Silent Confession

When Xin Yi squatted at the door of Zhou Mu's home, she didn't think too much about it.

He was just too tired of searching, he didn't know where to go next, how to find Zhou Muhui, the phone to Zhou Muhui was almost dead, and he sent countless messages, but there was no response at all. .

He began to be afraid, and began to think wildly, he thought, no matter where Zhou Mu went back, he would definitely go home in the end.

Just like Xin Yi, no matter how much trouble she gets into outside, how much fun she has, she will definitely go home.

But Xinyi still couldn't wait for him.

The alley of their house was so quiet that it was scary. Xin Yi sat down on the steps of the door and stared out blankly. The path under the dim street lights seemed to be compressed into a miniature. The narrow stone road could not wait to return. The traveler at home, Xin Yi clenched her phone tightly and lowered her head silently.

He is actually a very stupid kid, and also very timid, and Zhou Muhui couldn't bear to scare him like this.

At 03:30 in the morning, it was the wild cat on the side of the road that first barked twice, followed by his mobile phone, a burst of rapid ringing, and an unfamiliar phone call.

Xin Yi stared blankly at the screen, as if he had a premonition in his heart, he hurriedly pressed the answer button.

But he didn't speak, because he heard the familiar breathing from the opposite side, it was Zhou Muhui, but Xin Yi felt a little wronged.

"Xiaoyi, where are you?"

Xin Yi's tears fell down big and big, he obviously wanted to talk, he wanted to say that I was at your house, he wanted to say where you went, I couldn't find you, I was very scared, but he couldn't say anything come out.

Something seemed to firmly block him, forcing Xin Yi to remain silent, telling him not to respond to Zhou Mu's words.

"Damn it, where is the wild cat!"

There was a sound of cursing and cursing at the entrance of the alley, and the other party's voice was so loud that they both startled each other for a moment, shrank back helplessly, and let out a very soft, low cry.

Zhou Mu heard it back, and his voice suddenly became urgent, calling Xin Yi, "Don't hang up the phone, wait for me."

Xin Yi didn't even have time to refuse, even though he didn't know why he had this idea, he heard Zhou Mu's heavy breathing and the wind blowing when he was running, Xin Yi didn't know what was wrong with him, tears As if he couldn't stop, he suddenly opened his mouth, choked up and called him in a low voice.

"Zhou Mu come back... come quickly."

His surrender came faster than anything else, Xin Yi thought, forget it, it doesn't matter.

It's fine as long as Zhou Mu returns.

He thought a lot in a mess just now, and even hoped that Zhou Muhui just forgot to come to Xin Yi's house for dinner, but nothing happened.

Xin Yi can forgive him.

He discovered his hopeless love for Zhou Muhui on the eve of his 20th birthday. It turns out that when he likes someone, he can't even bear to be angry for a second, and he can't even bear to say a bad word to him. What a moving note, deeply and tightly holding him back.

Xin Yi listened to his comfort and apology, and nodded vigorously, wiping her tears like a child.

Under the shadow of the dim street lamp, he understood his own heart. He only wanted Zhou Muhui to get back together, he only wanted Zhou Muhui to be safe, and...he wanted to be with Zhou Muhui forever and ever.

"Zhou Mu back... You should think about it quickly."

Xin Yi buried her face in her knees, and said silently, "I can't help it anymore, I want to marry you."

That night seemed to be chaotic, Zhou Muhui appeared in front of him covered in sweat, he walked up to Xin Yi panting, hugged the tear-stained child tightly into his arms, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry , I'm late."

Xin Yi was speechless, and only after seeing Zhou Muhui did he understand what it means to be relieved. His heart was being pinched and played with in his hands over and over again, and it was only at this moment that it suddenly fell down.

Zhou Muhui said that there was something temporary, that his mobile phone was lost halfway, Xin Yi cried and nodded, buried in his arms and choked up, Zhou Muhui stopped talking halfway through the explanation, lowered her head and approached him, and said, "I'm sorry .”

