I secretly liked you for the past ten years

Mao Xiaoyu also thought about why he fell in love with a boy obsessively. In the end, it could only be attributed to his bloody body. He felt that he might still be biased towards women in his bones, and that's why he liked a boy so much.But this day, the door to a new world was suddenly opened, and he was so dumbfounded that he didn't dare to go in even one step in the corridor.Liang Shuang saw his appearance, touched him with his shoulder, and said persuasively, "What's the matter? Have you never seen a homosexual?"

Mao Xiaoyu shuddered suddenly, and looked at him in shock, "Same...same as what?"

This time it was Liang Shuang's turn to be shocked, and he said in a daze, "You don't know?"

Of course he didn't know, he only knew that in their small town, he was once seen to like Wang Ziwen, and everyone called him a pervert, a slut who was neither male nor female. I really have some incurable disease, and I can't restrain it, and I can't treat it. I think about how to die every day.He felt that he was so cheap, it must be because of his body, so when he couldn't bear it, he wanted to self-mutilate, wanted to cut off everything that shouldn't be on his body, but he couldn't think of the "abnormal" people in this world. He wasn't the only one. Not only was this kind of thing not a crime, but it was classified as a very academic word, homosexuality.

Liang Shuang was stunned. He really brought Mao Xiaoyu here to meet the world on purpose. He knew that he was pure, but he never thought that this guy would be so pure.He immediately felt that the dose of medicine was a bit frightening, and quickly dragged the frightened boy out of the door. The two stood by the streetlight, one struggling, and the other still in a daze.

Liang Shuang said, "Hey, don't be like this, I really didn't know you were so pure, so I thought about bringing you to make more friends. I have already seen that, we are the same kind of people."

Mao Xiaoyu was still staring at him, her face was pale as if she was about to catch her breath.

Liang Shuang had no choice but to continue coaxing, "Don't be angry, I really don't mean anything malicious, or...you hit me twice? I'll stand still and let you hit me, okay?"

Mao Xiaoyu stayed for a long time before listening to his words, and it took a long time before he said in a trembling voice, "You, tell me..."

"……what?"

"Same... same... the one you just said..."

Liang Shuang looked at him, suddenly laughed, and said with a smile, "You really don't know anything?"

Mao Xiaoyu trembled and trembled, exhausting all her courage and said tremblingly, "I thought... thought... that, that was a disease... it was... abnormal, abnormal..."

Liang Shuang's face darkened immediately, and he said angrily, "Fart pervert!"

Mao Xiaoyu was startled by his tone, and hurriedly shrank back, "No, I didn't say that, they all said that about me, they all scolded me like that..."

Liang Shuang was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly frowned, "Someone scolded you?"

Not only scolded, but also beaten and humiliated, which caused him to suffer from depression, and he lived a life of inhumanity for a whole year.

Liang Shuang was not stupid, he vaguely guessed something, a little unbelievable, "What age is it, you are also from the provincial capital, and you are so uncivilized?"

Mao Xiaoyu took a deep breath and said in a trembling voice, "I used to...people from my hometown, a small city...they didn't understand, and so did I...and I didn't understand either. They all said I was sick, they wanted to educate me, every day Hit me, scold me, let me, let me...serve them..."

Liang Shuang felt a sudden pain in his heart, and stared at the thin and handsome boy in front of him, cursing, "You are so fucking inhuman! You are so thin and small, they can do it?!"

Mao Xiaoyu swallowed her saliva, and took a step back, "I, I was not small before, but I...but I got fat."

Liang Shuang: "..."

Liang Shuang scratched his head in embarrassment, and was silent for a while, feeling a little pain in his heart, so he said softly, "Then let me tell you, it's not a big deal, it's quite normal, it's all born."

Talking about it, Liang Shuang gave him knowledge about sexual orientation, and Mao Xiaoyu was stunned by what he said, and a magical door opened in front of him.Liang Shuang finished his introduction, and finally concluded, "So, it's not a big deal. Look at this bar street, two or three out of ten bars are same-sex bars. The difference is the difference between open and hidden. If you If you have a way to get in, there will be more exciting things, what about the hookup that I just told you about, there are np, sm, hey, anyway, you can have a lot of fun.”

Mao Xiaoyu tilted her head and asked innocently, "What are np and sm?"

Liang Shuang said it casually, choked on this question, and quickly waved his hands, "It's nothing, it's all high-end stuff, and you can't play it, so you don't need to know."

"Oh." Mao Xiaoyu nodded obediently without asking further questions.

Liang Shuang used to think that this guy was soft, quiet and pitiful, but tonight he felt that he was cute and painful, and his mind suddenly changed, so he couldn't help but move closer, He asked in a low voice, "You don't understand anything, so you must not have a boyfriend?"

Mao Xiaoyu was stunned, and when she realized it, she blushed immediately, "No, no..."

Liang Shuang stared at him for a while, then suddenly smiled, put his hand on his shoulder, and whispered in his ear, "Then...how about we try?"

