old love still

Lin Zhongyue stood on the balcony to dry her clothes, looking at the blue sky in the distance, with an indescribable intuition in her heart.She turned her head to look at the tightly closed balcony next door and entered the house.

The TV was chirping, and her dull eyes drifted across the screen to a person.Forget it, I haven't seen each other for two days, it seems that her voice and smile can be touched, she is obviously used to waiting for this kind of thing, but after the time of intimacy like a lover, this heart seems to be unwilling to wait anymore, it It has become so difficult, so tormenting.She squeezed the phone, looked at the number, and finally stuck it on her forehead.

She went out the door in a daze, wandered around her building for a while, almost touched the doorbell with her fingers, and finally withdrew her hand.When the cool wind hit, she shrank her neck, exhaled in the collar, and clenched her fists in her pockets, warming her cold fingertips. She raised her eyes to look at the house number, and just as she was about to turn around, the door happened to be blocked by someone. pushed away.

"Ah... hello." Inside the door was a mother leading a little girl.

"Hello." Lin Zhongyue combed her hair.

"Do you want to come in?" The woman had a kind face and eyes, and she had met Lin Zhongyue several times, and they both had some impressions of each other.

"Thank you." Lin Zhongyue held the door, nodded and smiled as a thank you, and then she watched the mother holding the child tightly out of sight little by little.

Lin Zhongyue's ears were a little ringing from the pressure brought by the elevator's ascent. She stared at the changing red numbers, and had the illusion that it was the first time she stepped in two years ago.

She rang the doorbell twice and knocked again. She stood quietly outside the door with her head down and waited. After an unknown amount of time, when she turned around and was about to leave, there was a slight knock from the door behind her.Startled, she quickly turned her head and turned around, but was stunned in place, at a loss.

"Really...really you?" Kong Daixue hugged the wine bottle, her cheeks were flushed, her eyes were blurred, she leaned on the door frame and slid down, pointing at Lin Zhongyue wobbly and said, "Why are there three more?"

Lin Zhongyue was not far away from her, and the smell of alcohol had already overwhelmed her. She stepped forward to help Kong Daixue, snatched her wine bottle, and coaxed her into the bedroom, wading across the floor There were a lot of cans and glass wine bottles. She looked around, not only the living room was in a mess, but even in her bedroom, clothes were flying around, pillows and quilts were thrown on the ground, as if they had been robbed.

Fortunately, although she was quite drunk, she was still obedient, she tossed and turned on the bed, with a wrinkled face, muttering in her mouth.Lin Zhongyue was cleaning up the mess while listening, and suddenly the nonsense words stopped, and after a while, there was a muffled sob, she stopped, and looked at Kong Daixue on the bed in surprise, she buried herself with a pillow head, the whole body curled up, like a lost eaglet, the voice was muffled but full of grievances and fragility...

she cried.

Standing by the bed, Lin Zhongyue was at a loss, and after a while of panic, she went to pull off the pillow on her head. When she pulled off her pillow, Lin Zhongyue was shocked by her helpless and confused eyes.

"Why are you crying?" Lin Zhongyue lay next to her ear, trying to calm her down with a soft tone, but she didn't expect it to be counterproductive, she covered her ears, shook her head, and shouted in her mouth, "It's not me... not me!"

Lin Zhongyue was frightened and hugged her in her arms, "It's not you! It's not you! It's okay...it's okay..."

Repeating these two meaningless conversations with her, Lin Zhongyue laid her flat and covered her with a quilt until she was completely silent.Taking a closer look, her makeup was not removed, and even lipstick marks remained on the corners of her lips. The strong smell of alcohol when she breathed evenly seemed to be exhaled from her lungs.Seeing the unfamiliar look in the familiar eyebrows, Lin Zhongyue couldn't help sighing and sighing in her heart.As if she were an exquisite mirage, a distant picture scroll, tracing her outline from a distance, stopped her hand on the lips that were intimately touched two days ago, this mouth that has just uttered shameful words now says What is it that makes her difficult to understand?

When Kong Daixue woke up in the bed, it was already afternoon, she had a splitting headache, and suddenly a sense of nausea hit her, causing her to drag herself to the toilet with weak feet. Teased her endurance, the pain made her grin her teeth, and kept splashing cold water on her face in an attempt to relieve the pain.The faucet was running continuously, and she raised her head to look at herself in the mirror. Her makeup was smeared, her eyes were red, and her appearance of being neither human nor ghost made her furious, and she grabbed the towel and the things around her. Throw it at the mirror.