Xin Yi easily forgave him, Zhou Muhui sent him home, took his hand to coax him, Xin Yi stood at the door and looked up at him, his tears streaming down the corners of his eyes, Zhou Muhui carefully and seriously wipe.

"I'll be a little busy recently, Xiaoyi, can you wait for me for a few days?"

Zhou Mu replied.

Xin Yi nodded, holding onto his hand, he said it's okay, that Mom and Dad won't be angry with him, they are very, very nice.He said Zhou Muhui, you go and do your own business, but don't tell him about any difficulties you encounter, Xin Yi is also very strong, and won't become his drag.

Zhou Mu said yes earnestly back, but the child didn't let go of him, his face was muddy, and finally choked up and begged him.

"Zhou Muhui, don't let me not find you, I will be afraid."

He's a coward, and he doesn't want to pretend to be brave anymore.

Xin Yi didn't see Zhou Muhui much in the following days, Zhou Muhui was very busy, Xin Yi asked him what's the matter, and he just reassured Xin Yi that he was fine and told him not to worry.

But he never mentioned why he was busy.

Xin Yi didn't know that Zhou Muhui had already been to his house until she returned home that day, and hurried over to apologize to his parents in the middle of the night and early morning.

Xin Shao had a close relationship with him. When he was studying in his teens, Zhou Muhui briefly went to the summer camp he led for a few days.Xin Shao still remembered this teacher-student friendship, and comforted him that he was fine, saying that Xin Yi had gone to find him, and asked him to meet the child to comfort the child, because Xin Yi was really sad.

Xin Yi's other father, Yu Nanshan, has been sending people to follow Xin Yi, but before he could tell, Zhou Mu's call back to Xin Yi was connected.

Xin Yi was quiet over there, but almost everyone knew that he was crying, Yu Tingyun was burning with anxiety, but Yu Nanshan held him tightly to prevent him from getting angry.

The children in their family had untimely precocity and perseverance since they were young, so even though they knew that Zhou Muhui was not a good match, even though they had 1 resistance hidden in their hearts, they still acquiesced to Zhou Muhui to stay by his side.

Because this is the first time that Xinyi has fallen in love with someone, the first time she told them that she wants to be with the other person forever, and even take the person home, their children looked at them so seriously and held their hands , pursing his lips and smiling shyly.

"Mom and Dad, I really like him very much."

There was seriousness in his eyes, so the parents also compromised one after another.

They hope that Xin Yi can be happy, have his own lover and life, and they can bear all the storms he encounters in the future. Xin Yi just needs to be a happy and carefree child every day.

You don't have to worry about your parents all the time like you did when you were a child.

Xin Yi never found him again, Zhou Muhui always kept his word.

Although his messages came slowly, he would reply to each one. Xin Yi started school, and the contact with Zhou Muhui inevitably decreased, because Zhou Muhui no longer stayed in the store every day.

Xin Yi can no longer go to him from time to time.

Zhou Muhui was busy until March and a half, and Xin Yi gradually noticed something strange about him. At first, it was because he was absent-minded when meeting him, and later, it was the ever-present paleness on his face. He often closed his eyes while talking to Xin Yi. Will quietly froze, then noticed his extremely thin side face, and looked at him ecstatically.

Xin Yi actually sensed that something was wrong, because one time he went to the store to find Zhou Mu, but Sister Chen said that he had asked for leave and only came here for a few days, and then he resigned directly. Sister Chen would not listen to any advice .

"I don't know what happened. When I came here, I was covered in ashes and my face was white." Sister Chen hurriedly stopped in the middle of speaking, looked at Xin Yi, and called him, "Little I mean, if your brother didn't tell you, he definitely didn't want to worry you, so don't ask, you're too young."

Sister Chen didn't want to say anything more, and Xin Yi didn't ask any more. He just nodded blankly and said yes in a low voice, but then turned around and went home with his schoolbag on his back.

