subtle trapping

Autumn is getting stronger, the maple leaves on the campus are turning red, the cold wind blows, and the leaves spin and fall.

Teacher Yu recommended Lixia to go to the UK for more than a year of exchange and study. Lixia asked his grandparents, and his grandparents only told him to make his own decision. After his aunt knew about it, he told his grandparents what a rare opportunity it was. Naturally, his grandparents believed it. I doubt it, although I won't see my grandson for a year or so, but just like my aunt said, how convenient it is to make phone calls and video calls.

Several people in the dormitory felt sincerely happy for this rare opportunity for Lixia, and said that if they want to hug Lixia's thigh in the future, maybe they will become Professor Gu in the future.

Ren Shaoxuan was quite reluctant to tell Lixia not to miss Shu, or he would be beaten up when he came back. Teng Fei said that after the past, he might find a foreign beauty to bring back for everyone to see. Ren Shaoxuan stared at him and said that he was thinking about this every day, Xiao Fatty cheerfully said that he could tell about the funny things over there, Gu Lixia smiled lightly and let them joke around,

Gu Lixia was busy with all kinds of materials for going abroad. Teacher Yu helped him get them. Lixia was very grateful. Teacher Yu said very proudly: "You are my student, go over there and study hard for me."

Everything was ready, Li Xia went home to see his grandparents, it was a farewell greeting, grandma took Li Xia to wipe away tears, not knowing where the UK was, only knowing that it was far, far away, let him take care of himself there , Come back when you are wronged.

Gu Lixia listened to them patiently, and said soothingly, "It's okay, I'm already an adult."

Grandma wanted to tell Lixia to come back soon after finishing her studies, but she couldn't say it out loud. It was they who forced Lixia to become what he is now. After suffering enough, or forcing him to leave, they dared not say anything else. I can only say over and over again: "Take care of yourself."

Before Li Xia left, Ren Shaoxuan went out to drink with him, slightly drunk, Ren Shaoxuan said: "Li Xia, are you and Brother Lu..." Ren Shaoxuan didn't ask further, not knowing what to say.

Li Xia froze, drank the wine in the glass, did not finish talking, one glass after another, Li Xia vomited, Ren Shaoxuan was frightened, and helped Li Xia go to the hospital, Li Xia pulled a stiff smile, "I'm fine. "

As the cold wind blew, Li Xia only felt that his knees seemed to start to ache again, he bent down and rubbed his knees, Ren Shaoxuan was speechless due to his thin back.

After a while, Ren Shaoxuan asked hesitantly, "Did you break up?"

Li Xia didn't speak, his eyelids drooped, he didn't know what he was thinking, Ren Shaoxuan said slowly: "I don't know if I should tell you." Li Xia looked at him and nodded slightly.

Ren Shaoxuan sat beside Li Xia, and said in a low voice: "I only found out not long ago, brother Jinchu looked for me before."

Li Xia looked at Ren Shaoxuan, startled for a moment, put down the wine glass in his hand, Ren Shaoxuan bit his lip, "I guessed it."

After a while, Li Xia asked, "What did he say?"

"He asked us to take care of you more."

Li Xia was silent, the wind blew past, a chill came to his fingertips, and his knees began to hurt again.

In November, the cold air came in bit by bit, and Li Xia got on the flight to the UK.

The humid and clear air makes the whole of England shrouded in cold. This is a beautiful English town with a beautiful river running through it.

Cities are different cities, but Lixia is still that Lixia, still silent, still working hard.

Li Xia knew that his spoken English was not very good, so he watched British TV dramas every day, recorded what the teacher said in class every day, and then listened slowly when he returned to the student apartment, and made meals by himself if he was not used to it. He fell asleep without touching the ground, but he still woke up in a dream.

Practice oral English and read literature every day, read books for class, and then cook, listen to the recording of the class while cooking, watch local variety shows while eating, wash your face and continue reading after being awakened by a nightmare at midnight.

One by one, the drawings were revised again and again, calm and profound.

When the warm current from the North Atlantic and the westerly wind blow over, the winter begins to be covered with a layer of mist. The winter in England is not as cold as in City X, and it even feels a little warm, with rain and fog forming in the humidity.

Lixia gradually got acquainted here and made friends. He could joke with classmates and discuss problems with professors. Spirituality, this point gradually became prominent after Li Xia came here.

Lixia used his spare time to learn the depth of graduate courses by himself. The incisive and sharp points in the class impressed the old professor. The old professor liked Lixia very much and invited him to his home.

At a Barbecue, the professor's daughter, Brittany, fell in love with Lixia at first sight. Lixia was dumbfounded, and after a pause, she directly and clearly refused. The reason for the refusal was very clear. She was gay.

Brittany expressed regret after hearing this, but she liked Lixia's straightforwardness even more, and said that she would introduce a boyfriend to Lixia, but Lixia smiled casually and didn't take it seriously.

Lixia's days are full of plans, and he relaxes when he calls his grandparents in his spare time. Hearing his grandparents worrying about his situation over there, and hearing Erbao yelling on the other end of the phone, Lixia is indifferent. laugh.

The night falls prematurely, and the winter is deep and cold, like a well.

