straight straight

This time, Lu Xi remembered to pour a glass of water for Meng Qingshan, but at this point, it didn't feel like the time to entertain guests.

Both were silent for several minutes.

In this quiet night, the ambiguous atmosphere suddenly rose.

Lu Xi kept his head down all the time and didn't dare to look directly at Meng Qingshan. He might not have noticed that Meng Qingshan had been staring at him.There is always someone to break the calm, Lu Xi finally plucked up the courage to force himself to talk to Meng Qingshan, and asked him why he came here so late.

"I said I came to see Yali, you don't really believe me, do you?" Meng Qingshan asked him.

Lu Xi intertwined her hands, looking embarrassed, and whispered: "I'm not that stupid."

"You don't have to pretend to be stupid." Meng Qingshan said again.

The heart was beating very fast, it was about to jump out of the chest, maybe it had been restrained for too long, and it was almost uncontrollable.

"Then what are you doing here?"

When the skin was pressed together, Lu Xi's whole body tensed up. He wanted to break free, but found that he couldn't bear it either.The distance between the two is so close that Lu Xi can see Meng Qingshan's dignified expression when he raises his head slightly.

Lu Xi felt the temperature on the back of his hand, and the look in his eyes was confused and sad. He was completely unprepared that Meng Qingshan would break the deadlocked relationship between the two so straightforwardly.

Once you start, there may be no turning back.

He had hoped countless times, even in his dreams, that he could really be with Meng Qingshan. After Meng Qingshan knew his true gender, the possibility seemed very small. In this relationship, He was deceiving Meng Qingshan, even though he really liked Meng Qingshan.

However, now that this moment has really come, Lu Xi doesn't want to believe it, nor does she want to believe it.

Lu Xi's hands trembled slightly: "I don't believe that you will change your sexual orientation because of me. I can't believe it. I have asked you countless times before, and you are so firm."

Regarding Lu Xi's questioning and the feelings he had finally summoned up the courage to face, Meng Qingshan's face was not unhappy, but his gaze on Lu Xi became brighter. "Sometimes, it's really hard to talk about feelings... At that time, I liked you, you were a girl, and I had a beautiful vision for the future with you. How did you make me bend? You lied to me, and I really felt that I was hurt a lot. It hurts a lot, because we have been dating for so long, and I have always been the one who didn't know."

"sorry."

Meng Qingshan sighed with helplessness in his voice: "Maybe after knowing that you lied to me, we should break up and have nothing to do with each other from now on. In fact, you did the same, but I feel Not reconciled, why did you leave so simply, what is our relationship? Are you playing with me in idleness, or are you afraid that I will know the truth and you dare not face me?"

Lu Xi's eyelashes trembled, and he said, "I didn't play with you."

"Do you think you can escape if you escape far?"

"No."

"I thought a lot before I met you, and I also thought a lot after I met you. It is useless to analyze feelings with reason, and to deny feelings with sexuality. Human life is actually not long, and I have already spent so much time. I don’t know if I’m willing to spend another three years on the next relationship. At least for now, I can’t get out. I can’t deny that you still hold a huge weight in my heart. "

The water in Lu Xi's eyes was flowing, he was nervous, uneasy, struggling in a panic, and suddenly mustered up his courage, and moved closer to Meng Qingshan.

He kissed the corner of Meng Qingshan's lips, and the other's hot breath came to his nostrils. Meng Qingshan didn't push him away, but paused before he could react.Lu Xi bit Meng Qingshan's lips again, slipped her tongue in, and entangled her tongue.

When Lu Xi backed away, her breath was short of breath: "would you hate it? The one in front of you is a man. "

Lu Xi wants to use this to prove whether he hates homosexual contact, but he only felt that Lu Xi's tongue was soft and slippery just now, and in fact, Lu Xi's kissing was not skillful, it just popped in his mouth randomly, Clumsy but enthusiastic.

Meng Qingshan's eyes were gentle and his voice was low and hoarse: "I don't hate it."

The back of the head was held by Meng Qingshan's hands, Lu Xi's hands instinctively hugged Meng Qingshan's waist, and he threw himself into Meng Qingshan's arms.The mind was still a little dazed, the kiss was more intense than before, Lu Xi could even hear the entanglement of body fluid in Lu Xi's ears, Meng Qingshan pinched his chin and made him look up, Lu Xi let out a sound like that No humming sound.

Meng Qingshan's eyes were burning, and he repeated again: "I don't hate it."

If you get too deep, you're afraid you won't be able to get out. Lu Xi understood this truth after getting to know Meng Qingshan.In the final analysis, he and Meng Qingshan are just online dating, and it is different from the communication between ordinary lovers.So Lu Xi grabbed his hand and put it between her legs.

"You have it too."

Meng Qingshan broke free without thinking.

Lu Xi seems to have expected it a long time ago, and the expression on his face is calm. "It's human's instinctive reaction to hate things, which means that you still can't admit that you are gay subconsciously. You said you don't hate kissing, it's because you closed your eyes, you can treat me as a girl, you used to Isn't acting in a BL drama also turning CP into a girl? You like me, but you can't accept sleeping with the same sex."

Lu Xi is stepping back step by step, even trying to prove that Meng Qingshan is not gay, but Meng Qingshan is not willing to give in just like that.

"You should at least let me take it slowly and accept it little by little. I don't dislike holding hands and hugging with you, and any further relationship will not be a problem."

"That's different." Lu Xi looked at Meng Qingshan quietly, "As you said, you won't do things that make yourself sick."

When they first met, Meng Qingshan expressed his disgust when he looked at Lu Xi who thought he was going to kiss him, and at the protruding objects under the short skirt.

"So you want to reject me?" Meng Qingshan stopped reasoning and asked him directly.

Lu Xi slowly closed her eyes: "yes."

"Then what's going on with the setting sun?" Facing Lu Xi's shocked expression, Meng Qingshan knew that he had guessed correctly, and continued, "Are you going to approach me this time as a fan?"

"I do not have……"

"I thought you wouldn't...know."

Meng Qingshan asked Lu Xi: "Are you going to lie to me again, or is it because you don't want me?"

Panic, fear, fear, hesitation... All the complex emotions seemed to be concentrated in Lu Xi's expression, and Meng Qingshan continued to put pressure on him, "Are you planning to lie to me again?"

"I do not have……"

"That's why you don't want me."

Lu Xi's failure to answer is tantamount to acquiescing.

"Is it so difficult to admit that you like me? Is it so difficult to believe that I like you too?" Meng Qingshan kissed Lu Xi's forehead, eyes, nose, and finally fell to his lips, taking a mouthful.

"Try it, will you?"

Lu Xi was silent for a long time, until Meng Qingshan asked again: "I have changed my mind for you, and I have paid a great price. I may have embarked on a path completely different from what I planned. I have the courage Want to try it out with you, don't you?

Lu Xi immersed himself in it for a long time, and finally popped out a word, which seemed to weigh a thousand catties, and hit his heart: "Okay..."

Perhaps one day, Meng Qingshan will suddenly realize that he is not gay, and his liking for him is just an illusion.But from the bottom of his heart, Lu Xi doesn't want to reject the arrival of this beautiful dream, and he doesn't want to care about what will happen in the future, he just wants to enjoy the present.Just as selfish as before.