It was quiet in the evening, and the early spring hadn't darkened too quickly. Xin Yi looked in at the entrance of the alley, and Zhou Mu's home was shrouded in shadows, quiet and dim, but there was no human voice.

It was deserted.

Xin Yi came here for several days in a row, until one day she saw Zhou Muhui come out from the inside, with a whole body of tiredness, she pushed open the door silently.

Xin Yi had never seen him look so lonely, and even his usually firm back slumped a little, Xin Yi was stunned, and hid in the corner to watch him secretly.Zhou Muhui is a very powerful person, but Xin Yi's breathing was very heavy that day, and he was very close, but he didn't notice it at all.

Xin Yi watched him leave the house, his back facing him seemed to be bent deeply by some heavy object, Xin Yi held her breath and did not let go until the stray cat by the roadside meowed twice, and he seemed to be Like being woken up suddenly.

But tears and shortness of breath fell together.

One day in the second half of the year, Zhou Muhui came out to accompany him. He and Xin Yi sat on the bridge chair and talked, but Zhou Muhui's voice became smaller and smaller, and then quietly stopped in the next second.

The unfinished ending was carried away by a passing bird, and Xin Yi looked at his half-turned sleeping face, and didn't speak for a long time.

Is something wrong at home?

Is it his mother?

Xin Yi looked at his pale side face, and slowly took his hand.

Zhou Muhui was awakened by him, and instinctively held him back. He froze for a moment, then smiled faintly at Xin Yi, hugged him, and kissed his hair.

"Zhou Mu back... Are you tired?"

Xin Yi lay on his chest and asked in a low voice, rubbing the thick calluses and several scratches on his palm with her fingertips.

"…No."

Zhou Mu pinched the back of his neck and coaxed him, "It's nothing, I went to bed late last night."

Xin Yi snorted, didn't say anything else, just hugged him in this position, and never let go.

After a while, Zhou Muhui wanted to send him back, but Xin Yi shook her head softly.

"I made an appointment with my friend to read a book."

Xin Yi looked relaxed, raised her head and smiled at him, "I'll wait for him here for a while, you go to work first."

"I'll text you when I get home."

Zhou Mu was stunned for a moment, then nodded and said yes.

He staggered when he got up, and Xin Yi's smile disappeared all of a sudden, but Xin Yi didn't say a word, just waved back to Zhou Mu as if he didn't see it.

When the man's back completely disappeared, Xin Yi pursed her lips and followed.

He didn't want to do anything, or deliberately search for things that Zhou Muhui refused to tell him.

He was just scared, and worried.

He was very afraid that something would happen to Zhou Muhui.

At 04:30 in the afternoon, Zhou Mu went back to the construction site first, and Xin Yi saw him hunched over, with his back turned to her.

In the dusty wasteland, he was as insignificant as a speck of dust next to a group of giant machines.

Xin Yi seemed to have been sucked into his soul, and stood in the corner foolishly, watching him get up and squat again and again, pushing a gray old cart, and transporting the mud on the ground away , come back again.

Xin Yi stared at him for three hours, frozen like a watered carved stone, his eyes were fixed on that small square, and he couldn't move away no matter what.

He doesn't understand.

Others would stop to drink from time to time, but Zhou Muhui didn't stop for half a minute.

Isn't he tired, isn't he hurt?

Xin Yi was a little out of breath, his palm unconsciously curled up, the soft palm felt the pressure, was squeezed and scratched by the uneven nails that he had been biting these days, but he didn't seem to feel the slightest pain, just He looked at Zhou Muhui blankly.

When the sun was setting, Zhou Muhui finally stopped.

The half-fallen halo covered the sky, his Zhou Muhui was standing in the open space beside him taking money, the helmet on the man's head had already been taken off, Xin Yi watched him take the money, and then silently counted , before turning and leaving.

