intracranial fetters

Lin Chan was very active at night, and Cheng Lin noticed Lin Chan's unhappiness, but he also sulked because Lin Chan kept his meeting with Qin Wei from him.

The lingering act seemed to be pure venting, and the two competed with each other.

After one game, the two were exhausted.

Lin Chan covered her eyes with her hands, lying on the bed panting heavily.

Cheng Lin slowed down, got up and poured Lin Chan a cup of warm water, and put it on the bedside table.

After Lin Chan rested, she picked up the cup and drank it one mouthful at a time.

Cheng Lin took the cigarette and put on a bathrobe and walked to the terrace.

Lin Chan asked coldly, "Where are you going?"

"Smoke a cigarette."

"Just smoke it here."

Cheng Lin's Adam's apple moved, and his footsteps stopped in place.

Lin Chan added, "It's cold outside."

Cheng Lin just lay back on the bed, leaned against the head of the bed, lit the cigarette in his hand, looked at the sparks, Cheng Lin took a deep breath of the cigarette, and then slowly exhaled it, the room was soon filled with smoke .

The two were silent for a while, only the sound of breathing remained. Cheng Lin put the ashtray in front of his lower abdomen and dusted off the ash.

Lin Chan squinted her eyes, "I want one too."

Cheng Lin stared at Lin Chan for a while and gave him the remaining half of his cigarette, "This is good."

"Yeah." Lin Chan nodded, held the cigarette between his index finger and middle finger, and took a puff, choking until tears almost flowed out.

Cheng Lin frowned, snatched the cigarette from Lin Chan's hand and stifled it in the ashtray, "Don't even smoke." Then he put the ashtray back.

Lin Chan coughed for a long time before recovering.

"If you don't know how to smoke, don't smoke, and don't learn to smoke." Cheng Lin sighed, his voice softened.

Lin Chan smiled, "Didn't you still teach me to smoke when we were first together?"

Cheng Lin froze for a moment before remembering that when the two were just together, he knew that Lin Chan didn't know how to smoke and even laughed at him. Before he kissed Lin Chan during that time, Cheng Lin would always have a puff of smoke in his mouth.

Cheng Lin liked the smell of tobacco in their mouths, "Didn't you break up with me once because I smoked?" With a smile, "You also recorded a song for me as a gift for breaking up, and I listened to it all night long. Go smash your dormitory windows."

"Do you remember what song?" Lin Chan frowned.

"Escape from the tiger's mouth." After speaking, Cheng Lin got up and looked for something in the drawer.

Lin Chan asked, "What are you looking for?"

Cheng Lin didn't speak, and after a while, he took a USB flash drive, plugged it into the computer, and clicked it. The song Lin Chan sang at the time of escape from the tiger's mouth echoed in the room, "Put out the cigarette, it will be better for your health." ..."

Lin Chan sat a little closer to Cheng Lin, leaning back to see what was still in the USB drive.

Most of them are some letters that Lin Chan wrote to Cheng Lin, and those text messages that the two of them sent, and the others are some videos and songs that Lin Chan sang.

Lin Chan laughed when she saw it, "Why didn't I know you still had these?"

"I didn't intend to let you know."

"What?" Lin Chan raised an eyebrow.

"I'm afraid you will feel embarrassed."

Lin Chan looked at the items in the USB flash drive, "We were really hypocritical back then."

Cheng Lin thought it was funny and shook his head.

Seeing that it was almost the same, Cheng Lin closed the computer and put it on the bedside table, and lay down with Lin Chan, ready to fall asleep.

Lin Chan couldn't sleep, turned over and moved away from Cheng Lin.

Cheng Lin asked again: "Do you still remember the autumn and winter of freshman year?"

"Yeah." Lin Chan nodded.

Cheng Lin said, "You said that I was with you because I liked to sleep with you. In order to prove that I liked you, I endured two or three months without touching you."

"At that time, I was obsessed with Platonism." Lin Chan hooked the corner of his mouth, "Now that I think about it, the body and emotion can never be separated, can't they?"

