england autumn

When I got home, I threw myself on the bed and cried loudly.

Ever since I could remember, I had never cried so presumptuously.

Faey's words kept repeating in his mind, and then what?

For the first time, I felt small and powerless.yeah, then what?What have I, what have I but an impulse?Why should I love her?Besides, she already has a boyfriend, and she has been in a relationship for three years, why should she give up for me?

What am I.

Then the phone rang and it was Faey.

The caller ID showed me secretly taking pictures of her back. I stared blankly at the screen for a few seconds and hung up.

I don't know why I hung up, I just felt like a joke in front of her.

Go to the supermarket and buy a bunch of junk food and a few bottles of wine, close the curtains, turn off the lights, bake a pizza when you are hungry, drink when you are awake, sleep when you are drunk, and spend your days in a daze.

I don't know what I did wrong, and I don't know what she did wrong, no one is wrong, why is my heart hurting to death.

About the third day, the doorbell rang. I didn't want to pay attention to it, but it kept ringing.

I struggled to get up from the bed, the strong sunlight almost blinded my dog's eyes.

The person at the door gave me a slap when he came up.

I sit down on the ground.

It's Xiaoya.

Lin Rui!What are you doing!The phone was turned off for three days!No one can contact you, not to mention going to Edinburgh the day after tomorrow, how many people are worried about you if you play like this? !Also, look at what you look like!

I sat on the ground with my head down and didn't speak.

Fei looked for me today and said that she couldn't get in touch with you. She said she wanted to see you, but I said I live close and I should come. Xiaoya hated her teeth itching.

She wants to see me?I smile wryly.

How much alcohol did you drink!Xiaoya kicked me on the back.

This time it really hurt, I stood up, pinched her shoulders, and shouted, I don't care about her, and I don't care about you, get out!

She was clearly terrified.

There are tears in the eyes.

I've never lost my temper with anyone.

After yelling at her, I immediately regretted it, brushed her hair lightly, and said in a low voice, Yaya, I'm sorry... I'm just...in a bad mood...

She hugged my waist and buried her head in my chest, sobbing.

Ruirui, in fact, I have already guessed it...from the first day of school you were abnormal...until Kary found out the ticket...the person you like is probably her...but the difference between you...is too far It's over... Even the relationship between Kary and Xiaoxin breaks up as soon as they say it, you two...it's too difficult...

I can only smile wryly.

Hug Xiaoya, Yaya, don't worry, I... I will try my best to give up... After all... She already has a boyfriend... It's been three years... I won't be a mistress...

Xiaoya touched my face and asked softly, did it hurt from the beating just now?I'm...too anxious...

It's okay... I forced a smile, are my hands oily?I haven't washed my face for three days...

Xiaoya stayed and went to the train station together until the third day.

As Christmas approaches, the streets and alleys are filled with a strong Christmas atmosphere, and even the train station is decorated with patterns of Santa Claus, big and small.

Girls~ Kary waved to us who were already waiting on the platform in a hurry. She was wearing a fiery red woolen cape, which matched the Christmas atmosphere very well.

Kary is so lively all the time, I sigh softly.

This is a smart person, Xiaoya squeezed my hand, life is a hundred years, why bother.

All the way north, to Edinburgh, Cathy has been waiting in the crowd.In just a few months, she has grown more and more beautiful. A black biker jacket and leather pants make her tall and tall look even more aggressive. With blond hair and white skin, she looks like a handsome female killer in the game.

And beside her is Xiaoxin.

I don't know whether it was on purpose or because of the pain of a broken relationship, but Xiaoxin lost a lot of weight, her round face almost turned into an awl, and her hair was dyed chestnut. Standing beside Cathy, she kept shaking, with a cynical expression on her face.

We hugged each other, and Xiaoxin was very warm to us, but he deliberately avoided Kary, not even looking at her.

Cathy took us to visit various scenic spots in Edinburgh. At sunset, standing on the hill overlooking the whole city, it was beautiful, but the vicissitudes of life made people feel sad.

The five of us stayed close together, watching the distant sunset silently until night fell.

Back at the rented apartment, we cooked a Chinese and Western dinner together, grilled chicken, dumplings, desserts, and put everything you can think of on the table.

Merry Christmas!Happy New Year!

Everyone drank whiskey and enjoyed the food, which was very similar to the scene when we graduated.

After a few glasses of wine, Xiaoxin became excited. She took out her mobile phone and showed us her new girlfriend.

How is it, not bad?Standard Bai Fumei!She is proud.

We are noncommittal, just a few false responses.

Kary sneered.

why are you laughing!Xiaoxin came up to her and asked drunkenly.

What's the matter with you? Kary pushed her away.

Bitch, Xiaoxin said contemptuously.

Why don't you say it again! Kary stood up.

I, say you, are bitch, bitch, Chinese, called bitch.

Xiaoxin also stood up.

Kary slapped her across the face.

For the second time in a few days I saw a slap in the face.

Seeing that the two were about to fight, Cathy immediately stood in the middle and separated them.

How dare you hit me!What face do you have to hit me!Xiaoxin yelled, Cathy and Xiaoya supported her and walked to the bedroom, comforting her while walking.

Kary froze for a moment, then turned around and ran out.

Kary, I yell, it's raining outside!

She didn't look back.

I grabbed her clothes and chased her out.

It was past ten o'clock in the evening, and there was no one on the street. Kary, who was only wearing a thin shirt, squatted on the street corner and cried.

I ran over and wrapped her in a coat and hugged her, and said to her, Kary, go back... In this way, I will catch a cold...

Kary turned around and hugged me, crying.

Ruirui, I'm actually very sad too...I don't want to leave her either...but...this kind of relationship has no future...how will I face my parents in the future...We will break up sooner or later...it's better to end now... Am I not sad?Who saw me when I was sad...

Her tears wet my collar.

I listened to her chanting silently, and my heart was already desolate. Who belongs to whom, and who is really happy?