Tolerance

When he first received the call, Xie Rongyu heard crying from the other side. Although he knew that the other side was trying hard to suppress it, he couldn't utter a word for a long time.

Xie Rongyu's heart felt uneasy when he heard such intermittent crying - it seemed that something irreversible had happened.He was also afraid.

"What's the matter?" Xie Rongyu asked her after the other party finally controlled her emotions.

On the other end of the phone was Zhou Yongchang's younger sister Zhou Yongan, "Xie Rongyu...my brother...my brother..."

When she was talking about the critical moment, she couldn't restrain her emotions, and finally let herself cry out louder than before, as if the emotions accumulated for many years burst out all at once.

Xie Rongyu felt something was wrong at this moment, he took his coat and was about to rush out, but he didn't know where he should go, but there was always a voice in his heart telling him - to find them quickly, to find them quickly them.

Just hearing the crying sound, he actually wanted to cry too.

——"My brother was stabbed in the abdomen in the rented house..."

Xie Rongyu opened the door with trembling hands, his body was about to collapse, only his faith was supporting him, he couldn't fall down, he wanted to see him.

Fang Jiahui happened to go downstairs and yelled at Xie Rongyu staggering as if fleeing, "Rongyu, Rongyu, where are you going?"

——"When we found him...there was blood all over the room..."

"Master, drive faster, faster..." Xie Rongyu shook his body.

"Little brother, I can't do anything about this red light."

"Come over, master, I will pay the money, my friend has an accident..." Xie Rongyu's voice was a little choked up, "Please...I beg you..."

"Oh, then you will remember to pay me more later."

"thanks, thanks..."

— "The doctor said...he was dead..."

"What about him?" Xie Rong rushed in like crazy.

In the hospital lobby, Zhou Yongan cried like a tearful man.

Xie Rongyu was a little dazed, kneeling on the ground.

The cold damp spread over him from the damp floor, and he could not dodge.

Fang Jiahui chased him in from the outside, and saw his Rongyu kneeling on the ground at a glance, walked over to help him up from the floor with distress, Xie Rongyu leaned softly on his body.

Another person rushed in from outside. To be precise, he fell in. The person fell to the ground like a rag doll, but he quickly got up again and walked towards Zhou Yongan who was crying and unconscious. come over.

"Yong'an, where's your brother?" This man is good-looking, the mole at the corner of his eye seems to be dripping with tears, his eyes are a little dull, and he almost cried out in the end, "What about him?"

A doctor in a white gown with mottled blood was wearing a mask and pushing the person covered with a white cloth. He looked calm and saw through life and death, "Who are the family members of the deceased?"

"I, it's me!" The man rushed over and knelt beside the flat car, tears streaming down his cheeks.

"Families, please make good arrangements for the funeral affairs, and express our condolences." The doctor left after saying this.

The man lifted a corner of the white cloth with trembling hands, just in time to see Zhou Yongchang's tightly closed eyes. These eyes once looked at him with gentle, nostalgic, confused, and painful eyes, which made him fall into the part that belonged to him several times. In the tenderness of my love, I can never let go, never let go.

But now, he doesn't even have the qualifications and ability to take another look.

He leaned his forehead against Zhou Yongchang's, stroked his cheeks that had lost warmth with his hands, and tears kept falling on the brows of the person who had long since left.

After a long while, I finally said to him in a tone that could hardly suppress my crying, "Yongchang, I won't argue with him anymore, can you wake up?..."

He still couldn't restrain his emotions, crying leaked from the corner of his mouth, tears had blurred his vision, but he kept opening his eyes wide to look at him more clearly.The words that came out of trembling lips were heartbreaking.

"Yongchang, I'll give him back to you, wake up..."

"I won't argue with him anymore..."

"I'll give him back to you... okay..."

The doctor came out with a bloody object, and Xie Rongyu recognized it as the game helmet he saw at Zhou Yongchang's house.