Xin Yi was finally awakened, and hurriedly backed away, fearing that Zhou Muhui would find out.

Xin Yi wandered around like a lost soul ghost, following him all night, Zhou Muhui went to eat first after leaving the construction site, but it was not a meal.

It was just a bottle of water and two steamed buns, which he ate silently and quickly. Then he got up from the roadside steps in a second, dusted the dust off his body carefully, and walked in another direction.

Xin Yi recognized that the end of that direction was a hospital.

Xin Yi saw it on the way following him.

It's not that Xin Yi is unsophisticated, nor is he really hopelessly stupid, but when his guess came true, he was still in a daze.

The sign of the hospital elevator stopped saying Hepatobiliary Surgery, and the corner of Zhou Muhui's clothes quietly disappeared around the corner not far away.

Xin Yi lost her mind, and waited for the nurse at the side to walk over, then slowly grabbed her and asked with a trembling voice.

"Sister, what kind of disease do the people living here... have?"

"Hepatobiliary and pancreas, big and small, brother, are you alone?"

Xin Yi shook her head in a daze, and said, "I came to see someone, but I don't know how to get there..."

"Oh." The nurse breathed a sigh of relief and showed him the way. "The left side is a stone, and the right side is a tumor. Brother, you should call your home."

Xin Yi nodded indiscriminately, and was stunned for a second. He watched Zhou Muhui turn right just after disappearing, and he opened his mouth after a long while.

"Okay...thank you sister..."

Xin Yi went downstairs, he didn't dare to stay any longer.

He was afraid that Zhou Muhui would appear suddenly, and he was afraid that Zhou Muhui would see him again.

His Zhou Mu Hui... don't want him to know about it yet.

But why is life so difficult?

Xin Yi thought, his Zhou Muhui had already worked so hard, why he still couldn't get a single candy.

Good kids have candy to eat, why no one gave his Zhou Muhui a candy too.

He didn't want much, and he didn't have much, so why didn't he give it to him, and went to grab what he had.

Xin Yi felt pain in his heart, just like when he saw his mother was sick when he was a child, it made him unable to even walk, so he stopped tremblingly on the side of the road.

Destiny is too harsh. There are always countless difficulties followed by one difficulty. It seems to be watching the persevering people cry and the happy people collapse. They only love to create suffering, and then tell you that this is just a test for you.

It's just that when this training falls on Zhou Muhui, he will always be a little bit more than others.

Xinyi is reluctant.

"Please give me two more days, just two days, I will definitely get the money back for you! No... no, our house is sold!"

"It's too much... A single operation costs 50 million yuan. The elderly at home are not in good health, and there is still a lot of treatment behind. We can't just let it go. Please, please..."

Out of the hazy consciousness was a sincere male voice, almost choked up, Xin Yi raised her head blankly, and looked at the person who was on the phone.

The other party hunched over, with a half-exposed side face full of sorrow, Xin Yi stared at him in a daze, but in the next second she was suddenly dazed and turned around hastily.

Zhou Mu back...

His Zhou Mu Hui also...

Xin Yi found Zhou Mu and returned to her mother's ward, and then hid Zhou Mu and asked other family members who came out of it. They said that Zhou's mother had advanced liver cancer.

"It's burning money, and you have to have surgery, and you have to wait in line for liver sources. If it's done, you'll live a few more years. His mother has to leave several times. It's his son who forced her here, saying that all the money in their family They have all been handed over to the hospital, and they have to be done if they don’t.”

The other party finally sighed and said, "I heard that her son is still selling blood. Last time I washed his face and rolled up his sleeves, I took a look and his arms were all blue."

Xin Yi was stunned for a moment, she didn't even know how she got home afterwards, she felt dizzy all the way, when the door was pushed open, Mao Mao jumped up and woke him up.

Xin Yi went upstairs in a hurry and began to frantically rummage through the cabinets. He took out all the New Year's money from childhood to adulthood, spread it on the bed and counted, crying while counting, and was wiped away by him in the next second.

