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All classes are suspended and all exams postponed.Ever since Professor McGonagall announced that parents could pick up their children from Hogwarts without any conditions, there were fewer people in the castle every day.But there were still more people pouring into Hogsmeade from all directions. Even though the Ministry of Magic had announced that the British wizarding world had entered the highest alert state, there were still so many people who wanted to say their final goodbyes to Dumbledore.

This is the sunniest June of the year. The weather is not too hot because of the midsummer. The golden light dances lively on the calm lake. Every ripple looks like an elf holding a torch.This used to be the favorite time for Hogwarts students. All the exams have ended, and the new stage is still hidden behind the September calendar. There is no rush to come.Harry and the others visited Bill twice a day in the school hospital, and despite the best efforts of Madam Pomfrey and my dad, his scars looked horrific, reminiscent of Mad-Eye Moody.

"I don't know what tasks Professor Dumbledore assigned them." Before leaving the school hospital, I seemed helpless in the face of Professor McGonagall's problems. She seemed a little angry because Harry and Neville chose to hide it from her.

"Didn't Potter mention it to you, even a little bit?" Professor McGonagall stared at me firmly, as if trying to find a little flaw in my eyes.

"Professor Dumbledore said that I don't need to know those things." After a few days passed, when I mentioned Dumbledore's name, I finally no longer felt the choking in my throat, "We all follow his arrangement, professor."

In the end, the Ministry of Magic and the deans of Hogwarts reached a consensus that Dumbledore will be buried in Hogwarts, and the funeral will be held two hours before the departure of the Hogwarts Express.There has always been a suffocating and depressing atmosphere in the castle. I spent a lot of time sitting with Harry and the others on the grass outside. When they started to discuss things in whispers, I put an earplug on myself. He listened to the spell and then leaned on Harry's shoulder in a daze.

When I attended my first funeral last summer, I could never have imagined that the second would be so close to it.The people eating breakfast in the auditorium seemed to have no appetite, and some even started to cover their faces with handkerchiefs and began to sob.

"Talus?" Hermione softly reminded Tallus, who was about to pour porridge onto his dark dress robes, his eyes had just been lingering on the half-empty Slytherin table.

"Did Harry go to see James and Fiona?" Tallus wiped his mouth, looking away.

"Well, at the door of the auditorium, they had just arrived when Alice and I came," Hermione replied.

Compared with the small funeral in Godric's Hollow, Dumbledore's funeral even seemed a bit crowded.The hundreds of chairs that have been arranged are completely insufficient, and many people have to stand unevenly at the end.I didn't know most of them, and I could only make out the members of the Order of the Phoenix and the extraordinarily large Ms. Maxime among the various costumes.Mum and Dad sat with the other teachers at Hogwarts, and we took the seats on the other side reserved for students.

After the funeral, the crowd, who were still immersed in grief and mourning, evacuated in an orderly and rapid manner under the arrangement of the Ministry of Magic staff.On the way back to the castle, I saw Filch hunched over by the bushes outside the castle. The old-fashioned suit on him showed an incongruous and funny look. The tie was too tight like a hanged man. knot.I stood there watching for a while, and saw that he was trying to dig a small earthen pit, and beside him was a delicate, un-his-looking calico covered with something.

I don't know how long he's been digging here, but he seems to be trying hard, but only a shallow hole has been dug.People who came and went around did not notice him or turned a blind eye to his existence, and he was not a popular existence at Hogwarts from the past to the present.

"The soil by the lake will be softer." I don't know why I said at that time, "It's also quieter there... and there are more birds flying around."

He raised his head and saw that it was me, his bloodshot eyes widened, and he subconsciously stepped back a few steps, with a funny, cow-like sound coming out of his nose.After a long time, when the pendant on his chin stopped shaking, he said in that snorting voice, "It doesn't like being too far away from me."

After he finished speaking, he continued to turn around and bent down, and began to dig the shallow pit with great effort with the tattered, pick-like thing in his hand.He is the only one in Hogwarts who can use these non-magical tools, and no one is willing to help him restore those tools, but I think he should not want others to use magic to help him, people always want to use magic to help him. Rely on your own strength and bid farewell to the life you love most in your life.I didn't apologize to him for Mrs. Norris who killed him by mistake, just as he never apologized to me for hurting my Vivian.

"Alice." Dad called my name not far away. When I walked to him, he stretched out a hand to smooth out a strand of hair that fell in front of my ear, "just now before your mother left I was looking for you, why did I come here?"