Mao Xiaoyu trembled violently, hurriedly pushed him away, was so frightened that she wanted to turn around and run, but her left foot tripped over her right foot, and she fell to the ground with a plop.

Liang Shuang: "..."

"Don't be so afraid..." Liang Shuang was a little frustrated with his self-esteem, and said helplessly, "I am very popular in the circle, so many flirts are waiting for me to flirt!"

Mao Xiaoyu had just been popularized by him about the concept of one and zero, now she looked up at him and retorted intermittently, "I, I'm not necessarily zero."

Liang Shuang chuckled, it was more funny than seeing him tripping himself, "Just you? What do you take for one? Comparing figure? Comparing appearance? Comparing technology? Is it bigger than that thing? Is it thick or not?"

Mao Xiaoyu: "..."

Mao Xiaoyu was blushed by what he said. After all, she still had dignity, so she retorted subconsciously, "You don't know whether I'm big, thick, thick or not, and you don't know whether my skills are bad or not, so why do you call me?"

Liang Shuang paused in his laughter, then raised his chin suddenly, and looked down at him, half of his face was hidden in the shadow, his tall and strong body looked scary.Mao Xiaoyu didn't dare to speak harshly, and grabbed the street lamp to support himself to stand up, but Liang Shuang suddenly took a step closer, stretched out his hand to press his shoulder, bent down, and whispered face to face, "Then... try Do you know?"

Mao Xiaoyu: "!!"

He hurriedly slapped his hand away, his face was still red, but he was not ashamed, he was startled and angry, and stammered, "I treat you as a friend, you, don't talk nonsense!"

Liang Shuang was still pressing on him tightly. A basketball player needs strength in his arms. Those five fingers were like iron chains, and it hurt him a bit.But after a while, Liang Shuang let go of him again, straightened up and said inexplicably, "That's right, I didn't want to play with you either."

He was telling the truth. He had observed him for a long time throughout the semester, and he was very interested in it. This night, he suddenly liked it even more. He was a little bit reluctant to scare him again, so he stretched out his hand and smiled at him, "Get up." Well, it’s winter, you don’t know it’s cold even if you sit on the ground.”

Mao Xiaoyu was terribly afraid of him, so she dared not touch him, she tried to stand up, but was held down by the other party.With a sullen face, Liang Shuang said forcefully, "I'll pull you up."

"...No, I'll do it myself."

"Either let me pull it up, or I'll kiss you, choose one."

"..."

Mao Xiaoyu was most afraid of this kind of fierce and domineering boy, and instinctively felt pain in his flesh, not daring to be disobedient, so he reluctantly held his hand and stood up with that strength.

But the strength was too great, not only pulled him to stand up, but also pulled him into his arms with all his strength.Mao Xiaoyu knew that he did it on purpose, and resisted but couldn't resist, so she trembled with fear, and said, "Don't do this, I don't want to turn against you."

He is telling the truth. He has made two good friends since he grew up. One is Tang Ying and the other is Liang Shuang. He will reciprocate, but if others treat him better, he will reciprocate even more, so it can't be said who is more serious to whom, anyway, they are indeed good friends who are not light in his heart.

In fact, Liang Shuang had already seen this, so he became more and more interested in Mao Xiaoyu. He was generous to everyone, but his temper was not very good. Everyone is chubby, so there are not many people who can tolerate his bad temper. Mao Xiaoyu is one of them, and he is also the one with the best temper.

Once he was secretly kidnapped when he was playing basketball. He was warned and almost sent off. After the game that day, he had a fight with that bastard. .For a while, he said that the sound of watching movies on the opposite bed was loud, and for a while, he said that the socks on the top of his head smelled and hurried out to wash them. Finally, Mao Xiaoyu, who was on the opposite side of the head, was upset, saying that his expression was too exaggerated when he practiced his lines, like a psychopath. Looked like he wanted to punch him.The other people in the dormitory have actually received a lot of small favors from him, such as helping to buy some food, calling for them in class, and stealing reference materials for writing a thesis, but all these benefits are wiped out once he gets mad, and they can all be hidden. She just hid, didn't say anything, and complained in her heart, but Mao Xiaoyu remembered his kindness, saw that he was in a bad mood, and carefully climbed down from the upper bunk, brought him an extra portion when buying food, and handed it to him. I said something at the time, you didn't eat lunch, let's have some dinner.

It was at that time that he suddenly got a little tempted, so he deliberately did it for a while, scolding him for finding fault, but Mao Xiaoyu didn't care about it, and comforted him and told him not to be too angry, it was not his fault that people tripped him, don't be too common sense.

There were too many such things, and after four months of accumulation, Liang Shuang fell in love with him, and guessed that Mao Xiaoyu was probably a crook, so he found an opportunity to bring someone out to test him out.

In the end, I didn't expect the effect to be unexpectedly good. This guy is cuter and more innocent than he imagined. He just likes his soft and cute temperament. Those coquettish sluts are ten thousand times better, they just picked up a treasure.