Every day when I sleep, I still have nightmares, dreaming that I am locked in a cage, dreaming that I am being whipped, and those people are insulting me with contempt.

"Smelly shameless gay!"

"abnormal!"

"It's disgusting enough!"

"This man is so fucking stubborn!"

……

Punches and kicks fell on him, powerless to resist, the electric current passed through his whole body, his whole body was trembling, retching, wanting to vomit, despair covered layer upon layer, completely enveloping him.

I even wanted to die like that at that moment.

They forced themselves to say that name, and then gave them electric shocks over and over again, each time until they collapsed, vomited, and even trembled and lost control.

They yelled at each other, when whips were thrown at them, when cigarette butts were poked at them, when all kinds of props were used... Gu Lixia woke up from his dream profusely sweating, and then hugged the toilet until bile came out.

There was an embarrassed smile on the corner of Li Xia's mouth, he thought, how successful the treatment is, grandparents should be happy to know.

On the day of Christmas, Li Xia swallowed two sleeping pills, he didn't want to go out, he just wanted to have a good sleep, Christmas was too cruel for Li Xia, he just wanted to disappear.

Brittany came to look for Lixia, knocked on the door for a long time, but there was no response, and he couldn't get through on the phone, and couldn't find it everywhere. When Lixia woke up, he found that his phone was about to be blown up. He apologized to Brittany, saying that he fell asleep. caught.

Christmas was spent in Li Xia's dream, and Li Xia thought it was not bad, at least he didn't have any nightmares.

During the Spring Festival, Li Xia took a week-long vacation to fly home. Knowing that Li Xia was coming back, his grandparents prepared early for the festivities and made a lot of delicious food.

Grandma asked Lixia nervously, "Can you eat meat now?"

Li Xia paused, nodded, "Yes."

This new year, it is still the same group of people, but it is not as lively as before. The second uncle and the second aunt both feel guilty, and the aunt feels distressed when she sees Li Xia. She holds Li Xia's hand and wipes her tears. Talking, feeling remorse for her mother and her brother, Gu Yongfeng never dared to show his face in front of Gu Lixia.

The countdown to the Spring Festival Gala sounded amidst the passionate voice of the host. Lixia put on her coat and went out. Gu Qianqian looked at the thin back, feeling uncomfortable.

Everyone in the room sighed softly, and the atmosphere was so dull that Gu Qianqian wanted to escape.

Blossoming fireworks exploded above the head, extremely beautiful and colorful, Li Xia raised his head, but forgot how to smile.

"Happy New Year, Lu Jinchu, I made it through, you have to be well." Li Xia whispered.

The night is as bright as day, and the sea of ​​colorful flowers is one by one.

The new year has arrived.

Lu Jinchu, who was far away across the ocean, looked at the video sent by Chen Shen, smiled on the sofa, and simply dialed the video, "Why did you take such a small picture?" Lu Jinchu asked with a smile.

Chen Shen complained endlessly, "I still went out to take pictures for you, you can be content."

Lu Jinchu seemed to be in good spirits, Chen Shen felt relieved, and Lu Jinchu asked again: "Is the godmother there? Let me chat with him."

Chen Shen's mother immediately came over, "I'm here, I'll be waiting for you." The clear and bright voice came, and Lu Jinchu looked at the screen and smiled, "Godmother, I miss you so much."

Mother Chen pretended to be angry over there, "You little bastard, you didn't call back when you left. I was so worried. I thought you didn't say anything on purpose. In the end, they didn't know where you were going." Oh, hey... What a little troublemaker, he likes to cause trouble since he was a child, and he is restless when he grows up..."

Chen's mother dotes on Lu Jinchu obviously, and Chen Shen is used to it, there is no way, whoever makes his mother a face-controlling person prefers Lu Jinchu.

Lu Jinchu coaxed Chen's mother over there, "Godmother, I've been thinking about you all the time, have you seen the postcard I sent to Brother Shen? I also sent a New Year's gift, and I guess I won't receive it until after a few years .”

"Come back, it's better than any gift." Mother Chen said, and Chen Shen silently agreed in his heart.

Lu Jinchu acted like a baby over there, "I haven't played enough..."

Mother Chen said: "You are not with Shenshen, and Shenshen doesn't go out to play anymore. You are bored like an old man all day long. Hey... I feel worried when I look at it."

Lu Jinchu giggled over there, Chen Shen was quite depressed, listening to the two chatting, looking at Lu Jinchu on the screen was a little dazed.

After chatting with Lu Jinchu, Chen's mother gave the iPad to Chen Shen, and said, "Seeing that you have lost your soul, pick it up quickly, Xiaolu is waiting for you."

Chen Shen was choked and had nothing to say.

Lu Jinchu smiled: "Brother Shen, Happy New Year!"

"Happy New Year," Chen Shen said, looked at Lu Jinchu and said, "Take good care of yourself."

"I know!" Lu Jinchu said with a smile, "You too."

Chen Shen wanted to ask when Lu Jinchu would come back, but he knew that even if he asked, there would be no result. Lu Jinchu never told them when he changed his phone number. Postcards with local characteristics, or local specialties.

Chen Shen looked at those postcards, looking at them on the map for a long time each time, thinking silently in his heart, where are they so, where will the next stop be?

Lu Jinchu never said it.