Let me love you through time

Zhao Yunyuan was walking back to her barracks, the cold wind blew slightly...

Looking back at the scene where Shangguan Wan'er's sister was "smiling" and patiently wiping the sweat from Gu Yanqing's forehead.

For some reason, I became a little envious.I don't know if I will be so lucky in my life.Find someone who has eyes for each other.

What he said just now was just teasing Gu Yanqing.Ever since Sister Wan'er came in, she was talking to herself.But they only have each other in their eyes.It started from the moment Sister Wan'er entered the tent.Except for Gu Yanqing who looked dumbfounded.There was no room for anyone else.I watched those small details quietly from the sidelines.

As I walked, I felt a little lonely in my heart. Looking at the sky, it was still early, and it would be fine to go back.

Turned around and walked out of the camp.I went to the hillside that I discovered when I walked around out of curiosity when I first came here, and the hillside that I have always liked very much.In spring, the branches are swaying, and there are many unknown small wild flowers blooming.There are all kinds of flowers all over the mountains... very fragrant and beautiful....

Later, sometimes when I have troubles in my heart, or if I am bored, I will come there to be lazy, listening to the sound of the wind blowing and the sound of birds singing quietly.The mood will improve all of a sudden!

It is a pity that it is winter now, there is no green grass, no singing birds and flowers, only white snow covering the hillside.From a distance, it looks like a girl sleeping soundly covered with a padded jacket.

The snow is falling a little bit, and the snow is a little thick!It took some effort to go up.He found a rock on the hillside, gently swept off the snow with his hands, and took off his cloak.Folded neatly on the stone and sat down.

Looking at the barracks not far ahead...

It is surrounded by mountains, which hides this military camp with nearly 10 people well.All recruits have to spend a year of training here, even if there is no war.According to the needs of various places, officers and soldiers will be dispatched to important checkpoints in various places.There are also garrisons in various towns... and border fortresses...if there is a war.Then they are the first people to go to the station to die. Their hearts have been ruthlessly destroyed by the war in the past two years.

In fact, there are three entrances here.However, the other two entrances were heavily guarded by soldiers.But only an important person in charge of the military camp like her knows.Others in general only know that there is one entrance.It's the entrance through which all recruits come in.

I can only think about my past ten years.From the ten-year-old competition, I was lucky enough to get No. 1 among those young masters and ladies, and the emperor somehow fell in love with me.

Since then, my life seems to be different.In the second year, I received the grace of the emperor, and I could go to the palace to study with the prince and princess. I followed what they saw, and I followed what they learned.However, since he was a child, he was very active and liked to practice martial arts, but his father wanted to learn the Four Books and Five Classics, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting by himself.

Inadvertently...it's been so many years.Gradually, I became the second miss of the Zhao family, who is well-versed in both Chinese and martial arts.In fact, this is not the only one who has both civil and military skills in the Northern Kingdom.So is sister Wan'er's son-in-law.It's a pity that I have lost my memory now, and my martial arts seem to be completely lost. Since I was a child, I have always thought that I can return him to the competition.Otherwise, how do you know that he is stronger than yourself.Still not as good as yourself.

A lot of messed up thoughts...

I don't know what the emperor thinks, but recently he always finds time to work with the prince.He is much younger than himself, maybe he still wants to be a princess.It's almost like being his sister.

You must know that you have been engaged in marriage since you were a child.I really don't know what the Holy Majesty and my father are thinking, a person who has planned his own life since he was young.One is so thoughtful...

I have nothing worthy of the love of others.It's just a little luckier than ordinary women.

Besides, although those two people were excellent, I never liked them.together every time.I didn't feel anything, and I always regarded them as friends or younger brothers.

Is it possible that I can only be like this for the rest of my life?

Is that the only way?

After next year's wedding is up, get married in peace and order, and then stay at home and take care of your husband and children...

Or marry the prince and be the concubine who is under one person and above ten thousand.But these are not what I want, let myself enter the palace as a canary.

Then I would rather go to the western border.Although there is no grass growing there, and it is cold all year round, but even if it is so bad, I am willing...

I have liked that kind of unfettered life since I was a child.Tell yourself to be a woman who cares for her husband and children at home.You might as well kill yourself.

"But everyone comes here like this", my mother said to herself when I was a child, and girls always want to marry when they grow up.

A woman, no matter how beautiful she is outside, how capable she is.

At a certain age you need a man.Everyone needs a home to shelter them from the wind and rain.

Then after getting married, she will be in harmony with her husband, and use her natal relationship to improve her husband's status to a higher level, or take care of her husband and teach her children at home.Anyway, living this life safely is the most correct choice for a woman.

But is that what I want...?

no……

What do you want then?

Zhao Yunyuan, you... don't you know?

A self-deprecating smile... so what about the Beiguo military division who is so invincible in the eyes of outsiders, it's not that he can't even control his own destiny.For some reason, the words that Gu Yanqing asked himself in the barracks just now rang in his ears. "How did you feel when you kissed that light dancing girl?"

What does it feel like——I only knew it when I was 16 years old.She hasn't appeared for a long time.Later I heard that something happened to her family.I have been looking for her quietly for a long time.I don't know where to go.

On the night of my birthday that day.She is coming……

Looking at her who was still young at that time, standing quietly in front of him like this.When she said she liked herself.I thought she was joking, and even took her hand and jokingly said that I liked her too, and I missed her very much after not seeing her for a long time.Unexpectedly, just after she finished speaking, she suddenly hugged herself tightly the next second.Some closed their eyes as if they were dead.She kissed her own lips shyly, feeling a little cold and trembling to the touch.At least I felt that the hand holding me was trembling.

