Song female man

"Mother, sister-in-law, are you back? I was just about to call you back! How about we have noodles tonight?" Shunniang said as she came back from the toilet, rubbed her stomach and looked at them with a smile.

Her aunt came just now, it was cold, and she was so uncomfortable, she just wanted to eat a bowl of hot noodles and burn her feet so that she could go to bed early.

Mrs. Qi saw Shunniang clutching her stomach and her lips turned white, thinking that Shunniang came to Sunflower Water every few days every month, she probably understood why she said that, so she said, "Sit down, uncle." Now, my family is going to knead the noodles to make water-sliding noodles, and we will have noodles at home tonight."

While talking, she handed Huier to her mother-in-law, rolled up her sleeves and went to the kitchen, walked a few steps, then remembered something, looked at Xie Erniang, asked her with a smile if she had eaten, and would like to have a bowl of hot food here soon Go back again for the steaming noodles.

Xie Erniang shook her head, said that she had eaten and would go back in a while.

Mrs. Qi just listened to what she said, and hurried to the kitchen by himself.

Liu sat at the table with Hui'er in her arms, stretched out one hand and happily flipped through the New Year's goods on the table, and asked Shunniang, "Erlang, how much did these cost?"

Shunniang told her the same thing, and Mrs. Liu, from time to time, said which ones were expensive, and which ones were cheap to buy.

Xie Erniang, who was standing aside, listened to the conversation of Xi's family and remained silent. She was thinking that both Mrs. Liu and Mrs. Qi knew that Xi Erlang was Xi Shunniang, but they just called Shunniang Erlang and Uncle.It turned out that they were all acting.

Why do they do this?

She remembered what her mother said, that the two men who supported the Xi family died one after another, and the Xi family is now supported by Xi Erlang...

Probably Xi Shunniang pretended to be Xi Erlang in order to support the Xi family and support the family. After all, if the Xi family did not have "Xi Erlang", it would be a family of women and children.Or it is precisely because of this reason that Xishunniang can disguise herself as a man and become Xishun to make a living, and her mother and sister-in-law also acquiesce and even approve of Xishunniang's doing so.

When Shunniang introduced the new year's goods to her old mother, Xie Erniang also carefully looked at the people around her, and felt that she was really indisputable, she didn't look like a woman at all, because she had no breasts, and because she had a delicate and heroic face , the height is about the same as that of an ordinary man of this age, and her shoulders are also about the same width as a man of this age.

At first glance, no one would regard her as a woman, and her voice was also slightly hoarse, not as crisp as a woman's voice.

Perhaps because of this, all the people in Yangliu Town including myself did not recognize her as a woman, and it is precisely because of this that I fell in love with her without hesitation.

But she is a woman after all, just like herself, how can two women get married?

Thinking of the failure of her greatest wish, Xie Erniang couldn't help feeling sad and wanted to cry.

Xie Erniang stood aside silently, and Shunniang's attention was attracted by her completely different appearance from usual. She couldn't help pulling Xie Erniang's sleeve, asked her what's the matter with a smile, and even took the food she bought for her on the table. Picking out those few things, they stuffed them into Xie Erniang's hands, saying that he went to the rouge headdress shop in the city to pick them out for her, and asked her to take them back.

"..." Erniang Xie's heart twitched, she looked at the face of Shunniang, who was wrapped in the dim yellow light, with a gentle and gentle smile, talking to her as usual, and felt extremely bitter in her mouth.

She was afraid that if she looked at her again, she would cry, so after taking what Shun Niang gave her, she lowered her eyes and said in a low voice: "...I, I'm going back..."

Shunniang said hello, saying that she would see her off, and followed Erniang Xie, who was walking quickly, to the door of her house, and went back after seeing her push the door in.

Xie Erniang held the New Year's gift Shunniang bought for her in her hand, went upstairs with a bang, then went back to her room, and locked the door with her backhand.