"Has Mum gone back to the Ministry?" I whispered.

"Yeah," he replied simply, "I'll pick you up at King's Cross Station."

I didn't cry at Dumbledore's funeral - for a while after coming down from the Astronomy Tower, I thought I'd lost the ability to cry out because of excessive guilt and anger.But when my father's hand brushed my hair lightly, I felt a strange sense of grievance coming from nowhere. In the next second, I stretched out my arms and hugged him, just like when I was a child, I would open my arms and hug his legs tightly before crying.

"I think...it's all my fault." I finally said what I didn't dare to say or even think about it for so many days, "If I hadn't taken him to see Dumbledore... …if I hadn’t been so foolish as to believe that he hadn’t gone completely bad…Dumbledore wouldn’t have been tricked…nothing would have happened — and there would have been no funeral today…”

Dad didn't speak, he even looked a bit at a loss at first, after a while he stretched out his arms and slowly hugged me tightly, after all even I forgot the last time I cried in his arms was ten years ago or earlier .The distance between the child and the parents gradually increases unconsciously. Some parents will keep calling to express their retention, while some parents will just stand still and silently watch the little child grow up and gradually go away. .

"People make mistakes." I felt that he had exhausted all his tenderness, trying not to sound like he was in a dimly lit classroom, "You will make mistakes, Dad will make mistakes, Mom will make mistakes, Deng Of course Bullido will make mistakes... What matters is whether you have the courage to learn from the mistakes and continue to go down after making mistakes...Many people don't, but Dad believes you have."

"Because I'm a Gryffindor?" I asked as he wiped the remaining tears from my cheeks with his thumb.

"Because you are Lily and I's daughter, as far as I know, what my wife lacks most is courage." He couldn't help curling his lips, "Although most of the time I think brains are much more important than courage , of course she never agrees with me."

I couldn't help laughing, and a small bubble blew out of my nose because of the choking.

Sometimes I think about why I insist on writing this memoir. When I first received the invitation from the magazine, I didn’t think that it would occupy most of my free time in the future. I thought that memories would cause pain , but at the time I underestimated the stress that reliving these events put on myself, my husband, and my friends.Here I sincerely thank them for providing me with all kinds of help to ensure that I can restore everything that happened to readers as much as possible, even though they are facing the pain of reliving the loss of relatives and old friends at the same time.

Before the end of this volume, my husband and I had another small argument because he thought it was self-torture for me to force myself to recall in this way, and worried that I would have a nervous breakdown.But from my point of view, the expected content of the five volumes has already been written to the end of the fourth volume, and in fact, what the magazine wanted me to write at the beginning should only be the content of the fifth volume. It's all about writing the story that happened, and it seems a bit irresponsible to give up at this time.

Sometimes I really worry that some things will be forgotten too quickly, especially when I saw the staggering number of comments in the "Daily Prophet" after the Muggle-born wizards involved in vicious cases were reported intentionally or unintentionally. Pointing to the issue of the perpetrator’s lineage (I will not comment on the “Daily Prophet”’s special labeling of Muggle origin in the report), our wizarding society has gone through the last war, to the “anti-pure-blood family anti-Slytherin "It's overkill, and now less than 20 years have passed since the voices of discrimination against Muggle-borns began to appear again.

That's why I want to continue writing this memoir even if I burn the waste parchment again and again.I don't want young people today to think that the things that exist in "Modern History of Magic" are far away because they have been written in the history books, and I don't want them to put those things that are not fully written in the textbooks, or even exaggerated and deified. Content is king, just as Neville Longbottom has emphasized time and time again that he doesn't want the media to call him "the savior" anymore.

I don't want you to feel that you have today's happiness and stability because a group of irreplaceable heroes saved you in the past, so I didn't write this memoir from the beginning of the fifth volume, and I showed you the past of our group.What I want to show you is that we once had the same peaceful and carefree campus time as you, and we once sat in the star-studded auditorium of Hogwarts and imagined the unknown future like you. Back then, we It is no different from those of you who are reading this magazine.Those boys will stay up all night because of a Quidditch win or loss, those girls will be jealous because of their incomprehensible boyfriends, and none of them is determined to save something from the beginning.

We, no matter whether we are living people or those who died back then, watched the fathers who stood in front of us and tried to protect us fall one by one, and then were forced to carry everything desperately to face the pain and suffering of the war. lose.I wrote about two funerals at the beginning and the end of this volume, but you must know that many people did not even leave a complete body in the end. The world not only owes them a funeral, but also owes them a funeral that should have been with us. experienced future.

