england autumn

Under the doctor's all-out efforts, Xiaoya's legs were not disabled in the end, but she could no longer dance like before.

Every day I go to the hospital to chat with her and do rehabilitation training.

She refused at first.

Rui, your health is not good, it is too hard to go back and forth every day...I promise you, just recover well...

It's okay, Yaya, I'm idle at home, I have something to do, it's okay, I try to smile.

I'm not being polite, it's been more than a month since Faey left, and I miss her more and more, what I fear most is the free time.

Whenever I was alone in the room and quieted down, my heart felt empty and uncomfortable.On the carpet in front of the window, there is still the candlestick from that night; on the pajamas in the closet, there is still her body fragrance; the diary filled with my thoughts about her, I have not had time to show her in person...

Sometimes I sit on the floor, wear big headphones on my head, listen to songs, look out the window in a daze, and listen to Qu Wanting's song in my singing, and listen to it all afternoon.

without any precautions

no worries

You appear in my world like this

Surprise me

but you are like this

quietly disappeared without me knowing

no audio from minecraft

the rest are just memories

You exist within the depths of my mind

In my dream, in my heart, in my song

Since recovering from the illness, my lacrimal glands seem to have dried up, and no matter how sad or sad, I can't shed tears.Apart from doing what I should do mechanically and taking care of Xiaoya as much as possible, I was left in a daze in my life.

Tried to send her a WeChat message, but there was no response; tried to call her previous phone number, but it was empty.And I suddenly found that apart from her office colleagues, I didn't know any of her personal friends or family members.

Although the world has become so small, it is so easy for a person to disappear.

In fact, I never really entered her world, I laughed at myself.

A strong sense of loneliness surrounded me all the time, and I became more autistic and silent than before I met her.

I don't know what to do, I just live silently, just like the words in Sleepless in Seattle, maybe one day I wake up and forget that I still need to breathe, and I will be better.

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Five years later.

Xiao Ruirui, I'm going to eat sushi tonight, that bitch Kary has changed her boyfriend again, hey, I really admire her, this is a man who wants to sleep all over the five continents and seven oceans...

I held the phone with a smile and listened to Xiaoya's thoughts.

Okay, after the workshop in the afternoon, see you in the tower, and I will reply gently.

Today is my first day as a teaching assistant. I deliberately changed into a white silk shirt and navy blue A-line skirt. go.

Good afternoon everyone, welcome to Matlabworkshop.I am the teaching assistant of this course, Lin Rui, a second-year doctoral student in the Department of Applied Mathematics, and my office is...

After class, seeing that the students had already left one after another, I put on my windbreaker and prepared to go out the door.

Miss Lin, a white boy ran up to me and introduced himself shyly. Hello, Miss Lin. My name is Steven. I am a doctoral student in the Department of Finance. I have chosen this course. I wonder if you are free tonight. Let’s go together drink……

I cut him off with a smile, sorry Steven, I have a date tonight.

He is not reconciled, what about tomorrow?Or weekends?Or anytime you are free?

Sorry, Steven, if it is a study problem, you are welcome to email me or come to the office to find me, if it is a private appointment, sorry, I can't make the appointment.

Why?He is a little lost.

I have a lover.I smile.

Oh, I'm so sorry... I've actually noticed you for a long time, last year when you were working on a group project with our department... Excuse me, I've never seen you with a guy before... …He weighs the words.

I am gay.I continue to smile.

He was stunned.

Well, if there is no problem, I will go first, goodbye~

Waved lightly at him.

Under the tower, Xiaoya in a black dress lowered her head and played with her mobile phone.

Yaya, I stepped forward and reproached me, how many times have I told you that you have bad knees and don’t wear stockings when it’s cold, especially at night when the cold is severe...

Alright, alright, Dr. Lin, Dr. Lin, do you know that you look like Tang Seng now, don’t dare next time~ She shook my arm coquettishly.

I lifted her arm carefully, and couldn't help reprimanding her again, don't you want your knee with such a high heel? Come on, put my arm around me, so that I can share a little force.

She was so happy that she could hang her whole body on me.

The one with Kary this time is a tall and strong black man.

Xiaoya couldn't help but say to Kary in Chinese, bitch, your taste is getting worse!

Whatever you want, Kary glanced at her disdainfully, as long as the old lady likes it!

Tsk tsk, Xiaoya sighed.

The black buddy asked Kary curiously, honey, what are you talking about?

Xiaoya said politely, we are feeling that you have a great figure!so sexy!

The black dude laughed.

Kary, how is your work doing?I held the cup and asked.

Fortunately, it's hard work. Although she is a designer in name, in fact, it's hard to describe in words~ Kary looks bitter and bitter.

Be content, bitch~ In this situation, I’m thankful to have a job~ Look at Xiaoxin, it’s because she couldn’t find a suitable job, so she returned to China early, and now it’s really hard to see her... Xiaoya sighed , compared to our doctor dog, you are already very good~ This is true, in fact, I have never understood what is wrong with the two of you, what kind of doctor do you have to study...

I chuckled and didn't answer.

Xiaoya is careless, Lin Rui can only study for a Ph.D. with this non-human attitude, my sister thinks she is pitiful, so I just accompany her for a ride~ By the way, Xiaoya, Kary has a smirk on his face, actually, I always think you are right Lin Xiaorui has bad intentions, why do you go wherever she goes, huh?

Xiaoya patted my head, yes, why don't you just follow me?

I just laugh.

Well, you see, since you were injured, Rui has been serving you like serving the uncle, you are not satisfied~ Kary teased.

After dinner, I declined their offer to go to the bar for a drink and chat, and returned to the apartment alone on the grounds that I was too tired.

After taking a bath, wearing a nightgown, holding a glass of red wine, standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at the brightly lit city below.

It has been five years, and because of my health, the doctor said that I can only drink a little red wine, not touch strong alcohol, stay up late, do strenuous exercise, and take medicine indiscriminately... and because I often sleep poorly, I drink red wine every day before going to bed. , become my only reliance.

Faey, I said to myself, you know, I am working as a teaching assistant for the first time today, just like you back then, I hope I can do as well as you... Are you okay now?I still think of you every day, it's almost like breathing, it's a part of my being...but where are you now?U.S?Or the UK?Are you married?Heh, do you know I've been waiting for you?A boy asked me out today, when I rejected him, I was full of you, you are my only love... even if you are not here... Also, now that I have grown up, I have learned that no matter how lonely I am in my heart, I will always stay Smile... No one will call me a child like you dote on me again... I really, really miss you...

Probably because it is nearly fifteen, the moon is bright and round tonight. Looking at the bright moon for a long time, I can't help but recite the passage in "Moonlight Night of Spring River Flowers" in my heart.

Who's Bian Zhouzi tonight?Where is Acacia Mingyue Tower?

Poor wandering upstairs in the moon, should be shone away from the makeup mirror.

The Yuhu curtain can't be rolled away, but it is returned on the anvil.

At this time, we look at each other and not hear each other, and I am willing to follow the monarch every month.

May the moonlight shine on you.