doomsday seclusion

"I know you don't want too many people to know about you, I will keep it a secret for you." She stuck out her tongue, "Just like me, although I have a good relationship with Ah Lei, I don't like him talking about the future. Ask me questions."

"...What are you asking?" Fang Lei and Mu quickly left and returned, and when he heard the end of the sentence, he had a question mark on his face.

"It's okay." Xiang Lvzhu raised his face again, "What did you bring back?"

"Just... pillows, quilts, and mattresses." He gave a thumbs up, pointing to a pile of floating objects behind him, showing the love of his siblings.

Of course, most of these are not the corresponding products in the "bedroom". The two men, one big boss and one ignorant, thank God that they didn't bring the wrong things back.

Seeing the green bamboo, under my nod, I went forward to make a selection.After getting a new mattress and a new pillow, he unceremoniously kicked Fang Lei out of his nest.

"I live in a single apartment, as for you, find another place to live!"

Fang Lei, who was thrown away after use, clutched his sore buttocks, looked at the doorless bedroom with a dazed expression, but turned his back to Luzhu, closed his eyes and fell asleep facing the wall, obviously not wanting to talk to him anymore.

With an embarrassing look on his face, he could only scratch his cheek helplessly, and chose a room next to Xiang Lvzhu's "apartment".

Women who get pissed off are scary.

I thought so, and left with a curtain, looking for a suitable home. In order to respect the privacy of Xiang Lvzhu and the others, I deliberately searched from the farthest point.

Mu Mu took a fancy to a double room at a glance, happily ran into the bedroom, and changed all the bedding.

After the update, he sat down on the bed, with a bright face, begging for credit, "Ah Ling, we live here!"

"It's not us, it's you." I corrected, even if he took the double mattress premeditatedly from the beginning, I didn't necessarily have to live there.

As soon as the words fell, his eyes immediately seemed to be rippling with water, and suddenly he hugged my waist without warning.

"A Ling, don't leave me... I will be obedient."

I:"……"

Resisting the urge to push him away, I took great pains to cultivate his independent words, deeds and mentality, but I don't know if things go against each other, but he is becoming more and more clingy.

What is going wrong?

"Even without me, you can live well." Many things that you think you can't do are just over-speculation and overwhelmed by unnecessary fear.

"Ah Ling!" He said with horror on his face, "Don't die!"

Me: "..." I can't communicate at all.

"I won't die." I patted his head, "I mean, there are many things you can do by yourself, such as resting alone."

"The book says that only children sleep alone. I am an adult, and I have you, Ah Ling." As he spoke, he put his face on my waist and rubbed it lightly.

What the hell is that book!My face was as black as the bottom of a pot.

"The book is wrong. Only children dare not be alone and need a pillow to fall asleep." I tried to reverse the bad knowledge in his head.

"Then why do many adults still find someone to sleep with?" He raised his head with a questioning expression.

"That's..." Because they're partners?Not entirely, many people have not made a commitment and still maintain a bed partner relationship.Because of loneliness?In that case, this guy will definitely climb up the pole again...

I was having a headache, so I heard him say, "Ah Ling, you call me a child at one moment, and an adult at the next, so am I a child or an adult?"

I was taken aback.

Yeah, I used words upside down, depending on the situation, no wonder he didn't know what to do, and his mind was in a mess.

At this moment, he let go of his hand, and an irresistible force suddenly acted on me.I was unsteady on my feet and fell forward on the bed. He took advantage of the gap and pressed over from the right side, pressing my hands with both palms, and the scorching breath instantly enveloped my body.

I couldn't tell whether he was playing out of naivety or on purpose, I just felt that the heartbeat increased instantly, which came from the flustered feeling that things were out of control, and some emotions that even I didn't understand.

It's like discovering that a domestic cat that has been carefully raised in the past has suddenly mutated into a tiger.

"Ah Ling," he buried his head on the side of my left neck, and the heat of his breath irritated my sensitive skin: "I want to become stronger quickly so that I can protect you, but becoming stronger does not mean growing up, don't be so fast Just push me away."

"Let go of me first, we can't have a good talk like this." I wanted to struggle, but his body weighed me down so hard I couldn't breathe.

"Don't let go." He said angrily, "You always refuse to listen to me carefully."

"If you don't let me go, even if the words are spoken, I won't listen to them." I said slightly angrily. This suppressed posture is like stepping on the dignity of a person.

"Oh..." Hearing this, he let go of his hands as a last resort, and obediently resumed his sitting position.As soon as the oppressive aura was gone, I straightened up immediately, resisted the urge to flee and sat down by the bed, facing him face to face.

"Okay, what do you want to say?" I let out a long breath and stared into his eyes.

Problems always have to be solved, and keeping them in each other's hearts will only rot and cause sores, and one day it will cause unpredictable consequences.

"I..." Being stared at by me, he slowly backed down, as if regretting and introspecting for the momentary impulse just now. "Ah Ling, don't be angry."

"I'm not angry." Seeing that he knew his mistake, my anger slowly dissipated, "I know you didn't mean it."

His expression relaxed a little.

"It doesn't matter what you want to say, just speak slowly." I promised, "This time, I will listen carefully."

***

I actually don't like excessive physical contact with people.

The past experience in the research institute has completely changed my personality, and those researchers who touched me in the name of routine experiments undoubtedly made me feel nauseous and nauseated.After becoming a homeless person, he is even more used to being alone. Those who approach without permission are undoubtedly dangers and threats that will kill people.

Not so with the curtain.

Regardless of the appearance of an adult, he is actually a child on the inside. The knowledge gained from a lot of reading may bring some maturity, but there is still an extreme desire in the heart.

This is the impact of the deliberate setting of the research institute, which I understand very well.Although I claim to be Mu's friend, I am actually more like his guardian. When cultivating him to form an independent character, I treat him as a child; but when he has physical contact with me, I can't Ignore his adult appearance.

This is a contradiction between cognition and vision. Without a conclusion, I turned my words over and over again, which caused a bad self-cognition.

All this is rooted in me, and I have to make a choice in terms of my attitude towards him in the future.