"What’s wrong with you?!"

A familiar voice came from behind, and Kong Daixue suddenly turned her head to see the man standing outside the bathroom door poking her head nervously, she was so scared that she almost sat on the ground, "Why are you here?"

Lin Zhongyue thought she was asking how she got in, thought for a while and said, "The neighbor who happened to see this building downstairs came in."

Kong Daixue covered her head, bit her lip, her mind was in a mess, she only remembered the thing she couldn't accept, and all kinds of flavors rushed up, she didn't know what to do, and she didn't know what to say.She blinked her eyelids with pantothenic acid, and looked at her from a distance, her eyes and nose were sour, and her vision immediately blurred, she could see three or two of Lin Zhongyue.This look made me realize what pain is, what it means to be fooled by the sky, as if this person is always standing outside the door, and I am on thousands of roads, with thousands of rivers, thousands of mountains and a heavy time gap between them. Obviously the corners of her clothes can be touched, obviously she can give a hug when you reach out, obviously she is the source of everything

"Do you need me?" Lin Zhongyue took her confused look, as if she was a stranger. She thought that the other party hadn't sobered up yet, so she hesitated and said, "Is it still uncomfortable? Do you want to eat something?"

Tears welling up in her eyes covered her face, Kong Daixue squatted down with her head in her arms, and cried "Why, why!"

Lin Zhongyue rushed to her in a hurry, held her in her arms, and asked softly, "What happened? Is there any discomfort? Did you get bullied?"

It’s okay if you don’t ask, but when you ask her, she cries even more fiercely and hugs herself like an octopus. Lin Zhongyue pats her on the back in a funny and helpless way, trying to make her happy, but she keeps saying "" sorry Sorry"

"What are you sorry for? You really didn't do anything wrong?" Lin Zhongyue patted her on the back and whispered in her ear, "Be good, don't cry, don't cry."

"Lin Zhongyue! Don't be so nice to me!" Kong Daixue suddenly pushed Lin Zhongyue away and yelled at her, "Why are you being so nice to me! I'm not worth it!"

Lin Zhongyue let out a chuckle, "Stop talking nonsense because of your childish temper."

Kong Daixue wiped her face, "I'm sober now! I'm serious! Don't laugh!"

Lin Zhongyue suppressed her smile, shook her head, and sighed, "Because you are good, so I treat you well. Are you satisfied with this answer?"

"" Kong Daixue opened her mouth, and finally fell silent. She was afraid that her dissatisfaction and contempt for herself would be transferred to Lin Zhongyue.

"Stop thinking about it, let's have something to eat." Lin Zhongyue stood up, patted Kong Daixue's head, seeing that she hadn't responded yet, she held her head against her belly helplessly, and said softly "Just start over! People have to look forward, the meaningless things in the past, painful things, unpleasant things, let them go."

Kong Daixue clenched her lips. She sat on the ground and looked up at Lin Zhongyue. The dim light above her head cast a faint light on her body. The expression on her face was so gentle and peaceful. , like a holy goddess.She trembled her lips, as if worshiping a pilgrim, and cast almost pious eyes, "Let's be together. Okay?"

"Okay."

"I'm not joking."

"I know."

"Will you be together all the time?"

"it is good."

"I'll take care of you in the future, okay?"

"it is good."

"In the future, if there is something wrong with me, you have to say it, don't be afraid that I won't be able to accept it."

"it is good."

"Can I never leave you again?"

"You are free, it depends only on you."

Kong Daixue watched her gradually smile, her eyes gradually became more at ease, she got up shaking and hugged Lin Zhongyue and whispered in her ear, "I will never leave you again."

"Then you can't drink like this in the future, or you will leave me soon." Lin Zhongyue hugged her back, and the smell of alcohol on her body got into her nose and fermented in her heart.

"I swear I will never do this again in the future." Kong Daixue hugged her tightly, secretly making up her mind.

Lin Zhongyue rummaged through the kitchen and found nothing but a few bags of instant noodles, not even a grain of rice. She took a few bags of instant noodles and said to Kong Daixue who was standing behind her crying, "Do you just eat this?"