At the end of the count, he couldn't count anymore, tears fell like broken beads, Mao Mao jumped on the bed in a daze, bit his fingers, approached him cautiously, and was frightened by his sudden loud cry after a while.

The cry was so loud that even if it was a cat, it couldn't help shaking.

Xin Yi went to Zhou Muhui with her own money, on the evening of the next day.

But when he saw Zhou Mu returning, he became hoarse again.

Zhou Muhui just came back from nowhere, with a frighteningly pale face. When he walked to the hospital garden, he stopped for a while for no reason, and then suddenly fell down along the side of the tree.

Xin Yi's heart trembled, and she quickly ran towards him amidst the exclamation of the crowd.

Zhou Muhui didn't recognize him at first, grabbed his arm and shook his head slowly, saying that he was fine, Xin Yi looked into his blank eyes and thought, it might be because of anemia.

When Xin Yi used to be anemic, she would suddenly see nothing.

"Zhou Mu back..."

Xin Yi called him with a trembling voice, Xin Yi saw that he froze for a moment, his eyes gradually returned to their former color, but they didn't look at him for a long time.

Xin Yi supported Zhou Muhui to sit on a chair beside him, but Zhou Muhui let out a muffled groan, Xin Yi lowered her head in a daze, seeing that her hand was unintentionally pressed on his arm, as if she had thought of something, she let go at a loss he.

Xin Yi wanted to cry a little, but he couldn't help it. Zhou Muhui was obviously his favorite person, but he felt that Zhou Muhui was stabbing him again and again with a knife.

Xin Yi was so painful that she could hardly breathe.

He gave Zhou Muhui all the money before he could speak, and he forced the thin card into Zhou Muhui's hand. Xin Yi desperately held back her tears and begged him, "Zhou Muhui, here is 100 Wan, should, should be enough for my aunt to perform the operation."

As soon as she finished speaking, Xin Yi burst into tears, and the crowd that surrounded her just now had dispersed. Xin Yi held his hand and begged him one after another.

"Come back at Zhou Mu, you take it."

His Zhou Muhui was short of money, so he worked so many jobs before, and now he went to the construction site to get the hard-earned money that could be settled in cash.

Also, he didn't go to Xin Yi's house that day, probably because of his mother.

But why didn't you tell Xin Yi, it didn't mean that you should tell Xin Yi if you had difficulties, why didn't Zhou Mu come back and tell her.

He doesn't want Zhou Muhui to be so powerful forever, he also wants Zhou Muhui to be weaker and let himself go, it's okay to be as stupid as Xin Yi.

But Zhou Muhui didn't want it, his Zhou Muhui was stunned for a long time, then pushed Xin Yi's card back and asked Xin Yi to go back.

He got up to leave, Xin Yi cried and called him from behind, but he never looked back.

Xin Yi began to come to the hospital frequently, waiting for Zhou Mu to return under the building wrapped in the wind.

When Zhou Mu returned to the evening or late at night, he handed him the home-cooked meal, then handed him his card in various ways, and looked at him with tears in his eyes.

But without exception, they were all pushed back by Zhou Mu.

"... Xiaoyi, you are obedient."

"I don't listen."

Xin Yi rejected him with a crying voice, "I can help you, why don't you."

He wanted to help Zhou Mu back, but Xin Yi had never been his drag.

But Zhou Mu fell silent and rejected him again.

Zhou Muhui couldn't accept it.

Because he is Xinyi.

On the afternoon of early spring in April, Zhou's mother was critically ill again, she was pushed into the operating room, Xin Yi and Zhou Mu went back to wait for her outside.

This was the second time Mother Zhou went in, and Xin Yi tilted her head to see Zhou Mu back helplessly lowering her head, her hands that fell by her sides were tightly curled up.

Xin Yi could feel his fear, which was the last thing Xin Yi wanted him to face.