"This is a relic of the deceased. He was still wearing it on his head when he entered the emergency room."

The man suddenly seemed to be crazy, and rushed towards the doctor. The doctor took a few steps back in fright, but he snatched the helmet from the doctor's hand with one hand.

Viciously, it was like venting the unwillingness and pain these days.

He cried and smashed his helmet to the ground.

"You still do this for him..."

"Can't you just look at me..."

"Obviously he is me..."

The broken sound was like his heart.

But perhaps, his heart was buried long ago with that person's death.

——"I heard that there are real NPCs, and some NPCs are based on real people, so I want to find him."

Zhou Yongchang's voice seemed to be still ringing in Xie Rongyu's ears.

——"When I find her, even if he is already married and has children, I will snatch him to my side."

Zhou Yongchang's determination at that moment still echoed in Xie Rongyu's heart.

——"My parents will never allow us to be together."

——"He is also the person I want to love but can't."

The sun was very weak that day, with only a few gleams of light, Zhou Yongchang looked at the window with a lonely face, as if he would stay at this moment for his whole life.

--"you do not know..."

—— "The memory of more than a year has been completely... all cleared..."

- "You don't understand, you never will..."

Xie Rongyu still remembered Zhou Yongchang's heartbreaking words when he was drunk, and now he finally understood the meaning of his words.

It turned out, from beginning to end.

The lover Zhou Yongchang fell in love with in the game, found in reality, whom he called Lewei, was him, this man at all.

The funeral came quickly, and Zhou Yongchang's parents became ill after knowing their son's death. Zhou Yongan took the responsibility of taking care of his parents alone.And the man with a mole in the corner of his eye, who can be regarded as another relative of Zhou Yongchang, was solely in charge of the funeral.

Zhou Yongchang was cremated very quickly, that man always washed his face with tears.

It is strange that others took a handful of paper money and burned it to Zhou Yongchang, but that man washed many photos and burned them to him.

Xie Rongyu was lucky enough to see that photo. In the photo, the person was dressed in an ancient costume, his long hair was pulled up, and the mole at the corner of his eye made people feel distressed.

Xie Rongyu recognized at a glance that this is the man himself, to be precise, this is the appearance of this man in ancient costumes and wigs.

He said, "Lewei, you and Yongchang have such a good relationship."

The man smiled, the mole at the corner of his eye seemed to be filled with tears, and he said, "You're mistaken, I'm Fu Lin'an."

The author has something to say: This is probably the so-called abuse, right? ?I have always felt sorry for this couple.

☆、Fu Lin'an Extra Story

The first time Fu Linan met Zhou Yongchang was at the gate of the game company. He saw a tall and stern man waiting for someone just after he got off work.

Although Fu Lin'an is gay, he already has a boyfriend, so he didn't care too much about too many people.

"The phone number you dialed is busy, please try again later..."

He found out that his boyfriend didn't answer the phone again, and he didn't know where he was fooling around.

He thought that if he was caught, he would really make him look good.

Thinking about the places where Li Zhe often stayed, Fu Lin'an purposefully walked to a remote gay bar.

He found that the man he had met downstairs in the company had been following him secretly, but it wasn't considered sneaky, that man followed him at a distance from him openly.

This is not the first time for Fu Lin'an, many men will secretly follow him, and after knowing that he is gay, they will take the initiative to find him and want to have sex with him.He thought, this man is probably the same.

There are a lot of people in GAY bars, and everyone’s clothes are very revealing. In this world, people like them are called “psychopaths”. The worldly pressure is too great, and they only dare to wear decent suits to work during the day , follow the boss to scold those who the boss wants to scold, only when the night is dark and thick, and they change their clothes after work, they dare to be presumptuous in the dark and indulge in pornography.

This dark night is a world exclusive to them.

He didn't care that the man didn't follow Fu Linan into the bar.

He saw his boyfriend being pressed hard on the ground in a corner by a person, the sound of coming in and out mixed with his screams, Fu Lin'an suddenly felt a little sick.He didn't know if this man was having sex with others behind his back when he was having sex with him.

