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Mother Jian didn't seem to be able to react to what her son said, she stared blankly at her son with eyes filled with shock and astonishment, and was unable to speak for a while.

Looking at Jian's father, a person who was usually calm and calm, now sat there stiffly, his lips were tightly pressed, and his face was solemn.

After a dead silence, Jane's mother managed to find her own voice, she looked at her son with trembling lips, "You are a man, how could you like a man?" Jane's mother's eyes were filled with It is doubtful and incomprehensible.

"Mom, I'm gay."

own child is gay...

There was desolation in Jane's mother's eyes.

She shook her head in disbelief, "How is it possible? How could my son be gay if he is so good? Tell me, how is this possible?"

Jian's mother's tears poured down like a dam burst, and Jian Ningze felt his heart throbbing.

"Your father and I are normal people, and we love you so much. You grew up in a very healthy and harmonious environment, didn't you? In the end, what did we do wrong to make you like this Yes, huh? Ozawa, you tell mom..."

"Mom, mom..." Jian Ningze held his mother's trembling hands tightly, "It's not your fault, it's not dad's fault, it's not... it's not anyone's fault."

Jian Ningze had imagined countless reactions of his parents after coming out of the closet. He had thought about all the agitated and hysterical ones.However, facing the helpless appearance of his parents at this moment, he regretted it.If you don't come out, won't you hurt them like this?

In the oppressive atmosphere, I don't know how long it took before Mother Jian's emotions gradually calmed down a little, and she raised her hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"I'll arrange a blind date for you tomorrow, beautiful, cute, sexy...you can choose whatever you want, you will definitely like it. Listen to your mother and meet more girls..."

"Mom, as I said, I don't like women, I have no feelings for women..."

"That's enough, shut up!" Jian's mother snapped, "Stop talking, I don't want to hear it, let me tell you, if you want to find a man, I will never agree to it."

Jian's mother stood up from the chair, her feet were unsteady and she almost staggered and fell. Jian Ningze reached out to help, but was thrown away by her mother.

Father Jian stepped forward to help his wife, but did not look at his son, "You go back first, let your mother rest for a while."

Jian Ningze knew that parents needed time to sort out and digest this sudden thunderbolt.

"Then I'll go back first, you two elders have a good rest."

Turning around, Jian Ningze walked towards the door.When he was about to walk to the door, he heard his father's voice suddenly coming from behind.

"Homosexuality... can it be changed?"

With one question, Jian Ningze's heart was cut like a knife.

Turning around, Jian Ningze looked at his father with guilt in his eyes, "Dad..."

It's not that he doesn't know the answer, and Father Jian doesn't understand why he still wants to ask the previous question.He stopped talking, and walked to the bedroom with his exhausted wife.

The light flashed, and Jian Ningze saw his father's eyes flushed...

Sitting in the car, Jian Ningze's hand holding the steering wheel trembled slightly.Today is my mother's birthday, it should be a happy day, why can't I just come out today?It's so unfilial.The emotion of self-blame and guilt tore Jian Ningze, he felt as if something was pressing on his chest, making him unable to breathe.

The sad and desperate look of his parents has been circling in Jian Ningze's mind. He doesn't know how he got home all the way.

Opening the door with heavy steps, Jian Ningze saw Qi Ran sitting in front of the sofa from a distance, reading a book intently with a pair of black-rimmed glasses.The soft lights sprinkled around him, overflowing with touching warmth.

Hearing the sound of the door, Qi Ran looked up, only to see him smiling slightly, "You're back?"

Jian Ningze didn't answer, walked slowly to the sofa and sat down, he looked at Qi Ran without blinking.Qi Ran was stared at in a daze, and was about to ask, but Jian Ningze hugged him tightly in the next second.

"...What's wrong?" Qi Ran struggled in Jian Ningze's arms.

"Don't move, let me hold you for a while." Jian Ningze's voice was a little hoarse.

After hearing Jian Ningze's words, Qi Ran stopped moving, he put his hand on Jian Ningze's back and gently stroked it.

"Of course, I came out with my parents."

Qi Ran's hand stroking Jian Ningze's back stopped suddenly.

The room was so quiet that breathing could be heard, neither of them spoke, they just hugged each other quietly.

"The makeup photo was taken well." Qi Jia showed some photos on the tablet to Jian Ningze, "By the way, I will ask Xuanxuan to accompany you to the set tomorrow, and I will borrow it from Lele."

"Okay." Putting down the tablet in his hand, Jian Ningze looked at Qi Jia, "Sister, yesterday... I came out to my parents."

"...What's the situation?" Qi Jia's jaw almost dropped when she heard this, "Isn't my sister-in-law's birthday yesterday? Why did you choose this day to come out to them?"

"Yesterday, my mother asked me to find a girlfriend and to get married and have children earlier. I couldn't hold back for a while, so I had a showdown with them."

No need to ask the result, Qi Jia can guess the attitude of my sister-in-law and uncle, especially my sister-in-law, seeing Jian Ningze's gloomy look.