"Occasionally."

"Forget it, go to my house. I'll cook it for you."

"Can I only go to your house today?"

"You can come anytime! Why do you ask that?"

"Can I go every day?"

"Okay." Lin Zhongyue felt that something was wrong.

"Can I eat your cooking every day?"

"sure."

"Can I live at your house?"

"Yes." Lin Zhongyue was stunned, and said with a smile, "So you've been thinking about this all the time."

Kong Daixue stepped forward and hugged Lin Zhongyue half coquettishly and half emotionally, "I regret it, Lin Zhongyue. Where did I die in those two years! How could I be such a bastard!"

Lin Zhongyue was so hugged that she couldn't breathe, and when she heard her condemning herself again, suddenly her intuition in the morning made her more convinced. She smiled and patted Kong Daixue on the back, and asked tentatively, "Do you know what?"

Kong Daixue was taken aback for a moment, then asked back, "Know what?"

"It's nothing." Lin Zhongyue changed her words and said, "I'm hungry."

So, Kong Daixue insisted on squeezing into Lin Zhongyue's house with the strength of wine and thick skin, and after she was full of wine and food, she kept pestering Lin Zhongyue, yelling for headaches and vomiting, and trying to get attention as much as possible.Fortunately, Lin Zhongyue looked at her with a good temper and didn't let it go. At this moment, she felt that the relationship between the two had changed. It was neither the lingering relationship between lovers nor the warmth between lovers. a feeling of.

Kong Daixue lay on the sofa, pillowed on Lin Zhongyue's leg, looked up at her and said, "We are really together, right?"

"Yes."

"You didn't agree to me because you looked at me poorly, did you?"

"How come, how pitiful are you."

"You didn't see me crying so much that you agreed to me just to coax me?"

Tonight, Lin Zhongyue was dumbfounded by her series of weird questions. She deliberately didn't answer and watched how Kong Daixue reacted. In the end, within two seconds, she jumped up from the sofa and knelt on the sofa with tears in her eyes. asked "Why didn't you answer me?"

"No." Lin Zhongyue was afraid that she would cry again, so she quickly admitted, "I'm serious."

Satisfied, Kong Daixue lay down again, sniffed, and said, "Then where should I sleep today?"

"" Lin Zhongyue was sure that this was her intention, and after tossing for a day, this was her real purpose.

"Why don't you speak again?"

"You go to bed."

"how about you?"

"Me too."

Kong Daixue finally laughed, "Thank you for coming to me, thank you for still trusting me."

Lin Zhongyue seized the opportunity and sneered, "Do you still have to thank me for letting you in and sleeping in my bed?"

"En! Still sleeping with you!"

"" Lin Zhongyue found out that since he let the wolf into the house, this man's skin has become thicker, and he seized his thin-skinned weakness and dirty it hard!I will definitely be bullied to death in the future.

In fact, Kong Daixue didn't dare to do anything wrong, she was very afraid that Lin Zhongyue would kick her out, so she just stood guard on the bed, lying on her side with her pillow on her palm and looking at Lin Zhongyue.

"Does your head still hurt?" Lin Zhongyue lay down and found that her eyes had been staring at her.

Kong Daixue shook her head.

"Close your eyes and go to sleep." Lin Zhongyue pulled the quilt over the two of them.

"Will you wake me up tomorrow?"

"Of course, I'll call you when I wake up, okay?"

Kong Daixue nodded and said softly, "Go to sleep, good night."

Lin Zhongyue raised her hand to turn off the light, and said hello softly, her voice was a little tired, and she was also very tired after a day of tossing around.In the darkness, she could vaguely see Kong Daixue with her red and swollen eyes closed, and she looked cute, as if she wasn't the one who cried miserably just now.Thanks to the relationship between the past and the present, the way the two get along is not awkward at all, and they even feel a little like an old couple.After all, what should be done and what should not be done have been done, so what is there to embarrass?However, she always had a feeling of uneasiness in her heart, and she couldn't explain it clearly. After thinking about it, she gradually closed her eyelids that were heavy with pantothenic acid.

Kong Daixue pursed her lips, listening to her even heavy breathing, she opened her eyes and looked at Lin Zhongyue. In the darkness, her eyes shone like stars in the sky.