At that moment, I was completely blinded, and the feeling spread from my lips to my limbs.The limbs were completely unresponsive.Just stood there blankly.She didn't even know what she said to herself afterwards.

It's just that when I think about it later, I vaguely remember the moment when she closed her eyes.I saw joy and affection in those eyes like vast stars.

That was me among the many princes and nobles who pursued me.Their eyes did not see.

It's ridiculous that at that age, I have always wanted to look forward to the relationship.I actually saw it on a woman.At that time, I was so arrogant, so I naturally wouldn't agree that a woman would like me, even if it was a good friend for a long time.Naturally, he would not agree to such unreasonable and humane feelings.

Since then, my relationship with her has gradually faded.

I still remember that time after that time she went to the brothel for unknown reasons, and then she started looking for herself "shamelessly".My father would not allow me to contact prostitutes.Get turned away every time.After rejecting her many times, she still managed to get herself to meet her again and again. ...As always, say to yourself....

The woman said she didn't just say she loved herself when she said she loved her.

She has liked herself for a long, long time, and wants to be with her for the rest of her life, and they will never be separated for the rest of their lives.

Said so carefully...

Such love is as deep as the sea...

You said it so seriously... I almost moved myself.

But how could she and herself be together as women?And I still have such a complicated identity.Even if I really like her and want to be together, maybe my father and mother won't be the first to agree, right?

Unknowingly, the sky gradually darkened, and the sky in winter was darker faster than in summer.

Slowly the temperature is getting lower and lower, and the cold wind is blowing.

Zhao Yunyuan came back to her senses and breathed a few breaths at her already frozen hands.It was getting late.Standing up slowly, he picked up his cloak and put it on with a shake.Walking back to the camp through the deep and shallow snow.

It was dark when we entered the camp.In the tent, the people below have already prepared the fire, with the faint fire light from the charcoal. 'Hung the cloak on the wooden stand in the dark, before lighting the candle on the desk.

Suddenly, a black figure hugged his waist from behind.Zhao Yunyuan is quick and responsive.With a strong backhand, he grabbed it, intending to throw the person behind him to the ground to "rectify the Fa on the spot".

I was secretly startled.Under what circumstances would an assassin sneak into one's barracks tent, one must know that there is absolutely no problem with the security of one's camp.I have such an identity, and I am a woman. After entering the barracks for so long, no one can enter without my permission.What are there so many soldiers here and the guards not far outside doing?

"Do you know that people have been waiting here for you all day, where did you go...I wanted to give you a surprise", a familiar voice came from behind.

Zhao Yunyuan's heart suddenly stopped.I was surrounded by a familiar atmosphere.Yunxi... why is she here?

He hurriedly let go, turned around and took the hands of the person in front of him and asked in surprise, "Yunxi... why are you here? How did you get in? Did they make things difficult for you?" After all, not everyone can enter this barracks.Anyone who trespassed on the barracks without permission would be beheaded.Zhao Yunyuan suddenly saw her in the barracks, and she didn't understand.But don't let her sneak in.

Seeing her worried face.There is something sweet in my heart.Could it be that my persistence for so many years is about to see the light.Tuo Yunxi didn't want her to worry about him.He opened the mouth and said: "I came with the princess. Everyone knew it and didn't make it difficult for me. It's just...

"It's just that your hand was held by you, the great military strategist of the Northern Kingdom. It hurts so much to pinch his hand!" Tuo Yunxi squeezed his hand with the less injured one with a painful expression, and complained in his tone.

"Come here, let me show you." Seeing that she was fine, Zhao Yunyuan began to keep a straight face as before.But I knew in my heart how much effort I had put in.If Yunxi said it didn't hurt, she was really lying to herself.

The words that were spoken were stiff but the movements were not vague at all.Quickly lit the candles in his barracks.Gently took her hand and sat down on his bed.Instructing her not to move, she left the box she specially used to hold the ointment. After searching for a long time, she found a bottle of medicine for promoting blood circulation and removing blood stasis, and gently rubbed Yunxi's wound.From time to time, he carefully blew on his already bruised wrist, and he raised his head and asked Yunxi worriedly.Does it hurt?

Looking at the woman sitting next to him carefully rubbing medicine on her hands.The fingers are slender, the phalanges are distinct, and the skin on the back of the hand is fair and delicate.There are slight thin calluses between the fingers, which are healthy and strong.

The longing of not seeing each other for more than a month turned into crystal clear tears in the eyes and slowly fell.Zhao Yunyuan, who was concentrating on applying the medicine with her head down, raised her head inadvertently.Seeing her cry.He quickly stopped the movement of his hands and asked, but his mouth was full of warnings: "Yunxi? ... I know that my strikes are not serious. Next time, don't make such a joke with yourself, you know?"

"Yun'er...I miss you...I miss you... Tuo Yunxi hugged the person he had missed day and night for so many days, and whispered in her ear how he missed her. What does it take to make you like yourself. I really tried my best, you know?

"I miss you……

It was obviously just plain words, but it stirred up all kinds of waves in Zhao Yunyuan's heart.Even if it was his father who hadn't gone back for a long time, he just greeted him lightly.or about the barracks

thing.No one has ever said that to myself.

That sound: "I miss you...! It fell through my ears and was engraved in my heart. It was not difficult for me to calm down and began to shake a little bit.

Rejecting again and again, approaching himself again and again.With such persistence, I don't know how I can make the woman who is holding me now, desperate for me time and time again.

But now I can't and dare not bear her affection.compared to her bravery.It's shameful to be cowardly.