learning to be human every day

"Gu is always my patient." Lin Zhe's voice was gentle and clear, with a soothing power, "But Ms. Gu is my employer."

"What's wrong with him?" Fu Guangzhou was concerned, but he swallowed the bait unknowingly. Lin Zhe didn't talk nonsense with him, and went straight to the topic: "Manic depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and mild lying disorder."

"Lying syndrome?" He reported a disease, and Fu Guangzhou's heart twitched, and finally his brows became a knot, "What do you mean?"

No wonder Mr. Gu's temper is ups and downs like a roller coaster, and he has a strong desire to control. What's the matter with the liar?

"In short, it's habitual lying." Lin Zhe sighed. "Of course it may be intentional. I think he can control himself."

Patients with liars usually lie aimlessly and take brain supplements as the truth, but Gu Zhaoran has always cherished words like gold. Lies have clear goals, and the logic is rigorous and difficult to discern. When the lies are exposed, they should fall into the trap Some people are already dead at the bottom of the pit.

A layer of sweat oozed from Fu Guangzhou's forehead, recalling all the things he had with Gu Zhaoran, he couldn't tell which of his words was true and which was false.

She is full of mysteries, but she sings and composes very well, and her words and deeds are highly consistent in temperament, making people suspect that there are no flaws.

Fu Guangzhou rubbed his aching forehead, couldn't figure it out for a moment, so he simply changed the subject: "Does Ms. Gu know what he came to see me for when he came back to China?"

When he thinks about this incident, he finds it unimaginable. Gu Zhaoran is afraid that it is not a charge for the phone call, otherwise how can he watch him drifting on the cliff and not stop him?

"She knows." Lin Zhe gave him the answer and at the same time asked his own question, "Mr. Fu, do you know what he is looking for you for?"

Fu Guangzhou was questioned. Although Gu Zhaoran tried to get him on the bed the first time they met, he didn't think that the other party traveled thousands of miles across the ocean just to vent on him.

As for getting his love, he is not an ignorant kid, so it's no wonder he would believe it!

"Mr. Gu is the most stubborn patient I've encountered over the years. He doesn't admit that he has a problem, and he refuses to cooperate with the treatment. It took me four full years to force him to relax his guard and accept psychological counseling and drug treatment." Zhe sighed, showing a deep sense of frustration, "But the effect is very little. Even if the dose is increased later, it will not help his condition."

He is like snow falling from a high mountain, unstoppable, falling towards the endless abyss, no one can stop him, no one can save him, he can only watch helplessly on the road of self-destruction .

"I did something that violated the professional ethics of a psychiatrist." Lin Zhe's voice returned to calm, unhurried, "Hacked his private computer and found some hidden files. This matter will be considered a turning point."

Fu Guangzhou's scalp went numb, and he had a hunch that things were going to get worse.

"Those are some... uh... secretly shot videos." The eloquent Dr. Lin was also at a loss for words, trying to express the inside story in more gentle terms, "20 years ago, Mr. Fu, Some private past between you and Mr. Shen."

Fu Guangzhou leaned back exhausted, and sighed in a low voice: "Go on."

The parents of doctors think that Dr. Lin has paid too much for Gu Zhaoran's treatment.

When he thought of those hot-eyed little movies that almost appeared in court, he was relieved again. He was really ignorant when he was young, and skinless and shameless when he was old. He hypnotized himself about all kinds of things in the past, such as dying yesterday, and he was able to discuss it calmly.

Lin Zhe continued: "From the traces of his computer use, I can basically confirm that he will watch those videos frequently and repeatedly."

When a landmine explodes, it usually detonates a series of mines, forming a minefield that makes people die.

Fu Guangzhou's head was buzzing, his cheeks twitched, and the screen of his phone was covered with sweat, and he almost lost the call.

Obviously it was his own black history, but he didn't care about the shame, and was more shocked by the dark obsessions in Gao Lingzhihua's heart.

When he was in bed, Gu Zhaoran didn't have any special hobbies other than being mean-spirited!

Then he thought dejectedly, he didn't even know that Gu Zhaoran had a mental problem, he just felt that Gu Zhaoran was uncertain and elusive.

He has never dabbled in psychology, but he also knows a rule: most of the mental illnesses of adults can be found in childhood.

So when Lin Zhe mentioned the short video of Gu Zhaoran pressing the bottom of the box, Fu Guangzhou knew it was time for him to come out and plead guilty.

Just like he was trapped in the bamboo forest 20 years ago, Gu Zhaoran was also trapped outside the dark door, with some kind of mood, alone, peering at the weird and unknown world inside the door.

It wasn't until he returned to China that he deliberately approached himself and opened the door to hell.

Fu Guangzhou's eyes were hot, his nasal cavity was so sore that he couldn't speak, and he had spent half his life heartlessly, thinking that a hundred poisons would not invade and King Kong would not be damaged, but he didn't expect to be torn apart by a few light words.

