Old time light and shadow

In the morning, He Sinian still looked at Gu Qingjiu with a half-smile,

"Brother Qing, do you think I am He Sinian or Shu Changhua?"

There is no wave in the eyes, just like saying good morning.

He never thought of waiting for Gu Qingjiu to answer, nor did he intend to ask him to answer.

But he didn't expect that Gu Qingjiu would rush over suddenly, pinch his shoulder tightly, and look at him with deep and cold eyes.

He is not afraid anymore.

Noticing that Gu Qingjiu's hands were shaking, He Sinian laughed foolishly,

"Brother Qing, how am I like Shu Changhua?"

Or, like all of them.

Gu Qingjiu took a deep breath and pinched the hand on He Sinian's shoulder with all his strength. He looked at He Sinian deeply,

"Shu Changhua is dead, I know it. I killed it." As soon as he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was hoarse and deep. It turned out that it was so difficult for him to tell the truth.

Gu Qingjiu looked at He Sinian, "But how long will it take for you to be like this?"

He finally couldn't bear it anymore, this kind of He Sinian made Gu Qingjiu worry, numbly like a walking dead, the smile that belonged to He Sinian, the innocence that belonged to He Sinian, the simplicity that belonged to He Sinian, they were about to be killed by him The stubbornness of getting into a dead end is about to fade away.

But He Sinian didn't realize it.

He Sinian raised his eyes and smiled lightly,

"You also know that I am not a human or a ghost?"

It's not the fault of Gu Qingjiu and Shu Changhua.

He'd rather not have it all.He is about to collapse.

Gu Qingjiu tried his best to lower his voice to comfort He Sinian who was on the verge of collapse

"Stop humiliating yourself like this."

He Sinian tilted his head and looked at Gu Qingjiu with doubtful eyes like a child, "Practice?"

Then he yelled at him in a broken state, "Did you think how much you would abuse me when you regarded me as Shu Changhua!"

Gu Qingjiu still squeezed his shoulder firmly, and said with all his strength,

"Shu Changhua is dead! I know! I know."

This fact is like a sharp knife, slashing through the outermost part of the heart, and then piercing it bit by bit, cutting open with force, and taking out a bloody thing from the innermost part of the heart——Shu Changhua is dead, killed by himself.

And the person holding this sharp knife is He Sinian.

He Sinian's hands were covered with blood but he didn't know it, and Gu Qingjiu was willing to show him his heart.

Gu Qingjiu took a deep breath, hoping to have a cigarette to relieve the pain at this moment, but he just looked at He Sinian, with the softest voice,

"Shu Changhua has already burned my heart, and he can't erase it. But I can also guarantee your place in my heart, and I will give you the biggest place here." Gu Qingjiu grabbed He Sinian's hand, let go in my own heart.

"Shu Changhua is just a past, even if he has a place here. Here, only you are left."

He Sinian's nose was sore when he heard Gu Qingjiu's words, and he couldn't hold back his tears for a moment.

Weeping softly like a wounded little beast,

"But I want all the place in your heart. I don't want to live in Shu Changhua's shadow."

Gu Qingjiu reached out to wipe away his tears, his slender fingers brushed against the soft skin, he looked at him seriously,

"I will try my best to give you all the positions."

As he said that, he stretched out his hand and rubbed He Sinian's hair as usual,

"Shu Changhua and He Sinian have always been two people. He Sinian is He Sinian and will not live in anyone's shadow."

Gu Qingjiu knew that Shu Changhua was different from He Sinian.It was he himself who was in a daze, trying to find Shu Changhua from He Sinian from the very beginning.But the more he searched in this way, the more he found it was different. The identical face seemed to be completely useless. It was only later that he discovered that He Sinian was He Sinian.

He Sinian has his unique way of being happy, way of thinking, and stubbornness.He has a wide heart, like a child, mischievous and innocent, always thinking about being a hero, and loves thinking about his childhood.

He is a complete He Sinian, not the incomplete shadow of Shu Changhua.

But tell him to completely forget about Shu Changhua, he will forget about Shu Changhua, and wrap him in the innermost and most unknown place of his heart.But as long as someone mentions it, he will remember it.I think of Shu Changhua curled up in the snow, I think of Shu Changhua looking at him with longing and timid eyes, I think of Shu Changhua pestering him to explain military knowledge, I think of Shu Changhua calmly giving advice, I think of Shu Changhua greedily smoking opium, I think of that year Bloody flowers blooming on the snowy ground of the winter solstice.

All of these, he can't forget.

What you can't get and what you have lost will always be the most unforgettable.He Sinian knew.He also knew that it was impossible for Gu Qingjiu to forget Shu Changhua.Unless Gu Qingjiu dies and lives again.

He was just not reconciled, not reconciled to being treated as someone else for the rest of his life.

He understands the reason that the predecessors planted trees and the descendants enjoy the shade, but he had to figure it out before talking about it.

After Gu Qingjiu explained it to him, he also figured it out.Shu Changhua's pimple, if he can melt it, let him melt it.It's enough for him to be alone now.

"Gu Qingjiu, you can't think about Shu Changhua anymore."