So when I received letters from those who asked me to "stop writing and end the story at a time that wasn't the cruelest", I wasn't angry, let alone disappointed, I felt that my goal had been achieved, but I would continue to write .One day those of us who really experienced that war will die, and then become a few thin pages in the book, and one day the history textbook will have to be cut because it is too thick, and a few pages will become one page, and finally become In just a few lines, the past decades have passed.

I know that everything will be forgotten one day, otherwise the changes in history will not be like a circle of deja vu, but I hope that everything I wrote can make this memory last longer. Take a little longer, you don’t need to remember the names in these stories, I just hope you can remember the emotions you feel after reading it, the powerlessness and anger, the despair and sadness, even if one more person can remember it for a while longer, Maybe it will be able to postpone the next cycle of tragedies.

Thank you for sticking to the present, see you in the next volume.

Talk about the Future of the Fourth Volume of "Circulation"

In fact, ever since I named this novel "Circulation", people have been asking me what the title means, and trying to use this word to infer the final ending, but I have never responded.Now that I’ve written it, I don’t know if anyone can see that “circulation” has actually appeared many times in this article. It’s not a hint of the ending, but more like an image throughout the whole text. Many plots follow the "Ring" to set.

The fourth volume (corresponding to the original "Half-Blood Prince") is from the perspective of the article Alice writing memoirs, and she will definitely not write very easily.But from my point of view, the writing is much smoother than the previous volume, not only because the previous volume has more emotional lines than extensions, many emotions are tangled, and often need to be adjusted, but also because the fourth volume is because of the It is close to the end, and has entered the stage of foreshadowing. It is quite happy that many clues buried in the previous article have been successfully recovered one by one.The original book is also a bit thinner than the Order of the Phoenix. I expected it to be about 20 chapters at the time, and finally added the epilogue to a total of 21 chapters, which shows that after writing so much, I can finally restrain my desire to talk nonsense.

Let me talk about a few regrettable places first. Most of the regrets are caused by the restriction of the title of No.1 heroine.First of all, Fleur Delacour’s role in the original book, because Alice didn’t have a good reason to go to the Weasley’s house, and I added the plot of Amelia’s funeral in the summer vacation, which caused her to suppress and then rise. The hypocritical and ignorant junior attitude in the image did not write, and skipped directly to the end of the marriage confession with Bill. If it was a movie party instead of an original book party, it might be a bit confusing.Originally, I wanted to let Fleur also appear in the chapter of Godric's Hollow, but in that atmosphere, Alice's personality would not take the initiative to talk to people she didn't know very well, and secondly, under the restrictions of serious scenes, if I was also worried that it would magnify Furong's shortcomings, so I chose to skip it under trade-offs.

Then there is the image of Professor Dumbledore, because I have a relative and friend who has only watched the first three movies of "Harry Potter", in order to help me troubleshoot big logical loopholes and narrative jumps from the perspective of a pure passerby Look at my update, she said after reading the end, because Alice and Dumbledore had too little contact in the previous article, Dumbledore was more like a symbolic character in her heart, when he died she was in I didn't get too much shock at the beginning, and I need the empathy of other characters later to experience the sadness.She is very right, and it is also a relatively big problem that I discovered only after I wrote the fourth volume. In the original book, the relationship between Dumbledore and Harry is very close, and the two have a communication almost every time after the turmoil is over. But in "Circle", I divided the role of Harry in the original book into three characters. Alice was affected by the plot direction and Dumbledore's contact was sporadic, although I later realized this in the first chapter. His role in Godric's Hollow was added in the four volumes, but when I looked at the whole novel later, I still felt a bit thin. If "Circulation" is regarded as an independent work, the image of Dumbledore is not written anyway. good.

Finally, the image of Voldemort is similar to that of Professor Dumbledore's characterization, or it can't be directly portrayed at all. Alice has never met him face to face, and everything depends on her listening to others. Voldemort is currently in "Circle", which is similar to the legend of the big bad wolf who comes out to eat people after dark.But I'm not so worried about him, because he plays a very important role in the fifth volume, and I plan to change it a little bit. In contrast, Dumbledore has a headache because he can only be plumped up through memories because of his death.