She threw the things she was holding onto the mirror table in front of the bed as if she had vented her anger, then turned around and threw herself into the bedding on the bed, unable to hold back her tears any longer, she burst into tears.She was saddened that the happiness she had longed for in her life was gone.She felt how cruel God was to her, why she devoted all her emotions to the one person she fell in love with was actually a woman.Kijiro is a woman, so she can't marry him. Once, she thought that she would be his man in this life, so she felt extremely certain in life.She likes this kind of steadfastness that comes from certainty, but now, she feels that she is suspended in mid-air again. When she looks down, she only feels that it is foggy, and she can't see what's underneath. She feels scared, scared ...

"Tuk-tuk-tuk!" There was a knock on the door, Xie Erniang heard it, but she didn't want to care about it, she just indulged her own sadness.

"Dong dong dong!" There was a knock on the door, and her mother complained, "It's about time, you fell asleep, get up quickly, I have something to tell you for my mother!"

Xie Erniang knew her mother's temper, if she didn't open the door for her, she would keep pounding on the door, not quieting herself so that she could cry as much as she wanted.As a last resort, she could only get up, wipe away her tears with a handkerchief, then pulled out the small drawer under the mirror, and took out the powder that Shun Niang bought for her. I put a little rouge on my discolored lips, and spread the rouge evenly...

When she pulled the latch, opened the door, and appeared in front of her mother Wu, she put on some smiles, because she had put on makeup to cover up the tears, and at night, there was only a small oil lamp in the room that gave off a faint light. Mother didn't see that she had cried just now.

As soon as Wu Shi came in, she asked her why she closed the door so early. She hadn't burned her feet yet, and Mrs. Tang didn't give her water. She went to bed and fell asleep cold.

Xie Erniang didn't answer, turned around and walked to the bed, and asked her mother what she wanted her for.

Before Wu could speak, she first saw the piles of things on the mirror stand, opened them to look at them, and asked, "Did Kierang buy these for you?"

Xie Erniang hummed, and it was an answer. When she saw those things, she couldn't help being sad for a while.

Mrs. Wu looked through it, and said that these items were all good, and that Xi Erlang had not yet engaged to his daughter, so he cared so much for her. After a year, he would definitely ask to marry her. , Don't worry about her being a mother.She said that Kijiro is a good young man, hardworking and smart, caring about his family, and knows how to love others. If his daughter marries him, she will live a solid and happy life. I don’t know how many women in this town would envy her.

If it was usual, Erniang Xie would be extremely happy when Mrs. Wu said these things, and the smile could not be concealed from the corners of her eyebrows and eyes, but today when her mother said this, Erniang Xie only felt ironic, and the corners of her eyes and mouth drooped. Looking, there is no smile on the face.

Seeing her daughter like this, Mrs. Wu keenly felt that her daughter today was a bit different, as if she had something on her mind, and she would smile happily when she said hello to Kijiro, but this time she didn't smile at all. There was still a hint of sadness on her face, so she asked her what's wrong, did Kijiro bully her.

Xie Erniang hurriedly shook her head and said no.

"That has nothing to do with Xi Erlang, what is it?" Wu continued to ask.

Xie Erniang insisted that she was fine, and asked her mother to hurry up and talk about it. She felt cold today and wanted to go to bed earlier.

Wu Shi told her that it was really nothing important, just to discuss with her what dishes to cook tomorrow, and for the new year, she wanted to invite the Xi's family next door, as well as the Lu family, to have dinner together.

Xie Erniang was in no mood to discuss what to eat right now, so she said impatiently: "Let's talk about it tomorrow, I'm sleepy."

Wu scolded her daughter, saying that she was so lethargic and drowsy at such a young age, but she loved her daughter so much, so she went to pour Tang Pozi for her daughter and put it in her quilt.Then he brought up a bucket of hot water, called his daughter to wash her face and feet, and then used the remaining water to wash the officials and son.

Xie Erniang went back to the house and went to bed, shedding tears again in the darkness of the room, sobbing and crying for half the night, until she had a headache, dizziness and exhaustion before falling asleep.

Sleeping until midnight, she was awakened by a nightmare. In the dream, she stumbled and fell into an endless dark abyss. She kept falling, and she couldn't catch anything, so she could stop falling.

