Ayanokouji always wants me to confess

what……

In fact, after I chose to meet Ayanokōji that night, I regretted it.To give an example to describe how bad my mood is, it is equivalent to when I participated in a competition, the moment I shot the arrow, I suddenly realized that I shot the arrow too fast, almost without looking at the result, I knew that the round was not good.Although I'm still not in a state of mind so stable that I can be calm when anything happens to me, but at least I'll push myself to the end and get sulking with myself.

I know that Ayanokōji has found some clues, but this is far from the end. During these days, I need to be cautious about my approach.I mainly don't know what Ayanokōji thinks of me.To know the game, we only need to face the cold scorer, and the machine will tell me where I am, and if I want to achieve what level, where I must catch up.In the case of exams, what they face is the malice of the question maker. They will test the candidates' knowledge understanding and exam skills, and they also want to see students make difficulties.But they are teachers and don't really want to break students down.

I have doubts about Ayanokōji's approach, because he obviously has many ways to prove that I am monitoring him with my mobile phone, but he doesn't need to directly confront me like this.He can choose to be in school, other places, or other partners, and he doesn't need to go directly to Teacher Chabashira.What he's doing now is almost as close as confronting me face-to-face.

I thought it was over, but when I saw that he started designing Megumi Karuizawa, I thought he was telling me to just come out and meet him.My intuitive feeling is - very angry.I went out that day almost without dressing up, with loose hair and glasses, and stood by the bullying spot to observe what Ayanokoji was going to do.

The girl's voice stimulated my cerebral cortex, I felt dizzy, and my body would tremble with fear, as if I had arrived at the scene where my national team bullied my friend Kikyo two years ago, seeing the usual soft and cute little teammates Revealed a ferocious side.People are a terrible social group, and the courage that a single person does not have will become madness with the nature of a mob under the power of the collective.You do it because you see other people doing it and you get away with it, and you feel it is safe to do it, or you will be attacked if you don’t.It's not the acquired courage, it's the pleasure you want to take revenge, it's the awareness of protecting yourself that overcomes the fear.

I have to stand up before the girls in class C are going to teach Karuizawa too much, but my feet are weak, and I can't even make a sound.I was afraid that I would be submerged like sea water, and I couldn't breathe. At this moment, Ayanokōji's voice to stop them rose, as if someone stretched out a hand to me on the seashore, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

I'm actually a very contradictory person.

Since I experienced betrayal in the second year of junior high school, my sister and Hayasaka said that I have changed a lot, and I can calmly assess the situation and make my own judgments, but sometimes it is not calm, but excessively cold, impersonal, and even It is also cold to myself.In Kouenji's words, my growth is just counterproductive, and sooner or later I will collapse myself, like a tall building without a solid foundation.

After I parted from Ayanokōji that day, I went to find Kouenji Rokusuke.

My relationship with him is wonderful, I think he is my friend, my opponent, my teacher, but he doesn't want to be my teacher, doesn't think I'm an opponent, he doesn't even need a friend.But among all my peers, except for him who changed his girlfriend for who knows how many times, I'm the closest.If there are no accidents, I am still the top three fiancées in his family.But if that incident hadn't happened in the second year of junior high school, I should have been learning how to be his good wife by now.I don’t have any expectations for my future. I have known since I was a child that I am part of the family. I don’t mind giving myself to the family. It’s like it’s my turn to speak. Even if I feel nervous, afraid, or have various negative emotions, I They will still give speeches.

Kouenji Rokusuke had just finished the morning essential oil massage, and the skin all over his body shone with a golden luster under the warm-colored light. My mood that I originally planned to ask him for help dropped to an all-time low in an instant.The only thing that made me thankful for that incident in the second year of junior high school was that the Kouenji Group didn't think I was a qualified and excellent fiancée, and they couldn't even handle the dirty water by themselves.Although I have made all the preparations, from the bottom of my heart, I don't want to spend the rest of my life with Koenji Rokusuke.Even though Kouenji Rokusuke is actually my best marriage partner, we grew up together, we are in the same family, he doesn't care about anything I do, and sometimes what I say is more useful than his parents.No matter how you look at it, he looks like a qualified marriage partner.Originally, we don't need true love, we just need to be suitable, but I still can't imagine that I will walk through the next life hand in hand with him.For example, I don't like the pungent coriander. I know that it will improve the cooking if it is added, but if I am forced to eat it, I will still spit it out.

