[Comprehensive] How to kill a rabid dog gently

The evolution of things in this world seems to have some laws that are hard to explain.

For example, the changes that occurred in Heiwajima Shizuo.

"Shizuo..."

After sitting silently with each other for some unknown amount of time, Silla finally couldn't help talking.

"Are you staying here?"

"Ah."

Shizuo Heiwajima replied.

"Is there anything wrong?"

Because the friend's eyes were a bit scary, Shilla immediately denied it in a hurry.

"No, that's not what I mean! I mean...you don't seem to have left the classroom today, do you?" he said. "Is this how you usually are?"

Speaking of Shizuo Heiwajima... The impression he leaves on people is that in addition to being full of violence that is not suitable for children, he also doesn't like noise, which may be because sometimes he deliberately avoids crowds.

I don't know if it has something to do with it, but because he has been staying here today, the usually noisy class suddenly became quite quiet.

Rather than saying it was quiet, it would be better to say it was trembling.

Silla said silently in his heart.

Take a look around, Xiaojing!Everyone is as scared as a quail!

"……I know."

"?!"

Shilla almost thought he had accidentally revealed what was on his mind, but Shizuo continued.

"It's not like I can't notice other people's eyes."

It is precisely because he knows what other people think that he will deliberately go to a place away from the crowd.

That doesn't mean he hates buzz.

Instead, he just wanted to give people back the time and place to laugh and laugh.

He didn't want to sit in the classroom all the time if he could, it's just—

"I can't go to Kawasaki-sensei anymore." His tone was filled with disappointment, "So, I can only stay here."

"Hey?! Why?"

"Because..." Shizuo whispered, "As long as I walk out of this door, I might not be able to help but want to see her..."

"I think I can understand that feeling."

Silla seemed to be in some kind of shock, he said blankly.

"But why can't you go to her?"

"She said it's better to keep your distance."

Shizuo turned his face away and looked out the window.

"Since she said no..."

Then you can't do anything that bothers her anymore.

"...you and I are completely different people." Silla couldn't help but said, "It's a pity, this doesn't seem to be something I can help—"

"I know, just take care of yourself."

Although the way he spoke was a little rough, Shizuo did accept his friend's kindness, even though he couldn't simply be happy about it now.

After Silla left, Shizuo watched the sky and clouds outside for a while by himself.The movement of the flowing clouds is so slow, it should be easier for those who observe them to calm down. Judging from past experience, this is also effective for Shizuo Heiwajima-but it failed today.

Shizuo Heiwajima suddenly realized that he might not be able to stay away from her as if nothing had happened as he said.

This seems to just let the feelings that have no place to rest in the bottom of my heart completely out of control, and then gradually drown myself.

So he stood up.

At that time, what Shizuo Heiwajima was thinking about was just going to the corridor and using the change of the environment to force himself to divert his attention...

How could there be such a coincidence? When he looked down, the person he missed happened to pass by. Shizuo from Heihejima passed through many obstacles and blanks, almost like a whole dream, and finally arrived at her there.

How did she feel after that?

She stopped there, and then she also raised her eyes—their eyes met in the distance.

Heiwajima Shizuo remembered the first time the two met, and his heart beat violently.

...Did I know then?

he thought.

Did I already have a vague premonition?About the fact that her presence makes everything so different...

About, I'm going to love her.

From afar, Shizuo saw Cheng Shu stretched his eyebrows and smiled at him.

Where had he seen this statement——

"Because of that man, everything else in this world was eclipsed in an instant."

At this moment, he suddenly understood the meaning.

The moment she smiles, nothing needs to have color or shape except her, the world can become small, as long as it can accommodate her is enough.

He couldn't look anywhere else anyway.

But, nonetheless.

He forced himself to turn around anyway.

Because it is too difficult...

If this continues, if you want to continue to convince yourself not to be greedy, it will become more and more difficult.

It's been a long day, at least for Shizuo Heiwajima.

When the bell for the end of the class finally rang, he did not act according to his original habit, but roughly estimated the time. When the sun was slightly setting to the west, he basically confirmed that the two would not meet again by chance, and Shizuo Heiwajima left the classroom.

The students who were still staying in the school were sporadic, so when he approached the school gate, Shizuo Heiwajima easily noticed a figure standing in the distance, most of which was covered by trees.

His nerves jumped immediately, but he quickly recovered and began to feel helpless at his overreaction.

