Song of Glass

04

Before a certain moment, Pu Songqiu never thought that one day he would be troubled by such questions - about liking or disliking, can like or shouldn't like.

In his opinion, not everything in the world is right or wrong, and there is no right or wrong in liking someone.

It's just that, at certain moments and places, the object of liking may be wrong, but "like" itself should never be defined by people as "right" or "wrong".

The reason why he feels troubled is firstly because he never thought that he still has the strength to like others, and secondly because the object is wrong, at least in the current general environment and after a calm analysis, he is sure it is wrong of.

When Pu Songqiu and Jiao Wangyu became classmates, Pu Songqiu never thought how special this person would be to him.

The first time they met, he sat next to each other in a noisy classroom, and he didn't even remember the other person's appearance after the day was over.

It's not because Jiao Wangyu is not good enough to impress him, it's just because he doesn't pay too much attention to observing others.

He didn't have that much energy, and he didn't have that much time, and any distraction would make him feel very tired.

Especially during that time, his life was half empty and half chaotic, too busy to take care of himself.

It was about a month after the start of the second year of high school that I really started to notice the "existence" of Jiao Wangyu around me. At that time, it was already late autumn, the playground was full of fallen leaves, and everyone went out during the one-hour break before evening self-study. After eating, Pu Songqiu was too lazy to go out. He ate bread in the classroom. After eating the last bite, he turned his head and looked out the window. There were fallen leaves that had just been swept up by the students on duty at the edge, and Jiao Wangyu was just pushed into the pile of fallen leaves.

Jiao Wangyu, who fell into the pile of fallen leaves, was still laughing and making noises. In the end, he was caught by the teacher of the patrolling teaching office, and punished them to sweep the runway for one day after cleaning up the messy leaves. Week.

On that day, Pu Songqiu was sitting by the window of the classroom on the third floor and looking outside. On an autumn evening, the whole world was pink and orange.

Jiao Wangyu, who came back from sweeping the fallen leaves, sat beside him panting, and he raised his hand to help remove a dead leaf hanging from the other's collar.

The two of them only started to communicate a little after that day, and they could speak two or three sentences a day.

Jiao Wangyu has a cheerful personality and has a good relationship with anyone. Sometimes when Pu Songqiu looks at him, he feels that this person is like an active fireball, which can ignite a forest wherever he goes.

Powerful and dangerous.

He has always disliked people who are too enthusiastic and noisy, but Jiao Wangyu makes him feel just right, and sometimes he envies him.

So, if one must go back to the root cause, then his thought that Jiao Wangyu should not exist may have evolved from envy.

At first it was envy, but gradually I couldn't help but start paying too much attention to the other party, and even hoped that I could become like the other party.

When I knew it was impossible, I woke up one day and found that I fell in love with this person.

Pu Songqiu never thought that one day he would fall in love with a boy. Before this kind of affection similar to affection was defined as "liking", he didn't really realize that his feeling about Jiao Wangyu would be the one that yearns for love. Kind of like.

Until he graduated from high school, on the day when the heavy rain fell suddenly, he and Jiao Wangyu took shelter under the building, and then saw two men kissing under the umbrella.

Those two strange men and Jiao Wangyu's later words enlightened him together.

Glass.

It's gay.

Pu Songqiu still frowns when he thinks about it now.

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Jiao Wangyu was woken up by the noise in the corridor in the morning. At 07:30, the boys washed up, went to the toilet, and yelled in the corridor. The dormitory building was like a vegetable market.

He usually gets up a little bit angry, and after being woken up, he sat on the bed with his brows furrowed, motionless.

Cheng Er, who came back from washing, looked up at him: "Do you want to use my basin?"

Everyone knew that Jiao Wangyu didn't buy a water basin yesterday, so Cheng Er enthusiastically wanted to lend him his own.

Jiao Wangyu sat there with a stinky face, Cheng Er looked at him: "What's wrong this early in the morning?"

Pu Songqiu also came back from washing, without saying a word, he put the cleaned basin and toothpaste beside Jiao Wangyu's chair.

Seeing that he put the water basin there, Cheng Er whispered to Pu Songqiu, "I don't know who I'm angry with."

After speaking, Cheng Er went back with his water basin.

Pu Songqiu looked up at Jiao Wangyu, and asked for a long time: "What's wrong?"