So he is bound to win, and he is quite confident that he can win Mao Xiaoyu. He is not bragging, he is a native of Beijing, and his family still has money. He has seen a lot of world since he was a child, and he has been in the circle since he was fifteen It's not an exaggeration to say that you can call the wind and call the rain.A poor and timid little rabbit like Mao Xiaoyu, if he is determined to get it right, he must get it.

So Liang Shuang retreated, let go of his arms and smiled, "Then I won't force you, but listen, I, Liang Shuang, like you, you can't escape, you will be mine sooner or later, so don't waste time , I promised earlier that we would wander around earlier."

Mao Xiaoyu was frightened of him. He still liked Wang Ziwen's kind of humorous and gentle man, and he was most afraid of a strong guy like Liang Shuang. So he didn't dare to say more, he was used to being beaten, and he knew that resistance would be easier than being dealt with. There was no benefit other than misery, so he said cautiously, "Then... I'll go back to school first."

Liang Shuang grabbed his little paw, and said without hesitation, "Come here, go in and have fun, and meet more people, you are too homey, except for the activities of the film club, you just eat books, how boring."

"No, not boring..."

"Be obedient, I will kiss you if you are not obedient?"

"..."

In fact, Liang Shuang brought him in out of deliberation. He enjoyed eating in this bar, and the people chasing him stood in a row. He deliberately wanted to show off in front of Mao Xiaoyu and show that he was popular.There are so many people who like it, maybe Mao Xiaoyu will be able to look at him with admiration and pay attention to him a little bit.

So Mao Xiaoyu was forcibly dragged to the bar, met a bunch of strange people, and saw a few big men walking around in women's clothing, his world view was refreshed, and he was in a daze Forced, but he didn't encounter any danger. Liang Shuang took him seriously and protected him all the way. Someone came over to make fun of him and called him sister-in-law.

Liang Shuang said with a smile, "My future sister-in-law, she hasn't made it yet."

Mao Xiaoyu frowned, but she didn't dare to resist, she suppressed her emotions and said nothing.

The others took it as acquiescence, and chatted and laughed around Liang Shuang for a while, one of them suddenly pouted, pointed at a tall man in women's clothing, and teased, "Brother Liang, that guy is a fresh product."

Liang Shuang glanced at it, but it was just average, and asked casually, "Is there anything new, ordinary people?"

The man winked for a while, with a hint of mockery in his tone, "High-end goods, with dual plugs."

Liang Shuang spat at him, "Double plugs are rare for you to see? Don't you own one?"

The man clicked his tongue and said anxiously, "It's not that double penetration, it's that one, real double penetration, really."

Liang Shuang was stunned for a while, and finally came to his senses, with a look of surprise on his face, "You said double..."

"That's right, that's what it means, it's still the 'Master' here, five thousand a night, tsk, I really dare to ask for the price. But if I have spare money, I have to try five thousand, it's fresh."

Liang Shuang rolled his eyes and said disdainfully, "You can just mess with you."

The man said, "Shouldn't you just play around with that kind of thing? How often do you see people who are not male or female? Are you not tempted?"

Liang Shuang cut, stretched out his hand to rub Mao Xiaoyu's head, and raised his voice intentionally, "I have a wife-to-be now, and those kind of people have to stand aside, they are not worthy of carrying shoes for my Xiaoyu."

But obviously he was showing his loyalty, but the person in his arms suddenly trembled, and the little guy who had been quiet all this time suddenly pushed him away, shrank into the shadows and froze all over.

Liang Shuang was a little puzzled, but he guessed that he might be embarrassed again, so he didn't force him, just smiled and coaxed a few more words.

But Mao Xiaoyu stared blankly at the man who was wearing women's clothes, flaunting coquettishness, and was surrounded by a group of people from time to time. After looking at it for a long time, he lowered his eyes, and his whole body shrank even smaller.

He thought to himself, it turns out that a person like him, even in such a circle, is nothing more than a trash who is ridiculed and played with at will.

He couldn't remember how he got back to the dormitory that day, he just remembered packing the suitcase overnight, and dragged the suitcase and stumbled away in the early morning when Liang Shuang was sleeping soundly.

He walked alone on the quiet boulevard, thinking about what he saw last night, thinking about that kind of person, his eyes couldn't help getting wet.He suddenly began to feel desperate again, and suddenly he didn't know how to live his life. It seemed that the only way out was to have an operation as soon as possible, but this only hope was as heavy as a mountain to him.He is really eager to become a normal person, to become a woman, to be able to like Wang Ziwen openly, and to be able to muster up the courage to tell him the four words I like you.He even thought hysterically, even if he rejected himself, it was a man rejecting a woman. It was very normal. He cared too much about the word normal, which was more distorted than his body. It hurt like a needle prick.

But he had nothing to do but wait.

But the reality was so cold that he didn't even have a chance to wait.