england autumn

It was cold and windy, and Wei Momo and I walked on the street with few pedestrians.

You are not worthy, he said suddenly.

What?I was stunned and looked up.

I knew her when I was five years old, he murmured, when her father was studying abroad, the children in the neighborhood said that her father didn’t want her and bullied her, and only I played with her; when she was seven years old, she came to In the UK, I don’t know a word of English, it’s me, I study with her; she’s in middle school at the age of 15, some white gangsters like her and harass her, it’s me, leading a bunch of boys to fight for her; she’s studying for a master’s degree at the age of 21, I was busy in the library until midnight every day for my graduation thesis. It was me who picked me up every night... Lin Rui, where are you at these times?Even now, in order not to be forced into marriage by her family, she didn't reveal the news of our breakup, so I'm always playing this game with her!Lin Rui, if I can give her a happy family and a status in broad daylight, what can you give her!

In the night, his originally handsome face became a little ferocious because of his excitement.

I never knew how to argue with people, even at this moment, for the person I love the most, I am still at a loss for words.

abnormal!Wei hummed the two words contemptuously.

I raised my head and said lightly to him, I never wanted to compare myself to anyone. From the first day I fell in love with her, I knew that all I did was love her.If she chooses you, then I wish her happiness.

Wei became more and more excited and raised his hand, intending to be rough on me.

The sensitivity of practicing fencing many years ago made me quickly dodge to the side, quickly took out my mobile phone, and said to him coldly, you better calm down, or I will call the police immediately.

At this time, a patrolling policeman happened to pass by the opposite side. Seeing our posture, Wei was already walking towards us. Wei was furious, cursed a foul word, and left angrily.

Back home, physically and mentally exhausted.Because no one has lived there for a long time, there is a bone-chilling cold in the house.Turn on all the heaters, hold a cup of hot drink, and nestle on the sofa.

After going through the scene just now, all my previous doubts and confusions have turned into stubbornness.Since women are still at a disadvantage in front of men, let me become stronger, and let me replace my physical disadvantages with other things, such as wisdom and mind.The tall and strong Wei made me realize for the first time the existence of danger in the real world. For myself, and especially for Fei, I must be strong and brave.

Thinking of Fei, he felt faintly worried about her. Uncle Ren looked very strict, and hoped that it would not be too difficult for her... Fortunately, Aunt Ren seemed to be a lively and open-minded person, so the matter should not cause too much trouble... I also thought of her holding my hand and saying don't leave. These three words are actually more touching than those three words... Sigh lightly, Fei, if you never leave, I will depend on you forever.

For three whole days, there was no news. I tried my best to maintain a normal routine, eat hard, and told myself over and over again, not to collapse, and to wait for her to come back.

The fourth day is New Year's Eve.In the morning, I was trying to make a video with my mother, and the sound of firecrackers outside the window was heard in this northern city only at this time of the year.Although my mother was wearing a festive Tang suit and tried her best to smile, she still couldn't hide the desertedness at home.In Nuoda’s house, there were only the sounds of my mother and the TV. I was so sad for a moment that tears almost rolled down my face.

Mom, happy new year, I love you.Before turning off the video, I said softly.

Never heard my expression so straightforward, my mother was a little surprised, and then smiled lovingly, I love you too, Ruirui.

Mom, I suddenly said, if... there is a suitable person... I hope... I am already this old, I hope you can be happy... I lowered my voice.

The mother froze for a moment, and said a little embarrassedly, what did the child say... Mom knows, mom will be happy, and you should be happy too. Only when you are happy, mom will be happy.

I nodded and said solemnly, we will all be happy.

Turn off the video, I sit in front of the fireplace in a daze, happiness, my happiness, how is it at this moment?Will my happiness make my mother happy?

The phone rang, it was Faey's number.

He hurriedly picked it up and asked, what's the matter?How are you?Where are you?

My child, I am Ren Fei's mother.On the other end of the phone, the tone was kind and gentle.

Auntie, hello auntie, I blushed and stammered hello.

Hello, do you have time now?Can we meet?There is a kind of irresistibility in the tenderness.

ok, see you there...

Compared with the previous few days, Aunt Ren is a little haggard. It can be seen that the past few days are not easy, but her hair is still combed meticulously. caught the eyes of many people.

Hello Auntie, seeing her coming, I quickly got up and gave up my seat.

Sit, child, she smiles.

What would you like to drink?I am careful.

Black tea is fine, thank you.

After ordering my tea, I sat quietly, trying to be as peaceful as possible.

Miss Lin, Aunt Ren took a sip of tea, looked up with sharp eyes, I just want to ask you, is it possible for you and Ren Fei to separate?

I shook my head, nodded again, shook my head again, trying to restrain my emotions, and slowly said, Auntie, I love Fei very much, I believe she loves me too, as long as she still loves me, I will never leave... But, If she doesn't love her anymore, or if she chooses the family between me and the family, then I am willing to quit...

Aunt Ren smiled, child, how old are you?Ren Fei said that you are 7 years younger than her? 23 years old?This age is not too young, so I have a certain ability to judge, but have you ever thought that your road, even in the UK, is not the mainstream?You will not have your own children, what should you do when you are old?Your own parents and family are still in China, how do you explain to their relatives and friends?

Auntie, my eyes are lowered, I know this road is not easy to walk, and I have friends around me... I gave up early... I know that the difficulties we face are thousands of times that of ordinary people... But Auntie, do you know?I have not been a happy child since I was a child, I was a lonely child since I was a child, only by Fei's side can I be happy and satisfied from the bottom of my heart, if it is not because of her, my life has never been brighter, nor will it be in the future Bright... Losing her, the road considered smooth by the world, in my eyes, is just a dead end leading to death every day... How can I be willing to let go...Of course...my bottom line...that is, as long as she Willing to leave first...I will never stop...

Aunt Ren lowered her head and took a sip of tea, sighed lightly, and couldn't help laughing again, her expression was like that of a charming girl.

You silly children, at such a young age, why bother to live and die every day, she smiled and said to me, as a parent, you just want your children to be happy, since you really love each other, why should we old guys stand in the way... ...Her father is also, always delusional about his daughter becoming some kind of socialite and lady. After 30 or [-] years, he still doesn't give up...

I was pleasantly surprised.

Seeing my expression, Aunt Ren waved her hand lightly. You don't have to be too happy. I don't stop it, but it doesn't mean I support you. It's just the joys and sorrows of life, which are never instilled in you by others, but you go on your own. , to try, since you have chosen this path, I can only say, be responsible to each other, and, if you do it, don't regret it.

I nodded vigorously.

Well, the day is over, the tea has been drunk, her father and I should go too, so as not to get in your way here~ Aunt Ren wiped her lips leisurely, stood up, and I hurried forward to cover her Put on your coat.

Oh, by the way, she turned her head and said to me, I think, don't go home, go directly to Ren Fei's, that girl knelt for three days and drank some chicken soup, I guess if you don't go, you should go directly It's in the hospital~ After all, I drifted away.

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Sadism is healthier...