lucky me

Some people say that no matter what the world is like, you should move forward with a heart of hope. In this world, love is not the only reason for us to live. To live and to feel is the meaning of life. So many people, until the end Regret is not what has been done, but what has not been done?To prove to the world that I lived.

In a trance, I suddenly felt that these words came out of nowhere, I have forgotten the feeling in what situation, I just remember that in a flash, my whole soul was suddenly touched, I seem to have never been like this world Having proved my existence, I didn't even live and love like I imagined, I just drifted with time.

In a sudden moment, I seemed to have a thousand motivations to do one thing, a small thing about dreams that I dreamed of, so then I made the most risky decision in my life, I want to go back, from where Those who fell, and where did they climb up, these words are so clear and thorough to me now.

I want to go back to my original city, not to remember the past, to reminisce about the years, I just come here to fulfill my unfulfilled dream at that time.I have used a lot of effort and energy to create a beverage store that belongs to my imagination, and I want to turn my imagination into reality.

When I made a decision, I was very firm. The future seems to be prosperous and prosperous, but there are so many entanglements and ups and downs along the way. Only those who have really gone through it will understand the sadness inside. This is the time I struggled the most. I think this is right. My test, I have gone through, survived this test, and only then will I have the future I want. This belief has always supported me through those difficult years. Without anyone's company, it seems that I have returned to the previous one. Myself, I walked my own way quietly, walked steadily and bravely, I am grateful for the growth during those days, it made me feel that life is really a person's life, and people are really constantly exploring Correct your orientation and position.

It was a period of silence. During those days, I became more settled and saw a lot more clearly. Half a year later, I returned to this city, the former city, and I never thought about going back. Looking at the past, I am not here to recall the past, I am here to set off again to find my future.

This journey, if I want to talk about it in detail, I can write a book, but this process is mine, everyone has a different life, everyone has their own story, mine is different from yours, We are all living our own stories, whether it is wonderful or not, this is the life we ​​choose.It's all our own, nothing to do with others.

I began to gradually understand that the life I want can only be given to myself, and I began to understand that only if I live well, all of this is valuable, and everything can be negotiated and given opportunities.This time, no matter how difficult it is, I want to live my own life, I want my own world.I want my world to be what I imagined, no matter what the future holds, come on.

Later, I finally owned a Utopia of my dreams in this city, but all of this was not as simple as it sounds. I spent all my savings, including Yang Hao’s 30 yuan. But I will spend so much wealth in just a few months, leaving no way out for myself. This has never been my character. The process of building here is very difficult. I once thought of giving up, but I kept on I tried to numb myself, even if it was the last thing I didn’t give up halfway. In the next six months, the business in the store was always deserted. During that time, all the pressure and all the emotions were borne alone in the dark. In another 3 months, if it doesn’t work, I really gave up. I used all my energy, kept learning, kept thinking of ways, and in constant anticipation, I finally survived the most difficult moment. I found it difficult, but at the time I had no choice, so I gave myself a deadline to make myself look like I wanted.

When the business in the store finally started to get on the right track, I had to keep thinking about various things, but it was finally as I imagined, and everything was normal at last. Later, when everything was really smooth At that time, I suddenly felt that all this is not so safe and sound. I must constantly improve myself. The most realistic thing is, at least for now, I want to make as much money as possible?So I started to get in touch with all kinds of things about investment and financial management. My life became, open a store, read books, and settle accounts. I should read more books, books about investment, I should invest and take the initiative instead of waiting for customers.I began to feel that I had found a way of life that I really wanted to live. Instead of spending the rest of my life guarding this store, I should pursue what I can pursue. Now I can finally arrange my own life, my own Life is born, I should work harder to cherish it and make good use of it.I think, I seem to have changed a lot, as if something is not the same as before, but I really like this kind of myself, full and satisfied.

Apart from myself, there will always be people coming and going in life. I thought that when I met Yang Hao again, I would stand in front of him in a proud manner, and when I really saw Yang Hao again, it would be a long time later It’s a long time since I met another acquaintance. It’s been a long time since I met Chen Chuan again. It’s even like what happened in the last century to me. There are many things happening there. people, and I've left.He sat by the window in business attire and stared at the computer screen seriously. He was very calm. When I noticed him, he was still staring at the screen. I thought I should go say hello. After all, he was an acquaintance. After all, it is not a good memory. After a while, I feel that my problem of thinking too much is still coming back by accident. Forget it, just let it be. It would be best to say hello again if there is a chance, Chen Chuan Didn't order anything the first time I came, just sat there staring at the screen until 10pm.After that, it seems that he will come here 2-3 times a week. The coffee he ordered every time is always in that position. When he sat there for the third time, there were not many people in the store, so I was free. I finally decided it was time to say hello, I walked up to him naturally, he subconsciously looked up at me, naturally I immediately realized that he remembered me too, so I smiled and said hi to him.He also responded calmly but not indifferently, as if meeting me was actually a matter of course for him.

