intracranial fetters

Cheng Lin sat up and pretended not to hear, "Your window doesn't seem to be closed properly, I'll go and have a look."

Lin Chan stretched out his hand to hold Cheng Lin, but did not speak.

After a stalemate for a while, Cheng Lin loosened his strength and leaned against the pillow, a little listless, "Why did you think of talking about this again?"

"I feel that both of us are tired now, and it's almost time to break up."

Cheng Lin asked, "Why do you feel tired?"

Lin Chan asked back, "What do you think?"

Cheng Lin shrugged, "That's what makes you tired. You won't say what you want, and I can't figure out what you want."

"You really can't figure it out." Lin Chan also sat up, reached out to turn on the light, lifted the quilt up a bit, and put his arms around his knees, "If you really can't figure it out, I won't say anything. You say break up."

Cheng Lin pulled the corner of his mouth, "I really often have things I can't figure out."

"what's up?"

"It's nothing, I don't think that's important now." Cheng Lin paused, "I don't want to break up with you, if you want to break up because of Xia Chuan, I can explain it."

"No need to explain, I know what you are going to explain, I don't need what you are going to explain."

"Then what do you need?" Cheng Lin looked at Lin Chan stubbornly.

"I don't know what I want. I used to think that I wanted security, but now I know that what I really want is not security. No wonder you always quarreled with me about this before," Lin Chan said while kneeling Hold tight, "Actually, it's all my fault. You don't need to change anything. In fact, I'm not good enough."

Cheng Lin's Adam's apple twitched, "You want to break up with me, so why use yourself as an excuse?"

"It's not an excuse," Lin Chan shook her head, "You're really good."

"What's wrong with you? What's wrong with you?" Cheng Lin's eyes changed, "Have you and Qin Wei already..."

"No, I have nothing with him."

"Then why do you stay by his side?" Cheng Lin looked at Lin Chan, seeing that Lin Chan didn't intend to answer, Cheng Lin smiled, "Lin Chan, we are actually the same, you know he likes you and you also I know I mind, but you still stay with him, what's the difference between Xia Chuan and me?"

"It's different, I haven't done it with Qin Wei, you..." Lin Chan didn't continue, but Cheng Lin knew what he was going to say.

Cheng Lin frowned, "At that time, we had already broken up, didn't we? You can't reject me just because of this."

"So I said, it's my fault. I know I shouldn't and I have no reason to keep this matter in my heart, but how can I control my feelings?" Lin Chan smiled wryly, "I'm not that great, I still want more."

"I'll give you whatever you want, don't mention breaking up, okay?"

"What I want is not something you are obliged to do. You just like me, but you don't have to like what I ask you to do. There is no need to make yourself what I want. Don't say you want to, I I know you don't like this. In fact, we just..." Lin Chan lowered her head and laughed, "It's not suitable."

Cheng Lin lowered his head and said nothing.

Lin Chan continued: "Love and lust are two different things. Do you know that? I don't want to mix these two things together."

After a long time, the wind outside the window seemed to have calmed down a bit.

Maybe it was because Cheng Lin hung his head down for too long, and his nodding movements were a little stiff, Cheng Lin said: "Then let's break up." After thinking for a while, he said, "Although I know I don't want to break up." Cheng Lin Some were incoherent, "It's better to break up, it's up to you."

Lin Chan's heart seemed to be relieved, but also seemed to be empty, not wanting Cheng Lin to see anything, Lin Chan just nodded, "I've hung your clothes on the air conditioner for you, when you leave tomorrow The clothes are dry."

"Well, can we still be friends if we break up?"

Lin Chan still nodded, "Yes."

"Our old man told me today that I hope you will come to the old house to celebrate the new year together in a few days. I want to wait until the Chinese New Year is over before telling the old man about our breakup, but according to the old man's opinion, we should be together. And Xia Chuan, can you?"

