Ayanokouji always wants me to confess

Let me talk about what's going on in detail.

In fact, I went straight back to class after breakfast, so it was early.

And Ayanokōji happened to be on duty today, he followed my footsteps to the classroom, and was watering the flowers by the window.The people in the class have not arrived yet, leaving us a space to be alone inexplicably.

I was hesitating whether to go out of the classroom for a stroll, and when the class bell rang, I would step on it and come back.

As a result, as soon as my chair made the sound of rubbing outwards, Ayanokōji's voice sounded.

"I remember that our relationship really got better after the summer vacation and the uninhabited island? I have been wondering what the reason for all this happened."

For me, the uninhabited island is already 800 years ago.

Ayanokouji, it's useless for you to play the emotional card with me.

I won't take it.

I folded my arms very indifferently, just wanting to see how he would force me to speak.

You know, I didn't even say ten words to him in the first month of school.

It's really not too difficult for me not to talk to him.

Ayanokōji maintained the rhythm of his speech, as if he never thought that I would answer, and said to himself: "To be more specific, some subtle changes began to occur on the fourth day of the uninhabited island. I have a little doubt, Did you change your perception of me because of that incident?"

"..."

"Another reminder, on the fourth day of the uninhabited island, deep in the jungle, you are foraging for food, and I am digging a hole." Ling Xiaolu put down the water bottle and calmly looked directly at my direction, "Did you forget? "

Black history is always much deeper than happy days.

Of course I had no hope. It was probably the first time at that time that I felt that even if we didn’t speak, we knew what each other was thinking. That feeling was very subtle, as if the electric waves were connected.

I felt my whole face was on fire, and I forced myself to calmly look at Ayanokouji's expression, wondering if he was provoking me on purpose?

At that time, he seemed to guess that it was my underwear, right?

I was still thinking, Ayanokōji said suddenly and approached my direction, I leaned back subconsciously.

"I'm wondering if it's because of the joint crime that you have a strange psychological resonance? Do I have reason to judge that you have an irreconcilable paranoia about pathological behavior?"

"what?"

When I was still struggling to understand what non-human language Ayanokouji was talking about, Ayanokouji leaned in front of me and knelt down on one knee with a tall figure.Shocked by this action, I subconsciously shrank back, but my ankle was held by Ayanokouji.

"!?"

"Your shoelaces are loose, let me fasten them first."

As he said this, he really lowered his head and carefully helped me re-tie the untied shoelaces.

"..."

What the hell is this guy doing!

Ayanokouji was so close that I almost felt his hair brush against my knees and thighs.But he didn't seem to notice this at all, and continued what he hadn't finished just now.

"so--"

Ayanokouji's raised eyes were shining with unquestionable light.

"Do you like perverts?"

From shame, to surprise and confusion, to shyness, and now full of anger!

I feel that I have been challenged by Ayanokouji to the point where all rational thresholds have collapsed.

"If I had a gun, I'd put a bullet in your head right now."

I gritted my teeth and stared at Ayanokouji.

You're the one who likes perverts.

"I was just kidding."

"You're really not for joking, really."

For the happiness of the rest of his life, I advise him to stop making such irritating jokes.

Ayanokōji was not shaken by my words, but continued to maintain a half-squatting movement, looking up at me with a soft voice.He said his longest confession since I met him, as if it was a century long, I couldn't move my eyes away from his eyes, I just looked back at him.

This is by no means a confession that can be emotional. Any nasty love story is more straightforward than this one.

Ayanokōji used his usual way of thinking to discuss metaphysical feelings calmly and rationally.

"Ayaya.

Albert Camus once said:

"We rarely trust people who are better than us.

Most often, we confide in those who are like us, who share our weaknesses.

We don't want to get rid of our weaknesses, and we don't want to become better. We just hope that we can be accompanied and encouraged by our companions in our lonely existence like an isolated island in the boundless sea. "*

There is a difference between liking good people and trusting them.

I'm obviously not your idea of ​​a good guy, but I know you trust me.

Just at a certain opportunity, you choose to believe me.

No one got this opportunity, anyone who appeared in your life in the past didn't get it, but I got it.

This is the answer for you to choose me to maintain a longer-term relationship after the uninhabited island.

So, I think, I can come to this conclusion.

You have to admit it too.

Regardless of whether you are willing to accept my [sincerity], from the past to the present, to the future

Your heart is apart from me,

There is no other choice. "

Mr. Ayanokōji, have you ever thought about whether your final conclusion is too strong and a little too self-righteous?

Are you reading so many books just to pave the way for such a long conversation with me?From the restaurant's "I don't trust anyone" to the "I don't trust anyone but you" analysis at this time, are you trying to fool me with these beautiful literary statements?I don't want these words.

Don't use rationality and logic to dissect emotional matters, you can only get a bunch of chaotic matter.

Baka.

I don't know if I'm scolding him or laughing at myself.

In shoujo manga, these so-called "do you like me or not", "do you love her or me", "do you still have feelings for your first love" are entangled into a mess, and the emotional mess that cannot be straightened out will last forever. It can be explained clearly with only one trick.

I heard nothing outside the window, only noticed my long hair brushing the school uniform on his chest, making a soft "rustling" sound.

Then, I lowered my head and kissed Ayanokouji's lower lip.

Obviously that would be fine.

The author has something to say: In fact, when I heard Ayanokouji say "sincerely", Ayano, who was tempted, would not say that I believed your words.Let's talk about Bai Yueguang's matter later, anyway, Ling Xiaolu is now in front of his eyes, and he can't help him if he wants to change jobs.

[theater]

Ayano: Do ​​you want to die if you say I like perverts?

Ayanokoji: It depends on how you look at me.

*The original words of Albert Camus are not like this, I have changed them a little.