Fake doubles and real actors

rainy day.

Qi Ming recalled inopportunely that that night was also a rainy day.

When he left the venue, the weather suddenly darkened and began to rain. An umbrella appeared above his head. After Mr. Gu left, he reappeared and insisted on taking him to the nearest hotel without driving.

That night, it rained heavily, mixed with snow, and was colder than today.

Like night, alcohol, darkness, and overwhelming thunder, rain can also weaken a person's rationality.

The calm and rational state makes Qi Ming feel more secure. If he can choose, he will always tend to choose the stable side.

But that doesn't seem to matter whether you like it or not.

The rain poured down, and the sky seemed not as dark as before. Qi Ming put down the jigsaw puzzle in his hand, and nodded slightly.

"People will always like this kind of stuff."

"What kind of thing?"

"Danger."

Qi Ming smiled, as if he was not in the category of people who pursue excitement, "Alcohol, tobacco, darkness, extreme sports, unhealthy food, and unstable and impulsive relationships."

Just like he would also choose to have a contractual relationship.

There was no verbal discussion, it seemed that the meaning behind the words was conveyed through darkness, and with Qi Ming's acquiescence, Gu Debai approached silently.

The lips approached, the breath intertwined, and when the kiss was about to be completed, there was a snap, and the overhead light suddenly turned on, and the white light instantly illuminated everything. The dazzling light made the two people's eyes uncomfortable, and also made the room as bright as day.

Almost at the same time, Qi Ming blinked his eyes, took a deep breath, turned his head and looked around, and sighed as if nothing had happened, "There is a call."

Gu Debai felt lost in his heart.

"..."

It's really not the right time for this light to come on.

"Since there's a call, let's take this one first. I'll charge the phone and order a takeaway later."

Qi Ming stretched out his hand, and swept the pieces of the puzzle into the box, and then touched the big piece that was put together.

"Wait a minute, I'll take this."

Qi Ming looked at Gu Debai's obstruction, knowing that he didn't want to destroy the things he just put together, and shook his head, "No need, I definitely can't put it in, it's too big."

"But, it's hard to fight."

"I've tried it a few times."

Qi Ming confessed, "Every time I fight halfway through, then I mess it up and put it away, so I can continue next time."

"Every time?" Gu Debai didn't realize what kind of game it was, "Why?"

"Mr. Gu, is this also a problem?"

Gu Debai didn't speak, and when he was hesitating how to answer, Qi Ming already said with a smile,

"When all is done, the game is over."

He doesn't want it to end.

Gu Debai wanted to say that he didn't want to end so early.

"Actually, it's quite inefficient to ask and answer like this. Since you've got a call, let's sit down and talk."

Qi Ming seemed to have made up his mind suddenly. After plugging in the charger and restarting the router, he quickly made something. A few minutes later, he connected to the printer in the studio and printed out a document.

He pushed the piece of paper to Gu Debai, the meaning was obvious. It said on it, based on the integration of information during this period, he made the character design of 'Bai Yueguang', and a series of remarks that Gu Debai had mentioned .

"There are all my doubts on it, Mr. Gu can just draw a line and tell me the truth."

Looking at the piece of paper, Gu Debai was in shock.

"This is……"

what operation? ?

Is he really meeting someone he likes alone, rather than discussing some work project?

When he was in a daze, Qi Ming had already disassembled the assembled part into two parts and put them in the puzzle box.

"If you need it, tell me all the questions you want to ask. I will fill out the form and send it to you directly."

"What form... is there a questionnaire for people??"

Gu Debai was completely messed up, and the rhythm was suddenly disrupted, "Ming Ming, this... I didn't mean that either."

"It's okay." Qi Ming looked calm, "Anyway, these are not considered privacy. By the way, why don't you go after something to eat tonight? I happen to be hungry too, let's order a takeaway together."

After saying this, the mobile phone was also pushed over, and there were countless restaurants to choose from.

Gu Debai: "..."

Qi Ming: "I'm going to wash my face."

Said to wash his face, Qi Ming didn't come back after washing, just left his phone there, took out his piano, and started tuning.

The familiar daily work and the familiar busyness finally made him calm down quickly, and the unusual heartbeat also calmed down.

This is the life he is familiar with.

"Mingming, are you staying here tonight?" Gu Debai was silent for a while amidst the voice of the tuner, but he still couldn't help asking, "Alone?"

"Well. It's not appropriate to always ask them to work overtime with me too late, and the weather is bad today."

