subtle trapping

The sky was completely dark, twilight, and rainy.

Standing in front of his grandfather, Li Xia was very nervous. He didn't know if his grandfather knew about it, and he didn't know his attitude. Li Xia lowered his head and dared not take a look.

Grandpa finished his meal with a tired face, and said: "Look at your grandma tomorrow and coax her, this old woman is too stubborn, no one can do anything to her, if you persuade her tomorrow, she will listen to you the most." words."

Li Xia was taken aback, and tentatively asked: "Grandpa, you..."

Grandpa looked at him: "What?"

Li Xia moved his lips, and spoke with great difficulty, "That's why my grandma..."

Grandpa got angry when he mentioned this, "It's not because of Yongfeng, those two girls didn't know what they said, they got so angry, beat that bastard some other day." Grandpa was very angry, cursing Said.

Li Xia was stunned, Grandpa didn't know yet, but he couldn't tell if it was luck or not, Li Xia didn't know whether he should say it, he was hesitating, Grandpa asked him to go back to the room early to rest, and then went back to rest by himself.

Li Xia went back upstairs, lost his mind, couldn't fall asleep, took out his phone to check, only to find that there were many missed calls, Ren Shaoxuan called, probably to ask about his situation, as well as those from the senior sister in the laboratory, and Lu Jinchu's , Lu Jinchu made two phone calls, and even sent a text message, asking Li Xia what he was doing and why he didn't answer the phone.

Lixia felt the weight of the phone in his hand, and wanted to make a call, but felt that his current emotions would definitely expose him, so he sent a WeChat message.

"I went to the laboratory to help my brother and sister do experiments. I'm a little busy today, so I didn't have time to make a call. What are you doing?"

Lu Jinchu quickly replied, "Where are you? The dormitory?"

Li Xia realized it all at once, and before he could reply, Lu Jinchu called. Li Xia had no choice but to pick it up, and Lu Jinchu came over with a smile, "Is it so hard? Do you want it?" Boyfriend kiss you?"

The corners of Li Xia's mouth curled up slightly, and he said in a low voice, "Yes."

Lu Jinchu leaned closer to the phone and kissed Li Xia's heart. Lu Jinchu whispered, "Are you answering the phone outside? Is it cold?"

"It's not cold." Li Xia imagined how cautious Lu Jinchu would be in front of her, and Li Xia felt astringent in his heart.

Lu Jinchu thought that Lixia was answering the phone outside, and the weather is cooling down today, so Lu Jinchu was afraid that Lixia would catch a cold, so she hung up after chatting for a few words, and asked Lixia to kiss herself before she hung up in satisfaction.

After Li Xia hung up the phone, her heart was sore and swollen, she covered her eyes and couldn't sleep, as if a hole had been broken in her heart, the cold wind kept gushing in, making it chilly.

I squinted my eyes for a while, thinking about what my grandma would say when I saw her tomorrow, and then thinking about the future between him and Lu Jinchu, and thinking about what Lu Jinchu said in the future that he would live by the sea, have a big yard, and have flowers in the yard , and cats.

After a while, he thought of his parents, the hospital bed covered with white cloth, the man in the funeral home who made him mourn, and Ruan Feng, the one who taught him how to ski was also given to Gu Lixia when he faced his most confused and helpless sexuality. strength.

He remembered Ruan Feng saying: "Li Xia, sexual orientation is never a choice, nor is it because God is unfair, but God wants your life to be different from others. You can make your life wonderful, or you can ruin yourself. , you are the master of your life, no one else has the right..."

Lixia has always been very grateful to Ruan Feng. In the darkest and most helpless time of his life, Ruan Feng was his harbor. Ruan Feng skied with him, played snowball fights with him, taught him street dance, taught him to face up to his own sexuality, and told him: "Lixia, I told you that you are great."

For a while, Lixia even admired Ruan Feng very much, because he was always so confident and free and easy, and his figure on the ski resort was like a bird taking off.

Ruan Feng once jokingly said: "If you are not too young, I might still chase you as my boyfriend."

Gu Lixia blushed, lowered her head in embarrassment and shyness, Ruan Feng laughed, touched Gu Lixia's head and said, "I'm kidding, you are underage, too young..."

However, after Ruan Feng left, the scene was ugly.

That was the period of time that Gu Lixia didn't want to recall the most. It was the first time that he felt so sad for someone, and his heart ached as if a big stone was stuck in his heart. It was too uncomfortable.

Gu Lixia tossed and turned on the bed, thinking of when Ruan Feng left, he felt depressed again, tossed and turned for a while, and then fell asleep in a daze.

The next day, Gu Lixia went to the hospital to see his grandma with obvious dark circles under his eyes, carrying the meal cooked by Erniang in his hand, and when he walked to the door of the ward, he felt more nervous than ever, and almost walked in with his hands and feet.

Seeing Li Xia coming, grandma said to the second uncle beside her: "You asked Li Xia to come back? Li Xia is still studying, aren't you delaying others..."