Fu Lin'an doesn't like promiscuity, and he is also very afraid of getting sick.

He didn't bother his boyfriend's good business, so he sat on the sofa less than five meters away from him and sent him a text message.

"let's break up."

As soon as the message was sent, he heard the sound of a text message belonging to Li Zhe alone.

Li Zhe motioned to the man on his body, and in the posture of being together, Li Zhe picked up the phone and replied "Why" to Fu Lin'an.

Why?Fu Lin'an sneered.

"You make me feel sick."

After breaking up, when he was about to leave the gay bar, Fu Lin'an looked around, but unfortunately he was not satisfied.

As soon as he walked out of the bar, he saw the stern-faced man waiting outside.

As soon as he saw Fu Linan coming out, he walked towards him, with the tenderness in Fu Linan's eyes that he had never seen in his boyfriend's eyes, "My name is Zhou Yongchang, let's be together, okay?"

Fu Lin'an didn't know why this man who didn't even know his name when he met for the first time did this, if he wanted to have sex, just say no?

This man has the aura of a straight man at first glance. Could it be that women nowadays can't satisfy men?Can only let these straight men come out to find men to vent their anger?

"Not good." Fu Lin'an answered him like this.

Strangely, he saw disappointment and sadness in this man's eyes. This realization moved him a little, and he said, "Unless you give me your medical examination list."

The man was stunned, "The medical examination form?"

Fu Lin'an nodded, "I don't like sick people."

"I see."

So the next day, the man came to him again, and he brought a qualified inspection form.

Then the man who claimed to be Zhou Yongchang said again, "Can you be with me now?"

Fu Lin'an said, "Okay."

I thought that Zhou Yongchang was with him for the purpose of having sex, and the so-called being together was just a better excuse.But Fu Lin'an didn't expect that the two of them were really like two teenagers in their adolescence, starting from the simplest dating and shopping, every step and every detail made Fu Lin'an feel that he was really loved by him of.

He couldn't bear to sleep with this person several times, but he stopped him, looking at him as if looking at his soul through him.He always felt that all the tenderness and love of this person were not for him, but for another person.

Fu Lin'an was very anxious, he wanted to do something to verify some things, he was always looking for various excuses to quarrel with Zhou Yongchang, and play tricks on him.But that person was very tolerant of him, and every time he retrieved him, he seemed to be looking at a precious treasure.

Fu Lin'an fell.

He fell in love with this man named Zhou Yongchang.

From then on, he was no longer a prodigal son.

When the night comes, he no longer has to enter the chaotic and unbearable bar.

He felt that he was the happiest among the people who could only live in darkness.

Until one day, he heard Zhou Yongchang mention Lewei.

He said, "Lin'an, I first met you in the holographic online game released by your game company."

Fu Lin'an knew about their company's game, but he was not in charge of it. He didn't know that his image was actually used in the game?

Zhou Yongchang continued, "The first time I saw you, you were wearing a red dress, and the makeup on your face was washed away by the turbulent running water."

He smiled, as if recalling the beautiful past, and continued, "Your unyielding eyes make me feel that no matter how much I have to pay, I am willing."

Fu Lin'an didn't know what he was talking about at all, he leaned over calmly, kissed his lips, and the two breathed each other's breath while their lips were touching.

Fu Lin'an went to ask the character designer, and he said, "This is what the boss meant. I greeted you last time, and you agreed. And not only you, but more than half of the company's people are regarded as NPCs." image into the game."

Fu Lin'an used the company's game helmet, and only then did he see the NPC who looked exactly like him. He was rescued by Zhou Yongchang, and he lived in a small town, living a peaceful and harmonious life.

He secretly hid aside to observe him, observed him to help others, and observed him to be kind to others.

At that moment, Fu Lin'an finally had an epiphany.

He finally knew why Zhou Yongchang looked at another person through him.