When she woke up with a fright, she realized that she was lying on her own bed in the boudoir. It was just a dream, and everything around her was still familiar. A sense of solidity accumulated little by little, and she let out a long breath.If you listen carefully, you can hear the sound of snow particles caught in the cold wind and beating against the window paper. The rustling sound makes the night even more silent.For some reason, she thought of the scene at the door of the kitchen downstairs last night, with her hands in her sleeves, stomping her feet and waiting for Shun Niang to drive the ox cart into the yard of Xie's house.

The lantern under the eaves of the kitchen gave off a hazy yellow light, and the snow wind blew the lantern endlessly, making a knocking sound when it knocked against the eaves, and her heart also fluctuated with the sound of hope.

When Shunniang finally drove the ox cart into Xie's yard, her heart fell to the ground happily, and then she ran to Shunniang, like a happy deer, seeing Shunniang, even if she didn't say anything, Do nothing and feel happy.

Boldly reaching out to brush off the snow particles on Shunniang's eyebrows, and revealing the clear eyebrows that make her heart move, she will think that this pleasing and handsome young man in front of her belongs to her and will be with her for the rest of her life, so It is very satisfying.

She also thought of the scene of Shun Niang hugging her shoulders by the river in September and pressing her down to prevent her from falling into the water, that throbbing would come as expected every time she recalled it.Every time she thinks about it, she sinks one point.

She was completely sunk, completely sunken, and she sank willingly. At that time, she knew that when she sank, her feet would land firmly, and there was that person waiting for her on the ground.

The heart has a home, and the two emotions are happy. Is this the consummation that the Bodhisattva said?

She considers herself complete.

However, when the picture in her mind turned into that letter, into the four words Shun Niang Ru Ho, she was suddenly out of breath, and began to complain why the gods and Buddhas teased her like this.All she wanted in her life was to marry a man who was in love with each other, and to live like her parents until they were old.She used to think that she had found it, and she was much luckier than Xinghua on this street, but who would have thought that in the end, that man would suddenly become a woman like her, what else could she say except God's will.

The strange thing is that she doesn't blame Shunniang at all, and she can even understand Shuniang's difficulties in disguising herself as a man.

Therefore, everything is a strange fate, just a bad fate.

Xie Erniang tossed and turned on the bed, wondering what to do next?How should I get along with Xi Shunniang?Should we cut off contact with her, explain to parents that she doesn't like "Xi Erlang" anymore, and let them stop expecting "Xi Erlang".Should I find another person to like, such as Liang Sanlang, and put my heart on Shun Niang on others.Anyway, it is impossible to get married with a woman, and it is impossible to have children, and she has never heard of a woman being together, and it has always been a marriage between a man and a woman.

She thought about it, but didn't make up her mind, until the sound of slaughtering pigs, the sound of pigs, and the voices of many people were heard in the yard downstairs, and she was still tossing and turning on the bed.

Then she heard the sound of the door opening on the wall between Xie's house and Xie's house. Someone came to fetch water, and the small wooden bucket made a heavy bang on the wall of the well.

It's him, no, it's her, come here to fetch water, and then boil the water to water the seeds?

Sure enough, it was her, and the voice of her father laughing and talking to her came from downstairs again. Xie Erniang usually felt sweet when she heard it, so she wanted to get up and go downstairs to work with her.At this moment, she heard it, but she didn't have the usual urge to get up. Instead, she pulled up the quilt to cover her head, trying to isolate the sound from the outside.

But she soon discovered that even though she covered her head with a quilt, the sound of her water-carrying footsteps and her voice seemed to have taken root in her mind, echoing in her mind, one knock after another Her eardrums...

She found that the more she avoided, the more clearly Shun Niang's face and Shun Niang's smile became in her mind.

How can I stop thinking about Shunniang, Xie Erniang is so worried.