It's still raining, Qi Ming doesn't need to go out, he doesn't need to look outside to imagine that many streets have already been flooded outside, and with the strong wind blowing before, it may be a problem whether other people can come to work on time tomorrow.

This is almost an eviction order.

If you want to stay alone, it doesn't matter if you are alone, even in the lounge inside, there is always only one bed.

To spend the night alone is to work all night, or just sleep here, Qi Ming didn't say it directly.

"Then I'll leave after dinner." Gu Debai didn't feel that there was any embarrassment. With the piece of paper in his hand, he accepted the arrangement calmly, "Tomorrow morning, I'll bring it over early."

"Mr. Gu."

"I'm here."

Qi Ming has almost tuned, put down the piano, turned half a circle from the chair, and faced Gu Debai, his face was suddenly calm as if wearing some kind of mask, "What about after tomorrow? Will there be the day after tomorrow?"

"I……"

As if an overly obvious trick was exposed, Gu Debai was suddenly at a loss for words.

He really intends to go back to tomorrow, and in this matter, if he can delay for a day, he will earn a day.

She didn't intend to hide it, but she didn't expect Qi Ming to be open and honest with him so soon.

"Do you remember how I rejected that person when we first met?"

Gu Debai was stunned.

"of course I remember."

He was so impressed by everything that day.

"At that time, I didn't lie, but I didn't tell the whole story either."

Qi Ming seemed to have made a decision, and without any warning, he began to confess to himself,

"It is impossible for me to have a relationship with anyone. Like it or not, it will not change this matter. It's not that I hate him or you. It's my own problem. I can't do it."

As Qi Ming's voice was conveyed, Gu Debai felt that he was getting cold from his fingers, as if he had just begun to perceive the coldness of the whole night, and the cool wind blowing in from the window woke him up.

"What does it all mean...?"

Qi Ming has indeed always expressed that he doesn't want to have any emotional connection, and doesn't want to have a deep relationship with anyone.

But he never asked, and never really came across the reason.

"it means……"

Qi Ming took a sip of the mineral water, and it seemed that it was very difficult for him to say these things,

"I'm not deliberately keeping a distance from you, deliberately hiding my preferences and habits, and deliberately doing everything business-like. It's just what I can do, I will, and that's all."

Gu Debai looked at him without blinking, he could understand these words, but he couldn't understand them at all.

"I'm willing to be a lover, a stand-in who can only use relationships and sex relationships, because in this way, you will never find out that I am not good at it."

Qi Ming watched him speak, the more he talked, the more exhausted he became, until his shoulders had collapsed, his eyes drooped, "Gu Debai, I forgive you, I can forgive you for everything you lied to me. Angry."

"You don't have to forgive me."

Gu Debai was frightened by his farewell-like tone. He was unprepared, just like Qi Ming's whim, the paper in his hand had been carefully drawn with various wavy lines, symbols, and paragraphs written on it. The explanation, which he held in his hand at this moment, crumpled into a ball,

"Don't forgive me, continue to be angry, punish me for what I did wrong, let me make up for it, it's okay, I was so wrong."

"Even if I torture you for a long time, it doesn't matter if there will be no follow-up in the end, and there won't be any changes?"

Qi Ming's chest heaved forcefully, as if he didn't want to hear this kind of 'it doesn't matter',

"No matter how much time and energy you spend on me, you can't get anything back. I will never be able to fall in love with you. It doesn't matter? Even if one day I think you are easy to use, and you really become Is it okay to get along with you in the most ordinary way, no different from a lover, as before?"

"Mingming—"

"Even if you never feel that I have feelings for you, even if I always put all my money into my career and always neglect you, is it okay?"

"How do you know if you don't try?!"

Gu Debai's voice suddenly rose, and suddenly interrupted Qi Ming's denial,

"Then let me ask back now. If all my answers are all okay, then I will lie endlessly in the future. None of the three sentences are true. Even if I can't control you every day, it doesn't matter. You can bear it." Didn't you beat me to death?!"

Qi Ming: "..."

Gu Debai: "Who doesn't have a problem yet!"

Qi Ming: "?"

Gu Debai: "..."

Qi Ming was confused by what he said, "This...is not a class problem at all. If you continue to waste time on me, you will regret it sooner or later."

"Then you have to give me a chance to regret it!"

Qi Ming stared at him blankly, not understanding how he could talk so much.

He also had stalking suitors before, and even the boy who was rejected by him once told him with endless enthusiasm and love that it's okay, he doesn't mind, even if it's only a day of love, at least there is no regret.

But he knows that those are all fake, no one can really bear a lover like him, who is as cold as a machine, and when they get along, even friends can be closer than him.