It turned out that what he liked was not him at all.

It is a virtual image created by people.

how sad.

He called Zhou Yongchang, "Where are you?"

Zhou Yongchang seemed to be a little drunk, he said he was drinking with friends.

Fu Lin'an went to look for him.

He was really just drinking.

His friend asked him if he could help, but he said no.

He could tell at a glance that the man was just like him.The same can only live in darkness.

He doesn't want to get in touch with people who are as pathetic as him.

That night, he finally made it with Zhou Yongchang.

The man was lying on his body and moving, but what he said was Lewei.

Fu Lin'an put his arms around his neck, panting and told him again and again, kissing him again and again, "It's Fu Lin'an, I'm Fu Lin'an."

When Zhou Yongchang finally called out his name, Fu Lin'an wanted to cry.

He said, "Lin'an, why aren't you him."

In the early morning, they were woken up by the sound of a phone call, and Zhou Yongchang answered it.

The other party seemed to be the person who drank with Zhou Yongchang yesterday.

The man's voice was a bit cold, but it was pleasant to hear. He said, "I heard that you were taken back by your sister-in-law yesterday?"

Zhou Yongchang glanced at him and quickly changed the subject.

Fu Lin'an laughed.

It's great, in the eyes of others, they are still a couple.

After that, Fu Lin'an began to specialize in technology.Colleagues feel very strange, does he want to transfer to this department?But his original department was easier.

However, because everyone is still a colleague, someone is still willing to teach him.

After he finally got a deep understanding of the technical manipulation of the holographic online game, he began to secretly modify some programs.Then he told his boss, "There is a problem here. Probably the game needs to be updated to stop the program from being garbled."

The boss agreed.

Originally, there was no need to change the program of Lewei's character, because he is just a small character and has nothing to do with the main content of the game.But Fu Linan changed it secretly. Since the character Lewei cannot disappear suddenly, he will delete all his memories.

Fu Linan was so naive to think that when Lewei's memory was cleared, Zhou Yongchang would give up on him, and then he would see Fu Linan.

Although Lewei is gone, Fu Lin'an is still there.

After he thought a lot, after Zhou Yongchang forgot about Le Wei, he could go for a walk with him.He also heard that same-sex marriages are allowed abroad, so he thought he should apply for a visa and save a sum of money to go abroad.No matter whether Zhou Yongchang wants to develop in China or abroad, he will accompany him.

He was so sure that he could be with him forever.

Zhou Yongchang drank a lot of wine again, and he locked himself at home.

Fu Lin'an understood him very well, he knew that his permanence would take some time to ease.

But he still overestimated himself and underestimated Zhou Yongchang's feelings for Lewei.

Zhou Yongchang soon came back to life, even though he was rejected again and again, he still persisted, and gradually cultivated a harmonious relationship.

Fu Lin'an was very angry, he repeated his old trick and deleted Lewei's memory again.

So, once, twice, three times. . .

Every time, Zhou Yongchang would do it all over again.

Maybe there is a kind of love in this world, no matter whether you have amnesia or forget him, what he loves is this person, no matter whether he remembers him or not, this feeling has never changed Pass.

When Lewei's memory was deleted for the sixth time, the game company was slow to realize that there was something wrong with the game. The company's management became stricter, and Fu Lin'an no longer had the ability to delete Lewei's memory.

He secretly put on the gaming helmet, and saw Zhou Yongchang press a kiss on the mole at the corner of Lewei's eye.

That person who should belong to him, Fu Lin'an, should belong to him, Fu Lin'an's kiss.

He called Zhou Yongchang, and he said, "Yongchang, let's break up."

This time, Zhou Yongchang was silent for a while, and answered him, "Okay."

Fu Lin'an thought that Zhou Yongchang just couldn't stand his moodiness at last, and he could still tell the difference between the game and reality. He thought that Zhou Yongchang would come to him soon and tell him that it was just a moment of his extreme anger. He just agreed, and he still likes him.