How could Shunniang have thought that Erniang Xie would have seen the letter that Sister Song Yu wrote to her? Before that, she put the letter in an account book on the small table in front of the bed because she thought that her mother and sister-in-law were illiterate. Even if I read it, I wouldn't know what was written on it. I never thought that Xie Erniang would find the letter by accident, and after reading the letter, I knew her real gender was female.

After she sent Xie Erniang back, she took over a bowl of sugar water that her sister-in-law specially cooked for her with added sugar. Mrs. Qi asked her to drink it, and asked her if her lower abdomen hurt badly, and if she should go for Shunniang now. Fill a Tang Pozi to hold it.

Shunniang said yes, she thinks this body is good for everything, tall and strong enough, but every time I come to my aunt, my stomach hurts badly, especially in winter.

After winter, every time I came to my aunt, it was Mrs. Qi who took good care of her, boiled sugar water for her, fed her soup, and didn't let her touch cold water. Basically, she sent bean sprouts back. , just nestled on the bed, and Mrs. Qi waited on her to eat and drink.

On the contrary, this made Shunniang feel that every time she came to her aunt, she felt good, and she could fully appreciate how her sister-in-law cared for her, just like a child who lacks love.

Last night, after eating a bowl of hot noodles, washing her face, and scalding her feet, Shunniang got into the bed, and there was a hot woman in the bed who had already ironed the bed warmly. After a while, Mrs. Qi Then she filled her Tang Pozi with water and stuffed it into her arms, and asked her to hold it. In this way, Shunniang's feet would not be cold, and her stomach would be warm, so she would feel much better when she wakes up tomorrow morning.

Shunniang asked her, if she gave her Tang Pozi to herself, wouldn't she be cold?

Qi smiled and told her that Huier is just a small stove, as long as she hugs Huier to sleep, it is the same as hugging Mrs. Tang.

Shun Niang cheerfully said that she was right, children are full of anger.

Mrs. Qi stretched out her hand, patted Shunniang's head like a child, then tucked her in the quilt tightly, told her to sleep well, then blew out the oil lamp on the table, closed the curtain and left.

Shun Niang was lying in the warm bed, and when she heard her sister-in-law went upstairs, she simply felt satisfied and happy, no one fell into her dream, and she fell asleep just like that, with the corners of her lips curled up slightly.

When she got up early the next morning, she really felt that her abdominal pain was relieved, and then she put on her clothes and shoes and went to the backyard to harvest bean sprouts. When she found that her sister-in-law had woken up early, she not only boiled a bowl of sugar water for her, but also boiled water and watered the bean sprouts again. She even harvested half of the bean sprouts that Shun Niang was going to send to the city.

Shunniang asked her in surprise how early she woke up and did so much work.

Mrs. Qi smiled and said that she went to bed early last night and woke up early, so she got up and did all the work, so as not to overwork Shunniang, a "patient", and she wanted Shunniang to take a rest these few days.

Shunniang asked her in a low voice: "Sister-in-law, did you not feel pain in those few days? Didn't I see you frowning? Didn't you see you taboo cold water?"

Qi told Shunniang that she was a married woman who gave birth to a child, unlike Shunniang, an unmarried woman in the room, and said that Shunniang would not react so much every time she got married and gave birth to a child.

Shunniang jokingly said: "If I never get married, wouldn't it be painful for the rest of my life?"

Qi looked at her and said softly, "I'm not afraid of the pain for the rest of my life, my family will always take care of you..."

Shunniang heard the words, looked at her sister-in-law, and found that she was looking at her with burning eyes in the firelight overflowing from the kitchen stove, as if she was yearning for something and telling something.

But soon, Mrs. Qi turned her gaze to the kitchen, making Shunniang feel that the scene just now didn't exist.

A few shrill squawks came from the killing room of Xie's family next door, which made Shunniang regain her composure, and went out of the kitchen to carry the harvested bean sprouts into the truck.

When leaving Xie's courtyard, Mrs. Qi escorted her to the door and told her to go early and return early, because today is the New Year's Eve.

Shunniang agreed, and drove the ox cart into the city in the wind and snow, and delivered all the bean sprouts that should be delivered with Shitou before noon. The two did not eat together as usual at noon, but went home separately. Year.

