break you up

Ling Jinxu's eyes turned colder, "Young man, you are playing with fire."

"It's just right." Ling Yusheng fearlessly said, "I lack fire in the five elements."

"..." Ling Jinxu suppressed the anger in his heart and suppressed his emotions. He took a deep breath and said, "Are you playing with me? The rejection of me last time made me look like a wolf bullying an innocent girl. Now you're teasing me again, are you out of your mind?"

"Yes." Ling Yusheng showed a wry smile, which even concealed a taste of self-mockery.In retrospect, his brain was indeed broken, otherwise he wouldn't have...

"Inexplicable." Ling Jinxu gave Ling Yusheng a white look, and tried to get up.However, he was completely crushed by Ling Yusheng in terms of physical strength after recovering from a serious illness.He wanted to get up, but he had to bow his head in the face of his strength, and he was still locked on the sofa by Ling Yusheng's mountain-like body.

"Do you love me?" Ling Yusheng asked suddenly.It made Ling Jinxu startled, and looked up at Ling Yusheng's nervous and uneasy eyes in astonishment, feeling even more baffled.

Ling Yusheng sighed deeply, with infinite remorse gushing in his heart, "I didn't reject you, I was... very scared."

Although Ling Jinxu was surprised, he didn't ask any further questions, but just listened calmly.

"You might not believe it if you tell me." Ling Yusheng said, "I love you earlier than you love me."

"What?" This sentence caught Ling Jinxu off guard, and he couldn't help asking, "What tricks are you going to do?"

However, Ling Yusheng suddenly showed an ambiguous smile, "I love your tricks." As he spoke, he suddenly stretched out his hand to hook Ling Jinxu's chin, and while smiling, kissed Ling Jinxu's lips again.The tip of the tongue pushed against his lips and swam into it, catching it gently, full of provocative taste, like a small fish swimming in a lake, although rampant, it is gentle and sweet.

What is he afraid of?He was afraid that Ling Jinxu was just acting impulsively at that time, some kind of nerve disorder made him suddenly act abnormally.Although it was abnormal, it made Ling Yusheng extremely excited afterward.

He has been afraid to do anything, or express any emotions in that regard.That's right, he was bent, he was bent!

He fell in love with his "brother".Falling in love with my hope, falling in love with the dawn that leads me out of the cold pool of hell.This person is his only salvation and the meaning of living in this world.

He fell in love with Ling Jinxu.

However, he didn't dare to say it, because he was afraid that he would be rejected, discriminated against, and treated as a perverted monster by the whole family, including Ling Jinxu.

Ling Jinxu's whole body trembled, his own brain, his own thinking, and his own consciousness exploded in his mind like lightning.He was almost in a daze, and the sudden recovery of sanity made Ling Jinxu hastily push Ling Yusheng away from him.He didn't know when his breathing became rapid, and his face turned pale, "Are you... playing with me?"

"How dare I?" Ling Yusheng smiled slightly, he stared at Ling Jinxu's eyes, tender but firm.At the moment when Ling Jinxu was shot and seriously injured, at the moment when he saw Ling Jinxu almost died, at the moment when Ling Jinxu's heart stopped beating.Ling Yusheng was scared, regretted, and almost despaired.

He wished he could kill himself!

People are like this, it's sad and ridiculous, only when you lose it will you know how to cherish it, and only when you almost lose it, you will know how important it is to yourself.

"Do you know?" Ling Yusheng laughed bitterly, looking at Ling Jinxu's face and said: "At that time in the ambulance, your heart stopped beating for a moment. I saw clearly on the ECG monitor that all the values ​​disappeared. Rows of parallel straight lines. At that moment, it seemed that my own heart was hurting. It was the first time I felt suffocated, as if someone was strangling my neck and pinching my heart. At that time, I was thinking, as long as I can Make your heart beat again, let me do anything, it doesn't matter if I change my life."

Ling Jinxu listened in a daze, and Ling Yusheng sighed: "I'm scared, regretful, and annoyed at myself. What annoys me is that if I had expressed my heart to you earlier, even if I failed, it would be better than losing without saying anything. A lot. If I had been stronger and braver, maybe four years ago, we would have been together. If I had been stronger and more determined. Maybe we could have been together in high school."

"In terms of feelings..." Ling Yusheng suddenly paused when he said this, and then said: "No, I will always be in a weak position in front of you. Now I finally understand why those people who have a crush on others are so entangled in their hearts, why are they so entangled? Timid. I thought they were stupid and idiots before, because since they like each other, they have to speak out boldly. The result of hesitating and not daring to confess is to be caught first, and finally missed perfectly."

"Now I finally understand. When you have a crush on someone, you will naturally become timid. Because I am afraid of rejection, I dare not say it. Because I can't afford to lose. Once you reject me, I don't know what I should do in the future." What should I do?" Ling Yusheng smiled wryly, he gently stroked Ling Jinxu's face, looked into his bright and clear pupils, "I'll tell you a secret."

"what?"

Ling Yusheng approached Ling Jinxu's ear and said, "On my birthday five years ago, I made three wishes. The first wish: I hope that my family will be safe and happy, and be together forever. Second, I hope that I can fulfill it myself. Dream, to be a good policeman. The third wish..."

Ling Yusheng closed her eyes gently, and said with a smile on the corner of her lips: "I want you to love me."

Ling Jinxu's heart trembled, and he slowly raised his head, met Ling Yusheng's eyes full of joy, and heard Ling Yusheng's thin lips gently said: "So, has my wish come true?"

Ling Jinxu didn't answer, but just stared at him intently.Ling Yusheng smiled happily, gently stroked Ling Jinxu's bangs, and kissed his forehead like a dragonfly.Slowly down, nose tip, lips.

Ling Jinxu's body trembled slightly, and the lips kissed by Ling Yusheng were hot and slightly numb.His kiss was very gentle, soft and greasy.But when he pried open his lips and penetrated into it, he slowly accelerated the frequency, fierce and presumptuous.

Ling Yusheng hugged Ling Jinxu's thin waist tightly, her lips and teeth intersected, and Ling Yusheng's kiss was sometimes soft and sometimes domineering.He backed out, ran down Ling Jinxu's cheeks, and kissed Ling Jinxu's fair neck and the delicate and alluring collarbone under the open collar.

Suddenly, Ling Jinxu groaned in pain.Ling Yusheng hurriedly stopped her movements, stood up and looked at Ling Jinxu who gasped.