england autumn

When I got home, I was still worried. I looked for the diary when my mother was not paying attention, and found that the location had not changed, and some small items such as tickets mixed in it were also in the original location.And intentionally or unintentionally, she used her mother's words, such as what she thinks of Fei, I like Fei very much, etc. Seeing that her answers are all normal, I feel relieved.

After staying for a few days, my mother flew to Europe for a meeting. On the eve of my departure, my mother had a long talk with me.

Lin Rui, your mother said, you also know that my mother never expects you to make any earth-shattering careers, but only hopes that you will go through every step of your life safely and smoothly.Now that you are 19 years old and an adult, you are easily influenced by various foreign objects when you are alone in a foreign country. I hope that when you do things in the future, you can think with an adult's mind and make every decision carefully. Do you understand what mother means?

My mother has always educated me like this, I didn’t think much about it, and replied with a smile, okay, don’t worry, I’m not into pornography, gambling, or drugs~ I think I’m pretty reliable~ Is she really meaningful? I gave me a serious look, I hope you are really reliable.

All he could think about was how happy he would be to see Faey after school started.

Now that you are grown up, you won't be willing to listen to me being too wordy. I just say one sentence, be responsible for yourself and your family, understand?

The mother's eyes were a little stern.

Oh... I am obedient.

During the first few days of school, I went to Fei's office many times, but couldn't find her. I heard from her colleagues that she hadn't come to the office recently, and she seemed very busy.

I really want to send her a message, but I am afraid of disturbing her study or meeting.

It doesn't matter, she will contact me when she is free, I comfort myself, don't bother people, don't pester her, she has business to do, mature, mature, don't be a naive child...

All kinds of thoughts.

Ten days later, early in the morning.

While still asleep, I was woken up by the phone ringing.

Who disturbed people's dreams early in the morning, I grabbed my phone angrily, wishing I could throw it against the wall.

Caller ID, that familiar figure from behind.

He woke up instantly and answered with a smile on his face.

Rui, are you still sleeping?The gentle voice that I love the most in my life.

Hey, I was discovered by you... I smirk, where have you been, I have looked for you many times but can't find it, are you busy recently...

Rui, she interrupted me softly, I, I am now at the airport...

Airport?Where are you going?Are you going to a meeting?Domestic or foreign?

I sit up.

Rui, I... am going to America...

I froze.

After Rui... I... I... leave, you have to take care of yourself... Her voice was a little trembling.

What time do you fly?I will see you off.

It's about to take off, you don't have to come...bye...

busy tone.

I dialed back again, it was turned off.

Why?What's wrong?Why did you leave suddenly.

I just sat on the bed.

I must be dreaming.

After a while, I pinched my hand.

pain.

Sitting in the room, I don't know how to spend more than ten hours.

Faey, where have you been?

In the dark, the phone lighted up, and it was her text message.

Just a few lines.

Lin Rui, I have arrived safely, don't read.

Also, let's break up, sorry.

Don't try to find me, best wishes.

Ren Fei.

I laughed, I must be dreaming, well, I didn’t have a good rest today, go to sleep, and when I wake up, I will know that none of this is real.

I said to myself, put on the quilt, go to sleep, Lin Rui, go to sleep.

I only felt a cramping pain in my chest, and I fell into an endless darkness.

Waking up again with a terrible headache, I grabbed my phone and turned it on.

The latest message is still the one she sent me.

The phone slipped, picked it up, slipped it down again, grabbed it hard, and threw it against the wall.

It's all over the place.

I burst into tears.

Fei, Fei Ren, Fei Ren, why? !

Crying hoarsely, his chest tightened up and down, he suddenly felt unable to breathe, and a strong sense of vomiting came over him, and before his eyes, he was already blackened, and he sat slumped on the ground.

I, am I going to die? Well, if I die, I won't feel so sad...

Her figure appeared in my mind again... What else are you doing here...

No, I want to live, and suddenly I wake up, I want to find her, and ask her face to face, why...why did you leave suddenly...

I struggled, climbed to the door, grabbed the phone, and said a word to the reception person, help, but I didn't have any strength anymore.

My soul seemed to have escaped from my body, and I watched me, who was limp on the ground, being carried into an ambulance by a group of people, with tubes inserted through my mouth and nose, and driven into the hospital. Various instruments were brought up in turn. My own self, like a dilapidated doll, was moved and transported there.

I'm so tired, just let me go to sleep and never wake up again.