The next day, An Xuelu arrived at Lin Zhongyue's small shop like a prophet, sipping coffee in secret while expressing her concern.When Lin Zhongyue narrated what happened last night, she sprayed coffee several times, almost spraying Lin Zhongyue.

"I didn't expect this guy to play very well with this trick after learning it!" An Xuelu teased Lin Zhongyue, causing her to roll her eyes, and then surrendered, "Okay! Don't mention the past again. In my opinion, she just regrets it." It’s only because you’re too powerful. Don’t think too much about it!.”

"But she went to work early this morning."

"Isn't it normal to go to work?"

"But she actually wore light makeup today."

"Maybe I want to change my style when I'm with you."

Lin Zhongyue still frowned, looking like she couldn't believe it.

An Xuelu comforted, "Don't worry! This person, you are still not used to being changed for you, and you are getting annoyed if you don't change for you. You two, it's a matter of course, let nature take its course. Anyway, what else is there now?" Struggling."

"Do you think she knows something?"

"You mean..." An Xuelu saw her wipe the scar on her hand, and said clearly, "So what if she knows? Are you worried that she will make amends and be with you in a way of atonement because of guilt?"

"a bit"

An Xuelu shook her head and said bluntly, "If she really knows about this, maybe she can be relieved in your relationship, but you can't."

Lin Zhongyue was startled, raised her eyes and asked, "What do you mean?"

"It means, trust your own eyes." An Xuelu took a sip of coffee and said, "You are sometimes too stubborn. From now on, you should directly ask Kong Daixue about such matters instead of me, and I will not listen to them again. "

Upon hearing this, Lin Zhongyue quickly asked, "What do you mean?"

"The company has been transferred, and I'm going to work in the next city for a while!" An Xuelu said with a smile, "Before I leave, it's good to hear good news about you. However, your appearance really makes people feel more at ease."

Lin Zhongyue asked reluctantly, "How long will it be?"

"Well, I don't know, maybe half a year." Seeing Lin Zhongyue fell silent, she smiled and said, "What expression! My sister is about to be promoted!"

"Oh, that's right." Lin Zhongyue finally had a smile in her eyes, "You have to take care of yourself, and find a good man by the way and marry her."

"What do you mean casually!? No one wants me?!" An Xuelu roared.

"By the way, you got it wrong!" Lin Zhongyue waved her hand to explain.

"That's pretty much the same, you are too. Take care of yourself, be a little confident, and give the other party a little trust!"

"I know."

"Anyway, it's not wrong to hold the attitude of breaking the jar."

"" Lin Zhongyue was at a loss for words.She felt that if Kong Daixue learned An Xuelu's style of comfort and words in the future, she would definitely be the one who was completely abused. Fortunately, the two of them are not friends!

Just as the two were exhorting each other, Xiaoxiao ran to say, "Sister Yue, someone said it was your girlfriend who came to see you."

An Xuelu pinched these words, and asked Lin Zhongyue, "How many people do you have? Are you looking for someone else behind her back?"

"Don't talk nonsense! How is it possible!" Lin Zhongyue shook her head in denial, she turned her head and asked shyly, "Is that the person from that day?"

Xiaoxiao thought for a while, "very similar"

"That's it." Lin Zhongyue stood up and said to An Xuelu, "Kong Daixue came to see me. Do you want to go and see?"

An Xuelu shook her head and refused, "No way. My coffee got into my stomach, and I'll be leaving in a while."

"Okay, I'll go first." Lin Zhongyue turned around and walked to the counter.

An Xuelu carefully followed behind her, secretly looking at Kong Daixue who was standing at the door not far away, she was shocked, this guy is really good, no wonder Xiaoxiao didn't recognize her, she was wearing a well-behaved camel-colored woolen coat , wearing a scarf and tied up her hair, she looks like she has no makeup, but when she smiles, she has a delicate and translucent feeling, and even her temperament becomes pure.This look is alluring, right?

No wonder Lin Zhongyue was worried!

"Sister An, is that really the woman who came that day?"

"Yes."

"Has this vixen really changed?" Xiaoxiao muttered, "Sister An, where are they going? They are smiling so happily."

"Probably go home together."

"Why are you so happy to be home?! Sister An, why are you crying?"

"It's okay, I'm happy too."