At noon, when Shunniang arrived home, her sister-in-law had already cooked all the meals for the New Year, stewed a chicken, steamed pickled fish, fried a plate of seeds, made pork buns, and warmed the wine.

It was snowing outside, but it was warm inside the house.

The family reunites for a new year, eating hot meals, so happy.

Mrs. Liu also drank half a bowl of wine, and was very excited. She said that Mrs. Wu had come to invite her early in the morning, and asked her to go to her house for dinner in the evening, so that they could spend this new year together. , I went to Xiejia Tuannian in the evening.

Mrs. Qi said in a low voice that Xie's food was not for free, and while speaking, she glanced at Shunniang, who could only bend her lips and smile when she received her playful look.

When Liu saw it, she was choked by a piece of chicken wrapped in her mouth. It took her a long time to swallow the meat, and she grabbed Shunniang's hand on the table and asked her what to do, how long would it take to move? Going on, I'm really afraid that her sister-in-law will take Shun Niang to pay back the debt, which owes too much to Xie's family.

Shunniang said that it would be enough to wait for another year or so, that is to say, it will be almost the same when next year's New Year's Eve is over. As for the favor owed to Xie's family, if there is money in the next year, the guests invited by Xie's family will be invited again. Come back, in the final analysis, these are things that money can solve.

Liu Shi and Qi Shi believed it deeply.

However, in Shunniang's heart, she felt that there was something that money could not solve, and that was the relationship between her and Xie Erniang.

There is still a year at most, and the showdown is about to happen. Recently, she feels that she is with Xie Erniang, and she has some impure thoughts about Xie Erniang. If this continues, she doesn't know if she can hold on for another year.If Erniang Xie can accept her body as a woman, of course she feels complete, but if she can't accept it, Xi's family will move out of Yangliu Town, and Shunniang will feel very sad and regretful.So before she knew whether Xie Erniang could accept that she was a woman, she reminded herself that she must not make any intimate moves towards Xie Erniang, she had to control herself.

Thinking of Xie Erniang, Shunniang suddenly felt strange. Usually, she brought bean sprouts to the city every day, and when the ox cart entered the backyard of Xie's house, no matter it was noon or evening, Xie Erniang would run over to greet her happily like a deer.However, today when she came back from Bianliang City, Xie Erniang didn't run over.At that time, she was still a little disappointed, deliberately unloaded the car slowly, led the cow into the cowshed to feed grass, dawdled for a while, but still did not see Xie Erniang running over.

She thought, is it because Erniang Xie is helping her mother cook the New Year's dinner, so she has no time to welcome her?

After thinking about that, she went home without thinking too much, washed her hands and ate. At this moment, she suddenly thought that maybe it was snowing last night, and Xie Erniang ran out to greet her because she caught cold and got sick, so she didn't act like usual. Come and welcome yourself.

Thinking of this, she speeded up her meal, planning to go over to ask Xie Yi and his wife after eating, if Erniang Xie was sick.

After dinner, Shunniang wanted to help her sister-in-law clean up, but Mrs. Qi refused to let her do it, and whispered to her that she would not be there in two or three days.

Of course, Shunniang understood the implication, so she followed her sister-in-law's wishes, sat down by herself, drank two cups of tea, and guessed that Xie's next door had finished lunch, so she went to see Xie Yi and asked him about it. Is Erniang Xie sick?

Xie Yi said that the girl was not sick, and she didn't know what was going on, so she just stayed in the house and couldn't come out. Her mother asked her to come down to help with the New Year's dinner, but she didn't come. Her mother got angry and scolded her. Well, I simply locked the door and didn't even go out for lunch.

After looking at Shunniang twice, Xie Yi suddenly asked Shunniang if she had a fight with his daughter last night, and she was so weird.

Shunniang shook her head and said no, yesterday was fine, and I even gave her some New Year gifts bought from Bianliang City.

Xie Yi then said: "Since that's the case, why don't you go up and persuade her to come out for a meal, she listens to you the most... It's always impossible for this person not to eat, right?"