When Koenji Rokusuke saw me, he said directly, "Looking for me?"

I had a cold face and was already planning to leave, so I said, "No."

"Aya girl, because of your stubborn attitude, I didn't want to say it at first, but you will find me now, which means that you are in trouble. So I would still like to chat with you for a few minutes before going to lunch."

Kouenji Rokusuke didn't look at whether I followed his footsteps at all, and walked out on his own.When he walked out of the door, he said another unswerving "follow up", and I made up my mind to follow his footsteps.

He told me three things.

First, I need to find a psychiatrist. I haven't cast my shadow from the second year of junior high school at all.

Second, if the first thing is done after leaving the campus, do the second thing.Let go of everything I'm doing now, no one is competing, competing or fighting with me.He said I was pushing myself to fight the whole school.It's not that you have the most resources, you are already in an invincible position.

Third, if there is no way to do the second thing, submit the withdrawal application before the end of the summer vacation, otherwise he will personally send me home.

Kouenji Rokusuke knows more than I thought, and once again I noticed the gap between him and me.

He may have known that I have been comparing with him all the time.

Me, to be honest, my biggest goal of getting into this school is because of him.I know that this school will only give Class A the best advantage, I don't need to be a student of Class A, I just need to beat his class.But when I entered class D on the first day, I was shocked. I didn't know that he was in the same class as me.From the first day I knew he was in my class, I was planning how to leave class D.And the head of the archery department also warned me not to act across shifts.Therefore, before I found Kouenji, I planned to transfer to Class C or Class B before this winter.

I have Longyuan's help in Class C, so I can get the most comprehensive cooperation.

The whole class in Class B is very united, which means that if I make an action and it is recognized, I will have the greatest support.

Class A is not within my scope of consideration, it has been completely controlled by Arisu Sakayanagi.Although it seems that there are still signs of Katsuragi's activities, I know he is already cool.And after I joined Class A, I'm afraid I just jumped into the dragon's pool and tiger's den, asking for trouble.

The bullying incident I led also tested the reactions of people in other classes, so as to prepare for my transfer later.At that time, Classes B and C responded positively to me, while Class A was completely indifferent.

Kouenji Rokusuke's suggestion is actually to ask me to give up all my current business, otherwise he will kick me out of the game directly.I felt powerless at his words.It turned out that I lost from the beginning.

I don't remember what expression I made, I said to Kouenji Rokusuke.

"Then I'll go straight away."

If you lose, you can afford to lose.

Fortunately, I don't have too many friendships. Ayanokōji, who is relatively close to me, now sees clearly what kind of person I am, so I don't think I would want to have a deep friendship.Also, I miss my sister and Hayasaka very much, I want to go back.

I suddenly remembered what my father said after the incident in the second day of the first year.

"Ayaya, you are so stupid that there is no cure."

At that time, I was absolutely devastated.

I want to solve this matter in my own way. I escaped from home and haven't seen my family officially for nearly two years. I found a new identity, found a school to finish junior high school, and found Kouenji Rokusuke. Where, the application and interview were completed.

Now stop and think about it, the reason why I came here is precisely because my father is watching me from behind.He knew everything, but let me do anything, whether it was out of love, or because he didn't want me to embarrass him.

"I wish I was smarter."

I feel bitter and I also feel tired.I kept holding back and didn't say anything, I just kept pushing myself to move forward quickly, and then I got a sentence that I was in a cocoon, let go of what I was doing.

Koenji Rokusuke patted me on the head, like stroking the long hair of the silly golden retriever at the door of his house, and said, "If you weren't smart, you wouldn't come to me. Aya girl, you always put your It's exhausting."

I took no comfort in the fact that a few strands of my hair were ruthlessly pulled out by his hands.He didn't apologize, but looked at the black hair wrapped around his fingers with disgust, and then gave it back to me.In fact, I still don't know how he added a girlfriend, and how he made the second-year senior sister willing to take care of this wayward giant baby.