Jiao Wangyu frowned and raised his hand to brush his messy sleeping hair, then lowered his head and glanced at Pu Songqiu: "It's okay, get up and get angry."

Pu Songqiu looked at him, didn't say much, turned around and took the key and the card to go out.

Jiao Wangyu turned to look at him: "You want to go out?"

"Go to the cafeteria."

He didn't think much at first, but after he said that, Jiao Wangyu suddenly became hungry.

"Wait for me!" Thinking of breakfast, Jiao Wangyu's anger dissipated in an instant, and he got off the bed in a panic, holding the water basin to go outside without putting on his slippers.

Pu Songqiu looked at him: "No hurry."

"Wait for me!" Jiao Wangyu walked out of the dormitory door, "2 minutes!"

Pu Songqiu looked at the door where Jiao Wangyu disappeared, and heard Cheng Er complaining from behind: "In order to eat, you can sacrifice everything."

Jiao Wangyu said it was 2 minutes, but when he walked out of the dormitory with Pu Songqiu, it was already more than ten minutes later.

He yawned and walked beside Pu Songqiu, and said with emotion: "I haven't been bathed in the morning sunshine for a holiday."

During the three-month summer vacation after the college entrance examination, Jiao Wangyu wished he could sleep until noon every day, but he found that he never seemed to get enough sleep, no matter what time he woke up, he was still sleepy.

Pu Songqiu didn't say a word, Jiao Wangyu glanced at him, and muttered softly: "Those who don't know think we don't know each other at all."

"You can go directly to the supermarket after dinner later." Pu Songqiu racked his brains to find a topic to talk about, "There are few people in the morning."

Jiao Wangyu smiled: "Okay, then are you going?"

"go."

There is no need for Pu Songqiu to go to the supermarket again, he has already bought all the things he needs to buy, but he knows that Jiao Wangyu doesn't like to be alone when doing anything, and wants to be accompanied by someone.

Although Pu Songqiu still has many unresolved questions in his mind, all he can do at the moment is obey the so-called "subconscious mind".

Subconsciously want to accompany Jiao Wangyu, subconsciously want to take care of Jiao Wangyu, subconsciously want to temporarily ensure that Jiao Wangyu will not feel lonely in a strange city and life before Jiao Wangyu finds a new best friend.

But Pu Songqiu also understands that a bored person like him may not be able to resolve Jiao Wangyu's loneliness.

They walked into the cafeteria, Pu Songqiu followed behind Jiao Wangyu.

"Thank you for two buns with pork and mushrooms, and a bowl of millet porridge." Jiao Wangyu raised his hand and swiped his card, "Add a tea egg!"

Pu Songqiu looked at the strand of hair on the back of his head, and raised his hand to smooth it out for him, but he stopped in mid-air and finally gave up.

Pu Songqiu ordered the same breakfast as Jiao Wangyu, and the two sat in the corner of the second floor of the cafeteria, basking in the morning sun, eating a delicious breakfast.

Jiao Wangyu took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, then turned to look out the window.

People have started to come and go outside, and everyone has their own destinations.

"That's how college life started," he said.

Pu Songqiu looked up at him: "Yes."

Hearing his response, Jiao Wangyu turned around and smiled: "Why are you talking less than before?"

Of course it's because, every time I talk to you, I can't help but my heart beats faster, for fear that if I say one more word, my secret will be exposed.

Pu Songqiu hesitated for a moment, then replied: "I didn't wake up."

Jiao Wangyu smiled: "I see, your reaction is slower than usual."

The dullness is not because you really haven't woken up, but because you are always stuck in chaotic thoughts when facing you.

Pu Songqiu lowered his head to eat and stopped talking, but Jiao Wangyu yawned and said lazily, "I don't know what will happen in the next four years."

Just as he finished speaking, someone called his name suddenly.

Jiao Wangyu looked over with Pu Songqiu, the one who called him was the senior who helped him with the formalities yesterday.

The senior said, "Do you remember me?"

Jiao Wangyu stood up and responded with a smile: "Of course I remember!"

Pu Songqiu raised his head and looked at the senior. Although the two had just met, they seemed to be more familiar than the two of them.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-06-1708:53:32~2020-06-1807:13:42期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw the landmines: Etsuko, Qingming Yushang, 1 pieces of ice cream, Liangcha, and [-] Xiangbei;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!