After a moment of silence, I half-jokingly said, "Boss, it's time to pay the bill." He paused, smiled and replied, "Boss, is it free?" The things disappeared immediately, and the atmosphere suddenly became more active. That night, we chatted for half an hour, and it was all polite words and trivial things, but it was not like me at all. This person will decide what kind of mentality and method to get along with after inquiring clearly, but tonight, there is nothing at all. In fact, I don't know anything about this person in front of me, except for what is presented in front of me. A resolute and masculine face, a business attire told me a little information, other than that, I know nothing, except that I know his name is Chen Chuan, and he has an ex-boyfriend, that's all, but, that night, I also I didn't get any more information, and I didn't even think about it, but he did know everything about this drink shop, and this drink shop is all I have now.That night, I gave a customer a free order for the first time.

Afterwards, he seems to come more often than usual, almost every day at the same time, and occasionally not necessarily at night, he likes to be there every time he comes, ordering the same coffee, and later, I gradually got used to it I knew his existence, delivered drinks step by step, and chatted for a while when there were few people, just like ordinary friends. I think this is the most harmonious and normal for everyone. Later, the more natural we chatted, the more natural it became. Too much, I chatted with him about the books I read recently, movies, music, in order to show my literary taste, but he didn't agree with me at all, and even directly acided me a few times, but I am generous and willing. I didn't take it too seriously, and occasionally he would give me some advice on the store's furnishings, music, and business operations. When he said that, I was really decisive.

Once, I had an argument with him because of the issues discussed in a movie. I always felt that if the director ended in a tragedy, the effect of the movie would be more compelling, but he didn’t think so. It is of the most practical significance to solve the problems discussed in the movies. I always think that he regards drama as reality, and he thinks that drama comes from reality, and reality is higher than drama. .In the end, neither of us convinced anyone, but that day I kept thinking about refuting his words. It was like every time after arguing with someone, I always felt that I didn’t perform well, and I always wanted to get it back. One more fight, and I will definitely win. Of course, I was waiting for his arrival the next day with this kind of mood, and the more excited I got when he was about to come, I had already thought about it. He had exhausted all the possibilities he could refute, probably the one in the legend, with everything in place and full of confidence, just like facing a particularly important exam when he was in school.

In fact, God has not joked with me once or twice. That night, all my moods disappeared little by little with time, just like when you are about to run a marathon, but find that you don’t know the route at all. When 7 o'clock passed, I felt that he might be delayed by something. When 8 o'clock passed, I thought he might not come today. At 9 o'clock, I began to constantly think about what I said the night before. If it's not right, I always offend people when I'm unconscious. I think I shouldn't argue with him. What he said is fine, and my tone is too aggressive. , I feel that I am a little familiar, so I will be unscrupulous, and I may even say dirty words. By the way, I seem to have said it. In short, everything about the night before was constantly recalled in my mind. I tried to find clues that he did not come. The more I thought about it, The more I feel that it is my own problem, the more I think about it, the more I feel that I should not do it.I'll apologize next time I get a chance, but will he come again?I don't even know if I'll ever see him again, hey, how can my mind be so easy to think about it.

The night passed so slowly, I was always entangled in such emotions, but the next day passed slowly, I began to look forward to and fear the arrival of the night, however, the arrival of the evening did not bring the slightest relief, He still didn't show up. I started to laugh at myself for being too self-indulgent. I was just a familiar customer. Did I think too much? When I gradually realized that this is really the problem, the next time It was much better, and my time began to slowly return to normal, reading books, writing, and tidying up the shop, and the day slowly became more and more fulfilling.I try not to think about that matter anymore. Didn't I say that everything will go with the flow and everything should be calm?

I gradually kept my temper and lived as usual. In the next few days, Chen Chuan didn't show up again, and I was getting used to it, but I still looked at that position inadvertently. Now I feel that at night I went to bed late when I went back, so I simply went back late.

Recently, I found a clerk. Since the business has improved, I feel more and more unable to handle it, but I have to do it myself to close the door at night. On the one hand, the clerk I hired is a little girl, and it is too late to go back , it’s always not very good, so basically after 10 o’clock, I deal with it alone.

Chen Chuan hasn't come back for 5 days, I think he might not come again in the future, so when I closed the door and turned around to see this familiar face in front of me, I suddenly felt a sour feeling In my heart, although the night here is not as hot as the daytime, I still feel a little unsuitable to appear in front of me in a formal windbreaker. He is carrying a brown suitcase in his hand, and he looks like he is ready to travel. He looks Seeing that I was stunned, I grinned and said, "Why, I was scared"

"It's really easy to be scared in the middle of the night, haha" Fortunately, I didn't stay in a daze for too long.

"I went on a business trip to Europe. I just came back. I left in a hurry. I forgot to tell you. I don't have your call..."

When he said this, he was very serious, word by word, and with a hint of guilt,

"So you just came back?" I really thought he might be on a business trip, but I didn't expect him to run towards me as soon as he got off the plane, but I felt relieved

"It's a bit late, I'm afraid you've closed the door?" He still spoke calmly, but I suddenly noticed a few drops of sweat on his forehead, I wonder if it's because of wearing too much.

"Actually, can we come back tomorrow? It's not bad for this night?" When I said it, I suddenly felt something was wrong, but the words had already been spoken, and I didn't know why, but I felt very happy in my heart. After standing silently for a few seconds, they all laughed at the same time.

"Come in and have a drink"

I opened the store door again and got him a glass of watermelon juice, "Don't drink coffee so late."

"Okay." He took it readily.

In fact, I probably stayed in the store for less than 10 minutes that day. Later, the two of us went back to our respective homes. Maybe it was too late, but I fell asleep quickly that day, which was rare and comfortable.