From such a long distance, he couldn't see anything clearly, and he could only be roughly sure that it was a woman from the vague outline of her figure.

Don't think of things related to her so easily.

Shizuo Heiwajima continued to walk forward, admonishing himself in his heart, but as the figure became clearer and clearer, his steps slowed down unconsciously.

Finally, the other party also noticed this, and when she turned around, Shizuo stopped in place.

It took him a while to find his voice.

"Teacher... are you waiting for someone?"

"Yes."

She said so.

"I'm waiting for you."

Shizuo Heiwajima forgot to ask her why.

Although he missed the opportunity to ask, he felt that he didn't seem to want to know the reason that much... Or, just walking by her side like this now can calm down his restlessness and uneasiness temporarily.

In fact, Cheng did not forget to explain why he came here.

"Last time, Heiwajima seemed to have mentioned my plan to leave Ikebukuro a little bit, but I still think it would be better to explain it more solemnly and specifically." She said, "Actually, I have been waiting for you in the infirmary today. but……"

"This is because--"

Driven by impulse, the words of explanation blurted out, but Shizuo didn't know how to continue.

"Don't worry, I don't mean to complain, Pinghe Island."

Cheng naturally accepted the words.

"What I want to say is, that's why I took the initiative to come to you... Does it bother you?"

"……No."

She smiled slightly, and then got back to business.

"Today I also discussed with the school about the timing of my resignation - I will probably leave after this year's graduation ceremony."

"..."

After hesitating for a while, Shizuo couldn't help but speak.

"Can you tell me, where are you going?"

"I don't have a very clear plan yet, maybe it's a place like Yokohama..." Cheng said briskly, "But I can't say for sure."

"Then." Shizuo continued to ask, "We will meet again—"

He stopped suddenly, because Shizuo suddenly noticed that the two had come to the intersection where they parted ways last time.

Disappointment followed, and Shizuo began to become unsure whether he was qualified to say goodbye to her.

Maybe it's right to say goodbye here?

Cheng noticed his silence.

"You want to ask me...whether we will meet again." Cheng said, "Before this question, I still have something that I haven't given you an answer to."

——"About the sentence you said to me before the last parting."

she asked each other.

"Do you remember?"

He replied.

"I haven't forgotten."

"It was also here that Heiwajima at that time asked me... 'Is it wrong to like this thing?'"

she says.

"Later, I have been thinking about this question..."

"Me too." Shizuo said, "Since we parted last time, I've been thinking about it non-stop."

Every minute, every second, no matter when and where.

At first, Shizuo Heiwajima tried hard to find the answer to the question.

until he realizes—

"Teacher, when I was around you, it was always difficult for me to think about other things, so it wasn't until then that I realized that I seemed to have become different from the original."

"In the past, I never felt my heart beat when someone approached me."

"Aside from that, there's never been more panic about someone leaving than this."

"It's all because, in the past, I couldn't establish a bond with others."

"I can't stop thinking about you, teacher...sometimes, it makes me feel a little bit painful."

Shizuo looked at her intently.

"But if it wasn't like this, I wouldn't be able to notice it. The original empty place would be filled without knowing it..."

"I am the same as everyone else."

He said.

"I've never been a monster."

— "It was you who made me believe that, because I couldn't doubt your eyes."

——"After falling in love with the teacher, I gradually became able to like myself as the teacher saw."

"So." Heiwajima Shizuo said to Cheng, "Even if this relationship is wrong... I will not regret it."

--"never."

Perhaps only young people dare to say "forever", but Cheng is very clear that the reason why he said "forever" is entirely because he is firm and decisive enough.

So determined to go his own way, but never move forward.

The boy in front of him was really dazzling.

He didn't spare his light, at this moment, Cheng could almost feel that his soul was also illuminated.

"Heping Island, can I tell you..." Cheng tried hard not to tremble, "I did something that I regret very much."

"One of them is that when you asked me if your relationship was wrong, I didn't give you a firm answer."

"The second thing is, after realizing your feelings, all I think about is how to apologize to you."

Then, she said.

"You are not wrong-Pinghe Island, I am absolutely sure of this at the moment, and..."

Her voice softened a little.

"Before I apologize, I should thank you first."

"Thank you for the time you spent with me, because of you, I am sure that I really existed here."

"Thank you for your love."

——"Because of being liked by you, I have become happier than before."