england autumn

In the darkness, a tall and thin man in white came towards me.

Ruirui, he walked up to me, knelt down, and lovingly touched my head, my little princess has grown up so much.

He has a clear face, a warm smile, and a pair of gold-rimmed glasses on his high bridge of nose.

You are... I hesitate.

I'm Dad, Ruirui, I'm sorry, Dad didn't grow up with you by your side, he choked up and said, but baby, Dad has been watching you from a place you can't see, watching you read and write, watching you I like to paint like my father, I like to run, and I watch you become a big girl day by day...

Dad, I threw myself into his arms and cried, Dad, where have you been, I miss you so much!Dad, why did you leave me...

Weeping aggrievedly.

Baby, I'm sorry... He put his arms around me, repeating over and over again, I'm sorry, it's my father's fault...

Dad, I sobbed and said to him, Dad, can you take me away, I am so tired, take me away...

Good girl, he wiped my tears for me, listen to me, you still have a long way to go, it’s not time to come to your father, be obedient, go back, there are mothers, grandparents, and your friends, there are many, many People who care about you are waiting for you...

I shook my head, no, they don't want me anymore, my mother is always busy, there are always endless meetings, there are always endless banquets, grandparents don't like me, they never come to see me, even Fei, don't want me...

Thinking of Faey made me cry even harder, Dad, can you take me away, please...

Baby, he hugged me distressedly, baby is so obedient and beautiful, how can no one like it?All of this is temporary. Believe me, Dad, everyone has their own difficulties. To be a strong child, you must face everything bravely.Promise Dad, go back, live well, and complete the unfinished life for me, it will be considered as a favor to Dad, okay?

I nod my head twitching.

Good boy, my father is leaving, he is holding my hand with both hands, remember, no matter when, be brave, strong, kind, remember...

His figure gradually faded until he disappeared little by little.

I cried and yelled, Dad.

Lin Rui!Someone called my name.

Opening the heavy eyelids, there was a dazzling light.

It took a few tries before I could see clearly that the person in front of me was my mother.

For the first time, I realized that my mother was actually old.

In the carefully dyed hair, a few strands of white hair are particularly dazzling, and on the well-maintained face, a few wrinkles have become more and more obvious.

Mom, I called softly.

Ruirui... my mother, who has always been strict with me, called me that for the first time since I was a teenager. How do you feel now?Mother's voice trembled with excitement.

I nodded and replied feebly, okay.

You've been in a coma for three days... Mom, I'm going to be scared to death by you... Mother rarely shows her weak side in front of me.

three days?I was a little shocked myself.

Son, the doctor said that you were born with a bad heart... Well, back then your father was... You are suffering from severe myocarditis this time, and I am afraid that you will have to suspend school for half a year to a year...

I stared blankly at my mother.

Taking a break from school?

My mother held my hand and muttered to herself, it's all my fault... I always want to train you... I don't care enough about you... On the contrary...

That's okay, I said in my heart, even if I go to school, I'm still a walking dead.

All thoughts are afraid of ashes.

Closing his eyes wearily, his father's blurry face appeared again, and Faey's back was walking towards the gate of the subway station.

Why, you all abandon me.