"You also told them about Qi Ran?"

Jian Ningze shook his head, "No. I just confessed my sexual orientation to them, and didn't tell them about my boyfriend. I want to take it step by step and tell them all at once. I'm afraid they will collapse. "

Qi Jia breathed a sigh of relief, "It's a good thing you didn't get so dizzy that you told them about Qi Ran, otherwise you might go to Qi Ran with your sister-in-law's temper and try your best." After a pause, Qi Jia patted Jian Ningze on the shoulder, " That's fine, don't even think about it, anyway, you have to take this step sooner or later. When my sister-in-law and uncle calm down, I will find a chance to enlighten them."

Coming out of the bathroom, Jian Ningze saw Qi Ran light two aromatherapy diffusers and put them on the coffee table.

"Did you buy aromatherapy?"

"Well, I went to buy it after get off work today. I heard from the teller in the mall that this aromatherapy has the effect of relieving stress, calming the nerves and helping sleep."

Jian Ningze approached and smelled it, it was very fragrant.

Qi Ran dimmed the light a little, picked up a book and pulled Jian Ningze to sit down on the rug in front of the tea table.

"I bought a collection of poems. It's not bad. Would you like to listen to it?"

"I'm so lucky that a well-known voice actor reads poems for me alone."

Leaning in Jian Ningze's arms, Qi Ran opened a page of the book, only to hear a melodious voice coming out of his mouth.

"On that day, I closed my eyes in the fragrant mist of the Sutra Hall, and suddenly heard the mantra in your chanting. In that month, I shook all the prayer wheels, not for salvation, but to touch your fingertips. In that year, knock I crawled on the mountain road with my long head, not to see you, but just to be close to your warmth. In that life, I went around mountains and rivers and pagodas, not to practice the next life, but to meet you on the way..."

Qi Ran's voice can melt all severe cold, Jian Ningze firmly believes.

He understood that all Qi Ran did was to sweep away his gloomy mood.

Listening to the warm voice, embracing the warm lover, temporarily forgetting the worries, Jian Ningze closed his eyes and immersed himself in the tranquility of this moment.

After communicating with the director about the dubbing script, Qi Ran entered the recording studio.

"Xiao Qi, let's go through it first and then formally record it."

"it is good."

Today, he stayed in the recording studio for more than ten hours at a time, and it was early morning when the exhausted Qi Ran returned home.

When he walked into the house and turned on the ceiling light in the living room, a large bouquet of red roses came into view instantly.Although it has become a daily routine for Jian Ningze to send flowers, Qi Ran is still moved and happy every time he receives them.

Walking into the bedroom lightly, fearing that the cold air on his body would catch Jian Ningze, Qi Ran took off his coat and put it on the stool at the end of the bed.Strolling to the bed, looking at Jian Ningze's peaceful sleeping face for a while, he covered him with a quilt, and Qi Ran exited the bedroom and went into the study. He still has debts to pay for the online drama series.

In the morning, when he woke up from his sleep, Qi Ran blinked his eyes, wondering if he had used his eyes too much recently, he felt his eyes were a bit dry.Turning over and getting out of bed, Qi Ran took the eye drops and dripped two drops, then raised his head and waited for the eye drops to be absorbed.

When he closed his eyes, Qi Ran suddenly felt his head resting on a strong shoulder.Indeed, this way the neck will not be sore.Feeling warm in his heart, Qi Ran took advantage of the situation and leaned back slightly, leaning his whole body against it.

Jian Ningze put his arms around Qi Ran's waist, and said softly, "Good morning."

During breakfast time, the two chatted a few words while eating.

"I'm going to Chongqing the day after tomorrow, and I have a commercial to shoot there for two days." Jian Ningze said.

"Oh, I see."

"I see you've been very busy these days. When I'm not at home, take care of yourself. Don't skip breakfast, don't skip dinner, don't stay up too late..."

Listening to Jian Ningze's rambling, Qi Ran couldn't help laughing, "Why do I feel like you are becoming more and more like my mother?"

……

"I'm sorry director, let me repeat this place, I spoke a little too fast just now, it didn't sound natural." Qi Ran shook his head dissatisfied and said to the director.

"Okay, do it again."

"Wang Feng, you heard clearly, my matter has nothing to do with you, and I am not your younger brother at all, you go, go! Brother, I forgive you, I don't care about it, do you hear? Please Wake up..."

In the enclosed space, Qi Ran has been working for more than ten hours today, he raised his wrist to look at the love watch that he wears every day, it is already three o'clock in the morning.

After a crying scene was finished, Qi Ran was physically and mentally exhausted at the moment, took two deep breaths, and stood up from his chair.

Just as soon as he got up, Qi Ran felt his legs go weak, and then his eyes went dark.

"Qi Ran..."

"Brother Qi..."

Qi Ran vaguely heard someone calling his name, but his consciousness gradually faded away.

The author has something to say: The poems in this article are from "That Day" by Tsangyang Gyatso