I didn't contact anyone after that, and I was concentrating on how to deal with the application for withdrawal after leaving school during the summer vacation.I met my sister and Hayasaka on the first day.After that, they invited our whole team to dinner. The instructor originally wanted to refuse, but he was completely led by my sister.

The well-known Miss Sigong wants to meet the top sixteen contestants who have just entered the national competition with a feast. This reason is too strong for people to refuse.

When the whole team was having fun, my sister and I had a small cooking session alone.

I drank too much alcohol that night and I heard that I cried all night.

When I woke up from the hotel in the morning, when I heard Hayasaka say this, I had such a terrible headache that I couldn't remember what happened.I thought it was nothing at first, I have done too many stupid things, I have to meet with my sister's student council president, and I have an appointment with Ren Amamiya and Chiba, I have a lot of things to do Do.

The happy days are now about to start anew.

I was in this mood until I saw a call from Ayanokoji in my mobile phone, and the call lasted more than 10 minutes.

ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ! !

I woke up instantly and called him. I heard the sound of the washing machine in the room, and the room was very quiet.

"morning."

I brushed back all the hair that was hanging over my face.

I hope I didn't say anything weird last night.

Ayanokōji's voice also came out: "Good morning."

"...Um, I drank some wine last night..."

"I know."

"I hope I didn't say anything offensive to you."

"No, don't worry."

Ayanokouji's quiet voice made me regain my composure.I can only hope that he is telling the truth.I breathed a sigh of relief and decided to end the conversation there.Ayanokōji finally interjected and asked me, "When are you coming back?"

"Ok?"

"Didn't you want Katsuragi's contact information? I've already arrived." Ayanokōji said calmly, as if a secretary was reporting work progress to the boss.

"I probably don't need to." I ran my fingers through my hair and said, "I've been sick for a long time and I thought I was fine, but lately I feel like I need to see Psychologist."

I'm slowly framing my words so they don't sound too ridiculous.Mental illness is actually difficult to be recognized, but I think I need to talk to Ayanokouji, after all, I have something I want to leave him.

He presumably needs the software I designed earlier.My points are going to be reserved for Long Yuanxiang. He plans to promote the whole class to Class A, and he needs at least [-] million points.Long Yuan takes a slanted approach to things and always focuses on violence. I don't fully agree with him, but I think his courage is unimaginable, which is why I cooperate with him.In addition, too many things between me and Longyuan have not been handled properly.

I was still thinking, but Ayanokōji asked me something out of nowhere.

"Where are you?"

"In the hotel booked by the school."

"Give me three days, you wait for me."

Wait, what does he mean?The school strictly prohibits students from leaving the school gate, right?

I didn't answer.

What flashed through my head were some messy scenes of chasing people to follow the bus, chasing people to the airport and so on.I think I'm thinking too much.

Did he read the idea that I was leaving school?

No, no, no, his EQ is not high.

That is, is he asking me to help buy something?Things that need to be thought about for three days are definitely very troublesome things... It feels like he has never considered that even if I have money to buy them, the person who helps to bring them back may not be able to take them back.I think it may not be for me to buy things, but the idea of ​​this purchasing agent is exactly connected with him asking me when I will go back.

Considering the execution ability, I said cautiously: "Please allow me to refuse."

"…………"

"Don't look for me during this time, bye."

Don't ask me to bring anything.

"........."

Before he could respond, I hung up the phone first.

Next, I'm going shopping with my sister! !

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Small Theater "Amazing"

Kaguya: Who is this?

Aya Ye: I am at the back table.

Kaguya: What are you doing here?

Aya Ye: Because I couldn’t do the shopping on my behalf, I ran out by myself.

Kaguya: Isn't it difficult for students to escape in your school?Your back desk is really powerful.

Hayasaka: Really great.

(One is the idea of ​​running out to chase people specifically for love, which is interpreted as the idea of ​​purchasing agents, and the other is the naivety of just believing it.)

Kaguya: This person is definitely not easy to mess with, Ayaye, you have to keep a distance from him.

Ayaya: I understand.

Hayasaka smashed the cup all at once.