The second uncle didn't know how to answer, so Li Xia walked over and said, "Grandma, it doesn't matter if I have nothing to do with homework, you should eat something first."

The grandma thought about it, and she was about to get up. The second uncle saw that the old lady was about to eat, so he quickly helped her up. Gu Lixia served a bowl of porridge for grandma. The second uncle was very grateful to see Gu Lixia.

After the old lady had finished eating, she said to the second uncle: "You take the lunch box and go back, I'll chat with Li Xia for a while." Li Xia's body froze when he heard this, he clenched his fingers tightly, and a string was tensed all over his body.

The second uncle left, leaving Lixia and the grandmother on the hospital bed alone. The person in the next bed was discharged from the hospital yesterday, and the empty room became quiet in an instant.

Lixia was so nervous that she heard grandma say, "Xiawa, are you doing well at school?"

Li Xia nodded, "Well, everything is fine."

After a while, grandma suddenly asked: "Do you have a girl's family you like? I heard from Aunt Li in the village that college students can also get married. If you have a girl's family you like, you can bring it back and show it to me and your grandfather. Set things down early, I know you have to work, and it won't delay your work if you settle things..."

Grandma said a lot of nagging.

Gu Lixia was silent and didn't speak. He knew in his heart that grandma must be suspicious, so he talked nonsense so anxiously that he wanted to find a partner sooner, but he couldn't. Grandma was still on the hospital bed. If something happened out of anger, Li Xia dare not imagine.

Gu Lixia remained silent and did not speak. After a while, grandma panicked and said in a hurry: "Eve, I am not forcing you, but I just want you to see if there are suitable people around. See, you have reassured us since we were young, we just hope you will think about this too..."

Gu Lixia looked at grandma, his heart was in a mess.

After a while, Gu Lixia said: "Grandma, do I have to find someone to marry and have a baby?"

Li Xia was stunned by this sudden question from grandma, after a while grandma trembled and said, "Yes."

Li Xia's eyes were full of pain, and with a plop, he knelt down in front of his grandma's hospital bed. Grandma was startled, and pulled Li Xia's arm to pull him up, but he couldn't.

Grandma asked in a panic: "What are you doing?" She was afraid that Li Xia would say something.

Gu Lixia lowered his head, not daring to look at his grandma, and said, "Grandma, I may not get married, nor will I have a big fat grandson for you to hug."

Grandma held Li Xia's arm tightly, and said in disbelief, "What did you say?"

Li Xia only felt that his throat was dry and he couldn't speak, "Grandma, I..."

Grandma suddenly became excited, "Why? You are our Lixia..." Grandma grabbed Lixia's arm tightly and asked tremblingly, "Why?"

Grandma's mood was very unstable, and Li Xia was afraid that something might happen to her, so she quickly patted her on the back, "Grandma, don't get excited..."

Grandma tightly grabbed Li Xia's hand, her arm was trembling, she opened her mouth not knowing what to say, tears came out, "What are you talking about?"

With a breath stuck in his throat, he fell down angrily.

Li Xia was so nervous that he happened to meet his grandfather and his second uncle coming over, and there was a mess immediately.

"What's going on?" Grandpa asked.

Li Xia opened his mouth, but couldn't answer, the doctor came and quickly checked, disrupting what Gu Lixia wanted to say, Li Xia stood by the bed, like a child who made a mistake, with his head down.

Grandma fell asleep after taking the medicine, and the doctor scolded her on the spot, "I told you not to excite the patient. Elderly people have poor health and organs, and they are prone to accidents. Why don't you take the doctor's words to heart..." The second uncle kept apologizing to the doctor for causing trouble, but the doctor walked away angrily, "Be more careful next time."

Lixia's mobile phone has been vibrating in his pocket since just now, and Lixia has not cared about it. This will make the room quiet, and it will be very eye-catching. The second uncle reminded: "Lixia, your Telephone."

Lixia said slowly, "Oh." Then he walked out.

In the narrow bathroom, Li Xia covered his eyes, his heart was like a mess that couldn't be untied, his whole body seemed to be pulled, it was extremely uncomfortable.

The phone in his pocket was still vibrating unremittingly. Li Xia took out the phone and saw that it was Lu Jinchu. Li Xia's eyes were sore again. He wanted to hug Lu Jinchu, smell his body, and listen to him. He talks.

But now, he can't.

Li Xia let the phone ring for a long time, the shiny screen went off and then on, on and off again, Li Xia squeezed his fist, and the pain came from the squeeze.

The sky outside was gloomy and gray, but Gu Lixia seemed to have lost consciousness, like a walking dead, standing outside the window in a daze, the cool wind blew across his face, mixed with fine sand, but Gu Lixia didn't feel any pain at all. Did not feel the sting.

The phone vibrated again, and with perseverance, Gu Lixia didn't even have the strength to pick up the phone, only his empty eyes were left, and he didn't know where he was looking.