"Zhou Mu back..."

Xin Yi called him softly.

He was actually a little apprehensive, and knew that he shouldn't say it at this time, but he couldn't wait any longer, he was very afraid...he didn't want Zhou Mu to go back to being sad again.

"I found someone, and when my aunt comes out, I can have surgery next month."

Xin Yi held his hand carefully, held her breath and raised her head.

"..."

After the silence, it was Zhou Mu's hoarse voice.

"Xiaoyi, what do you want?"

He never looked at Xin Yi, but Xin Yi didn't want to miss him for even half a second.

"I…"

Xin Yi was stunned for a moment, not understanding why Zhou Muhui would ask such a question suddenly, but his answer never changed, so he pursed his lips, and spoke seriously again in a low voice.

"I...I want to marry you."

I want to be with you forever, I want to protect you, love you well, and never let you suffer any more.

"Is this... okay?"

The card was passed from the palms of the two of them, and the operating light quietly turned green at this time, Zhou Mu hummed back and nodded blankly.

"it is good."

Xin Yi really likes him.

I was fascinated by him from the first time we met, I went to him every day like a follower, not afraid of being annoying or disgusting, and then I finally got to know him well, and confessed to him and wooed him.

Although he was beaten back, he never gave up.

She walked around him reluctantly, holding his hand for kisses and hugs, and in the end it really became true with him.

His Zhou Muhui kept his word and followed him home after his mother got better. Xin Yi held his hand and kept laughing, looking up and telling his family that they wanted to get married.

The family was shocked for a long time, except for Yu Tingyun, this was the first time they knew about it. His mother pulled him into the room, and asked him with a frown, "Baby, is it too fast?"

"You are too young."

Xin Shao said worriedly.

Xin Yi was immersed in joy, grabbed his mother's hand and shook her head, "Mom, I like him, and I want to treat him well."

His mother was silent, and asked him again, "Zhou Muhui also agreed?"

Xin Yi nodded, but saw his mother's expression suddenly serious in the next second, and then looked at him seriously.

"Baby, we want to talk to him, can we?"

Xin Yi didn't know what they said that day, he felt that the time passed quickly, but in fact it was a full three hours.Xin Yi was playing with the cat on the sofa, biting its ear and telling it the good news. He had never talked so much until the parents went downstairs.

They agreed, and Xin Yi turned around Zhou Mu excitedly, but Zhou Muhui kept his head down, and there was no joy on his face like Xin Yi.

But Xin Yi didn't notice.

He is just very happy, because he can finally give Zhou Muhui a home, he can change his name to be good to Zhou Muhui, give Zhou Muhui all the good things, and Zhou Muhui will never reject him again .

Xin Yi never felt that there was any problem between them. In his opinion, he liked Zhou Muhui, and Zhou Muhui also liked him, so they fell in love and got married.

So, just as Xin Yi expected, they had a home that belonged to both of them.

But Zhou Muhui wanted to leave.

Returned the card from several years ago to him, wrote him a signed divorce agreement, let Xin Yi look at him with Xin Yi, and said, "Xiao Yi, we are settled."

Xin Yi doesn't understand what is reconciliation, money can be reconciled, but how can feelings be reconciled, Xin Yi has given and received countless love, how can they be reconciled to draw an equal sign?

Xin Yi is willing to be his home, willing to be his candy, but Zhou Muhui seems to want neither.

Xin Yi couldn't figure it out, he cried until his head became a paste, and his sadness almost turned into a stream to drown him, only instinct was pulling desperately, telling him.

You can't let Zhou Mu go back, you can't let Zhou Mu go back.

If he was let go, Zhou Muhui would not come back.

"Zhou Mu back..."

He called Zhou Muhui with a trembling voice, "You can't lie to me..."

You nodded your head in the oath you made when you got married, you said you were willing, that we would grow old together, but Xin Yi didn't even have a single gray hair, so how could you just say something like that?