intracranial fetters

"That day I asked my uncle, 'Are you my dad?' He said no, and I asked again, 'Can you be my dad?' He refused to agree, but just told me that my dad would come to me one day. I Mom couldn't stop laughing, I don't know what's so funny, now that I think about it, my mom didn't think my dad would pick her up at that time, right?"

Lin Chan looked at the composition in front of him, Cheng Lin's handwriting Lin Chan always thought it was good-looking, Cheng Lin's handwriting looked neat and neat but it was a bit arrogant, Cheng Lin's handwriting when he was a child was quite different from his current handwriting, most of them were arrogance, Although the horizontal and vertical strokes of those characters look good, you can feel that the owner of the characters wrote it as they please.

Lin Chan turned to that composition, "You still wrote about Uncle Li in this composition."

"When I was a child, I really regarded Uncle Li as my father, but it didn't happen later."

Lin Chan raised her head and looked at Cheng Lin with questioning eyes.

"Uncle Li told me that there is a difference between top and bottom. He is just a housekeeper. After that time, he never dined with us again. That's why you wanted Uncle Li to eat with us, but Uncle Li refused."

Cheng Lin went on to say: "Uncle Li likes you very much. When I wanted to break up with you, he ignored me for several days."

Cheng Lin stopped looking for things, "You always say that I don't know how to love someone, but no one taught me, my mother loves my father and can send me back to him willingly for my father , she doesn't love me, she only cares about me because I'm the son of someone she likes, and she wants to prove her meaning by educating me. Uncle Li is very good to me, and I have been strictly supervised by him since I was a child He is the one who comforts and encourages me, but he doesn't like me either. He treats me well only because he is the housekeeper of the Cheng family, and I am the son of the Cheng family. I also met some people who said they liked me, but I I don’t know if they like my money or I’m the son of the Cheng family, or they’re just very interested in my industry. So I’m very grateful to Xia Chuan for liking and cherishing me, but there will be no more, and I won’t expose it because no need."

"Only you, Lin Chan, you are different from them. But you said that I don't know how to love someone. I must have failed. It's been almost eight years and I haven't learned yet."

Cheng Lin said these words with his back to Lin Chan. Lin Chan couldn't see Cheng Lin's expression, and he didn't have to pretend to show it to Cheng Lin. Lin Chan lowered his head and looked at the yellowing composition in his hand. , the heart is covered with a layer of dust like it.

Cheng Lin continued: "Lin Chan, you always say that I won't tell you about me, but I don't know how to say it. I feel like I'm showing weakness when I say it. Everyone has told me since I was a child that you can't show weakness. , but you asked me to tell you all these things. You were at Qin Wei’s place more than a month ago, the last call I made to you, you asked me to tell you the reason, I thought that I would tell you everything that happened during this period Let me tell you everything, and then my dad came over, I don’t want to talk to you in front of my dad, so I can only say that I will call you later, but after I hung up, I never got through You haven't responded to the message I sent you. You said your phone is broken, maybe it's really broken, but it doesn't matter because it can't change anything. "

"Cheng Lin..." Lin Chan's voice was a little choked up, so she could only grit her teeth, her eyes were red and she didn't dare to say another word.

Cheng Lin turned around and squatted at Lin Chan's feet, without looking into Lin Chan's eyes, just lowered his head and rested his forehead on Lin Chan's knee, and put his arms around Lin Chan's calf, "Lin Chan, I went to the hospital a few days ago. When I went upstairs with you, I was really happy, because you hugged my elbow, because you forgot to say goodbye to Qin Wei for me, before I asked you if you care about me, I really don’t Sure answer, I'm afraid to even ask you if you like me, I'm afraid you'll find out how bad I am when you get close to someone else, I'm afraid you'll be apart from me and everything will be normal because I'm not a big deal in your life So when you said you broke up with me, I agreed, because your reason was that you didn’t want to confuse love with desire. That’s great, Lin Chan, you still love me. It’s okay to think about breaking up like this. You still love me I, Lin Chan, this is enough."

Lin Chan opened his mouth to say something, but found that his throat was full of soreness. Lin Chan just stretched out his hand and stroked the hair on the back of Cheng Lin's neck. The hair there was very short. Recalling that when Cheng Lin was short-haired before, he would always hold Cheng Lin in his arms while Cheng Lin was sleeping soundly, and stroke his prickly short hair, but his heart was so soft because of the person in front of him.

Yes, because I like you, because I love you, I can no longer be with you.I can't hurt you because of my selfishness. Desire is like a bottomless pit. I'm afraid that because of my own selfishness, I will exhaust you again and again, and finally wipe out our love.Cheng Lin, the one who doesn't understand love is actually me.

And you, obviously deserve better people.

When Cheng Lin finally raised his head and looked at Lin Chan, the two people with red eyes were silent for a moment.

Cheng Lin smiled and said, "Look, why am I telling you this, no matter how much I tell you, you will never be with me again."

Lin Chan sighed, "Although we won't be together again, it's better to say something than to keep it in your heart."

"Really?" Cheng Lin's smile was a little stiff, "Take a break, we're going to go down later."

Lin Chan nodded, stood up and put the composition in the bookcase, took off the outer clothes, and covered the quilt on one side of the bed, "Come up and rest quickly, you are much more tired than me."

"En." Cheng Lin responded, took off his coat, and lay down beside Lin Chan. After lying down for a while, he turned his back again.

Lin Chan lifted up Cheng Lin's quilt and said, "Don't worry too much about that cousin, after all, she's just a child, and I'm just your friend."

Cheng Lin narrowed his eyes, turned his back to Lin Chan, his face finally sank, but his tone remained unchanged, "Well, I'll listen to you whatever you say."

Still love me but don't want to come back to me?

Lin Chan, how is that possible?You are just too naive sometimes.

I don't know if you think you can fool yourself, or you can survive me.

But Lin Chan, I don't want to suffer anymore.After this time, you will run again.

I need you, Lin Chan.I'm fed up with the old man's face, I'm fed up with living for him, I'm fed up with taking care of whoever I like.

It was a tough fight, Lin Chan.

Lin Chan, only you can be my pillar.

If showing weakness to you is useless, then I can only use other methods to get you back to me.

[The author has something to say]: Break the bowl