At the beginning, I hoped that readers who had watched the first three Harry Potter movies would be able to read "Circle" without barriers. I personally think that the first three volumes should not be a big problem, but the fourth volume is because I deleted all the content related to the Horcrux, and all the content about finding the locket in the cave (of course, there is a reason for this setting, and the fifth volume should also be completed accordingly), so the reading threshold of this volume It's a bit higher than before. If the original book party reads the fourth volume and automatically completes "things that Miss Snape doesn't need to know at the moment" in their minds, the fluency will be better.

Because of the butterfly effect and the plot arrangement, the two big clues in the original "Half-Blood Prince" "Who is the Half-Blood Prince" and "Dumbledore took Harry to see Voldemort's past" were taken away by me, in order not to let the whole volume The only thing left is that you love me and I don’t love you. I originally created the main plot clue of "Alice investigates what Draco is doing". There are too few direct descriptions by Ke, and overall I think...it's okay.The emotional drama is still relatively happy to write. Lala Miscellaneous paves the way for a chapter and finally can release Haai’s straight ball candy. Roch’s emotional line basically followed the original work, and then also hinted at Talus and Ah in the text. Storia thing.The volume of De Ai is basically digging holes to fill in the fifth volume. The function of plot promotion and character transformation is more intense. The role of the two of them in the fifth volume will be relatively heavy, so I am not in a hurry, just like at that time In the third volume, I am not in a hurry to write Haai's progress.

The most relieved part of the fourth volume should be that I finally recovered all the clues of the Tarot cards (appearing in the Christmas ball in the second volume), and Alice picked up the last Tarot card, Combining the information in the context, it is suggested that the owner and content of the cards should be inferred. So far, all the cards have been turned out, so the title of that chapter is "The End of the Game", and the first meaning is clearly referring to this school year ( The last Quidditch match of the whole series), the second meaning is that everyone has got their cards, and the door to the endgame has begun to open.This clue should be one of the longest and richest clues in this novel. It bears strong functionality, and it is not too abrupt to give the final and relatively stable retraction without being forgotten by me halfway through. easy.

Then there is the "ring" I mentioned at the beginning. Maybe most people don't think about it, but it doesn't matter. These are some of the author's own little fun when writing. I always feel that if something is thrown out with a snap, Pressing the reader's neck and saying "Look! I buried something!" Actually, it's not very good, it's better to glance at the peaceful past and feel nothing, and then there will be a very weak "Hey, it seems that the front is not A little reminder" This degree, if you can't see it, it won't affect your reading. When you see it, you nod your head, which is a kind of tacit understanding and fun.

I will briefly show you some "cycles" that appeared in the fourth volume, and some friends who did not mention it may have been pointed out by friends in the comment area: Slughorn's Christmas party and the Christmas ball of the Triwizard Tournament formed a ring (Books [-] and [-]), the invitation plot of the three protagonists completes a complete reversal; the two Quidditch matches between Gryffindor and Ravenclaw (Books [-] and [-] Volume) formed a circle, Harry who raised the Snitch and waved to Alice, and Harry who flew to the stands and kissed her completed the shaping of Haai's emotional line; Mrs. Norris and Ellie of Filch Si's Vivienne (Volumes [-] and [-]) formed a closed loop of cause and effect; and in this volume, the biggest "loop" in the whole text was clearly mentioned by Alice at the end, the cycle of historical changes and people's floating , This is also the reason why I choose dual timeline narrative, not just to add a gimmick to the article to guess the husband.

Originally, I planned to solve this big ring by Alice’s grandson at the end of the fifth volume. It’s like that kind of... The end of the article forcibly elevates the idea, but when I planned these plots back then, I really didn’t think that it was true in reality. So there was a discussion about "deja vu" and "everything will get better or worse", so I simply released this image in advance.In addition to the core of anti-blood discrimination and love over evil in the original book, I selfishly used more pen and ink in "Circulation" to express an anti-war sentiment. This is also mentioned repeatedly in the end. The number is A living person is a living person under the history books. Of course, this sentiment has undoubtedly been expanded due to some things that happened in reality in the past few days. I don’t want to do anything here to discuss it.

I have always believed that respecting life is the basis for people to be kind, but I have really seen a lot of works that are very hostile and promote killing. It’s not that I can’t write, as a creator, I think everything can be written , but from what angle you write it, I think it needs to be discussed.The first time I tried to write something at the core of anti-war, it was because there was a voice in that circle at that time, probably that those who huddled in the back and wanted to live a small life were cowards, and the main protagonist should be iron-blooded and indifferent regardless of gains and losses. He won the battle of life and death, and got more support, and the opponents were all labeled as superficial nympho girls who only want to fall in love.When I saw that statement, I was more shocked than angry, because at that time a picture of a Syrian child looking up at the streamers in the sky was widely circulated. Those streamers were not stars but missiles that were about to cause a devastating blow.

