england autumn

At dawn the next day, I woke up early with a headache due to hangover and jet lag.

With difficulty, I moved Xiaoya's hand on me and Kary's foot on my lap, and picked up the mobile phone that was thrown on the ground.

Baby I'm a little drunk and miss you

Feifei, people miss you, please hurry back to England, okay~

Daughter-in-law, when you come, we will go to register, okay, it will be legalized in March next year, okay, I can finally call you daughter-in-law legitimately!

...

All are messages I sent after drinking last night.

And she didn't reply at all.

Probably because she was busy and didn't have time to reply to the message. She thought to herself, this will be around twelve o'clock in the United States. Usually, she would simply browse the phone information before going to bed, so she tried to send another message, Feifei, are you asleep?

For a long while, the phone was still quiet.

I had some doubts in my heart, and for some reason, my heart was a little flustered, and I sat on the carpet thinking.

Rui, Xiaoya's lazy voice sounded from behind, are you awake?While talking, he yawned.

Hmm... I casually agreed, wondering if I should call her, in case she just fell asleep and was woken up by me.

What are you doing?Xiaoya leaned over, her messy long curly hair swept across my forehead.

Faey didn't reply to my message, I was a little worried... I said softly.

Call and ask, what's the use of worrying?Xiaoya poked my back in dissatisfaction, you, you just think too much and keep everything in your heart, don't be a mother-in-law.

Well, I thought about it, and decided to call and ask, otherwise I would always feel uneasy and my head would hurt more and more.

The other party's mobile phone cannot be connected.

I panicked all of a sudden, except for the first time when Faey left me to go to America, she never turned off her phone.

I put down my phone in a daze, something must have happened.

Xiaoya closed her eyes and meditated, she didn't hear my voice, she opened her sleepy eyes and asked, no one answered?

I nodded awkwardly, and involuntarily clenched the Chunshui jade on my chest.

Xiaoya suddenly woke up, leaned against me, and patted my shoulder, don't worry, maybe her phone is out of battery, she is so big and so smart, she will be fine.

My heart beat faster, my head hurt like it was about to explode, and my palms became colder and colder. Yaya, I struggled to make a sound. My instinct told me that something happened to her. For eight hours, I didn't reply to my message, and it was still turned off at this point.

Xiaoya saw that my complexion was getting worse, so she said worriedly, "Rui, don't worry, let's wait together, your heart is weak, don't worry, I'll pour you a cup of hot water, don't worry...

Her big soft eyes were full of anxiety, she got out of bed in a panic, and went to the kitchen to boil water.

Kary, who was finally woken up by our conversation, asked in a hoarse voice, I said you two young ladies don't sleep well in the morning, what is this about?

At this time, a strange phone rang, and I answered it without hesitation.

hello?I asked with a trembling voice.

Excuse me, Miss Lin Ruilin?The other party's anxious voice was a little strange, but also a little familiar.

I am, are you?

I am Ren Fei's mother, Feifei, she, something happened to her...

I must be drunk.

The moment I heard this, I didn't know why I thought of this. My Fei, who is smart, beautiful, gentle, and dares to travel the world alone, Fei who proposed to me not long ago, it's impossible for anything to happen!

I only felt the blackness in front of my eyes, resisting the severe pain in my chest, tightly grasping the piece of jade in my chest, and asked, what's wrong with her?

She...Dawei...Revenge...Car accident...

I only heard these fragmentary words, one by one stuck in my ears and my heart, and I heard the sound of the cup falling on the ground, and Xiaoya and Kary shouting my name...

Feifei, you can't do this, this sentence echoed in my mind over and over again, only this sentence.

A month later.

Britain in late autumn is the same as in previous years, the ground is golden, the blue sky is the same as eight years ago, the big soft white clouds are so low that they seem to overwhelm everything, and the coldness in the air is gradually spreading. This is the first time I met her. The season is also my favorite season.

I sat on the grass, burning past paintings one by one.The first one was drawn in a boarding school. A girl with a mushroom head stood on the aisle of the plane with a flushed face, wringing her hands uneasily. A slender girl with a ponytail turned her back and struggled towards the luggage. Sokoban in the cabin, the small body seems to hide infinite power; the second picture is an unfinished Hyde Park sketch, in early autumn, with layers of leaves of various colors, as if eager to release before winter All the colors; next, there are sketches one by one. The bright girl in the painting is sometimes full of spirits, sometimes calm like water, and sometimes smiling sweetly. What remains unchanged is the sparse and handsome eyes...

Feifei, I muttered to that monument, you always clamor to see these paintings but I am always embarrassed to show them to you, I always feel that I can show them to you later, I always feel that we will never be separated again, And a long life.Now I have shown it to you, you are not allowed to laugh at my ugly drawing, but you are right to laugh at it, you are so beautiful, how can I draw it?Also, I will have my birthday next month. Speaking of which, how many birthdays have you celebrated with me? You can’t say that I’m a child anymore, I’ve finally grown up, but why are you… You’re so stupid, why did you go out to settle everything in Viyue, do you still feel a little guilty towards me?It’s me who should be guilty. If I hadn’t broken into your life, none of this would have happened... Wei didn’t die, but his whole body was paralyzed and his heart was like ashes. Maybe it’s worse than death... Why is he so extreme? To separate us... Alas, but it's okay, we are still together, maybe we will see each other soon, I just left the hospital a few days ago, the doctor told me a lot, it seems that if I don't pay attention, I can see you How about you, that's great, I really want to see you soon, we haven't officially married yet, I wear your jade, I'm yours, just wait for me, don't worry and forget everything , I will find you soon...

Under the setting sun, I rubbed and rubbed the words on the tomb of my beloved wife Ren Fei, and carefully tied the green silk scarf on the foot of the little bird on the top of the monument, and then quietly, leaned against it. her side.

Feifei, fly as much as you want, I will catch up with you soon.

The author has something to say:

It took a long time before I dared to write this last chapter.

This story is the first novel I tried to write. It contains my personal shadow, the stories of my friends, and the stories I heard. More, this is just a story.

In the long dark nights of the UK, this story accompanied me through countless nights of chatting. Only in writing can I calm down the emotions that have been pent up for many years.

This article is just to commemorate those lost people and time.

I love you.