if he was doing something bad.

Cheng Xuan's circle of friends is also very simple, there are only a few songs he shared, Gu Nan added these songs to his playlist, put on his headphones and started playing.

When the music started, Gu Nan felt a secret joy in his heart. Every time he learned about Cheng Xuan, he was one step closer to him.

Suddenly, Gu Nan thought of something, the smile on the corner of his mouth faded, and his fingers slowly touched the position of his stomach.When he opened his eyes, his gaze was somewhat empty. How could he forget that his body was diagnosed with stomach cancer two years later.

It was like a pot of cold water poured over his head, making Gu Nan's body and mind extremely cold. If he was reborn once, he couldn't avoid it?His stomach has always been bad, but he never took it to heart, which led to the unbearable stomach pain before his rebirth, but he went to the hospital but was diagnosed with stomach cancer.But since when did his body become cancerous?What is his physical condition now?Has it become stomach cancer?

Gu Nan's fingertips were cold, and he couldn't help thinking about the worst outcome.