"Okay," Lin Chan twitched her lips, "I haven't accompanied you home for the New Year after being with you for so many years, let's make it up this time."

"Okay, then you clean up these few days, and I will pick you up when the time comes. In fact, I feel very guilty about your brother, so I haven't visited him all the time. After the new year, I can talk to him." Do you want to visit your brother together?"

Lin Chan thought for a while, "Okay."

Cheng Lin continued:

"After we break up, don't be with other people too soon. I will feel bad. In fact, you don't have to care about whether I feel bad. It's just that I can't control myself to trouble you. I'm so messed up. It's going to be ugly."

"We are still friends after we broke up. You don't have to be jealous of Yang Xi and Zheng Xuan. We have been together for so many years, and our social circles have already overlapped. There is no reason for us to stop contacting those friends. If there is a party, you should go or go, and if you go, you still sit in the same seat as before, although we broke up, our relationship is closer than them, and I don’t want others to think that we are still not letting go.”

"You also know that I am a very face-saving person. Don't tell them about our breakup. Let me talk about it, so that I can save face."

"If you encounter anything, come to me, don't look for Qin Wei, Qin Wei's family is in H City, and it is always more convenient for me to do things here than him."

"During this period of time, I will pretend to be very close to Xia Chuan. I don't like him, and I won't like him. Being with him is to stabilize the stock market. As a target, I want to match Xia Chuan and Gerald. I know you may not want to hear my explanations, but they have broken up. Keep it in your heart."

"Don't always go to the bar and drink too much, they always praise you for drinking well, I can't see it, you get confused a lot after drinking, if you don't want to do what you do after drinking, you will regret it, and I will feel unhappy It’s a comfortable thing, besides, drinking is very harmful to the body, so drink less bars in the future. Don’t be too obsessed with drawing, and don’t always let others remind you to remember to eat. Don’t carry it when you have a cold, take medicine quickly, you procrastinate a little You always have to go to the hospital for an injection to get better. Your blood vessels are thin, and the nurse always needs two injections to find the blood vessels. Remember to dry your hair before going to bed at night.”

"By the way, I almost forgot to tell you that during the month you were away, the Xuji Tangbao shop has moved. It is more than an hour's drive away from you, which is inconvenient. If you want to eat soup dumplings, I will Let my uncle make some for you to send over. Anyway, his old man is fine, so he can just visit you. I usually bring you the desserts you like, and I will give you the address of the shop in a few days. You can also send it. If you want to eat something I made, I can make it for you, it doesn't matter. "

"There are also physical problems. I always don't forget this kind of thing. You are as good as food. If you can't find a suitable one, it's good to come to me. The main reason is that I want to find you, but I I won't look for you too often." Cheng Lin smiled, "Don't expect me to be someone who doesn't think about it after breaking up. I know I have to quit, but I can only quit slowly. Please. Forgive me."

"Is there anything else?" Cheng Lin thought for a while and shook his head, "I can't remember it for now, don't think I'm long-winded, you have a bad living habit. I won't be by your side in the future, and I can't always call Tell you, pay more attention to your body."

"Well, the most important thing is to pay attention to your body."

"Is it okay for me to sleep on the same bed with you tonight? The sofa is quite short, and I feel uncomfortable when I fall asleep, and those old injuries on my body hurt a little today." Cheng Lin laughed, "You will not be by my side anymore, I You have to watch your body too."

Lin Chan kept nodding beside her, like a doll who could only nod.

"Go to sleep, your back is cold after sitting for so long."

Cheng Lin and Lin Chan lay down together, Cheng Lin turned his back and said, "Good night."

Lin Chan looked at the white hair beside Cheng Lin's ear and the familiar scar, and clenched her lower lip tightly so as not to let herself choke up.

Pinching her palm with the tips of her fingernails, Lin Chan also turned sideways and turned off the light.

The room was finally plunged into darkness.

"Good night."

Lin Chan also said.

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