He used to think that at least Gu Debai would not be this kind of person.

"It's different... Gu Debai, this is not as simple as you imagined, something you can easily overcome."

"You think, I don't understand?"

Gu Debai stood up, walked towards him, then stood in front of Qi Ming, bent down,

"What will you look like, I have known it for half a year. If you say you can't do it, then you can't do it. Continue to get along with me like before. It doesn't matter. Even the acting part is removed, and you don't pretend to be close at all. It's okay, I'm more unfamiliar than ordinary lovers, it's okay, I don't say a serious word every day, you have seen what kind of virtue I am, and you didn't kick me to death."

Qi Ming: "...But."

Gu Debai: "I haven't formally confessed my love, and I haven't formally asked you to be with me, Qi Ming, don't make it seem like I accept all the conditions today, and you are willing to like me and associate with me."

Qi Ming: "You will be disappointed."

Gu Debai: "No, Qi Ming, from the time I met you until today, I have new surprises every day. I thought I've been slowly telling you about this these past few days."

surprise?

Qi Ming almost thought he heard some joke.

A person like him... What surprises can there be on him?Even the young man who gave him gifts day after day and liked him for a long time can get tired because of his unchanging attitude. How can there be surprises if he continues to give to a person who will not respond?

"You said that you always lie, so are you kidding me now?"

"Of course not." Gu Debai raised his hand and hung up the phone call that came in suddenly, "However, it doesn't matter if you don't believe it. It's okay to remain suspicious. I'm just fighting for a chance to continue meeting you."

"Just... to meet? But, I don't think we are suitable to be friends."

What a merciless judgement.

It's a pity that Gu Debai also thinks so, they are not suitable to be friends, they are only suitable to be lovers, lovers, partners, anyone who is compatible with love, except that they are not suitable to be friends and strangers.

"I'm different from the people you met in the past, Mingming. I didn't come here for any purpose, so you don't have to feel pressured because you can't give me the corresponding return."

When Gu Debai said this, he suddenly felt that he understood a little bit, and showed a relieved smile, "You may not be able to respond to me, and you may never be someone's lover, because I really did not come to see you just to chase you of."

Qi Ming shook his head, "I don't understand..."

"I didn't insist on seeing you and caring about you because I wanted to chase you and become a lover. I just missed you very much today, so I came here. I was just worried that you would be trapped in a building with power outages, so I came here. I just wanted to pass by Talk to you, come here, this is my purpose today."

Gu Debai's heart that had been pounding and chilling since just now finally calmed down.

He knew what he wanted to say.

"So, Mingming, I am very happy today. This happiness has nothing to do with how you treated me in the past, whether you will see me tomorrow, or whether you will become my lover in the future. It is not affected by the past and the future. .”

"..."

"It's like when I hit up a conversation with you, just because I was fascinated by you that day, as long as you are willing to say a few words to me, I will be very happy. Just like I thought you would reject me that night, But you were really willing to take me back to the hotel, and I became very happy again. The next day I lied and stayed, just wanting to spend one more day with you, the same, not to weave a big scam and let you stay with me for half a year."

Gu Debai babbled, saying one sentence after another, as if he was afraid that he would be driven away today, and he would really not see anyone tomorrow, so he wanted to finish all the words in his head,

"So, I will never lose money, and I won't think that this time is a waste just because you suddenly terminated the contract with me one day. I won't be disappointed, I won't regret it, I won't feel that I paid wrongly, and I won't feel that it was a waste of time. Not to mention there will be no sunk costs, and I won’t get frustrated or depressed because the final result is not good, I won’t be delayed by you, and I won’t make you a sinner for delaying me.”

"No...regret?" Qi Ming's eyes were a little red, "You are too good at talking, aren't you lying to me?"

Even if he is selfish and enjoys someone's love when he can't give anything in return, won't he become a perpetrator someday?

Wouldn't one day suddenly face Gu Debai with sad, hopeless, disheartened eyes, or all joy turned into resentment?

"of course."

Gu Debai bowed his head and kissed his forehead.

Of course he lied again.

If he still wants to separate from Qi Ming and lose the person in front of him, of course he will be unhappy.

Of course he also has sunk costs. The biggest cost is that he can no longer like others.

"Mingming, you don't have to have any burdens, just look at the present."

The thunder that had been silent for a long time rumbled again.

With a flash of lightning across the sky, with a snap, the lights went out again.

The circuit of the whole building was damaged again. In the darkness, Qi Ming's fingertips trembled slightly, and someone gently held it again.

The kiss that was interrupted not long ago can finally fall.