"Ms. Gu really had no other choice, so she agreed to let him come back." Lin Zhe's voice was even softer, "The person who untied the bell still needs to tie it. Mr. Fu, he took the risk out of desperation. I hope you can understand."

Fu Guangzhou nodded mechanically, realizing that the person on the other end of the phone could not see, and forced out a sentence in a hoarse voice: "I understand."

He is the instigator, who should bear the wind and rain all over the river, and bring Gu Zhaoran's young soul out of the darkness.

No matter what the price is, it is his own fault.

"I can cooperate with your treatment plan." Every time he said a word, his throat felt like swallowing a needle, burning and bitter, Fu Guangzhou took a deep breath, trying to make his voice sound more natural, "until he is cured .”

He has to pay back what he owes. The flesh, bones, and dignity of the soul can all be cast into a ladder, so that Gu Zhaoran has a place to stay on the way to escape from hell.

When Gu Zhaoran breaks out of the mud and embraces his new life without any worries, he will be able to retire.

As for what this sacrifice meant to him, he had no time to think about it.

"No, you misunderstood." Lin Zhe said with a sad tone, "I don't have any treatment plan, and I have already been fired by him."

When Gu Zhaoran set foot on this land, the situation was already out of control. They only wanted to untie the bell and have to tie the bell, but they didn't realize that Gu Zhaoran didn't even think about getting rid of it. It comes to satisfy a secret and presumptuous obsession.

Even though it is hidden under many disguises, love and hate are so reluctantly expressed.

"Psychiatrists shouldn't divulge patients' privacy, but your personal interests are involved, so you have to understand what you might face." Lin Zhe also secretly slipped his business card after some mental struggle. After all, Fu Guangzhou is a man of flesh and blood. As a living person, you can't simply treat him as a strong medicine.

"An out-of-control Gu Zhaoran." He paused, and added: "And an out-of-control mother."

After finishing the call, Fu Guangzhou moved his stiff knuckles, turned his head to look at the desolate courtyard outside the window, and was stunned, thinking that since he handed over the internal and external affairs of the house to the housekeeping company, he hadn't handled the flowers and plants himself for a long time.

His neighbors either grow flowers or grow vegetables, and the yard is always thriving, but what is left in his yard are rose holly and acacia trees that are easy to maintain and easy to feed. The homeowner does not ask for it, and the housekeeping company is too lazy to bother .

How to make a boring life full of vitality is a course that needs to be supplemented urgently.

How to fill Gu Zhaoran's narrow field of vision with a broader landscape is also a problem that must be solved.

In this way, he will not go all the way to the dark, and get into the corner of the dead at every turn and can't extricate himself.

When Fu Guangzhou thought that when he was in his forties, he still wanted to play the love game of you and me like a boy in his forties, he couldn't help blushing, and lamented that he had committed a crime and couldn't live with it.

He no longer struggled, accepted the gift of fate calmly, and made up his mind to build an undefended city. Whether Gu Zhaoran destroyed it or rebuilt it, he deserved it.

They shared a good time that can be called sweet. Although Mr. Gu still has a bad temper, Fu Guangzhou has been able to grasp his veins, coax him into a familiar way, and tame the little wolf cub into a dog. The bed is still wild, and it is not so flammable and explosive in daily life.

When Fu Guangzhou wants to pamper people, he will pamper them to the sky. He is obedient and tender, and he can be called the contemporary pan donkey Deng Xiaoxian.

Of course, when encountering a stubborn person like Gu Zhaoran, he basically has no chance to be a 1, no matter how strong the hardware is, it is useless, but the softest part needs to be taken care of by quitting smoking, drinking and spicy food.

For a time, he was so desperate that he asked Gu Zhaoran if he wanted to experience the feeling of being loved, but before he finished speaking, he was overturned with one hand. Gu Zhaoran said with a sullen face, "Shut up if you can't speak" and then started to fuck hard , Fu Guangzhou didn't shut up, it was really hard to speak.

They still didn't go out for the New Year's Eve, it was obviously suggested by Gu Zhaoran, but the boy turned back before booking the plane ticket, arrogantly expressing that he hates crowded places the most, and would rather learn from each other at home with Fu Guangzhou, teaching and learning will help each other.

During the Chinese New Year holiday, the company closed its accounts, and the factory shut down. They stocked up the refrigerator and lived a two-person world without leaving home.

There are few types of activities, but the endurance is strong, so strong that Fu Guangzhou felt that he had practiced for nothing all these years. After being pushed down, he transformed from a macho into a dodder in an instant, and entangled Gu Zhaoran shamelessly.

The passionate honeymoon period fully soothed Mr. Gu's restless body and mind, not only his mental state improved day by day, but also his smile increased.

The cold beauty's smile is like an iceberg turning into water, with gentle waves, which often makes Fu Guangzhou's soul beating, and his heart beats like a beating.

Until a phone call shattered this beautiful spring world.

Lin Che's words came true, and the out-of-control mother returned.