However, no.

After waiting for several weeks, Fu Lin'an finally couldn't bear it anymore.He ran to Zhou Yongchang's door and knocked desperately.

He knocked and shouted, as if the only way to express his feelings.

He said, "Yongchang, I was wrong, let's make up."

But there was no one at the door.

He waited for a while and left.

That afternoon, the sky was cloudy, and the cold wind blowing into the house made people shiver.

He received a call from Zhou Yongchang's younger sister, Zhou Yong'an. On the other end of the phone, Yong'an was crying hard, "Brother Lin'an, my brother was stabbed..."

Only then did Fu Linan know that when he knocked on Zhou Yongchang's door, his Yongchang was there.

The body that was bleeding profusely, the room was full of blood, his body was always lying in a pool of blood, maybe he was trying to ask him for help, maybe he had already lost his vitality.

This is the shortest distance between Fu Lin'an and his Yongchang, but it is also the furthest distance. He is only separated from the person he loves the most.

But this door is separated forever.

Fu Lin'an stumbled to the hospital, but all he could see was the figure of the man in white cloth.

Will a dead heart die again?

Fu Lin'an lay beside the already cold corpse, crying loudly.

"Yongchang, I won't argue with him anymore, can you wake up?..."

"Yongchang, I'll give him back to you, wake up..."

"I won't argue with him anymore..."

"I'll give him back to you... okay..."

He has done many wrong things in his life, perhaps because of this, the person he loves the most will leave him.

Only when he saw the blood-stained helmet did Fu Lin'an understand, and he dared to admit it.

——His eternity, it is not him who loves.

"You still do this for him..."

"Can't you just look at me..."

"Obviously he is me..."

After dealing with Zhou Yongchang's funeral, Fu Lin'an spent a lot of time drinking and drinking.

He was dragged away by Zhou Yongan.

After he sobered up, Zhou Yongan gave him a passport.

He raised his head in a daze, "What is this?"

"Brother's will, give you one-third of the money in his card." Zhou Yongan sighed, "He always does everything first. Obviously he is at his best age, but he doesn't even The will is written first."

Fu Lin'an knew that he was always a writer, a writer who had published countless albums.

He suddenly remembered, since his eternity left a will, would there be any words to him in his computer?

He bid farewell to Zhou Yongan in a hurry and went straight to Zhou Yongchang's house.

The things in the house have obviously been cleaned up by others, and the blood on the ground has also been washed away.

He hid in Zhou Yongchang's room, sitting in front of the desk.The sun shone into the room, and it was warm, just like the temperature on Zhou Yongchang's body.

The desktop was organized very cleanly. Fu Lin'an still remembered that there were always many useless manuscripts left on the table in his Yongchang, piled up in a pile.

Sure enough, Fu Lin'an found a few articles written by Zhou Yongchang, the handwriting is chic and meaningful, just like him.

What he wrote was unclear and had no beginning or end, but Fu Lin'an understood it.

Fu Lin'an caressed the piece of paper, imagining how his Yongchang's eyes were full of tenderness, and he wrote down these helpless words leisurely and with a sigh. His longing all day long fell on the paper that was glowing with tenderness with tears, and the faint ink faded away. mark.

The truth is that it is difficult to have both white roses and red roses.

The white one has always been "the bright moonlight in front of the window" and "the moon in Chang'an".

The red one has always been the cinnabar mole on my heart.

I can't let go of the whiteness of broken jade and chaotic jade, and I can't let go of the red and purple moles.

I just returned home on a snowy night, but why am I alone?

In this vast world, three thousand beautiful scenery, ten feet of soft red.

It's better to get your eyes drunk and drink with a pot of moonlight.

——Zhou Yongchang

The author has something to say: the last line of the poem borrowed from the lines of many writers.

I feel sorry for Fu Lin'an.

Yong'an, Yongchang, Lin'an.

It's a pity that no one can live forever.