Many of us are so well protected that we are no longer satisfied with the daily necessities of the peaceful age, and we begin to fantasize about the success of one general in war and the death of all bones. The fantasy is that the spring breeze is proud of the horseshoe disease, and the souls under the hoof are all killed.That's not right, at least not in my opinion.We can sing the praises of the people who resisted desperately for victory, and we can welcome the generals who returned triumphantly from the bloody battlefield, but we can fanatically discuss what happiness a war can bring to people, and it is true and without any irony, at least I can’t accept it, The reason is very simple, I have self-knowledge, I know that I will never be the person reading the report, I am just the number in the report.

I have no objection to the emergence of these voices, the world needs all kinds of voices, but I decided to try my best to spread a little contrary signal in my future works, even if it is superficial, even if it is naive.Because I don’t have much ability to write originals, so I stuffed these things into the fan. It may be that the fire is not well grasped and the entertainment is reduced. I have never written such a long novel before. I used to call it a long novel. The works... probably only have one volume of "Circulation", or even half of the volume, so I am personally satisfied that I can maintain this level of completion when I can write it up to now, and it is due to the limitation of my ability.I don't have any ambitions to write about flowers. The so-called creation, no matter what the subject matter or form, says what I want to say, writes about the people I want to write about, it's just a small spiritual pursuit of ordinary people beyond three meals, and it should not be a part of life. burden.

The fourth volume was written relatively quickly, because I have been at home all the time, and I have never gone out since the first day of the first lunar month. It is useless to worry about anxiety in my heart. It is better to divert my attention.My mother has not returned home since she received the notice to cancel the vacation on the first day of the first lunar month, and she dare not go home. It is a festival of reunion, but the reunion has become dangerous... So the mood has not been good recently, and all kinds of expressions have not been restrained. And I don’t need to be forgiven... I still said the same sentence, I listed what I should say at the top, I was worried that I wouldn’t see it, so I wrote it again at the beginning, and now I still say I’m a fan... You probably It’s really more suitable for reading that kind of sweet essay (I didn’t mean to say that the sweet essay is bad, I have never been able to write that kind of wonderful and not greasy cookie, I am very envious of this ability), a novel of this length is really Most of the novels can't do this, most of the novels need a huge number of conflicts and emotional lines with twists and turns, and authors with limited ability can't support the kind of back-to-basics bland plot.

And I’ve said it many times before, this is just a trumpet, and fandom is not something on the stage. If you want to talk about popularity, I can have a pure popularity of 5.4k after half-reading Zhihu, not to mention what I wrote back then. The 800-word essay has been searched on Zhihu Hot List and Weibo. Which sense of accomplishment is not as strong as writing a fan?Maybe if more people read it, write more frequently. In the end, no one reads it. Just like when this article was first written on Zhihu, I remembered that writing a few hundred words in a month or two and throwing it on it is for me. There is not much difference, and I really don’t expect to get anything from this article... Fans, popularity, etc., are all things that start from scratch in an instant in a different circle and platform. You said that I will set up some suspense-like techniques to increase the article The readability is for sure, but you said that I spent more than half a year writing 50 million words just to deceive you into paying attention... Maybe you are really the kind of person who loses hundreds of millions of dollars every minute Elite talent, I feel guilty for wasting your time.

It’s too far away, so at the end, I wish everyone can go out freely to hug the people they want to see and kiss the people they love before the summer comes. I hope that all the missed reunions can be reunited before the next spring is too late. , all souls who died young may rest in peace.

Volume [-]

Thanks to Mr. and Mrs. Lupin for helping us take care of our two mischievous sons when my husband accompanied me to the United States to attend the No.16 International Conference of Magic Apothecaries. I hope they didn't cause too much trouble for you in those few days.Of course we will not miss Teddy and Viktoria's wedding, although we were really shocked when we received the invitation - we watched the grown-up children start preparing to start a new family, how could we miss such a wonderful event time!

I would have liked to write down many of the names here, but found that the beginning of the book would then seem to be a replica of the monument.So, this book is dedicated to all... who should sit with us and talk about the story of those years.

——Iris·【Temporarily hidden due to unfinished】