mediocre novelist

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It has been almost ten days since I took Atsushi Nakajima out of the orphanage, and I find that Atsushi Nakajima's admiration for me is growing day by day

"Dun is really a simple child." I smiled, feeling worthless for him in my heart, he shouldn't have feelings of trust and respect for a "heterogeneous"

In front of the flawless whiteness, no matter how much you pretend, you will remember your own darkness

Am I like this... I shouldn't adopt this child?

I went back and thought about this question carefully, and the next day I asked Atsushi Nakajima a few words

The other person's answer frustrates me

He clearly treats me like a teacher

That's right, he is a good boy, he can't learn, let alone do the behavior of taking advantage of his benefactor and then devouring his benefactor

If I'm gone... Maybe he will be sad for a while, and then he will listen to my words and work hard?

That way he won't see the real me and be scared away by the real me

Being a teacher who can listen to him and help him solve his doubts is the best way to solve this kind of thing

Maybe it's the influence of supernatural powers. Atsushi Nakajima has a beast-like intuition. He sensed something was wrong, but he didn't ask because he trusted me.

Why do you trust me so much?

This question became a topic that was never brought up between the two of us.

I was worried that I would disappoint the child's admiring gaze, and Atsushi Nakajima was worried that I would alienate me after knowing that he was a person with supernatural powers

The tiger hasn't been around him since he came to the hospital, and Atsushi Nakajima guesses it's because of me—or rather, the collar I gave him to protect him

Atsushi Nakajima doesn't want to think about it and can't accept the fact that he is the white tiger

The collar seems to be tailor-made for him, without any discomfort, Atsushi Nakajima will unconsciously rub the white collar on his neck when he is thinking now

As soon as I entered the door, I saw this picture

"What's wrong? Why are you so preoccupied?"

"Have Mr. Su decided which child to adopt?"

Atsushi Nakajima's subconscious answer made my smile freeze for a moment

Atsushi Nakajima came back to his senses and apologized flusteredly, I was gentle as always and said he was not wrong

Only I know how much I just had

--Fear

What I said before was all in the direction of "adopting a child". Before I thought about it, I really wanted to adopt Atsushi Nakajima. After all, if I adopted a child, it would only be handed over to the elders Take care, I am only responsible for the child's material life

For a guy like me who can’t raise a child well, it’s best to adopt a child who doesn’t think much of me. I thought that after being abused, Atsushi Nakajima would not easily trust an adult People, but who would have thought that he would still maintain a heart of innocence

"No, I don't plan to adopt/adopt/child/child/. My hometown Yokohama is very chaotic, and it is really not a city where children can grow up with peace of mind." I put on the long-standing disguise and pretended to be innocent.

"Dun's original orphanage was seized, would you like to go to another orphanage?"

I regretted it as soon as I finished speaking

That orphanage is a private orphanage funded by my cousin Su Woquan. I don’t have to worry about Atsushi Nakajima being sent there. What I regret is that saying so will hurt the other party’s self-esteem

However, Atsushi Nakajima obediently agreed

Only then did I truly realize that the edge of that white area was gray and black smeared by ruthless people.

Nakajima Atsushi is a good boy, but he is too inferior and too fragile. If he is not careful, he will be sucked into the whirlpool and his bones will never be restored.

On the one hand, I feel grateful for this, thinking that this kind of situation may be accepted by the other party in the future, on the other hand, I despise my dark thoughts, and in a dilemma, I become more lenient with Atsushi Nakajima

Before leaving, he called me "Mr. Yuansheng"

So I'm upset again

I didn't tell anyone that I was back in Yokohama, but stayed in my room to write a book. If I wrote the book, maybe I wouldn't be in such pain anymore

However, now I find that the more I write, the more sad I get. The manuscript is deleted, deleted, revised, and the number of words I get in a day is not more than a quarter of what it used to be.

In addition, I still have a book that is being serialized, and I have insomnia under the pressure

On the third night after I came back, Osamu Dazai came to the door——no, "prying the door" should be used here

I thought there were thieves at the time, and I was still wondering which thief was so capable that he could sneak into this community

When I saw that it was Osamu Dazai, I put away my surprise. After I came back, no one sent him a manuscript. He would naturally find out that I was back.

I tidied up the manuscripts on the table, "Let me get you something to drink—are you injured? Shall I give you medicine?"

Osamu Dazai asked me to pour him something casually, then he picked up the manuscript on the table and looked at it, knowing that his wound had been treated once before he came, and I sat back in my seat after bringing the drink

"Compared to that child, you feel disgusted with yourself." Dazai Osamu saw through the truth as always, and didn't read any further, "Origin, you are so simple."

"So what about the dark thoughts in the past? Didn't you do nothing?" Osamu Dazai shook the manuscript in his hand, "Although some authors closed their pens because of you, in the final analysis it's not your fault."

"The article is the soul and life of the author. If I do this, it is considered murder, right?" My voice was very soft, and the wound was suddenly opened by Osamu Dazai. how to do it

Osamu Dazai walked towards me, poured himself a glass of wine instead of talking in a hurry, looked at the orange liquid, and said, "If you firmly believe that this is killing people, fine. But the people you kill are not worth a fraction of me Much, it looks like childish slapstick to me."

What a different kind of comfort.i thought of

"It will be fine in a few days, don't worry about me." I finally said

Osamu Dazai looked down at me, and I raised my glass to him with a smile

...If it really doesn't work, I can only use the ability on myself again

The author has something to say:

Su Woqing and Su Woquan are actually twins, but it was not mentioned in the article.

The director of the orphanage had a good intention, but this does not mean that his actions were correct. Abuse of underage children is illegal no matter where they are, so Yuansheng reported the orphanage and found a home for other orphans.

Yuansheng's original personality is very "soft". After winning the cooking competition with his niece, he was very worried that his niece would be sad. If he thought about it, he would stop cooking (he was coaxed back by his niece); he was very talented But I prefer to be an ordinary person, because there are always some people who chase their dreams will be hurt by him

It’s okay after he gets the supernatural power, but when he thinks or encounters things he thinks he can’t help, or the sadness caused by him, his mood swings will be particularly large

Well... the original Yuansheng was a Yuansheng who became a flattering personality because he was too gentle, and the current Yuansheng... occasionally shows his original personality, but usually he is a sand sculpture face control

Well, speaking of it, why did I arrange a plot like a "demon" for the protagonist as I was writing? text? ? ? ? ?

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