Cheng Lin felt that there was something wrong with Lin Chan's words, so he didn't answer yes or no, but just said, "I love you so I want to have sex with you."

Lin Chan smiled, "Didn't the two of us also start with making?"

Cheng Lin looked at Lin Chan's fair neck and squinted his eyes, "But I don't like Xia Chuan."

Lin Chan turned to face Cheng Lin, "Really?"

"I was with Xia Chuan at the beginning just to get you to come back on my own initiative." Cheng Lin said.

"Then have you ever done it?"

Cheng Lin frowned, "We broke up during that time."

"Then did you ever think that I would come back when you were with him? Do you want me to come back?" Lin Chan looked into Cheng Lin's eyes through the dim light by the bedside.

"I..." Of course Cheng Lin hoped that he would come back, but looking into Lin Chan's eyes, he didn't know what to say, so he had to look away, feeling a little guilty about cheating.

Lin Chan had a panoramic view of Cheng Lin's reaction, smiled softly, and turned her back again, "Qin Wei's West City project is about to start."

Cheng Lin's Adam's apple twitched, "It just so happens that I have asked them to clean up the house in Xicheng District."

"No, his project is in a hurry, and it needs to be completed before the Chinese New Year as much as possible. We will live there directly for more than a month." Lin Chan said in a flat tone, "It just so happens that we don't have to run around."

Cheng Lin frowned, wanted to say something but felt his throat was blocked.

"Go to sleep, it's getting late."

Lin Chan clenched the quilt a little tighter.

There was a big space between the back and Cheng Lin, Lin Chan felt cold, but didn't want to get close.

Cheng Lin reached out and turned off the light, "Good night." When Lin Chan lay down again, the quilt was tucked into Lin Chan's back.

Lin Chan pretended to be troubled, and answered vaguely, but still stared at the moonlight reflected on the wall.

He knew that Cheng Lin wasn't asleep either. The two of them had been together day and night for seven years, and they could even tell if the other was asleep just by hearing the other's breathing.

So there is also a tacit understanding not to tear each other down.

Of course Lin Chan knew that Li Zi would not help him hide Cheng Lin, he just wanted to see how Cheng Lin would react.

He was unhappy and sulking, but he wouldn't reveal that he was lying to him.

The Chinese teacher in high school also told them that if two people want to get along for a long time, they have to turn a blind eye and close their eyes. Many things are over when they are over.

Do you and Cheng Lin also think so?

But will this really last?

Lin Chan often goes to teach because he likes children. Children always say what they have, and occasionally they will secretly apologize to you after telling a bad lie. Sometimes it is hateful, but more often it is cute.

It's easy to be with them, not like the grown-up world, which is exhausting torn between lies and mutual concealment.

It was as if a piece of cloth was covered in front of his eyes, naively deceiving himself and others that there was no darkness or heartbreak on this road, and he was not willing to admit defeat until his head was broken and bloody and he could no longer hold on.

Cheng Lin said that he would not like Xia Chuan, he said he only loves himself, he said that he was with Xia Chuan because he wanted to go back by himself.

Self-deception is too much, what you say is ridiculous, pretending to be together is one thing, but waiting for yourself to go back, but doing it with Xia Chuan... This is another thing.

During the years when Lin Chan and Cheng Lin were together, he used many methods to see how Cheng Lin was jealous, but he had never done it with anyone, even during the breakup, because he knew that he and Cheng Lin would get back together one day.

When she was in the bar, Lin Chan could often hear frustrated and drunk men and women crying about their love life, and could even hear them say, "Isn't it just that I cheated physically? I still love him...why not forgive me."

Lin Chan looked down on this kind of person, whether he was paranoid or possessive, Lin Chan just felt that if the body cheated, the mental cheating would not be far away.

How can the body and emotion be separated.

But Cheng Lin thought he could.

Lin Chan raised the corners of her mouth and smiled silently, forced herself to close her eyes, and fell asleep peacefully.